aw

aw okiii

hehe well hai n eep well when u do x

thasgud, can take time in pushing through the steps towards recognizing thasnot how you rly feel abt all of it
n is just over critical or nervous, self hate or so on that is burdening chu more than it is a part of you n isnt smth you have to feel

bwa
rambly n would word better if i could but focusing on other thingy

>>421787
#hug
<3 ^^7

n would be happi more so if not writing intense thingy n exhautsy shrug, hope u can feel more comfy w self soon

hehe

eepers

hehe

awroo

mmmmh hiii rose

eep soons 2 ?

showered a bit agos

c:

welcome back to the comfy site

>>421841
whaswrong ? :c im sry

awww

wish u the best w them, it souch

tough

>>421845
hehe

i was gonna put on outfit or smth n take a current photo to share of some kind

hope theyre over soons ehe -3- is rough some days n rest when chu/peeps can

^^

cya!

sweet dreams

friends c:
but hai rose, rest up soons

eepy ish hrs but more snuggly feels than eep

shwimp

hai

ooo

i might... im gonna try n do some writing more for stuffs tonight, did a lil earlier but took break
might hop on mc to turn on or go see abt setting up to make stuffs on machines if theyre free to use rn .w.

? :c

ye i mean if peeps arent using them rn x

d'awww

;-;

yk what

ill try n buy one of those alt full access accounts for peeps sometime soon
(i used them for anarchy servers n let peeps use them if its chill sometimes)

is tough sometimes

im p sure it moved a long while ago, there was a whole sh-tshow w it cus they said you couldnt cheat anymore but they reverted that
i use mine texas anarchy tho cus they have had like a max of 100 players when ive used it, one time in 2020 that was

mta is cool cus its also like 10-13 yrs old
i would make scripts to run n let me fly n map entire parts of the map, n having base hunting all the time
id make YT vids of free bases for ppl to go to n loot
n stashes

its on the newest version n has no stuff banned i think other than server crashing stuff, i think

i liked it cus of the easy login anytime w/o queue or paying, good TPS, and long map history

i have so many screenshots i should find n send of cool bases i found from early yrs

yea

mta has gone down a bit, i think mb more active cus summer now
but theyre still active n plan to be

but yeah a loooot of them die n its rly sad

ye

would go a few hundred k out on those, they go for i think a looong while idk

yeah

i did custom scripts cus of the pain of some of the tools not always being best for what i wanted, would fall eep while letting old laptop run a flying acc w macros n map client side mod to show me where bases were when i woke up to see a lot mapped out

ill find some pics in a bits, was cool
i have those yt vids up mb still? unless it was on my music/edit channel where i had a gross audience get to me through the algo

thats all nostalgic for me tho being in covid n exploring mc decade old world while learning abt the things i had an interest in in dev

yeah

its a looot

is why i tried to make a automated one while i did other stuff, i would find dupe stashes tho n use those to build up stuffs that was cuul

lol
nah i think most places dealt w that
thats a funny sideplot

i love the silly antics ppl would get up to n then the more wacko ppl who would just do cybercrime to get bases
tho the hatespeech in some of their chats gets annoying

hehehe

yea, there was a big crystal pvp thing on mta n i was never the best at it but its kinda crazy w all of those strats

but i also like anarchy servers that are smol cus u can use them like a smp if u get somewhere far enough

yea

its not usually much but is just the sorta, chillin w cool peeps then every few minutes slur spam

yea

its often kids

(on those)

hai

im a rly weird case cus i was in edgy communities like that but i have OCD n was unable to let myself swear until i broke the compulsion at like uhh
20?

so i was around weird 20+ yo dudes at 16 who were saying slurs but i was just unable to say nor wanted to say them lel
but i used communities i wish i never got exposed to

i used r9k after i became disabled n home bound early early in high school

like as in dysfunction or which

lol

tired

mine was uh
got groomed for a bit by a weirdo dude at like idk
13 or smth on a teen community that he was grandfathered in on n staff
he also worked at a childrens psych ward smfh
do ur background searches smh

yea
when i was lonely n disabled i would go on r9k n post a thread everyday where i asked anons what their day was like n how they were doing n then talked to them abt their depressing feelings
i did this p regularly for like 2 yrs sigh

its comfy sometimes n depends on the era/thread ur in

havent used it much more than looking for information in case of smth for like 5< yrs

i would read drugfeel cus of my interest in pharmacology n my having been on a full course of meds i constantly was having to switch

:3

but, cus i came for the people who knew the pains id been feeling n not a ton else
find places like dis more comfy cus i can actually be more real than on somewhere where its complete social darwinism n all

-w-

sigh

take care of peeps u need hmph

aw

ive had so many yt eras

.play nero in disneyland child protective services

>>422035
<3

never forget the dave mathews band tour bus incident

they dumped all of their tour busses' sewage into the chicago river

i think it got on ppl

<3 hai nona

tkae self care if is making u feel ugh

>>422065
dis

.play [YouTube]

oh oh my god

they dumped it on

a tour boat

with like one of the ones with no roof

so the tourists see the skyscrapers

quoting from wikipedia:
"On August 8, 2004, a tour bus belonging to Dave Matthews Band dumped an estimated 800 pounds (360 kg) of human waste from the bus's blackwater tank through the Kinzie Street Bridge in Chicago onto an open-top passenger sightseeing boat sailing in the Chicago River below. The incident became popularly known as the Dave Matthews Band incident[1] or Poopgate.[2]"

gonna pull up my yt moosic playlists to find nicu stuff

wruff

.play vampire weekend campus animatic

pretty n luv the hair hehe

do they sell chinese cigarettes in places in the city - ? never looked into it
is it cloves or stuffs ~ w~

ye wasnt

sure

ouuu

i vape nows cus i wanted to not let self smoke anymores (didnt a ton, but had adhd that was undiagnosed until errr like 20~ n so i fell into coping w dumb stuffs)
hope r nicu but take care of self c:

.play ninja tuna kalimba

dis makes me remember my sort of grey market vintage viceroys, i luv the smell of unsmoked stuffs guh

tobacco can affect sublingual a lot of stuffs i believe

it constricts bloodflow n other stuff etc i believe there so you end up having yk

glad to hear :>
hope is going oke hehe
cute n pretty pic thoughs awa

lol

-w-

we had a cop gang unit give a talk to us in middle school

that was gross

hai aleixi c:

<3 :'3

hehe

hi dave!!

mhmmm

am working on stuffs rn a lil
gotta focus toos

hehe
n returning my energies to help chu
>boop

aw

had to mow earlier

aw