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anon
just slow down the time scale in the options menu?
BigSadEnjoyer
THATS THE THING THOUGH UR TIME SCALE ACTUALLY ACCELERATES AS U GET OLDER
>>62257
1.329% BoOjEr!boymodewng
>>62256
shrimp
i have a lifehack for slowing down the time scale but it involves doing drugs every day
>>62267
anon
mine did but only because i started taking vyvanse every day
nia formerly na-dee-eh
WOOOOOOOOO
>>62263
BigSadEnjoyer
damn drugs wowow
nia formerly na-dee-eh
AAAAAAAAAA
anon
i will get a pizza now and theres nothing you can do about
>>62273
BigSadEnjoyer
there was this old /a/ meme I cant find anymore when shingeki no kyojin first came out (and /a/ HATES SNK) people were posting int he trheads about and some guy said you cant just slap the SNK theme over anything and he took that post, clipped it and animate the entire opening to SNK using just that post flying around like the characters in the opening animation lmao it was so funny
>>62281
anon
stimulants are so much better though
shrimp
dissociatives will make every moment an eternity
nia formerly na-dee-eh
ok gotta go cus i want subway sandwich
>>62276>>62277
shrimp
the year i was abusing dxm was the longest year of my life
nia formerly na-dee-eh
:wave:
nia formerly na-dee-eh
xoxo
anon
.wav
BigSadEnjoyer
.skip
BigSadEnjoyer
>>62281
guiles theme DOES go over everything
anon
you captured my spirit in a photo
shrimp
same
anon
except half of the time i'm on drugs and am manic
anon
>>62290
i pressed i understand a year ago and grew immensely powerful as a result but also older
>>62293
shrimp
>>62291
acceptance can be powerful, you will still grow older regardless
BigSadEnjoyer
only spanish song in my playlist is this
anon
decay is a form of healing
BigSadEnjoyer
okay nurglemoder
anon
everything will be ok once my matter is part of other organisms :)
>>62299>>62300
BigSadEnjoyer
>>62298
information can never be destroyed so technically you will exist forever
shrimp
i mean doesnt entropy destroy information
BigSadEnjoyer
no
BigSadEnjoyer
not even black holes destroy information
BigSadEnjoyer
we thought it might and it was confusing then steven hawking discovered hawking radiation and now its all good
BigSadEnjoyer
also we were watching PBS spacetime this morning and we watched a video on how spacetime has literal memory
>>62306
1.331% BoOjEr!boymodewng
>>62305
#slap
BigSadEnjoyer
gravitation waves permanently distory the elasticity of space time
1.332% BoOjEr!boymodewng
get slapped you fool
shrimp
i guess there would still technically be information at the end of time but its kind of like, no one is in the forest to hear the tree fall
>>62312>>62311
anon
i don't know enough calculus to understand physics past newton
1.333% BoOjEr!boymodewng
>>62309
BigSadEnjoyer
>>62309
yea but the information cant be destroyed you still existed it will always be true ur ripples in spacetime are real
BigSadEnjoyer
its not practically useful but u do kind of live forever
1.334% BoOjEr!boymodewng
>>62316
shrimp
thats true yeah
BigSadEnjoyer
this song is cool
>>62320
1.335% BoOjEr!boymodewng
anon
>>62317
danke at least someone else enjoys it
1.336% BoOjEr!boymodewng
BigSadEnjoyer
wtf boojer
1.337% BoOjEr!boymodewng
BigSadEnjoyer
i cant see anyything
1.338% BoOjEr!boymodewng
BigSadEnjoyer
get down boojer
BigSadEnjoyer
wtf
1.339% BoOjEr!boymodewng
NO
BigSadEnjoyer
STOP STANDING IN TEH WAY I CANT SEE ANYTHING
1.340% BoOjEr!boymodewng
NO
>>62332
1.341% BoOjEr!boymodewng
>>62331
anon
no more boymoders jumping on the board
>>62334
1.342% BoOjEr!boymodewng
>>62333
i'm not jumping i'm just exceptionally tall
BigSadEnjoyer
boymoders be like i'm 5'5" im so tall... T_T
1.343% BoOjEr!boymodewng
5'8 ACTUALLY
>>62340
shrimp
you added an inch
>>62342
anon
>>62338
how's the weather down there
6'
1.344% BoOjEr!boymodewng
>>62339
that's not true i measured and i'm 5'8 or 5'10 depending on the time of day and if i'm wearing crocs
BigSadEnjoyer
i was 5 11 and now im 5 8 hrt shrunk me this is real and not honscience it really happened
>>62356
BigSadEnjoyer
and i weight he same so my BMI went up
BigSadEnjoyer
:(
BigSadEnjoyer
i havent played it
BigSadEnjoyer
I wait like 3 years for the game to get patched
shrimp
i tried playing it but i dont have the attention span for jrpgs
BigSadEnjoyer
i love love love love SMT and persona
BigSadEnjoyer
so im sure i will love it i just want it to get poilished first
anon
i love jrpgs
shrimp
jrpgs are very cool
shrimp
maybe if i ever get a script for stims i will play them
anon
>>62343
i'm a bit shorter now too. still not a passoid though, alas.
anon
hey
shrimp
hi
BigSadEnjoyer
im still taller than all the fucking asians and hispanics who live in new york
BigSadEnjoyer
being white sucksssss
BigSadEnjoyer
we are so tall
>>62367
BigSadEnjoyer
i want to be a shorty ....
>>62366
anon
being mexican is worse
BigSadEnjoyer
5 8
anon
>>62362
viking build to conquer the earth
anon
im 5'7 its not that bad
BigSadEnjoyer
no but I was 5 11 and it wa smuch worse
BigSadEnjoyer
the thing is if you are ftm and white you wont be tall enough to look like a normal white guy because white guys are emostly tall and if you are a white trans girl you will be so tall it looks wierd next to any other woman aaaaaaaaa height suckssss
BigSadEnjoyer
when I was a kid I was always THE shortest and i used to like it I would brag about being short and being able to climb shit in fit in small spaces lol
anon
that's cute
anon
everyone always wishes they were shorter or taller like i wish i was 5'3 or 5'4
BigSadEnjoyer
then at 18 I grew a full foot out of nowehre
BigSadEnjoyer
and was 3 inches taller than my dad
anon
tbh i don't mind being tall. i just wish the rest of me was nicer....
BigSadEnjoyer
my mom is 5 5 and my dad is 5 6 and iw as 5 11
>>62379
BigSadEnjoyer
might be intersex idk i had wierd development growing up
>>62384
anon
this is science
anon
>>62379
the numbers add up
BigSadEnjoyer
true
BigSadEnjoyer
:<
anon
>>62378
have you ever looked into it?
BigSadEnjoyer
i thought about it because i have a really defined scar on my pp that some intersex people have and im also circumsized and idk why because my dad is catholic, i had veyr wierd development and almost no puberty until mid 20s
>>62388
anon
wtf that's op
BigSadEnjoyer
i didnt get facial hair at all until 24
>>62392
anon
>>62385
have you asked your parents about the dick scar?
anon
i'd call you lucky, but i guess if you were lucky you'd be cis haha. small mercies?
>>62391
BigSadEnjoyer
no they are qanon trumptards
BigSadEnjoyer
>>62389
this literally this
anon
>>62387
i got facial hair at 13 wtf
BigSadEnjoyer
if I was lucky I woul dbe cis, man or woman idc
anon
i don't want to be a cis man tbh that would suck
BigSadEnjoyer
by the time i tranistioned at 29 though test was doing its job so doesnt really matter , but iwas calling young lady and miss just walking around as my teen self a lot
anon
sorry to hear that. hope you're better now!
BigSadEnjoyer
with short hair
BigSadEnjoyer
also had minor gyno
BigSadEnjoyer
wish I had tranistioned at 19 i could have been happy
BigSadEnjoyer
but qanon trumptard parents so
anon
you can still be happy
BigSadEnjoyer
i can be okay, happy? idc and idk
BigSadEnjoyer
im not suicidal and beating myself up every night
anon
honestly, i've pretty much given up on my body, but i'm still happy on most days because i'm on hrt and i get to focus on my work and art and stuff without the mind fog haha
>>62409
BigSadEnjoyer
its an improvement
anon
has anyone made a mash up of wild wild west and knights of cydonia
BigSadEnjoyer
high key sad about not being a woman < low key sad about being ugly
BigSadEnjoyer
its an easy coice
BigSadEnjoyer
>>62404
how long hrt???
anon
uhhh 3-4 years? kind of stopped counting
BigSadEnjoyer
injections???
anon
nah, pills
BigSadEnjoyer
injections did a lot of feminations for me i did 1 year pills and I was in the "hey uh... buddy?" stage of transition then I went on injections and it made a huge difference for me
BigSadEnjoyer
I do mono
anon
maybe i should give that a shot at some point
BigSadEnjoyer
everyone is different and its 100% worth it experimenting with different HRTs because like
BigSadEnjoyer
EVERYONE has a different hormone profile, receptiveness to hormones in general
BigSadEnjoyer
so experimenting with whats effective is important it has to be personalized
anon
yeah for sure. just hard to do legally
BigSadEnjoyer
what country are u in?
anon
somewhere cursed, but not totally cursed
anon
i get my pills legally and all
>>62424
BigSadEnjoyer
why not say? its not like saying ur country is doxing urself? xD
>>62428
anon
>>62422
what state are u in?
BigSadEnjoyer
im in new york state oh no ive been doxed xD
anon
it is a bad country lol
BigSadEnjoyer
russia? xD
anon
>>62423
glowies can correlate ip and personal info admitted
>>62432
anon
not *that* bad
BigSadEnjoyer
if they have ur IP they know ur fucking country dummy lmaoo
>>62431
anon
still waiting to be cleared for hrt cause of some shitty ass rules
>>62434
anon
>>62433
so annoying. sorry anon.
BigSadEnjoyer
well if u need tips for DIY i can tell u were to get needles and such
anon
its alright, id say its worth it because diy isnt an option for me cause of parents and also healthcare covers everything, which is great.
BigSadEnjoyer
vet needles are the same as human needles FYI if they have the tips that screw in
BigSadEnjoyer
injections are really easy after the first time
BigSadEnjoyer
and i HATE needles, had major phobia of them
BigSadEnjoyer
i faced my fear tho to grow boobies
>>62448
anon
i used to be petrified of needles as a kid but now idc anymore
anon
blood work on the other hand
anon
i cant do it
BigSadEnjoyer
bloodwork is nice to have but its not like I wouldnt DIY if I couldnt get bloodwork done
BigSadEnjoyer
idc about bloodwork
anon
u can still get bloodwork while doing diy u just go somewhere for it
>>62449
anon
>>62440
*PERSONA THEME STARTS PLAYING*
BigSadEnjoyer
>>62447
US has like a monopoly on blood tests between two companies its like 110 bucks to test for 3 or 4 hormones
>>62452>>62454
BigSadEnjoyer
if you go to quest
anon
that's cursed
BigSadEnjoyer
idk where I am its only quest
anon
>>62449
expensive but life saving depending on the person
BigSadEnjoyer
i do get slightly high blood pressure :(
BigSadEnjoyer
whenever i get my blood pressure taken people are like... HUH? let me do it again
anon
i hope one day healthcare stops being so shitty and everyone can just transition for free
BigSadEnjoyer
libertarians be like: if you cant afford it u should die
BigSadEnjoyer
xD
anon
theyre gatekeeping my life behind shitty protocols
BigSadEnjoyer
he he he
anon
they know im suicidal cause im trans and theyre like "ok we'll make you wait even more to transition then"
>>62470
anon
????
anon
i hate doctors i hate doctors i hate doctors
anon
healthcare doesnt rly work in ur favor
anon
so im gonna start lying about everything
BigSadEnjoyer
#freeluigi
BigSadEnjoyer
#botsay hash tag free loo ee gee
anon
>>62462
this sort of stuff makes me so mad. i remember reading like a literature review about this and the researchers were like "they didn't let this mentally ill person transition because they were mentally ill! clearly this was the right choice since they ended up killing themselves due to their mental illness." and i'm like ??? THIS IS A BAD OUTCOME?
>>62477>>62483
BigSadEnjoyer
#botsay hash tag free loo ee gee
hash tag free loo ee gee
hash tag free loo ee gee
hash tag free loo ee gee
hash tag free loo ee gee
hash tag free loo ee gee
hash tag free loo ee gee
hash tag free loo ee gee
anon
shashtag
shrimp
i hear fashtag
BigSadEnjoyer
fashtag
anon
also doctors are kind of transphobic, when i was in a ward one of the doctors was talking to me and compared me to this psychotic guy that said he wanted to be a woman
shrimp
hashtags on twitter
BigSadEnjoyer
>>62470
reading 1980s trans case studies will make you want to die 100%
>>62481
shrimp
.play parting of the sensory modest mouse
BigSadEnjoyer
its insane some of the shit people did to trannies
BigSadEnjoyer
I remember one I read where an aircraft mechanic was denied transition until they got a more female occupation so they had to swithc to being a nurse and they were the only one in their circle who actually got to access healthcare after months of RLE
>>62489
anon
>>62477
yes! AND NOT JUST! it was ALL incredibly cursed until like 2010. and then things got better for like 4 years. AND THEN WE GOT THIS PANIC.
anon
>>62470
they treat gender dysphoria like schizophrenia or something like if they affirm whatever you want it makes you worse
BigSadEnjoyer
>>62482
fuck this hurts it hurts
BigSadEnjoyer
i represessed because iw as poor
BigSadEnjoyer
:(
BigSadEnjoyer
i was literally like for real homeless, like sleeping in the park and on trains homeless
BigSadEnjoyer
fully like FOR REAL homeless
>>62495
anon
>>62480
the absolutely 100000% most cursed thing about this is that they treated us all like this and then described us as ultra femme in the literature because we conformed to their expectations in order to transition.
>>62492
BigSadEnjoyer
i couldnt tranistion :(
anon
healthcare is shitty and this field is already undereducated as well and transphobes make it even worse
BigSadEnjoyer
>>62489
blanchtards explode pls
BigSadEnjoyer
that said I respect blanchs work because he still put people on HRT and got them care unliek the 60s docs who like, make children rape each other to try to prove you could care trans feelings
>>62494
anon
>>62493
naw sorry he helped like 1 in 1000 people or something lol he was gigabad
>>62496
shrimp
>>62488
gatekeeping homelessness
BigSadEnjoyer
>>62494
better than the 50s, its a timeline
anon
honestly i'm not sure lol
anon
legit
anon
back then they at least had the benjamin scale stuff which was not as hostile
anon
the pizza joined was already closed.... its so over....
BigSadEnjoyer
it was insanely hostile trust me lol
>>62504
anon
real life experience without hormones! if you continue to look feminine after 5 more years on testosterone maybe perhaps possibly i will consider thinking about writing you a letter to an endocrinologist who might think about prescribing you estrogen !
BigSadEnjoyer
60s was still 'women dont have a sexuality beyond attracting men thats why they dont like sex' tier psychology
>>62505>>62507
anon
>>62501
it was! but STILL not necessarily as bad, which is insane
anon
>>62503
fam this is literally what bailey believed lol
>>62508
anon
image.png
best case scenario if everything goes well i start hrt at the end of february or early march
anon
>>62503
sounds like youre hysterical
BigSadEnjoyer
he wwas evil tho
anon
they all were
anon
cursed, cursed, cursed. the first good trans doctor was probably minted ten years ago.
BigSadEnjoyer
bailey was blanchards sneior
anon
idk there was that british lady soldier
anon
and ofc britain is now hell for trans people. hell for basically everyone there but trans people especially
BigSadEnjoyer
we need to form a tag team of all the worst trans sexologists as like a superhero team
BigSadEnjoyer
zimmerman
BigSadEnjoyer
blanchard
anon
zucker
anon
god, zucker
BigSadEnjoyer
zucker yea
BigSadEnjoyer
xD
anon
who was the one who wrote studies about. um. things that were. ugh
anon
the pedo studies? zucker
BigSadEnjoyer
multiple....
BigSadEnjoyer
zucker was the most recent one
anon
fun fact about zuck btw is that he was the chair of the group that wrote the dsm-5's section on gender dysphoria
anon
you have to listen to DOCTORS!!!!!!!
BigSadEnjoyer
xD
anon
free luigi
anon
legit so evil
anon
i mean like. blood level testing is useful but i wish it were like. more common knowledge to know how to take care of one's body
anon
why does society have to be structured in this way
anon
it does not, but that is where we are now
anon
and the question is how to move forward
anon
i've heard of like. 4 thieves vinegar collective who is like. publicizing various medical interventions and chemical processes irreverent of any patent laws
BigSadEnjoyer
my discord friend just sent me a picture of their cat and its really cute
1.345% BoOjEr!boymodewng
>my
what is my
>discord
what is discord
>friend
what is friend
>just
when
>>62543
anon
cat!!!
anon
i was that cat
anon
>>62541
animal! animal! animal! animal! animal! animal! animal!
BigSadEnjoyer
look at his little paws
BigSadEnjoyer
can you do youtube live on this
BigSadEnjoyer
if is treamed on youtube could i stream to the thread xD
>>62557>>62556
1.347% BoOjEr!boymodewng
>>62554
no
anon
it errors out and just adds a 48 –
>>62560
BigSadEnjoyer
>>62556
yeaaa streammmm vintage story
1.348% BoOjEr!boymodewng
>>62558
#halt
anon
hour video to the playlist
>>62565
BigSadEnjoyer
this could be us but u sold hte thinkpad
1.349% BoOjEr!boymodewng
>>62561
oh it only adds an hour video, good to know
anon
fascinating
BigSadEnjoyer
stop stealing my culture
BigSadEnjoyer
this is cultural appropriation
anon
"they believe in gender conformity but also have the notion they could never conform" pretty much sums of the board
BigSadEnjoyer
its cause im ugly anon
BigSadEnjoyer
:<
anon
the world is ugly
anon
you have to destroy it
>>62580
anon
if everyone looked like you then that would be the standard
anon
you know
anon
then i would be ugly
anon
when did gay men migrate away from /tttt/ to /fit/?
>>62585
anon
i didn't know they left for fit of all places lmao
shrimp
is that how lgbt became tttt
>>62588
1.350% BoOjEr!boymodewng
>>62586
#change the entire sentence to is that how i became a bottom
>>62590
anon
>>62587
>copyrighted material
UMMMMMMMMMMM
anon
.play anarchocapitalism the movie
>>62595
BigSadEnjoyer
> Anthem is a dystopian fiction novella by Russian–American writer Ayn Rand, written in 1937 and first published in 1938 in the United Kingdom. The story takes place at an unspecified future date when mankind has entered another Dark Age. Technological advancement is now carefully planned and the concept of individuality has been eliminated. A young man known as Equality 7-2521 rebels by doing secret scientific research. When his activity is discovered, he flees into the wilderness and is followed by Liberty 5-3000, a woman he loves. Together they plan to establish a new society based on rediscovered individualism.
>>62593
1.351% BoOjEr!boymodewng
>>62592
Anthem is a dystopian fiction novella by Russian-American writer Any Rand, written in 1937 and first published in 1938 in the United Kingdom. The story takes place at an unspecificed future date when mankind has enteredd antoher Dark Age. Technological advancement is now carefully planned and the concept of indiviutality has been eliminated. A young man known as Equaslity 7-2521 rebls by doing secret scientific research. When his activity is discovered, he flees into the wilderness and is followed by Liberty 5-3000, a woman he loves. together they plan to establish a new society based on rediscovered indivuidualism
anon
>>62595
pretty long movie if you ask me
anon
i see
BigSadEnjoyer
#ai is anthem by ayn rand good?

It depends on personal opinion. Some people consider Anthem to be a powerful and thought-provoking novel that explores themes of individualism, collectivism, and the struggle for freedom. Others criticize it for its heavy-handed messaging and simplistic characterization. Overall, many readers find the book to be an engaging read with compelling ideas worth considering.
is anthem by ayn rand good?
>>62600
shrimp
>>62598
its probably not
BigSadEnjoyer
ive read it its a pretty good book
guacamole
>>62599
that's just a documentary, or perhaps a video essay
shrimp
the only thing i actually know abt ayn rand is that someone read atlus shrugged and liked it cause they thought it was satire
BigSadEnjoyer
atlas shrugged is a decent book if u just read it as bad romance
anon
i just know from /lit/ atlas shrugged has a giant monologue in it and it sucks
>>62611
BigSadEnjoyer
the only good book ayn rand wrote was We the Living its genuinely a good book
BigSadEnjoyer
its also a romance novel
anon
>>62608
thank you for warming me
anon
my life is many many pages
BigSadEnjoyer
image.png
#ai describe the plot of ayn rand we the living

The plot of Ayn Rand's novel "We the Living" follows the story of Kira Argounova, a young woman living in Soviet Russia during the early 1920s. As Kira struggles to survive in a society that values collectivism and stifles individualism, she must navigate through various challenges and hardships.

At the start of the novel, Kira is finishing school and preparing to enter university. However, her plans are derailed when she is denied admission due to her family's alleged involvement with anti-communist activities. Her father has been arrested by the secret police and her mother dies soon after from illness.

Kira is forced to find work as a manual laborer in order to support herself while also taking care of her sickly younger sister Lydia. She meets Leo Kovalensky, an idealistic writer who shares her rebellious spirit against communism. The two begin a passionate but tumultuous love affair despite their vastly different backgrounds - Leo coming from an affluent family who have adapted well to communist rule.

As their relationship develops amidst political turmoil and economic hardship, they face numerous obstacles including poverty, government oppression, betrayal by friends and loved ones,and ultimately being forced into hiding as fugitives from authorities.

Despite these challenges,Kira remains determined not only for survival but also for personal fulfillment.She refuses to conform or compromise with societal expectations,demanding independence,freedom,and choice even at great risk.Knowing that true happiness can never be achieved under such oppressive conditions,she risks everything for love,courageously defying authority until tragedy strikes.

In conclusion,"We The Living" portrays how individual freedom becomes impossible within a collectivist society where citizens are expected to sacrifice their own desires for social conformity.The novel highlights themes such as individualism vs.collectivism,political corruption,lack of personal liberty,human resilience,and romantic passion.It serves as both warning against totalitarian regimesand tribute towards those who fight for their own self-determination and freedom.
describe the plot of ayn rand we the living
BigSadEnjoyer
terrible synopsis they dont even talk about best boy
anon
>buy my plushie or else
>>62617
BigSadEnjoyer
tffw no soviet secret police bf who keeps me a dark secret he would be kjilled for indulging in
anon
>>62615
you shall know them by their ad reads
BigSadEnjoyer
.skip 30
BigSadEnjoyer
.jump 30
anon
i hate this youtube slop format
>>62623
anon
what am i watching
BigSadEnjoyer
AHAHAHAHA
anon
>>62620
it all feels so samey
anon
cursed cursed cursed
BigSadEnjoyer
hes a transguy hes based tho
>>62631
shrimp
its just reading reddit posts
BigSadEnjoyer
very wholesome
anon
fam trans music is when the loudest sound you've ever heard plays in your ear during the best EDM breakcore microgenre microtone solo you've ever heard
anon
>>62627
i like sam collins
BigSadEnjoyer
>>62611
its very very veyr many very many pages
shrimp
>>62633
#reply

John Galt is a fictional character in Ayn Rand's novel "Atlas Shrugged." He is an enigmatic figure who plays a central role in the story as the leader of a strike by industrialists against government interference and collectivism. His name has become synonymous with individualism, free-market capitalism, and self-determination.
anon
>>62624
they look like they leave their room
shrimp
i need to start reading books
BigSadEnjoyer
games are more rewarding dopamine wise
>>62640>>62642
anon
i hate reading books
shrimp
>>62638
thats the problem
BigSadEnjoyer
xD
BigSadEnjoyer
maybe
BigSadEnjoyer
im addicteddd
shrimp
me2
BigSadEnjoyer
brb getting some water stay hydrated
shrimp
im a gamer till i die
>>62650
BigSadEnjoyer
#hydrationnation
anon
>>62642
improving my life made me love them a lot again
>>62654
anon
>>62647
i refuse to call myself a gamer though i'm a player of games gamer is a slur
shrimp
yeah gamer is tainted
anon
go work your 9 to 5 ill be GAMINH
>>62653
anon
>>62649
that means games won't be fun ever again for me :(
>>62655
anon
>>62654
no that means you need to level up your life.........

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