nicuuu

idk if i ever explained th work thing i have setup - but need to start doing the hours for, gah - but interested to hear abt n will try to msg in a bit...

have 10 msgs waiting n drained

i have a thing ill explain in msgs in a few if ur round

boop

ye ik i just bwa i need to erm

~3~;

i have a bunch of incoming messages on ele that i wanna respond to/read but i get overwhelmed into not checking anything
but also

did i happen to err, i forget if youve been around but the uhh

revelation that came about on the 14th or so

oop I was an anon cus my computer hung and had to hard reboot

might start a bear blog again to easily write short essays regularly to share, or something

>>708593
uhh

the court thing

gah uh

okej I'll dm u about it then hhh

sorri I'm a bit of a err

minorly a mess
from just baseline stress
and nuh I'll try n check thingy

nervous is all n a lot on head

appreciate u

except for ur flag

no, you're a cute girl who deserves pets and scratches and praise

hmph

platonicaly

cyute tho n I hope ur first week of work has been going over oki

yeh

awwwww that sucks

but also I hope u can just be chill cus of that

thingy I got is online contract thing so
it err

yeh its technically gig work which means I'll owe 30% but its quite a bit over minimum wage which is nice, despite the tax on 'self employment' (insert thing here about companies not being willing to hire people so they don't get healthcare and so on)

yeh

gah ive been like
overstimulated yet exhausty for like 12 hours and it sucks
usually get this way like once a week or two

I have the urge to do the things I need to, though, and took a small bit of my stims orally last night so I'm at least able to kind of focus

omg heya gm anti

now labrys

:>

making noms then gon try to do some moar stuff, gotta mow lawn today too
wrote a smol bit of thingy for a lil n trying to come up w essay ideas a lil
then realized I haven't eaten since like midnight cus meds suppressed hunger bwa

>>708638
chu too, all u need

when stressed, my appetite goes to like 0 and stims don't help that yk
but isokej, made a meal

for peeps who haven't been on ADHD meds, weird thing with them is that eating can become like
I've heard it described as trying to eat cardboard even if tastes good or you need to eat, can be gah

ate noms

:v

heya

been ded still, a little, but just ate and having some uptake in energy or stuffs
have to try and do a bunch today

hru?

ouuu ye! I hope you can have a productive if not gud appt, and have some plans made

nicu ye, I hope it comes up clear and isn't anything beyond what you already know, or that its at least smth that can be managed easier than some of the stuff it could be
and mhm

my mom is getting her hip replaced in I think september

has bone on bone rubbing together that's been causing pain for a long time for her too :'<
is tough, I hope your stuff can have some kind of treatment that isn't invasive but is helpful nonetheless, and that the weed helped last night

I have my monthly psychiatric nurse practitioner on Monday, need to try and get going on the contract work so I can show some kind of like
material steps to not get aaa

being bugged or appearing useless sorta feel I gah

here if wan talk abt or ask stuff after urs btw, as I'm sure other peeps here might also have experience w similar, think twink does

yeh

think it'd be, at least in part, due to the dopamine of eating being already semi-fulfilled by the meds so the need is hard
and awwwe :<

hope chu can manage okej and take care of self on the level you need with food and otherwise

I get 30 pills a month but take like half

>>708681
can u errr

if I'm the shortie can u do the things for me I cant do cus shortie

gm

awwwww

hehe

I'd call u shortie but I wouldn't do that

I'm taller than u cri

hehe

well it seems I'm the position of like 3 peeps' big sister here

does that mean ur the bigger

I found a random asd forum when looking for info and makes me wanna find chill forums I can use again that are comfortable
and the sort of opposite of a live board with yk
composing posts and the phpBB sorta feeling

w ur corroboration of 2013 thing last night has made me a bit curious how old you are but would not ask

lel

talking about 4ch

oh then hm

hemm

thought it was u cus of how was typing and stuffs but then have to think

hope u got rest n not exhausty or stuff from overeep
get that a lot

someone in the chat for watch party was talking w me about the change and evolution to far heavier toxicity n such that 4chan had around 2013

were listening to audiobook of a memoir that touches on the experience of a journalist who used 4chan and 7chan esc stuff a lot around 2007
and also was a uh AE mood

mod

god I am glad I don't think about AE much or else I'd feel like my symbols in my name would make it look like its related or smth
rambly n tired

up to much today ?

nicu

gonna try n get myself up and having to mow at least half the lawn in the next hour or so

ooo

been thinking on and off through the night, but also most days, about moving plans n stuffs
figuring out whatever can work quickest, before making a possible move NW or NE

I hope u can find a nice place around there n get somewhere to settle soon, not having to stay in the temp place, hotel or whatevs, for too long ;<;

trying to get some kind of contact for someone I was close with 5-6 yrs ago, since I got updates on things they really kinda need to be made aware of, gah

err yeh

thanke

but trying to contact either of the two friends who helped do all of it
when I came to thinking about all of it and how messed up it was, I reached them n they helped compile everything, even though they were friends w said person much longer than I'd known them yk

very grateful

ye

remember for worms to reach out to peeps if feeling stuck against a wall n in need of support through any tough things like it, even if they feel much smaller

haiii nonners

hruuu

oki gon try and mow in a minute....

and try to hold myself to messaging people, I wanna, and I wrote on my hand to do so before I passed out yday ; <;

I mean
i'd recommend pursuing finding yourself first and err
then seeing which sorts fit you most but

depends on the person though I feel like having doubts in one can be smth you cant always help by moving to another, if it helps you though then is chill but don't try to put a ton of like

I was gonna respond, semi joking, become agnostic

I forget the whole gnostic thing

I'd also recommend looking into 'christian atheism' (it sounds weird but its mostly related to following the ideas of Jesus and such without the belief in heaven/hell or eternal fire, and many of the hateful routes things go, has interesting philosophy)

I have a memory of listening to some strange gnostic video on a stream like 4 months ago at 4 am but it was a uh

wacko

but imo if you're gonna pursue religion, finding a community space for such that you feel safe in and are able to be yourself, and are not exclusionary, is some of the most important stuff
without going near heavily organized things

I have an interest in theology but I haven't had the time to do more study into it with having a lot of other things I've needed to focus on
anyways, I'm sure a lot more people here could give input when they're all online

weba

about to head outside

put on sunscreen

and yay

ily worms

>>708796
omg heya

just mowed

>>708804
it matters that I don't get yelled at :)

>>708817
by family

yeh

thankfully I don't get too much pressure put on me about doing it in two sessions but
does get aaaa

cus sometimes exec dysfunction is bad or I forget
or I literally have to say the truth that I'd faint in the heat when he's asking

awww yeh

I'll try not to contribute to the failure to do so
will help or try w if wanted, mb

lol

I forget if I found out where u went but I hope its not so insufferable that its somewhere you cant live long or much worse than old place

ah yeh

is it like a 6 mo contract type thing

ye

with some of those like more institutionalized positions/places you can more easily do that than elsewhere

:v

I constantly think about well

not constantly but like 3+ times a day

getting a place or going n squatting in the middle of ded nowhere Cali type area where you will never see police and so on

yeah

bwa

ye

we're like

we have areas like that semi near to us but we're in unincorporated area that's mostly fields beyond the odd nieghborhood

would you pick letting Cali exist or the state of jefferson

hehe

I think they should have the autonomy to yk make their own and decisions but also required to uphold equality & freedoms

lel

slurp slurp

my family is mostly from like

my parents lived in Cali for most of their lives

yyeh

its just different in ways that diverge a lot due to the sheer size of the country and how regions can be worlds apart in opinion/cultures theyre influenced by

ye

people are uh

insert first question being what do you do and nothing else when first interacting

its a different culture and the way they act bc of where they are and the culture there makes it its own special kind of irritating

yeh

haiii
awroo

:3

hehe

sweetie

:D

nom

need

:#

:3

and u 2

:3

hehe...

gah I need.. to um

sigh

just need to start doing the things again that'd make me better comfy in body including finally uhh

what's the word

heya

I mean I need to start my shots and hold myself to starting

being like

>>708935
use zen!

based off firefox

much better

I have like 6 browsers installed at least

hmmm

yeah if you

want a privacy focused ff that is better than plain, using LibreWolf or Zen while mixing with Tor as needed is a good path

librewolf has a lot more privacy features and blocks trackers and everything related always
(I used it for a year or more, it is annoying to have to re-login to a lot of stuff every relaunch, but it's worthwhile)

.search t3.gg I started using zen

1. 1.
   
   I'm Finally Moving On (I have a new browser)

   Theo - t3․gg

   27:51
2. 2.
   
   A new browser I'm actually hyped about

   Theo - t3․gg

   17:37
3. 3.
   
   Firefox is hard to love

   Theo - t3․gg

   22:46
4. 4.
   
   I finally switched to Postgres.

   Theo - t3․gg

   26:59
5. 5.
   
   My current stack

   Theo - t3․gg

   1:00:25

uhhh

2

hehe

I wanted to get into lynx more

I think laen confirmed or u did that the site breaks on lynx

just don't use opera

tbh

this is what zen looks like and it has a lot of customization and all Firefox features

which law this time

blocking of all stuff or

yeh

very understandable

oh yeah so the main thing with zen is that you can do hotkeys for most things

and ye dw is alr

was just curious but not gonna make describe or risk or stress self

ye