>>141545
coming here

this is just like one annoying person i think? don't let them get to you

>>141553
maybe. i got into a very stupid and terrible debate with some anon y–

>>141555
#halt

...day too, they were honestly being an asshole for no reason.

>>141559
i agree but they just keep provoking

>>141558
do you think it's the same person?

getting into arguments with random people on the internet is the greatest indicator of

r u talking abt me, i wasnt here yesterday

>>141562
#change "indicator of" to invention

>>141561
i find that very likely, yes

>>141566
then it's like one asshole. it's fair if you need to withdraw for your own well-being, but i didn't find your presence unwelcome fwiw

>>141564
neither was i

>>141568
ok thank you. i think that anon just fucking hates my guts and i think theyre a mod too because they actually deleted posts during the deba

it's a small place. like all of the mods are in this one thread lol. not really an indicator.

...that debate yesterday

>>141572
that would be funny so i will believe it

>>141571
i mean the rest of the site is p much dead

>>141574
yeah ofc

>>141573
its actually super enraging

oh well

i really need to go to bed now...

gn everyone

good night anon

has any1 here ever done a cbc padding oracle attack... im taking a cybersec class and i hate python

>>141582
i dont know what any of those words mean tbh

real

i like python i just hate that its slow

im doing a buncha string manipulation w negative indices and its obtuse

feels like im running everything on a commodore 64 if i write anything more complicated than like a simple script

how complicated are we talking here?

i regularly use a language significantly slower than python and i was surprised at how agile it was when it came to physics simulation stuff

i do everything on a shit laptop and i cant into optimization thats probably half of it lmao

haha well, maybe, though i'm no genius or anything

>>141588
i dont even remember its been a while tbh

I just rmemember trying to do some data processing stuff for a backend server and the fans would start crunching every time i turned it on

>>141589
what language anon?

>>141594
gdscript. it's godot's scripting language, kind of modeled on python, but slower.

oh is that the game engine right?

mhm

neat! working on a game?

yup, exactly

though i did some wave simulation recently, which is what impressed me with regard to speed

fun !!

it is fun! though also very daunting for me, since it's the first really big project i've worked on by myself

what kinda game? if its not secret

it's a lil roguelike

oooh cool

though i feel like there's like a 50% chance you know who i am now lol

no clue tbh

good..

i'm just an anon who is anonymous

same :3

anonymous poster
thank you for this conversation
and for your faith in me
good luck in life and stuff

no problem nonna!

>>141593
i know python is weird about threading. have you looked into that? i vaguely remember there being like a trick to it. like launching multiple instances and piping data between them?

>>141614
anon y(ou) mog us...

amigus

amiga 64 :)

developed by sega of the united usa

amogus

amog-sussman

ඞ

.play mou ikkai

.skip (video skipped)

.play le knight club boogie shell

wtf booj's number is staying the same now...

whem will the trickery end

amebican

urgh how do i stop being a malebrained asshole... i have no restraint and just say shit like a caveman

>>141683
#prompt (?- make he nose even longer)

>>141704
i still act liek an edgelord and do/say stuff with zero care or awareness

>>141709
>>141711
if that was it then i wouldnt feel like i was making ppl uncomfortable

>>141713
idk what im picking up on but its some kind of exclusion that feels pretty pronounced when im in trans spaces, or hell even more female dominated ones that definitely comes from something im doing

>>141545
I liked you explaining computer things to me a few days ago nibble thank you

>>141585
I hate python I just LIKE that it’s slow 😈

ehhh I’m not really trans either but I feel a certain distance between me and gym bros, and most men really

>>141721
that was a different anon, it's definitely something i feel in more female dominated spaces. like it's the simple automatic shit like im in class and i make a tism joke to be relatable with whatever dude im talking to or something. just abrasive shit that comes outta my mouth without thinking and it comes from a place of zero empathy

yeah sorry other anon I was trying to add contributions lol and making it more confusing

>>141729
#hug thank you for trying

>>141654
so true

>>141702
I think this is like something I do more though when I’m infrin

>>141716
I think a lot of it is just natural feminine people fearing masculine people raping and abusing and pursuing them, so when any masculine trait leaks out they feel uncomfortable with you, even subconsciously. and it’s a useful self defense thing too so I can’t even blame them. it’s just sad.

>>141742
that’s kinda cool but also I think being trapped in the group think is very cult like/ scary/ toxic. it really weirds me out how nonconforming women get targeted, the fact that ‘not like other girls’ is an insult…

>>141745
aww #hug I was really morning my lost youth last night feeling so sad but it helped me feel a lot more in the moment now, sometimes processing things is good

>>141745
when did u start passing

>>141746
😭😭😭 it shouldn’t be though and it should be minimized

u must level up

okay i think im just getting that im a gigahon and make women uncomfortable due to ignoring my transition and being adhd

>>141706
but I think feeling uncomfortable and unwelcome and unbalanced can lead to this so mbe you can change the people you talk to and if things go badly make sure to say sorry and see if the relationship can be repaired/has moments where you don’t feel like you need to do something crazy and desperate, because if you feel that way a lot, maybe they’re a fine person but interacting with them isn’t good for you

>>141757
honestly half of it is going to a giganormie southern college where i don't relate to and actively dislike 90% of the student body lmao

>>141736
mmmmmmmm true true but sometimes you are… and how to bridge the gap

>>141760
yeah I go to gigganormie major state university and I’m not in engineering or whatever so it’s all white girls with MacBooks and bro types, of course I wish them the best but they wouldn’t feel comfortable with most of what I want to discuss or do, and visa versa. I remember once I was in psych class saying why I thought it’s better to experiment on invertebrates than vertebrates and what I’d read about animal suffering/ethics and some guy was like ‘haha bro wants to be a philosopher’ which ok yes yes seething, really he should have gotten to have conversations he enjoyed and found engaging and me the same, and he’s not worse than me, but idk there’s not much in common

>>141744
I think a lot of women get weirded out by it too. my mom and sister never liked girls nights or whatever

>>141782
that’s a really good impulse and it’s good to keep my eye out for such things, but he was always trying to shut me up when I was cooking with my ideas about the lesson and demonstrating how normal and dominant he was. like we learned about how in emotional situations people don’t respond how they expect to unless they’ve been drilled well, and I was like whooooaaahh what if they had some kind of actual drill people could perform for like filing an HR report where people practice being in a bad situation and actually go through the process instead of just taking people ‘oh yea you have a system or whatever’ and he was like ‘maybe you should think some more >:(‘ and there actually was a very nice girl at my table who said it was a cool idea but what? I’m supposed to ask for her discord or something? she seemed creative and decent but I think it would always feel creepy me interacting face to face with women for more than like buying something or whatever. even if you knew me on discord or smth it would be like uh oh creepy guy’s back eventually. : / and that’s an unfortunate thing, but idk I think I did the best I could not to hurt anyone and have a decent time, it’s just sad

>>141744
>stick tog
totes relatable sadchan, that deeling of knowing you will never be one of the normies no matter what

>>141783
this dude actually sounds like a right dick tho

a proper dickhead

never

intj rise up

>>141791
No he was a total asshole lol but I think he was an insecure young horny guy and he I wonder if he felt like an outsider because he was Asian : ( I wish I could’ve gotten a group without him but his values at a much lesser level are pretty common in most people I interact with. they’re nice people, those most people, but they don’t want deeper connection with me because they want to enjoy sports or whatever and not hear me yap about my opinions on whatever topic

>>141799
its hard being a thoughtful yapper amongst normies

>>141754
god don’t use that word original repanon you’re literally fine just upset. it’s not good to see ugliness as some primary characteristic of who you are imo

>>141800
i dont think its pointless conflict i think its a good thing to do to put that sort of behaviour in its place i wihs more people were like that

>>141806
dunno if this is mean but i thought of that dude in gamestop going 'ITS MAAM' and being all confrontational and please don't do that lol

>>141759
YEP. (sorry I’m a lil behind on messages.) I have one friend who’s got a really good heart I think but he was also isolated and is generally insecure and tries to turn things into ‘I’m cool and in charge and you must answer to me’ stuff. he feels bad about it when he goes overboard but I just have restricted time with him. the good news is it’s limited that behavior because he sees me as less under him since I’m not always available for him. but you have to choose, and you ought to choose goodness. it’s bad for your friends as people to let them be bad to you

>>141808
*throws a couch and pounds chest furiously in a bellowing voice* "Its MAM motherfucker dont make me get more belligerent its motherfucking mam goddamnit"

>>141807
yeah i dont get why people do it either its a weird human behaviour. ive definitely done it before too and its a shitty thing i think it comes from some sort of insecurity or jealousy or smth

>>141764
😭😭nooo you can’t just ignore life and your dreams-uh ignore my name haha

>>141815
yeah im only speculating on it based on my own past behaviour but i agree

>>141778
BASED more like chadchan
sadchan when her life is bad : : (
sadchan when any person in the world is oppressed: 🔥🔥🔥😎😎😎

yeah that’s part of why you’re a great person

>>141825
#hug ur great sadchan why are you down like that? do u have a budget?

im banning self hatred

😭

>>141829
shrimp is now in charge this is just like the military sadchan you have to do what she says

uh oh yeah good point high ranking people us

ok but i can beat other bosses in other games

dark souls 3 is probably my fav game

i didnt like elden ring sadly. hate open worlds

yeah i never even tried it cause its just too much bullshit for me but i played so much ds2 and ds3 pvp

>>141825
yes you need to be a billionaire and have millions of friends and a mansion and a yaht by the time yo uare 30 or else you are a totes loser

i did a lot of duelling in ds2 but in ds3 i mostly just invaded people it was super fun getting ganked and spanking the gankers

sarcasm btw lol

>>141846
if only the fucking assholes who control society let us avoud male puberty in the first place, we wouldnt be so damn far behind

that and all the neurotypical bullshit

>>141849
truly

>>141852
#smite (only staff can use this command on this board)

yeah... imagine...

>>141849
so true sadchan,. also going to one of those schools thats not like violent helps a lot too

>>141858
#smite (only staff can use this command on this board)

wait do u rly think im a mod

i probably could fool u once or twice

>>141857
lotta why my life went so bad is, number one anti trans parents, and number two violent school plus severe autism plus nonconsentual male puberty, thats a short version of what fucked up my life

>>141871
3hug

>>141871
#hug

>>141879
god i miss george bush so much, way better than what we got now

crazy how bush is better than trump

>>141873
too much weed probably

rots ur brain

it also alters ur dna

or ur epigenetics or smth

weed is bad

honestly the science is pointing to weed being potentially very harmful

anything the dea deschedules is probably bad imo

idk meth and fent are definitely worse but they didnt deschedule that

>>141873
my mom was an anti vaxxer too blamed my autisms on vaxxes and both my parents infuriatingly went on about knowing i was a "boy: as a baby god hated that shit so fucking much >>141883 i miss george bush so much, he didnt wanna make it illegal to be a tranny and wasnt fixated on white birth rates

>>141897
like when the dea under biden chose to deschedule weed and ket when shrooms are way more popular than ket but noooo those have a higher chance of improving your life

george bush is evil as fuck too dont get it twisted pls anona

he pabed the way for trump with the patriot act shit

>>141890
wonder how long until weed turns someone into like one of the xmen, someone finally gets luckshit on an epigentic tweak from it or something

i think it just gives people psychosis

or symptoms of it

i think it's not really *bad* bad per se but it's a weak psychedelic that masquerades as a downer and that's super insidious

it's a fucking terrible psychedelic that gives you anxiety (at least it does to me) and leaves you nonfunctional for 3 days instead of improving your mental health for a week

I mean....... it's never gonna do as much as cid or shrooms to the same vulnerable groups it's just that people think its okay to take all the time every day because of the cultural view of it

> Many of the epigenetic changes were found in pathways previously linked to cellular proliferation, hormone signaling, infections and mental health disorders such as schizophrenia, bipolar disorder and substance use disorders, Hou said.

i dont think psychs are all that great either. ive never gotten anything beneficial from them and i know people who have had their mind melted by them. theyre pretty dangerous if not used responsibly like any other drug

I just mean anybody who was microdosing acid as much as the average stoner smokes would be seeing the same effects but 5x worse

>>141910
that's tru but anyone who refuses to read psychonautwiki and learn not to take the shit within shorter than a 2 week time frame + doesn't go in with any goal is kinda setting themselves up for disappointment imo. i used to use a bunch of psychedelics before i hopped on zoloft, they literally helped me realize i was bisexual (lmfao) and stopped me repressing as hard. i went in with specific goals like "i want to see my jungian shadow and learn what im repressing" or "i want to visualize a self help book" and that really helped, other times I would do them just to have a better experience at a rave or whatever and be more open w my friends.

>>141911
i mean i dont think anything is blanket bad like thres chronic pain suffers whos lives are made livable by basically controlled opiate addiction

I just think it's bad that people see weed as like less harmful than a beer even

>>141913
my point is that they are capable of harm thats all

i do think they can be a tool in certain circumstances or enjoyed responsibly but just like any other drug theyre capable of harm

I think any drug can be used as a tool but they always have the potential for harm and misuse and addiction

But there are people who use them as a tool their whole lives and do okay with it

hard to tell if it makes their lives better or not but as a person with a vested interest I do think it's posible for them to improve your life if you're very careful with them

maybe not psychedelics but certainly the more simple ones like uppers n downers

i think a lot of what people get from psychedellics like as a tool mentally can be gotten through meditation and (good) therapy and just life experiences/learning/reflecting on things

>>141923
the problem is i tried that shit be4hand and my adhd ass could never lol. i have tried to start meditating and have any self awareness for so long and i completely failed, honestly the drugs were a last resort at first but then they mildly unfucked me, made me realize the kinds of people i should be friends with and then i kinda used them more degen after finding a social group lol. luckily the zoloft prevents me from taking them so i couldn't continue doing anything stupid

>>141923
idk i used acid regularly for a few years as a tool to make art in a way that meditation wouldnt have done anything

but I'm just playing devils advocate i agree w u in general