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anon
>>708367
i can see it. just, some of the prose about the villa was so wonderful. a really interesting metaphor for wealth and capitalism. but the final confrontation with uhh serial killer guy felt like a joke idk. like he didn't know how to resolve all of the tensions and just ended it because he was tired.
>>708373
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here's hand pic I couldn't find many gud ones that don't have face
Luca
>>708371
Riviera, that was his name, I think? Yeah, the end confrontation was a bit clunky
>>708375
Luca
>a really interesting metaphor for wealth and capitalism
I think the beginning of the next book in the series, Count Zero, there's some line about the ultra-rich not even being human
>>708395
anon
>>708374
cool eldritch sign anon. sorry, i should've made clear that i'm not going to like draft anyone from here because i'd prefer to keep the project not chan-associated, if that makes sense. but i appreciate the effort. your hands are cool.
>>708381
straw bury
saeki how is all of u so pretty
>>708387
straw bury
anyways im gonna go to bed imagining holding saekis hand now gn wyrms
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>>708377
understandable
I don't rly associate w chan stuff tho and just vibe here, generally, fyi
but gl w it
>>708388
anon
>>708381
yeah it's just like idk libpol still looks channish even if it's mostly visual
>>708390
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>>708389
awwwww, nini if going to bed
straw bury
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::eepy yuri
passes out on the spot ahaaaaa im tired i need cuddles ok gn
anon
>>708376
the mammalian certainty line. i liked it too. though count zero felt like it was even more disjointed lol. bobby's arc kind of went nowhere? he was an interesting character but he needed more than 30% of the chapters in a short book.
>>708399
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awww
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cuddling u to eep
anon
I might be going to sleep soon too
>>708400
Luca
>>708395
>the mammalian certainty line
Yes, that's it! Amazing recall, anon
Luca
>>708398
I should probably get to fucking bed but eh
Luca
fuck it
anon
good night to all anons from the nightlands
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awe gn if u are
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I really gotta check my msgs and answer them, I've been real dead for like 24-30 hours now
anon
#resurrect
Luca
#ai Get me a fake Dino Buzzati "Tartar Steppe" passage about the consequences of not going to bed at this moment

the night stretched endlessly beyond the window, the dim, listless glow of streetlamps giving way only to deeper shadow. i stood there as countless hours slid past, the sense of something unfolding just beyond my grasp—the shape of a missed reconnaissance, a failed vigil. in the silence, i heard no call to arms, no distant trumpets, only the mocking quiet of time unclaimed.

to stay awake now meant surrendering to vague annihilations—hours drained to an unseen border, that imaginary rampart between alertness and exhaustion. the regiment of dawn would come regardless, their discipline unflinching. then, on the far side of night, the hour would belong not to steadfastness, but regret—weariness collapsing itself uselessly into uselessness.

too late, i'd realize no attack was ever coming. there was no battle at all. only night eroded without even the distinction of sacrifice.
Get me a fake Dino Buzzati "Tartar Steppe" passage about the consequences of not going to bed at this moment
anon
is it dinosaur-related?
anon
damn the mocking quiet of time unclaimed
anon
not bad not bad
Luca
>>708411
An Italian author, wrote a book called the Tartar Steppe. It's a little dry, but an allegory for waiting life to come to you, so to speak
anon
interesting
Luca
It's a neat little book, read it while stewing in listlessness and melancholy. Kind of helped kick me back into action instead of letting shit pass me by. But oh well.
anon
that's how you know it's good art. i have a lot of respect for that sort of thing. imo people who want art to do nothing but entertain them are sooo boring. part of what makes it worthwhile is exactly a person trying to communicate something.
>>708419
Luca
>>708418
Think you're going to do that with your game :P
anon
lmao this annihilated me hahaha
anon
yes but also no
anon
some aspects of the story aspire to that, but a friend noted that the narrative and mechanics don't really link nicely anymore after all of the reworks, and i'm inclined to agree. so unfortunately it's a mixed bag. some day, though, i aspire to do better. for now i have to accept making something that is more entertainment than art.
>>708425
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yeh I can kinda feel w this
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my writing has, with it being typically non-fiction, usually lessons that are clearly in it and directly trying to communicate the things that I believe people should take from it, usually, or presenting the events/evidence while letting them take their own conclusions, but inserting the things that could be learned from it; otherwise why would I specifically put my words into it other than getting it out there
>>708428
Luca
>>708422
That's a shame, but I'm sure at least some of what you wanted to get across remains
anon
mhm. hopefully it'll work out.
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there's a lot of things that can fall apart or not work as one in stories, sometimes the narrative flow or linking can be a mess even with everything else being real nice or coming across well
it depends on the tolerance or level each person can handle or get past in stories n stuffs
anon
>>708424
it's a tough thing to do. you have to communicate through beauty rather than just a sermon.
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yeh, preferably done through not just telling the person what to think but naturally have them come to those conclusions, but still noting them or the things you took from it, so they can witness that but also take their own from it
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reminding me of a discussion on what we can take from another's nostalgia and the things that the original writer took from it aren't necessarily what the reader will find the most value in
wish I could better articulate such, right now
anon
i think i understand what you mean in any case
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is related to the idea that ones nostalgia can be more useful to someone else than yourself, in opening others to new ideas, perspectives and experiences they may not have thought of before, and can indirectly learn from
anon
i find it interesting that people are often nostalgic for things that authors have personally experienced as impositions
anon
like technical limitations. there's a great eno quote about this.
anon
>Whatever you now find weird, ugly, uncomfortable and nasty about a new medium will surely become its signature. CD distortion, the jitteriness of digital video, the crap sound of 8-bit - all of these will be cherished and emulated as soon as they can be avoided. It’s the sound of failure: so much modern art is the sound of things going out of control, of a medium pushing to its limits and breaking apart. The distorted guitar sound is the sound of something too loud for the medium supposed to carry it. The blues singer with the cracked voice is the sound of an emotional cry too powerful for the throat that releases it. The excitement of grainy film, of bleached-out black and white, is the excitement of witnessing events too momentous for the medium assigned to record them.
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ah yeh
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its also the way the nostalgia cycle works that brings these things back around, so technologies and their limitations come around again and draw in younger people or those who didn't experience them, and let them see the way others experienced various things that aren't the way they did
and the cycle will continue with such
but it also is related to how each of the limitations of different technologies will breed their own unique limitations, which breed their own creativity and workflows that can open a persons mind to creating in new ways
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makes me think of how younger people from the time since have been using MIDI stuff from Roland and such for creating in that workflow, or the revisiting of things like rack mount samplers that require you to use few buttons and a tiny display
anon
i'm actually currently trying to pick up composition. it was fun to learn music theory and mess around with a tracker, but to be honest, i'm actually having the hardest time with an actual DAW haha. there are too many options for me. any note can be of any length, placed in any position. the tracker offered structure and so made it easier, even if it was more limited. so i think you're right that there are upsides to "outdated" workflows.
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nicu
I was going to go to college for audio eng but didn't end up doing so because of circumstance
though the tools and methods still are things I like using for analysis of things generally as another lens or stuffs
but patpat
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I mainly use my Roland sp404 for stuffs as, while I can and do use DAWs, the workflow isn't usually for me
anon
what's the workflow like with a physical synth?
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I mean w a physical synth its usually, depending on if it has a sequencer, recording and playing then layering with it
using something like a daw or sampler
the SP is a sampler that's generally famous for hip-hop and lofi but can be used for any genre
anon
ahhhh
anon
i can't play at all so maybe that's part of it. much rather sequence the notes yknow
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yeh, there's some good synths that allow you to sequence all of it, but in that case I recommend groove boxes which allow you to sequence synth sounds and drums on one device with everything you need, if uninterested in using a DAW beyond for recording out
>>708458
anon
I like the way he fiddles with that dial
>>708457
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ye
anon
fiddler
anon
>>708453
thanks for the rec. i think that i just need to learn the software. just really overwhelming. trackers are so comfy because you just plug a number in a box haha.
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god what's the name of the groovebox I'm thinking of
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.search Elektr groovebox
  1. 1.
    Gabe Miller Music
    15:13
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hmmmm..
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ahhh I'm thinking of
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trackers are cool too
anon
almighty dawg
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.seek 2:00
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Luca
>>708464
Oh, did somebody reverse engineer the chips and emulate them?
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.seek 4:00
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.seek 5:00
Luca
Wish I had the music theory to compose tracks, but the most I have is the technical prowess for synthesis
>>708481
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I feel like you, if you wanna enjoy it, you shouldn't push self to learn or apply music theory unless you enjoy it
anon
>>708479
music theory is imo really fun to learn and you can do a lot with very little. if you have the time i'm sure you can pick up the basics in like 3 days of binging youtube.
>>708482
Luca
>>708481
I'd prefer reading a book, but that might work too. I took piano lessons as a kid, but at this point that knowledge is gone
>>708483
anon
>>708482
fair enough fair enough. books are really nice too, though idk how they do on the music theory front. have you heard about the tonnetz?
>>708484
anon
>>708484
it's really cool. tl;dr like a 200 year old theory about leading in music. it's a map that connects all notes with major and minor thirds. the resulting triangles are chords, so to go from one to another, you just vary some part of the triangle. it sounds complicated but it's like surprisingly easy to just tap out things that sound like classical baroque stuff haha.

https://thetonnetz.com/
>>708486
Luca
>>708485
I'll have to look into this, thanks!
anon
:)
anon
this video is like a bit clickbaity but if you want a tl;dr on what the point of the web is it's fine. [YouTube]
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I'll just play part of this probably
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I like the concept of trackers but them being hardware appeals to me enough to be willing to fully get into, eventually
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.seek 2:00
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anon
the one thing i don't like about trackers is that they insistently still use letter codes for effects like vibrato. seems needlessly convoluted. i wish that they'd just do icons for notation. for effect i mean. for notes letters and numbers is fine.
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ah
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I feel like the polyend has options and input for doing it through inputs of knobs and such so that you don't have to engage through that sorta thing
Luca
Alright. I'm going to retire for the night. Nighty night everyone.
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the fair light cmi is sick
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and nini! rest well
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qts
anon
haha
anon
>>708508
Good night, I am going to make you into my concubine
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eep well
anon
jungle incoming
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bwa
anon
GRASS MENTIONED
anon
idk if i agree about the tracker = sampler thing. lots of them were more about synths and stuff. generative. to save on space.
anon
imagine a person from 1000 years ago seeing this. they'd think he trapped someone's soul in the devil box.
anon
nice
anon
mmm
anon
I need to sleep
anon
I will be sleep, if someone were to... DM me... I'll see it tomorrow maybe
>>708523
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bwaaa
anon
mmm... we definitely need to talk tomorrow for a while.......
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ehe
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okiii
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gon try and respond to n check all my dm dms
anon
is okay if you need to sleep and such
anon
Don't wanna make you all stressed BUT do wanna do it....
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am just base stressy and need to get stuffs done, and wanna message peeps
::cuddle
anon
I get it, that's something I feel sometimes.
anon
I def need to sleep tho
anon
so goodnight cutie
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mhm
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sweet dreams n get sum rest :>
krissu (25 (geriatric))
euro frens?
krissu (25 (geriatric))
omg i love that
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most aren't on yet
krissu (25 (geriatric))
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::bury smile
krissu (25 (geriatric))
:D
krissu (25 (geriatric))
stoopid janny banned me for a month
krissu (25 (geriatric))
without the ppl in my puter i get lonely ;_;
>>708552
finch
hi worms
finch
im at work
finch
0 things happening i am on my phone
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haiii finch
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hope work isoki, new job-?
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sry my tab keeps unloading
finch
its slow here
finch
also the new friend i made found out about this place because apparently one of her friends is here?
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teehee, nice, curious who if able top share - & also to meet peeps if ever wan
finch
not sure who it is lol she just said "my friend <friend> uses it"
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mb cool to ask,
also hmm
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oh yeah
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my mom maybe going to
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errr
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gah i need to check ele and dm u abt thing actually, not here
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anyway, hab u had this job for a while btw - ? cant rember
finch
4 days :)
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nicuuu
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idk if i ever explained th work thing i have setup - but need to start doing the hours for, gah - but interested to hear abt n will try to msg in a bit...
finch
did u get work :0
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have 10 msgs waiting n drained
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i have a thing ill explain in msgs in a few if ur round
finch
okie
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boop
finch
you can just message me whenever u want
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ye ik i just bwa i need to erm
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~3~;
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i have a bunch of incoming messages on ele that i wanna respond to/read but i get overwhelmed into not checking anything
but also
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did i happen to err, i forget if youve been around but the uhh
>>708592
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revelation that came about on the 14th or so
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oop I was an anon cus my computer hung and had to hard reboot
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might start a bear blog again to easily write short essays regularly to share, or something
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the court thing
finch
?
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gah uh
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okej I'll dm u about it then hhh
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sorri I'm a bit of a err
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minorly a mess
from just baseline stress
and nuh I'll try n check thingy
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nervous is all n a lot on head
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appreciate u
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except for ur flag
finch
i'm a man! so i have man flag
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no, you're a cute girl who deserves pets and scratches and praise
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hmph
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platonicaly
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cyute tho n I hope ur first week of work has been going over oki
finch
yeah i closed last night and opened today which SUUUUUUCKS
finch
opening is fun minus getting up at 5am
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yeh
finch
bc im completely alone in a gas station in the middle of nowhere n i just like watch netflix on my phone until someone comes in
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awwwww that sucks
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but also I hope u can just be chill cus of that
finch
its kinda nice i dont have to do shit
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thingy I got is online contract thing so
it err
finch
online job?
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yeh its technically gig work which means I'll owe 30% but its quite a bit over minimum wage which is nice, despite the tax on 'self employment' (insert thing here about companies not being willing to hire people so they don't get healthcare and so on)
finch
dm me on the elemellapee
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yeh
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gah ive been like
overstimulated yet exhausty for like 12 hours and it sucks
usually get this way like once a week or two
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I have the urge to do the things I need to, though, and took a small bit of my stims orally last night so I'm at least able to kind of focus
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omg heya gm anti
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now labrys
labrys
trvke
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:>
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making noms then gon try to do some moar stuff, gotta mow lawn today too
wrote a smol bit of thingy for a lil n trying to come up w essay ideas a lil
then realized I haven't eaten since like midnight cus meds suppressed hunger bwa
anon
*hug*
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when stressed, my appetite goes to like 0 and stims don't help that yk
but isokej, made a meal
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for peeps who haven't been on ADHD meds, weird thing with them is that eating can become like
I've heard it described as trying to eat cardboard even if tastes good or you need to eat, can be gah
>>708669
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ate noms
yngven
:3
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:v
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heya
yngven
hiii how goes it
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been ded still, a little, but just ate and having some uptake in energy or stuffs
have to try and do a bunch today
yngven
dang :(
yngven
yay!
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hru?
yngven
good, gotta go to the doctors in an hour or so
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ouuu ye! I hope you can have a productive if not gud appt, and have some plans made
yngven
yur, my ortho is looking at my CT to make sure nothing is wrong
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nicu ye, I hope it comes up clear and isn't anything beyond what you already know, or that its at least smth that can be managed easier than some of the stuff it could be
and mhm
yngven
plus the only other plans i got today are go over to my friends place to pick up my weed and get a Torta or something
yngven
yeah i'm really hoping i don't need my lower spine fused together lol
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my mom is getting her hip replaced in I think september
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has bone on bone rubbing together that's been causing pain for a long time for her too :'<
is tough, I hope your stuff can have some kind of treatment that isn't invasive but is helpful nonetheless, and that the weed helped last night
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I have some directly physical stuff or however I could word it but, I mainly have neuropsych stuff that affects me bwa (stuff like ADHD, PTSD stuff, and some weird obscure ones bwa)

take care of urself n hope u can chill till the appt
::vibin
yngven
thank you very much :)
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I have my monthly psychiatric nurse practitioner on Monday, need to try and get going on the contract work so I can show some kind of like
material steps to not get aaa
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being bugged or appearing useless sorta feel I gah
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here if wan talk abt or ask stuff after urs btw, as I'm sure other peeps here might also have experience w similar, think twink does
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anyway I'm being dumb n rambly waiting for peeps to pop on
::bwaaa
labrys
i was on adhd meds for a very long time as a kid and at some point you just stop registering food as food
>>708678
labrys
like its a thing u gotta eat ig but i had no real investment in the whole concept ya know
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yeh
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think it'd be, at least in part, due to the dopamine of eating being already semi-fulfilled by the meds so the need is hard
and awwwe :<
labrys
its part of why my eating is so fucked up now
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hope chu can manage okej and take care of self on the level you need with food and otherwise
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I get 30 pills a month but take like half
yngven
>>708670
real talk, food starts feeling alien to you whenever you take adhd meds
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if I'm the shortie can u do the things for me I cant do cus shortie
>>708686
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gm
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>>708683
yes i can i am big and tall (5'7)
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awwwww
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hehe
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I'd call u shortie but I wouldn't do that
0.0488% laptopbooger!boymodewng
i'm literally not short!!!!!!!!
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I'm taller than u cri
0.0489% laptopbooger!boymodewng
well maybe physically but not emotionally you're very short
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hehe
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well it seems I'm the position of like 3 peeps' big sister here
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does that mean ur the bigger
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yes ::gigachad
>>708700
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I found a random asd forum when looking for info and makes me wanna find chill forums I can use again that are comfortable
and the sort of opposite of a live board with yk
composing posts and the phpBB sorta feeling
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w ur corroboration of 2013 thing last night has made me a bit curious how old you are but would not ask
>>708704
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lel
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>>708701
huhh?????????
0.0492% laptopbooger!boymodewng
i don't remember doing anything like that what do you mean
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talking about 4ch
0.0493% laptopbooger!boymodewng
i don't remember talking about 4chan
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i wasn't in the watch party
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oh then hm
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hemm
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oh i went to bed at like 9pmish and didn't get up until like 9am ish (right now)
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thought it was u cus of how was typing and stuffs but then have to think
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hope u got rest n not exhausty or stuff from overeep
get that a lot
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someone in the chat for watch party was talking w me about the change and evolution to far heavier toxicity n such that 4chan had around 2013
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ouuu interesting
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were listening to audiobook of a memoir that touches on the experience of a journalist who used 4chan and 7chan esc stuff a lot around 2007
and also was a uh AE mood
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mod
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god I am glad I don't think about AE much or else I'd feel like my symbols in my name would make it look like its related or smth
rambly n tired
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up to much today ?
0.0498% laptopbooger!boymodewng
nah i'm off today
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chillin wby
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nicu
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gonna try n get myself up and having to mow at least half the lawn in the next hour or so
0.0500% laptopbooger!boymodewng
nice!
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but gon try and err
wrote a lil earlier and need to respond to messages, then mb nap
hope u can chill though w day off
::vibin slow
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ye just looking for apartments and idk maybe a bit of studying
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ooo
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been thinking on and off through the night, but also most days, about moving plans n stuffs
figuring out whatever can work quickest, before making a possible move NW or NE
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I hope u can find a nice place around there n get somewhere to settle soon, not having to stay in the temp place, hotel or whatevs, for too long ;<;
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trying to get some kind of contact for someone I was close with 5-6 yrs ago, since I got updates on things they really kinda need to be made aware of, gah
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aww well i hope you can get in contact with them is it about the.. thing
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err yeh
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thanke
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but trying to contact either of the two friends who helped do all of it
when I came to thinking about all of it and how messed up it was, I reached them n they helped compile everything, even though they were friends w said person much longer than I'd known them yk
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very grateful
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awwww well that's good they helped out so much
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ye
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remember for worms to reach out to peeps if feeling stuck against a wall n in need of support through any tough things like it, even if they feel much smaller
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haiii nonners
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hruuu
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>>708747
HI
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oki gon try and mow in a minute....
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and try to hold myself to messaging people, I wanna, and I wrote on my hand to do so before I passed out yday ; <;
anon
should I be pagan or Christian? I'm starting to have doubts about my pagan faith
>>708767
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I mean
i'd recommend pursuing finding yourself first and err
then seeing which sorts fit you most but
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depends on the person though I feel like having doubts in one can be smth you cant always help by moving to another, if it helps you though then is chill but don't try to put a ton of like
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I was gonna respond, semi joking, become agnostic
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I forget the whole gnostic thing
anon
it's an alternate christian mythos and philosophy that makes Yahweh/God into an inferior god while elevating a true god above it. it places a lot of influence on inner spirituality
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I'd also recommend looking into 'christian atheism' (it sounds weird but its mostly related to following the ideas of Jesus and such without the belief in heaven/hell or eternal fire, and many of the hateful routes things go, has interesting philosophy)
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I have a memory of listening to some strange gnostic video on a stream like 4 months ago at 4 am but it was a uh
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wacko
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but imo if you're gonna pursue religion, finding a community space for such that you feel safe in and are able to be yourself, and are not exclusionary, is some of the most important stuff
without going near heavily organized things
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I have an interest in theology but I haven't had the time to do more study into it with having a lot of other things I've needed to focus on
anyways, I'm sure a lot more people here could give input when they're all online

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