hello

byeah

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is this the thread?

>>331784
byeah

>>331785
nice

muslimgauze won

the queue restarted

>>331784
yes

:happy gle

MOOODS

>>331794
#poke

>.<

.play Electro-Light - Symbolism | Trap | NCS - Copyright Free Music

new thread new queueu

it is what it is

.play affection addiction

.ksay queueueueueueue

.play confessions of a rotten girl

#ksay queueueueye

.play [YouTube]

::sunny

::smurf

>>331808
How come there isn't a smurfgle? I swear I saw a smurfgle once

.play Side effect FKA rayne

.play [YouTube]

>>331809
sometimes life stomps you in the teeth and cuts all your limbs off and spits on you and theres nothing u can do about it u just gotta move on im sorry but thats how it is theres no smurfgle for u here u just gotta accept that fact and move on and it will all b easier for u to gret on with ur healing journey after that

a day before my injection i get moody and severely depressed idk why

.play [YouTube]

>>331809
i think i have too maybe. it might be hiding somewhere in the booru without tags https://glegle.gallery

.play palm readers L'Orange Marlowe Solemn Brigham

fuckt he world

>>331819
intercourse?

.play [YouTube]

oh dear

this here is the most obscure shit i've ever queued

>>331820
no! destruction, carnage

it has 3 views lol

.play medicated Marlowe L'Orange

>>331825
but.... I like the world... because you're in it

>>331828
not u though i will not destruction carnage u

>>331828
ok fine i wont do it

.play mothership enter shikari

.play 99 neighbors Fuck No brasstracks

.play [YouTube]

.play The Living Tombstone - Love I Need

.play 4 minutes Madonna Justin Timberlake

.play [YouTube]

this song killed my family

hi tuna

hullo mitsu how r u

sad

>>331845
That song killed your grandma?

.play modest mouse interstate 8

.play I cast a spell on you Screamin' Jay hawkins

is it one of those bouts of sadness that sometimes happen for no reason or it has a cause?

.play whenever i breathe out you breathe in

last week I spent like 4 days sad as hell and nothing caused it its so annoying when that happens

its like ur brain goes "oke ur sad now lole"

>>331855
cant hormones cause a drop in mood sumtimes

also hi tuna fish

hullo strawww

im still not takin hormones so whatever caused it is uhhhh maybe my hormones are naturally all over te place

::glerio

>>331859
oh what r u injecting

.play smino ravyn lenae Spice

>>331861
right now im thinkin of ways to get moeny to hrt ;w,

>>331852
i woke up at like 1400 today, didn't do anything aside from just be talking to some people on discord, then cleaned my room and went out for food, arguably i did more than i do on most days but i still feel like i stalled

>>331864
uuuggghh

when im communist dictator of the world hrt will be free

.play 4r da squaw Isaiah Rashad

>>331867
holy based

>>331867
uncritical support

.play silkk da shocka Isaiah rashad Syd

>>331867
great thinking

>>331865
u have the feeling that u have to do more to feel good about yourself?

>>331873
yeah

>>331875
u know some shit entirely unrelated to cock and ball torture called CBT?

cognitive behavioral therapy?

yeah, I downloaded a book on that shit and

people say cbt is a meme and im willing to believe because I don't like psychology however im not well versed about it

mitsu the shit u say reminds me of the things i read in thta book

Castrate boy thots

>>331876
yeah, was doing it for a while but kinda gave up a few months back then i went insane and now i just don't care man

>>331882
what do u mean u went insane?

>>331879
might just be me but the cbt group im in is an absolute meme

litreally me song

look, in the book I read theres a part talking about "limiting thoughts" or something like that, and one of them was "ought/have to"

i wish i had the motivation or attention span to read books

>>331884
i honestly don't even remember, my paranoid whatevers came back, i was trying to like get back on my track and date people again but failed at that too, then i missed a gig and got like 30 missed calls, etc

I've been focusing almost entirely on no longer thinking in terms of "ought/have to/must" and it's helped me a lot, sometimes it helps to keep things simple

everyone should read tao te ching

is good book

>>331891
how do u think instead of that way

.keep (okay)

>>331895
"I want to, I can, I need to"

"must" implies an authority in your head that gives u orders

>>331892
I recommend it too

so like believe in urself? preety based

>>331890
u struggle w paranoia?

>>331900
#smooch

>>331902
in multiple ways yes, its sort of like out of the blue and based/dependant on some ongoing circumstance, say for a while i was paranoid of getting arrested and prosecuted for some shit i did and kept being ultra paranoid of all weird people and cars with tinted windows for example

i guess trying to socialise and also date people triggered some trauma i had from that abusive relationship i had and yeah started to overthink things

>>331903
#kiss

.play College & Electric Youth - A Real Hero (Drive Original Movie Soundtrack)

.play oops did ot again

close enough welcome back robert palmer

>>331904
have u tried writing ur feelings on traumatic bullshit or generally whatever dark shit lies in your heart? it sounds like a meme but it does help

i used to have a diary but kinda left it last year, i have posted about a lot of my trauma stuff online funnily enough

>>331911
this will sound lame but have you tried making poetry?

no, i don't really get poetry in the firstplace and call me uneducated but i kinda just see it as stupid and pretentious

look, here's a simple trick to understand poetry

its just writing

>>331915
poetry is not lame, it's peak

shit

this way

when you write like this
then its poetry
its that simple
legit thats it

>>331918
oh i thought you guys were talking about pottery

fucking dyslexia

>>331924
n uh uh

>>331923
pottery is also nice i just never tried it

mitsu u there? poetry is one of those things that have been kind of entirely taken over by like elitist people, but me personally I just write poems to cope with my feelings and idgaf if it all sounds like shit

Hey chat, write a poem NOW

also whoever keeps queueing kitty craft is COOL

sad to be trans, kill people with frying pans

>>331931
#smooch

this is a poem of self consciousness
people are seeing what I do
what do I do?
what should I do?
this is a performance
Shakespeare could not have done this

whatever tbh, i don't think its worth to bother with any self improvement whatver

>>331933
cool

>>331932
X3

>>331935
classic essence

>>331936
its not about self improvement, its just to feel like you're not carrying as big a weight on your shoulders, to me these artsy things are like an exorcism, whatever I had inside is left on paper away from me

>>331936
it's about self expression really, have you any idea how important it is to express yourself?

>>331935
#hug

okie good night stinkers

>>331942
#hug

>>331944
good night cutie!

n gnite

>>331943
i grew up watching f1 now there is a rookie my age and setting records on his first fucking year i'm going to kms

.play HOME - Resonance

>>331940
i mean i understand that but to me it just kinda feels more like a way to decipher feelings and process them into a more understandable form, which in the end of the day doesn't clear up the fact that that's still there. its not an unknown beast, its now a beast i understand where it came and how it ruins me
>>331941
yeag

>>331952
Just try it silly! try to let it out!

Countless hues
Permeate the boundless blues
Limitless skies
Decorate my beautiful tries

my emotional cope is writing insane schizo shit on paper with a bunch of angry scribble drawings of whatever im thinking of and then i crumple it up and put it in the waste disposal under the sink

.play vermillion sands the buggles

>>331956
not a bad technique, schizorambling it's kinda fun

honestly now that i think about it i'm not sure if i really did diary and cbt stuff because i thought it worked or it improved things but it might've just been an excuse to fuel my stationery hobby/hyperfixation

i've spent a lot of money in expensive stationery and stuff which realistically i wouldn't never been able to justify before but now i can say "hehe i write my thoughts out else i feel overwhelmed"

>>331961
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm what I'm getting from this is... do you desire to be more stoic?

>>331962
in a way but tbh i don't even know what i desire

>>331965
take it easy, give it time, and... I guess you must try to like/know/accept yourself to start feeling yourself

idk, i kinda just feel anhedonic towards everything

>>331968
mentally speaking, it's probably not a good state of mind, could be the pre-symptoms of deppression, but I'm not going to digitally diagnose you of anything, I'm not an expert by any means

this board has good music taste

>>331970
mostly yes

t-thanks anon

>>331968
that can be really rough, iktf

>>331969
i mean i have something like clinical depression idr like the exact diagnosis but i do have that hm

The endless mousewheel of new experience helps a bit but its so tiring to keep finding new things to engage with

>>331974
Oh.... uhm will lady Fortune help you get out of that?

i read once that mushroom tripping can help w even treatment resistant depression, actually the months I was tripping I remember glowing and tat I stayed like that for months aftterwards until I eventually came back to normal

>>331977
>glowing

I WASNT GLOWING THAT WAY

>>331979
TUNA WAS GLOWING TUNA IS A GLOWIE

>>331977
i mean i don't really want to do any drug whatevers specially since i don't even know how to get them and yeah have noone to aid me or anything
btw

#ai is tuna a federal agent

nice try fed. is tuna a federal agent