you know I've realized that I struggle with doing a lot of shit I wanna do, but I still wanna do things

like, I play instruments but I kind of dont have the mental processing to make a whole ass structured song

but I've been becomin more comfortable with the idea of making short little songs, just to feel the joy of having created

yeah same, i kinda just jam out and maybe record that but never do much about it

i have a bunch of text files and pieces of paper of lyrics i've thought about, then like thousands of voice recordings of me humming or playing the recorder, and yeah some reaper projects of me trying to make sense of things but never connecting

alas i am doomed to do covers and back mediocre bands

I can't do covers, I could never learn a song in my life, plus I think there's something beautiful in playing music with other people, which is another thing I can't do

sounds kinda doomer, but to be honest

I've been kind of feeling happy with what I'm able to do, even if it's little and its not flashy

in the end, its the art I can make, it speaks of me

i sometimes kinda regret giving into this entire music thing, and wish i just kept myself on my own lane, to have never gone "yknow i should do more than listen" and buy a recorder then buy a mic then buy an interface then buy a guitar then buy a midi keyboard then oh my god this is supposed to be a hobby what am i doing

>>323692
u do what u do because u think u should or because its what you want to do?

I recorded ma shit in a phone, didnt even do any production and uploaded it to bandcamp filled with mistakes and blunders

>>323693
partly because its what i want to do but i can't help i have a lot of internalised elitism and desire to do things right, perfecting instruments and what not

i had this idea of an album 2 years ago and have been working on that until today and i honestly can't see any future or finish to it yet i'm already thinking what to call the next ones and what songs i want to add

>>323696
why don't you make things a bit smaller and simpler? focus on a single song u wanna make and if one of ur ideas is too complicated, consider just removing it, that way u can focus on making it doable

if you don't have enough resources, think of a way to do what you want with whatever you have now

even if u dont like it in the end, you can still be glad there's a finished demo

that's somewhat what i've been doing but i can't help but feel guilty about just throwing things out over and over, and when i fully engage on that it just feels weird, it becomes a tunnel with no visible end and yeah no

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who has blocked it in your country on copyright grounds smd
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>>323706
same here

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>>323700
mmmmmm, (im thinkin of how to structure this) but idk I can't help but feel like that internalized elitisim is holding you back

>>323699
i have finished some demos and have been tempted to publish them but so far i've only made 2 songs i've made public and still kinda regretful of it

i kinda wanna come in, drop a full length album in one go, and make it from that

then drop b sides whatevers where i know i'm not going to give a bad impression and allows for rawer and deeper cuts

>>323713
you regret it cos you didnt like em?

>>323722
partly and because i don't want that to be like my first material under that name

i mean i'm performing live under another name than the one those songs were released because i wanted to have a clean slate once again but yeah

so now i've gone through an name change but still have that behind me

sort of like eminem's demo casette when he was M&M

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dang its really difficult being into artsy shit aint

i find it funny to be listening to neil ciciriega right now i'm literally mexican him

*aint it

i dont know neil ciciriega lore

i dont know how to use ai tools. somebody cook me up Gmork from fantasia getting pets.

ur in phone?

i remember lsitening to this song when i was 12 on my mum's laptop andthinking it was the coolest thing ever

>>323734
(i cant help u idk how to ai either)

this mv brings... memories

thats so adorable, those kind of memories always feel kind of precious

best thing italy ever made

le fishe

hullo alvi

.play dr mabuse propaganda

i haven't listened to propaganda in a long time but guh

which one

how many merry go rounds exist? mine is a different one

ask rainbolt

its fine i was just legit surprised

its like hxh and having like 10 chapters called "determination"

beautiful critter

uh-uhhhh

mitzi do u know how

im comfy howa re u

idk how, consider using superior platform

>>323766
why u bad? :C

>>323771
theyre abusive?

>>323776
oh its that kind of parents

>>323774
abuse is abuse

reactionary on steroids

are u independent?

alright its very difficult to get anything done if u live with ppl that turn your life into a constant problem solving

theyre generally like ur parents? ppl in there i mean

what the fuck that place is chudded HARD

.play lenny the buggles dutch tv

>>323788
i will forever hate Limburg

nothing good out of that place has ever come out

a lot of these boomers have nonsensical political views because they just eat what facebook or whatever feeds them

but that thing about the 22 year old felt a bit concerning, like its the sharty irl

alright inm gonna go cook cya later

just a reminder that you can tune a guitar but you can't tuna fish nini

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.play FEX – Subways Of Your Mind

Itadakimasu

i love trevor horn

.play Альянс - на заре

it doesn't support cyrillic i tried

meh

NADIE

.play alyans na zare

#ksay bruh

i love this man

trevor horn

you could see that the earth

guh

>wasnt baptized into the church of satan

its over

i'm going to sleep fuck y'all nini

.play Neco arc sings A Thousand Miles (Remaster)

burunyuu

gonna disassemble my gpu today, ordered some very tiny screwdrivers

theyll be here in a few hours

another day in my shitty slavic tranner life

>>323885
what time is it there?

I cooked some rice and just ate

>>323886
12:02PM

its 6:02 here

i always feel happy when im done eatin

americans or something?

i said a very american thing but im actually from latam

from what

latinoamerica

taco burrito

which country in latin america

chile

epic

I think

chile is a real country btw

what slavic country u from?

macedonia

dont know nothin about it, how is it?

shitty

government the same as hungary's, just with more pressure

idk shit about hungary either lole but shitty does give me the message

bruh

okay our prime minister bootlicks trump

I think that should be comprehensive enough

that really does suck >>323909

damn give bolivia their coast back smh

here in chile we may soon get a trump bootlicker too

>>323913
lots of ppl think the government should actually allow them to have at least a bit of coastal territory

u-uhhhhhh like uhhh like idk like give them some land so taht they can see the sea

>>323914
what?

>>323916
nothing in life is free, they'd have to all individually sell their souls for that coast

</3

me personally i do kinda feel like they could give em a bit, or at least cook up some weirdass agreement that makes them able to like go there,idk somethin

souls or no deal, thats just how it be

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unfuckingbelievable, i spent like 4 minutes lookin for an album to play and latinautor blocked in ma country

*blocked it

>>323923
The Latinator sounds either like a dangerous villain or an invention from phineas and ferb

LMAO, latinautor-UMPG. i dont even know what it is, it just blocks music

11 celcius here

u-uhu

i dont know ;w,

how do I check that out?

th e equator is like the middl of the eart right?

slightly t o the equatori htink

why?

today it'll be 25celcius at its peak

oo its colder there

where are u from

how have things been in there?

is that sarcasm or

I love getting my daily dose of depression from 4tran4 <3

whats 4tran4

oh shit I thought people here were from it, where the hell y'all from

leftypol

oh shit I didnt know that was real I thought it was like a joke or something :sob:

u mean leftypol? lole its not a big imageboard

I liked /tttt/ for being so blunt and straightforward but they took it away from us < 3

im glad i never used any of those 4chan lgbt spaces, seems like it makes ppl self hating

I prefer blunt honesty over toxic positivity like on reddit

>>323961
redditors tend to be more fake than anything, they just wanna give the impression of a good person

yeah I stopped engaging much with them years ago

they always sat the same things

"omggg im sorry that happened, push forward"

or "sorry idk what happens in that country"

>>323962
thats pretty cool, damn sounds kino to get help from the state

mayhaps

>>323972
YES, YES

what do you have to do to be allowed to post images on this. godforsaken website

someone gonna post gore or nazi shit bru >>323978

>>323982
oh

no i've never been here

that would make sense yeah

what is the rat

u mean the rat?

>>323988
of what

most disgusting shit i ever saw in my entire life

was it a squashed rat or smth?

>>323998
do u really want this cognitohazard

I dont wanna see it, I just wanna know what it was

>>323999
i do

cause rats can be adorable

i love rats so much i should get a pet rat

>>324009
content moderators everywhere have super high attrition rates tbf i think that facebook is pretty normal with their rates

"gore folder" mental health clinic NOWW

all the queer orgs of my country are on facebook so im kinda forced to use it

question since im like brainless, is leftypol anarchist or tankie?

>>324013
i feel like there are too few people who persistently use this site at the current time for it to have like a proper coherent like, site ideology

>>324013
there are just all sorts of ppl that oppose capitalism and read a lot of theory and history, im actually like the stupidest leftypol user

there are anarchists, stalinists, dengists, allenditas, whateva

"stalinists" the west has fallen

>>324020
dont worry it'll pass

i actually kind nof enjoy that ppl see me write and see ma tyipos and shit live

>>324023
it's kinda fun to watch other people type but like it scares me that y'all can see this

u drew it? thats COOL its great to draw, I like it, its soulful and looks happy

>>324039
was thinkin the same, I cant draw with a mouse like at all

using reference is just a part of the artistic process

its a dark derrick i see

FUCk

i like that its drawn on paper

jan pi ma ni li sona ala sona e toki pona?

>>324054
ken li lili a , taso toki pi wile sona li ike ala

question since idk the social etiquette of leftypol: am i like allowed to be polite or am i supposed to be intentionally rude for no reason

>>324053
>>324055
FUG Im still not deep enough in toko pona to know that means but ITS COOL AS FUYCK to see someone into it

>>324060
JAN ANTE LI SONA

taso ona li jo e sona lili a ::(

>>324059
me personally im polite and nothin happens

>>324060
o awen kama sona la sina ken kama pona a

>>324062
uhhhh "jan" is person , u said sometin like "the person from before is you" or somethin? oh no, thats sina "you"

>>324059
are we allowed to be intentionally rude for fun or is that like impolite here

thats meanie behavior and treason

>>324068
"jan ante li sona" means "someone else knows" ante means other, sona means knows

OOOOOOOOO

oooh then OH I GET IT

im still very early into learnin toki pona cos im using an anki deck i made masel

f

how did u l earn it?

i learnt with lipu sona pona

or back then it was just devurandom's guide

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oh

lipu-sona(dot)pona(dot)la

>>324081
took me like less than 3 weeks to be conversational and then i just talked to people in it and wrote it in my journal and stuff and i became relatively competent surprisingly quickly i think it gets easy when you start doing it

>>324082
first time i ever see the website u sent thank u SO much

dang I havnet tried writing in what little i know

>>324084
imo it's the best source for learning

what is an anki deck btw

alright the n ill focus more on that and make ma anki decka more secondary learning tool, NIIIICE

anki is a program to make flashcards to use for spaced repetition, medicine students use it a lot i've heard