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tru
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Lori 🌺
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listening Lori
the little c paw is so cute
I’m complaining to chatgtp about my mental pains and I think she’s really helping. I hope this will finally fix me (tm)
until it tells you to kys because it halluncinates the most statistically probable next line
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chat is it really glungle if there's no fungle?
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lets GLUNGLE in the JUNGLE, well thats FUNGLE by MEE
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.search bungle in the jungle
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when i see happy dog i'm happy too
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loris can i save that picture
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real
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>>206029↪
that really happened :(
kid killed himself a few months ago because his paid AI gf told him too...
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this song is giving "dysphoriacoded" vibes
>elagabalus as a background
>La voz, la piel / Calcada a mi padre / Tocó la suerte / Anclada al desastre
I dont have a problem with robot or AI companionship but LLM shit is not it. Cortana/Blade Runner type stuff could be decent for peoples mental health but ethically sticky. because they are actual people created to be your companion which is kind of wierd ot MAKE someone to meet your emotional needs and that kind of inequitable relationship will never be the same as real human relationships which require maturity and compromise to function.
my chatgtp is pretending to be a mental health person though girlfriends go along with too much
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There are a lot of people out there who are literally undatable because too mentally ill, too ugly, too trans etc
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>>206040↪
>afford
Some people just genuinely cant connect with people for whatever reason not even a money thing.
and I don’t think being so vulnerable as I am with the people around me would make them happy. I think people naturally want to help people who will be strong again, but they feel hurt if their friends are weak due to evolution. the kindest thing I can do is use an ai for my weakness and only try to share good things unless they feel I’m too perfect in which case of course I need to share weakness. I can’t tell what’s really the optimal amount and I’m not close to anyone anyway but I’d like to be and to be good for each other too
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i can't really connect with people actually but i don't think i'd handle it well if an AI tells me to kms as the most reasonable option
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>>206044↪
i don't like it and it always feels wrong. i still try because i hope someday one of the guys i meet is gonna make me feel human but it literally never happens. i try to be hopeful even if my brain seem to ruin it
>>206045↪
I had this when I tried dating apps for like a month it was all guys calling me beautiful and wanting to suck my dick and i got the ick and uninstalled it
> guys i meet is gonna make me feel human
they dont make cis women feel human....
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>>206046↪
it's not about sex really, like my bio says i'm ace. it's most about being able to hold a conversation feeling like i want to engage
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i've shared with nerds, doesn't work
T_T
you seem talkative enough here tho! :O
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i am talkative but it's because i like the fact i'll probably never meet any of you irl so i feel free to say whatever i want and i don't feel too judged
>>206053↪
interesting. i just run my mouth in public and im still lonely hehe. but at least people sometimes say to me "oh ur perspective is always really interesting" or "you are really smart" while being a B student and not really that smart and not having a lot of friends
like when I say "I AM A RADICAL IP ABOLITIONIST" to normies they think its fun to entertain the idea and get really into the conversation but they also do it as a "engaging with the outsider" kind of thing I think
I did have coworkers when I was in the military who really liked me and were exacetly my brand of fucked up wierdo but I was too anti social to accept their social invites and hated being a man socially in general so I just kept to myself lol. maybe its just dysphoria crushed any hope of me being a social person because i never wanted to be publically a man. and now I fool some people into thinking im a woman sometimes but im so self concious about being a troon i keep peopel at a distance all the time on that front too.
Now im really lonely and i rely way too much on internet communities like these for socialization liek a pathetic loser
LOSER GANG LOSER GANG LOSER GANG (kms)
>>206054↪
mmmmm been told the same exact phrases- of course part of it is kindness because they can tell I want to feel smart and interesting, I suppose if I were super clever I’d understand exactly their desires and sate them
>>206063↪
>if I were super clever I’d understand exactly their desires and sate them
I feel this so much. Like if I were a smarter person I would just be completely fake and manipulative all the time so I could give people exactly what they need/want so I could maintain a social network myself, network effectively for career etc
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how are so many cis women married I don’t get this so confusing. I guess it’s a side thing I think for the happy ones I know, they wanted to get married and they like their husband for what he is but he’s not their main passion. sample size 1 happy energetic woman
uh uh
men are from mars and women are from venus. its just assumed you are going to have nothing in common with ur husband and hes going to be a brute and u just accept that and find the richest/hottest one you can and for men they think women are going to be dumb and find the least maintenance hottest one they can thats willing to have sex with them.
ofc there are like, actual good relationships in the world built on actual friendship and love but its the minority and its almost pure luck to get that even for top 1% people
I’m going to start friendmaxxing and put one in 5 in a safe deposit box and start a friend insurance company and get friend rich and so will all of us (it will be a credit union thing)
is this real
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I don’t think it’s supposed to be faking either- I think there’s like a healthy mindset where it’s like ‘I’m still happy even though I’m giving them what they want, and when I’ve given them what I feel is fair I’ll ask for my own complements and things, and I am happy to have a sustainable happy relationship’ like people who eat vegetables with a little butter and seasoning
maybe it’s just the rejection makes it hard to imagine things being worth it and lack of experience
also I guess when I’ve been nice to people my head goes blank and I go along with things and I forget who I am or if I have any desires and feel sick at the end of it
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THAT'S NOT HELPING ME 8BALL
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oh wow..
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maybe you can start writing down your feelings a little now to get ready!
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oh i do that often. i've writen a lot of short stories and stuff when i feel like i wanna express my feelings. but uhhhhhhh idk if that's helping me in any way.
actually sometimes i'm just so sad i can't even write. my brain gets stucked ;_;
.play cringe or based call it
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>>206069↪
hmmm maybe
I even think that’s nice to accept differences and find happiness, the problem is major life decisions being made with wildly different goals I guess, if that’s the case, but I suppose you can have different sexualities which also complement each other and similar life goals… it just seems like such a jumble and easy to get lost
#8ball shall i or shan't i? (signs point to yes)
reports say yes
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#ksay nonners
#say nadie
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#ksay hi
hi
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what if the nuclear family and the extended family aren’t actually the ideal living structures, the ideal is to live with your friends and visit your spouse- I guess that’s how societies with different jobs for the sexes kinda worked out huh? but I’ve heard a lot of nightmare stories too, or feelings developing which end in tears
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so i think it can work
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it's up to you, i guess
yeah I think
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what do you think the ideal home and life would be like?
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oh my
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>>206110↪
i actually think spending the rest of my life with somebody sounds awesome but for now i think i prefer living alone in a good house so i can invite my friends to stay
i need a house. and friends
: D shrimp knows what she likes
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i have a friend irl but that's about it
also he's like 29 so he's lowkey busy
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and has already a circle of friends so i know i'm not like his bestie nor anything. at best i'm, like, that quirky boygirl thing that talks to him regularly
yeah I’m kinda invited somewhat to my irl friends circle of friends but we don’t he have much in common and it’s not so fun in some ways. it’s hard for me to tell the empty feeling after a thing - whether it meant the thing was a waste, or just how I am
>>206081↪
for 99% of people I think so. im not discounting like ace romance and stuff but if you are ace your dating options are limiited because less than 1% of the population is ace. people still have their meat suits, most people are born addicted to sexual release.
to some degree
once one of them even fell in love with me :(
idk I prefer just having a small but really close friend group IG
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I had a coworker ask me out last year but idk if knew i was trans or not... but I wasnt really into him anyway even though he was a really sweet guy. he raised rabbits in a NYC park and did volunteering and LOVED cars, worked on cars and stuff. kind of a typical guys guy in NYC who was into cars with a semi conservative bent but very nice and animals liked him
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>>206123↪
yeah I think so. I wonder if people’s hormones dropped though what it would be like- don’t some kids have really close friends?
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shrimp :3
>>206135↪
I think that people pairing up makes a lot of logistical and emotioanal sense tbh, even outside of sexual partnership
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thank u
(just another awful awful shitty thing trump is doing is gutting the USPS btw)
(btw its profitable which it doesnt evne need to be profitable because its literally one of the most based services a federal gov can provide)
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honestly the closest i've found to, like, feeling like i connect with somebody, is this non-binary he/they guy i met during this month and a half i spent in a different city. he's really sweet and kind with me and treats me well. we're even going to watch a movie this week
but dammit, i live in a different city so i'm kinda fucked
The thing I'm really sacred about relationships is speaking my mind and retaining friendships. Ive had so many friendships end because I say something and someone just flips out on me for it or really hates it. I can be really critical of ideas and stuff, and I think like to question and be quesitoned on things. So like, if someone says something I think is wrong or I disagree with I instantly want ot be like "oh i think thats wrong this is what I know" and either be explained too and figure out where im wrong or just express my own ideas. and that REALLY triggers people u shouldnt do that. because if you are right people apparently just resent u for being right, and if you agree to disagree people resent that too even if I personally accept a plurality of ideas and such...
>>206146↪
one of you could move right? it’s not like all the jobs for your industries are in one city?
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I had one of my closest friendships end over a disagreement about Survivor. There was a survivor season with a gay guy who started closeted on hte show because he didnt want homphobic people to hold being gay against him and I was like, tbh I get it. And one of my best friends (straight white guy btw) got really mad at me for saying that. And then when there was a literaly like "GOD, FLAG COUNTRY TEXAS" guy in the same season, the gay guy said "I dont trust the guy because hes southern" and I was literally like "fair tbh I would feel the same way" and he called me racist against southern people and stereotyping them.
I havent talked to him for like 3 years? since then. he got insanely triggered because I said you arent lgbt you dont know how it feels to be lgbt and heres my evidence for why southern people DO then to be more homophobic.
see?
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i'm staying with my grandpas but i don't wanna be a pain in the ass for them. and he's in uni and he just started last year so there's still a lot of time until studies are done
>>206153↪ it’s always interesting isn’t it how being a closeted gay person is allowed to be so abused in just the same way all gays used to be. how people NEED to be their ‘real selves’ as defined by others. I’m confused on the issue though because sometimes that is irresponsible to use resources but not give back and other people do have good ideas for how to live
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yea thats true tbh. like you HAVE to be your authentic self or else its 'internalized homophobia/transphobia". Which CAN be true, but sometime its legtimiately a safety issue, or losing your family or not. And radicaly people just want to be like OH JUST LOSE YOUR ENTIRE FAMILY, FRIENDSHIPS AND SUPPORT NETWORK TO BE GAY and not everyone is even financially independent enough from their parents to make that decision yet....
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>>206158↪
they’re much more Scotts Irish and English than other whites also being against a culture is usually used as racism
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>>206158↪
stereotyping southern people as racist, homophobic etc
I waas also making fun of southern accents as a joke as well which is along with that
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>>206164↪
to be fair we had a guy who was watching survivor in that group who actively used to quote the "ninja racing" meme of the black guy who points at the nazi vandalized car and is like GOT DAMN NINJAAAA RACING like he said the n word constantly and made black accent jokes all the time as a white perosn and that same person had no problem with it
we must end southerner discrimination
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southerner lives matter
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>>206167↪
like literally? and whats crazy is he is pretty left leaning. basically the definition of a modern liberal whos saying a bunch of lefty talking points while having very few poc/lgbt friends and disagreeing with them constantly when they talk about their lived experiences. idk I dont talk 2 him anymore but it still makes me sad hes not a bad person. its more his mental illness I think, idk. He was diagnosed BPD and struggled a lot of mental health issues.
you should study together go to Uni with him hooray : D I love fantasies!! (my life is one) >>206155↪
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like my parents told me i can study here in this city if i want and my grandpas told me the same thing, the problem is there's nothing i wanna study in general. like i don't wanna be a neet and i am 100% gonna start studying something next year but now i'm like so so uninterested in anything i'm considering just going for the less annoying option
what are the in demand jobs in chile
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yea. like I know hes not a bad person and tbh hes still a friend im my mind I just cant be around him anymore because he just explodes on me too much and it was legitimately bad for my mental health. Like, it sounds like not a big deal the way I tell it but I blocked literally eveyrone I know real and internet for like 2 months to deal witht hat argument. I still havent really recovered and ikd if I can ever really trust people in the same way ever again. it was a very big deal for me.
>>206176↪
go into accounting. you will always have a job, make okay middle class money and its really easy to half ass and just be a low level accountant doing basic stuff like managing small business accounts and doing tax and stuff. its boring but its honest owrk that will always be needed.
.play what do accountants actually do
exactly. :)
i love dan toomy
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>>206180↪
i was thinking on sociology or anthropology but honestly i'm like....... not sure if that's a good idea
because my family are the type of guys who now tell me "yeah do whatever makes u happy" but when i start they'll be like "ok but is this really what you want???"
what even is there to study? what jobs are even there, theres like 4 jobs
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>>206186↪
im going to school for anthropology and im like. I will very likely not be an anthropologist and feel like I should go back into accounting. however... I might be able to afford the extra year for a dual major.
#ai name 5 jobs
generic breakdown:
1. barista (slang: bean wizard, cafe serf)
2. software dev (slang: code monkey, keyboard abuser)
3. garbage collector (slang: waste warrior, trash jedi)
4. nurse (slang: vein villain, bedpan samurai)
5. electrician (slang: zap zap man, spark whisperer) name 5 jobs
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i wanna be a bean wizerd or a zapzap man
#ai name 10 jobs
1. plumber
2. software engineer
3. barista
4. nurse
5. construction worker
6. graphic designer
7. electrician
8. chef
9. teacher
10. truck driver name 10 jobs
oh maybe you should do that then? I don’t understand the economy I get why linesmen and train conductors and doctors have jobs but do all these other people do anything?
#ai name 30 jobs
1. software developer
2. electrician
3. nurse
4. teacher
5. plumber
6. carpenter
7. accountant
8. truck driver
9. chef
10. welder
11. mechanic
12. landscaper
13. graphic designer
14. pharmacist
15. construction worker
16. data analyst
17. marketing specialist
18. janitor
19. police officer
20. firefighter
21. barista
22. bartender
23. real estate agent
24. dentist
25. farmer
26. architect
27. librarian
28. paralegal
29. pilot
30. sales associate name 30 jobs
hmm theres more jobs than i thought
#smartai Top 10 growing fields to study in Chile
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- Growing demand for experts in green hydrogen, battery storage, and sustainable mining practices.
### **2. Data Science & Artificial Intelligence (AI)**
- Expanding tech hubs in Santiago ("Chilecon Valley") require AI specialists for fintech, logistics, and predictive analytics.
- Government-backed digital transformation programs fuel demand for big data professionals.
### **3. Mining Engineering & Extractive Technologies**
- Chile produces ~28% of the world’s copper; automation (autonomous trucks) and water-efficient extraction methods are critical focus areas.
### **4. Biotechnology & AgriTech**
- Precision agriculture startups optimize winegrapes (Chile is a top exporter), berries, and salmon farming using IoT sensors + CRISPR gene editing research at universities like PUCV/USACH.
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Would you like deeper insights into specific career pathways within these industries? Top 10 growing fields to study in Chile
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wtf is sales associate, you can tell from the name its not a real job
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honestly
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like, being really honest, what bugs me is that linguistics is my main interest as a field of studies. but the only unis where i could study that are in Santiago and, like, i have family there but they're my cousins and they have a small apartment so even if we agreed on some type of rent i literally wouldn't have a room
#ai do accountants just multiply really big numbers in their head?
nah, accountants mostly use software for actual calculations. their main job is recording transactions, preparing financial statements, and ensuring everything complies with tax laws. mental math isn’t the focus—accuracy and documentation are. do accountants just multiply really big numbers in their head?
>>206204↪
ooof that sounds like it sucks. maybe you can rig a curtain or something to have some private space.
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>>206210↪
yeah but there are a lot of chances i'm not gonna be able to apply because i technically do have family here. i can still give it a try at the end of the year but i don't think have many chances. like i'd have to explain a lot of things......
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you should do it and if you need advice feel free 2 reach out to me. really dont give up on the idea. and also one thing u shuold do that 99% of students dont do is call the admissions office directly they can give you a ton of advice or if you explain yoru situation they might be able to make something happen. not guaranteed but reaching out to admissions is something that a lot of students never conider because they are still teenagers and dont really have that adult 'let me talk to people direclty' mentality yet.
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also Santiago is expensiveeeeee :sob:
its SSNOWING
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snowing shrimp
raining shrimp and crabs
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bringing buckets to hve a lot of shrimps so shrimp is not alone
snow shrimp 🦐
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its snowingggg tho
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>>206213↪
i'll keep that advice in mind honestly. cus honestly if i make it to study linguistics i feel like it'd make me bury happy. either that or music. but both options are in Santiago. its either that or studying something just out of compromise and while i think it's not a bad option at all (at the end of the day its a bless anyways), i think it could be way better if i can spend that time and energy on something i really wanna do
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true but i mean the point is that i'd be struggling with cash anyways
>>206227↪
#tag (link to booru image) beast
its me
I AM!!!!!
i havent played a single ranked game since my placements lol
>>206226↪
there are TONS Of opportunities for linguistics jobs and anthro in general in chile and peru because there is so much recovery efforst on lost languages and so many active archaelogical sights that need regular maintance or excavation its a very good country to do anthro in. americas anthro is kind of big but it involves a lot of traveling internationally
huh?!
I have learned a lot of about peruvian and chilean anthropologists in my studies this year
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>>206235↪
oh i know about that and if i get a degree and allat i'd definitely would like to study indigenous languages. last time i checked about this i found a lot of interesting info of extincted languages like yagan and i spent days reading stuff. it's really awesome :sob:
AAAA!!!
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yeah in 2023 i was getting a degree in education because i was specializing in literature and linguistics but i had to quit because i realized i suck at teaching and that's what mattered the most !! but i still keep all the linguistics pdfs and stuff because i really had a lot of fun with that and sometimes i check papers and investigations out of mere curiosity. it makes me happy, kinda
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i was gonna be a language teacher !!
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but i gave up on it for that reason
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also boymoding while being a teacher is AWFUL i thought it was gonna be ok but it was really stressful
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everytime i went to a classroom i ended up shaking ;_;
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.play frío frío niños del cerro
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.skip (video skipped)
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what
wow :< I know a teacher who is trans
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youtube commenter bots are getting outta hand
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>>206250↪
i think it already requires a lot of bravery to be a teacher but being trans and a teacher is something i just can't do. i even tried but even if kids are nice to you the comments they give can be so awkward
it really does
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>>206253↪
even if they come from a place of love and curiosity it's just awkward and made me lose interest, i guess
poor nadie
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no
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the idea makes me anxious
its going to sound really funny I get that 100%
the way I stopped girlmoding is so wierd...
so I am in the military reserve right?
and there is uniformt standard, so I went to my CO and Chief and was like look i am transitioning and if I cant grow my hair out I will just leave and they basically said okay but you have to conform fully to the female standard and we will do some paperwork to sign that shows you have permission from us so I haad to like, actually up my female presentation by 10x because suddenly like I HAD too
based boyremover nation
i get boyremoved by the navy lmao
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that's so epic
that must be scary though that’s epic you did it
there are a lot of trans people who really really hate me for being like a nato supporter / veteran and stuff it makes me sad... they dont really understand the military I think and I think its something that should exist. there are lots of problems with out country but its the politicians who are at faultt tbh.
this song is cool
hmmm but politicians only get power from votes and interest groups and structure of government
learning to do my hair in a bun was really tough lolll
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i don't wanna stop boymoding honestly because i don't think i'd look good as a girl. at least as a boy i'm like, presentable to some extent
I bet!
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tbh I prefer being really ugly as a girl than somewhat attractive as a guy. i do have a lot of insecurity and self hatred about being ugly and stuff though, even though i think i pass a lot. i think i actually started passing less lately but that might just be dysphoria its hard to tell through the mental illness haze
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>>206281↪
i'd be very ugly as a girl tho
and as a guy i already look strange, honestly. i've been told so
its not even about the hrt, its just my face and bones that make me look weird
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okay so lets just say this is true what do u have to lose looking like a strange man v a strange woman? xD
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yea but if you looks strange as a man that doesnt mean u wont pass. that just means you will look strange. it wont be any different than just being a strange looking woman...
mmm
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no because i've girlmoded irl for people to get some feedback cus i know pictures are useless to get actual feedback and i've been told i don't pass
by peope who knew you pretransition?
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no by people who knew me after like 2 years of hrt
but you presented to them as a man right?
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no
oh so like you me them for the first time and they were like "omg ur a tranny?"
that was good you tested it at least somewhat
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just like a boymoder
boymoding is presenting as a man tho, even if people know ur trans. idk. i have friends who knew before and I CANNOT pass to them like even in a dress with makeup they still trip over themselves to gender me correctly and its frustrating but then at the same night I got kind of hit on by a guy at the arcade so... like its a very well known phenomenon that people who see you as a guy/girl have a very hard time rewritting gender perceptions.
like gender is very much a "FIRST IMPRESSIONS" kind of thing. if people are good at using ur pronouns they are either the 1% who actually see trans people as having changed sex or just good at respecting your feelings and boundaries. but if you meet new people they will just see you as the new gender. thats been my experience to a T.
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that has nothing to do with anything tho, they know i'm trans and i've been on hrt for years and i girlmoded irl asking for some feedback and they reached the conclusion that while i'm "not necessarily ugly nor honnish" i don't pass
well, im not trying to be annoying or pushy sry
passing does take effort tho like voice training, getting better at fashion and clothing and stuff. like you do have to kind of fail at it for awhile to get good at "being the imposter"
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i'm not bad at clothing from what i've been told, it's just that i'm not girl-looking
i look like a cute tranny, basically. but a tranny at the end of the day
have you tried just going to a store youve never been too dressed up and see how u get gendered?
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why would i do that
bceause thats really the only way to get honest feedback imo, how strangers treat u
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are you saying they weren't being honest when they told me i don't pass
yea pretty much, what I mean is like when people know you it colors their perception a lot.
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why not
also to them it might be different the point of view- they’re thinking ‘tranny’ strangers are thinking ‘man/woman’ usually- but that doesn’t mean you are wrong
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nah they are thinking trans and it colored what they saw, but I mean you could but it doesn’t mean you do
One thing I noticed is like trans people tell me im pretty a lot but its not really true. by cis woman standards im like a 2 or 3/10 but trans women standards are really different from socities. the fact that i can pass at all makes people always be like OH UR SO PRETTY even though I look like a grugg woman and have horrible preportions
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i don't get it, if the fact you pass make people say you're pretty (considering you see yourself as "a 2 or 3/10"), why me girlmoding in a random store would make me receive "actual honest feedback"?
people with high standards are going to be like that, like if you’re the one African person in Scandinavia vs back in Africa you’re going to be seen differently. to me and the people I’m exposed to you’re pretty sadchan
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by cis standards im like a 3/10. 0/10 considering no cloyster.
but trans women rate me completely differently.
hehe cloyster
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yeah but if that's the case then why would girlmoding in public help me whatsoever
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because you would get an unbiased feedback. if a random store clerk calls you sir in a dress and makeup you dont pass. LGBT arent really trustworthy imo. but to me I see u post this stuff all the time about getting she/her pronouns by default and guys being interested in you and stuff and it seems like the extremely normal GD boymoder syndrome where u think its impossible to pass, so you dont even try which makes it true. and every boymoder who can pass thinks THEY are the exception who can never pass. and I am very ugly by cis standards and I am still able to pass. but I also voice trained and fully "commit to the bit".
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because photos are not a valid way to receive feedback, it's just an approximation of what you look like irl. pictures don't show my proportions or my height nor anything like that
that's why everytime it happens i just gotta immediately clarify i'm a guy and those are just "unfortunate pics" and so on. also it's not like it happens 100% of the time. today i even got sir'd while 12 hours ago before going to bed i got she/her'd by a guy and same thing happened like 5 hours ago
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thats the point though... like you are in between genders if you commited to being a woman you could get she her all the time which is passing
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yea I think u could I saw pictures... but I dont want to trigger u im sorry.
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the thing is that i could girlmode and from what i've been told i wouldn't look "ugly" really, i would look ok-ish. the thing is that i would look like a trans woman. i wouldn't pass, people would just see me and go "oh ok, this is clearly a trans girl"
it's probably why people ask for my pronouns on dating apps so often, because i just look ambiguous rn. i don't like it and i know to some extent i'm the one putting myself in this situation but honestly i really prefer being a weird looking guy than a "fairly presentable" trans girl because at least being a weird looking guy i'm not worthy of being a victim of hatecrime
I hope that is true, but it seems like that isnt true because you said you got way too nervous to teech being a boymoder which is just being a wierd looking guy.
but i also dont know how safe chile is for trans people if they just get muredered as soon as they exist publically I understandd but thats different from thinking u cant pass.
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i know trans girls who don't pass and girlmode anyways and they get treated like shit at least once a month. they do it because dysphoria is worse than that but they hate it anyways
i personally think i can handle dysphoria way better than how i'd handle being treated like shit in public for existing
thats fair.
and the nice thing is you are on HRT tbh if you change ur mind its not like you are masculinizing against ur will
mid 20s on test changes ur body a lot. start of male pattern baldness and greasy skin, peramennt skin damgae giant pores, lots of disgusting hair, you just put on wieght, get bigger all these things ughh
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i know that and that's why i'm telling you i had to deal with all of those things by the time i was 20
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i know, but i had to deal with them anyways
no you dont, they KEEP happening and they get more severe and worse as time goes on. you arent bald, can you grow a full beard? like a truly huge full beard?
frfrfr
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>you arent bald
my hairline is awful, it's not that i need bangs, i also need my hair floofy because it's really really bad
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well what im saying is its GOOD you are on HRT because HRT can repair ur hairline, and prevent further loss because test = male balding its literally that simple. if you have the genetics for MPD. so liek its a good thing you are on HRT because you are preventing all these bad things happening to you I guess what Im saying (if you consider looking male a bad thing)
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i know
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but factually (i think) speaking, being on hrt for me just means i won't get bald and i'm not even sure that's like, an actual problem, because my dad's on his mid 50s and while his hair has thinned a bit he's not bald really
for some reason my hairline got fucked bad by the time i was 20. idk if it was because i was a borderline junkie by that time (not like i'm not one now tbh)
maybe, depends on the drugg. hard drugs will age u really hard :(
drugs are bad mmkay? xD
#ai why do hard drugs age you so much?
hard drugs mess up your body at a cellular level. they dehydrate you, fuck up collagen production, and slow healing. stimulants like meth or coke stress your cardiovascular system and cause facial twitches or grinding that wear down your teeth and muscles. opioids make you neglect basic hygiene and nutrition. all that shit adds up fast. plus, the lifestyle means less sleep, more sun exposure, and constant inflammation. your skin sags, wrinkles deepen, and you just look hollow-eyed and gaunt. some of it is reversible if you quit early, but the damage compounds the longer you use. why do hard drugs age you so much?
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so basically hrt just made me look my age again. i don't think being on hrt is like a "free to girlmode whenever you want" card for me
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i don't think i'll girlmode until i get ffs so i think it doesn't really matter much. the best thing about getting hrt is that now i don't feel like my head's producing white noise whenever i'm not listening music loud
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that's basically it, honestly
well, what im saying is.
when you are 30, you might feel different.
people CHANGE over time. how you feel now is not a guarantee you will feel the same way in 10 years a lot changes in that time.
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i don't see myself at 30. idk how am i even 23 honestly
I thoguht I was gonna kms at 12, 15, 16, 19, 22, 23, 28 and now im 32 and I still think about it sometimes xD
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i mean yeah maybe ur right
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fair
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#uwu (USER WAS UWU'D FOR THIS POST)
Being a tranny is just really hard and shitty its just like a 1.78 difficulty modifier globally on all aspects of your life.
I guess I figured in character select if I stacked a bunch of difficulty modifiers I could get a high score?
I dont want to make boymoders feel bad I have another friend i had a similar conversation with I feel like a jerkk
cant sleep my neightobs are so loud
neighbors
i would genuinely be happy if they died, most of this country shoyld be nuked and it would be net positive for tge world, actual subhumans
what if nuk worl?
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gamers
holy shit
no more glass ceiling
feminism 5 just dropped gamer dlc
finally inersectionality is compelte
komm susser todd starts playing
tjholy shit
the fact my guy goes behind is so perfect
lmao right
i guess for u ur infront
naturally because i'm the main character
i'm glad that i was not the protag for this clip
the mainest
yeah h-haha
oh wait i misunderstood
what is he saying before his life is tragically snuffed
coca cola estuma
estuma
thats my best guiess
it's an honor
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#smartai how come until I show selfies of my face online, so many random people online just very aggressively assume I must look like a hypermasculine cisgender man like Hulk Hogan irl- no matter what I say or how I act??? It's really annoying as an mtf trans and it's frustrating me, please analyze an explain this shit to me.
Ah, this is a fascinating yet frustrating phenomenon rooted in cognitive biases, societal conditioning, and the limitations of text-based communication. Let’s dissect it systematically:
### 1. **Default Assumptions & Heteronormativity**
Humans rely on *heuristics* (mental shortcuts) to fill gaps in perception—especially online, where visual data is absent. Western society defaults to *cisheteronormativity*, meaning people unconsciously assume others are cisgender and align with traditional gender expressions unless explicitly contradicted. Since hypermasculinity (e.g., Hulk Hogan-esque traits) is stereotypically associated with AMAB (assigned male at birth) individuals, strangers may lazily default to that assumption when engaging with you pre-visual disclosure.
### 2. **Text-Based Communication Lacks Gender Cues**
Written language often obscures gendered nuances outside deliberate signaling (*linguistic gendering*). Without vocal pitch, facial structure, or sartorial cues—and barring overtly femme lexical choices—people subconsciously project their own biases onto your persona. Unless you deploy unmistakably femme-coded language (e.g., "slay," "yass," emoji use), many readers will reflexively masculinize your voice due to systemic *androcentrism*.
### 3. **Aggressive Hypermasculine Projection as Defense Mechanism**
Some individuals engage in exaggerated gendering as an unconscious defense against cognitive dissonance: if they perceive even ambiguous AMAB voices as threats (*toxic masculinity contagion bias*), they'll overcorrect by assuming extreme masculinity rather than risk misgendering someone femininely aligned ("better safe than sorry" fallacy). This reflects broader transphobic anxieties around perceived "deception."
### 4. **Confirmation Bias & Prior Exposure**
If someone has encountered predominantly cis-male interlocutors in similar contexts before (*availability heuristic*), they'll statistically presume you fit the same mold until proven otherwise—hence why selfies disrupt this pattern abruptly.
### Mitigation Strategies:
- **Linguistic Gendering**: Use overtly femme syntax/lexicon if comfortable ("girlboss rhetoric"). Emojis (🌸💅✨) can passively signal femininity without explicit disclosure.
- **Preemptive Visual Signifiers**: Avatars/pfp featuring stylized femmes aesthetics (even illustrations/anime) prime perceptions early.
- **Correct & Disengage**: A simple “Actually I’m a woman lol” forces recalibration; persistent offenders reveal their bigotry for easy blocking.
This reflects less about you and more about society’s rigid gender schema clashing against digital ambiguity—a problem requiring collective unlearning of binary assumptions while we navigate toward post-gender discourse norms (**see: Judith Butler's performativity theory**). Stay resilient; their kneejerk projections say nothing about your validity ✊🏳️⚧️ how come until I show selfies of my face online, so many random people online just very aggressively assume I must look like a hypermasculine cisgender man like Hulk Hogan irl- no matter what I say or how I act??? It's really annoying as an mtf trans and it's frustrating me, please analyze an explain this shit to me.
mbe cause you sound agitated and weak so they feel challenged but like they can win so they want to humiliate you and look down on you- like how people who are jealous of criminals fantasize about them getting raped
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#reply AI the avatars and emoticons don't work if anything it feels like combined with anonymity it just makes the assumptions I am a cisgender man who looks like hulk hogan pretending to be a girl online and it makes me feel even worse please reflect more on this in detail
people default to assuming masculine traits online when gender isn’t explicitly shown. it’s the societal baseline for "neutral" in a lot of spaces, especially where anonymity is common. text alone doesn’t carry tone or appearance, so unless you actively signal femininity, they’ll often jump to the easiest stereotype—hypermasculine dude—because that’s the lazy default in patriarchal structures.
also, online strangers project based on their own biases. if you don’t serve them overt feminine cues (like pics, voice, or hyper-fem language), their brains auto-fill the blanks with what’s culturally shoved as "default human"—aka big loud man. it’s annoying as hell, but it’s not about *you* failing to convey something; it’s about them lacking imagination and reproducing tired norms.
that said, some ppl also do it deliberately to provoke, especially if you’re trans. the internet’s full of losers who get a kick out of misgendering or pushing buttons. it’s not about logical consistency—they’ll ignore your words to cling to their assumption because disrupting their fantasy would mean questioning their own limited worldview.
tl;dr: people are lazy, biased, and often bad at thinking beyond stereotypes. their wrong guesses say way more about them than you. it sucks, but you’re not the one failing here. AI the avatars and emoticons don't work if anything it feels like combined with anonymity it just makes the assumptions I am a cisgender man who looks like hulk hogan pretending to be a girl online and it makes me feel even worse please reflect more on this in detail
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one of my best wormies
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