oh this site is still up

this rebrand is lame though tbqhwu

hi

i havent post here since last year

i remembver sometimes it would be like six people and i could still chat

yeah makes sense

i moved STATES and have j*b now so i havent been on pc as much

it has been beneficial for me except for the part where i got anxious applying for job and decided to manmode and now i am stuck doing that for the forseeable future because i dont want to talk about it

its retail so i dont get much control over presentation orz. my cool gay work uncle can Tell though. he theys me on the radio which is sort of funny

hopefulkly u can get things sorted and also avoid my mistake wwwww

dunno where ur from or going (not really asking either) but getting a big reset like that is good for brain in a lot of ways. i am still adjusting to the fact my parents cannot see everyting that happens in my house

its a place where u can be Visibly Transsexual at least. i would not be the only such person working at this store. i am just neurotic

all of the teenage boys i work with think i am a teenage boy

lmao

i havent seen anyone open carry sincei moved

>>688502
:(

i hear guns a lot more here but i never see them its strange

back home ppl would just have the blick v obvioujsly in their hoodie pocket

brb cigarette

Don't smoke kids

Don't smoke children either

nicenice

i am gonna go bed actually. i am exhausted

gn!!!'

>>688533
they did

sorry that was also me

the flag anon not the one who left that is baabahwahwheowejiwoejifjoeapfhohuiefUI(S))()()()()()()()()()()()()()( . Y . )

ive been awake for a few hours
good morning saeki

i keep spending time learning more about computer things, language models, etc
I'm just thinking like, is any of this worth the time I'm putting in
It's really weird because my worldview feels like an obnoxious abstraction
Very detached

i yap a lot about commodification of like, the human spirit (however you want to quantify that)
and i almost kind of think that there won't be a lot of time left for me? nothing specific, i just always have that feeling
im not sure i could look back at a lifetime of playing with the thinky sand toys and imagine that was a good use of my life

silicone

computers

silly cone

silly catte

this reminds me of that microsoft buying billions of dollars worth of sand meme

.play dunkeky microsoft sucks

huh

.play test

>>688564
what why

.skip (video skipped)

it should still find it

.play dunkeyu microsof sucks

hi saeki

do.. do ubers genuinely take people on like
2hr trips?

wtf

thats literally like putting up a quest for the main character

this reminds me of that movie collateral (2004) great movie

>>688590
#reply explain

yeah collateral slaps. cruise as a silver fox hitman? iconic. vincent’s whole vibe is just *chef’s kiss* bleak la nights. still mad we never got a sequel. explain

A cab driver finds himself the hostage of an engaging contract killer as he makes his rounds from hit to hit during one night in Los Angeles.

i wish we had a 'search' command instead of just the bot

#wiki (no wikipedia results found) collateral 2004

:wiki

::wiki collateral 2004

what

#wiki balls [Wikipedia]

#wiki Collateral (Film) [Wikipedia]

this is basicallyu search

yeah but it is certainly not fuzzy

#wiki (no wikipedia results found) dog smells

>>688589
im just wondering like
*who* is accepting this

the ai command is already kinda search

#ai describe the plot of the movie collateral in a normal tone

in collateral, a los angeles cab driver named max picks up a mysterious hitman named vincent. vincent offers max $600 to drive him around for the night, but max soon realizes vincent is assassinating targets across the city. trapped in his own cab, max tries to survive the night as both the police and criminals close in. it’s a tense, fast-paced thriller with neon-soaked visuals and sharp dialogue. tom cruise plays against type as the cold, calculating vincent, while jamie foxx delivers a solid performance as the everyman caught in way over his head. describe the plot of the movie collateral in a normal tone

>>688606
wow this sounds like a fun movie actually

its pretty good

you were actually right about uhh
halt and catch fire
i did the thing with that show i do with every other show
i skip the last few episodes for some reason and forget about it for months

movies are easier to conclude

>>688607
the saving grace of ubers for me is like
i dont have to interact for more than a few minutes

one time i got an uber back from a job i had
i had an energy drink in my bag that i set down
forgot it was there
spilled it in the poor uber guy's car :(
i wanted to stab myself in the stomach lol
i apologized profusely and tipped him 20 dollars

>>688611
did you finish it?

i remember liking later seasons way more

>>688614
not entirely
we talked about it before and i was really amped up about how much i didnt like the characters in s1

yea i remember

>>688616
it interrupts the loop

its like, on a long ride like that
you might need to get fuel, you might need to PEE

breaks my immersion
my slave labor taxi should be seamless

thanks gig economy

>>688619
i think i stopped after he died

the death scene where gordon watches the 'most important moments of his life' was really unsettling to me

#ai if i got rid of every computer in my life sans my phone (maybe a dumb phone) and my work machine
how would that go

depends on your lifestyle but generally you'd miss out on comfort stuff like big screens for browsing, gaming, or any serious work beyond emails. dumb phone would help reduce distractions but you'd lose convenience like mobile apps. work machine only would suck if you need to do personal stuff on it (privacy, work restrictions). not impossible but you’d feel the gaps hard until you adjust. probably better for focus if you can handle the trade-offs. if i got rid of every computer in my life sans my phone (maybe a dumb phone) and my work machine

i gotta force myself into the real world

>>688625
>most important moments of his life
i dont remember what this was but i kinda remember that episode it was long ago

how do you spoiler here

test

oh

dick and balls|

>>688633
#bleet (link to bleet)

|test|

test

going to type for just a few moments here until the ultimate punchline: made u look

btw i also got your nose

>>688625
just skimmed it on youtube and remembered it i really liked it when i watched it was really well done but still very sad, one of the best scenes

>>688642
oh yeah i agree, it was
its a weird timeline thing to follow a character through all of that and watch what the writers imagine the culmination of every decision the guy made looks like at the end. idk, it was pretty and it was thoughtful but it was kind of, idk; i have nothing bad to say about it, just that i responded kinda poorly to it. maybe ive been thinking about dying too much lately

i liked how joe broke his right hand the same time gordon died (he lost his righ hand man)

>>688644
thats so goddamn sad why did you tell me that

embrace the sadness

;_;

i think i actually havent spent a single day the past few months without thinking about dying

>>688066
holy shit ive never wanted to wear a cape more

i think about dying often but not in like a sad way

i leveled up from that

yeah it moved on from sad for me at some point as well

the loss of all context, the weird like
acceleration of time thing w/ age
just feels strange

i recently did a strange thing where i went through the places i grew up in on google maps and imagined walking around those places on some day before ultimately just kind of dying there

>>688657
laying down and becoming part of the place as time passes into another age

>>688658
i feels more poignant to me than dying in some dystopian way
healthcare failing, health in general failing, hate crime, whatever

i often have random flashed of memories about some place from childhood like the school bus stop or something, but theres no memory of something happening its just im looking at the place and thats it, its really random

>>688661
#editai change flashed to flashes

i don't know this, but i believe that we don't actually forget anything, it just becomes disconnected, unlikely to trigger the association. and many times i have flashes of memory back to a dream of a place my childhood home never actually was. impossibly covered with greenery. like something out of a fantasy novel scene. places so green that i've never seen something like that in real life.

>>688663
happens to me too
just an innocuous little flashback
scares me every time, too

>>688660
i think more than anything for me, i feel like i utterly failed to adapt to this whole era / life
its been a while and its really a disconnected feeling
there's a lot of decay in my little world and it just feels like it's coming to it's conclusion soon i guess

>>688675
oh it's true, the narrative part
im confident i'd survive as i usually do
at least for a long while, im pretty resourceful / scrappy
i guess it's more of a uh, idk? conceptual thing

>>688711
after seeing spikedog killed multiple times over it makes me happy to see spikedog having a good day

>>688659
is the world killing you, that which gave you life, a betrayal, a all things falling apart

>>688664
pruning does happen actually of the connection entirely

hihihihi cutie pie

how u feeling saeki

tfw haven’t gotten to the saeki posts yet reading thru

u get to talk to Nona? I telled her last nite u wan

bib:)

me too actually I think the new adhd med work. :) >>688690

>>688696
u might still be able to submit impact statement if y need but I don’t think u need to like idk if more punishment good or if hearing those makes ppl change or whatever. sounds maybe like it could be just a way to feel better :/ but u do what u want ur a smart capable saeki <3

>>688702
I love u I will u 2

my friend w orchy is going back to work n feeling good :) n said to me to have a calm day today cuz i worry so I’m being calm :)

it looks super uncomfortable in that ventilation shaft. i hope masked man is okay

>>688713
saeki if u ever watn me to do this stuff with you id be happy to help

I need to do lots today kinda excited tho :) .. but calm! not getting overwhelmed haha fingers cross

>>688719
funne I got a heart tho would defeat grebs if he came for cuties hearts

>>688722
I need to like print out the lyrics of these songs and sing along and make em educational or smth would be Ebin

>>688742
beep boop:)
..I don’t remember what I meant lol

qt ~

would you want to be a robot these days?

10 mg >>688745

10 mg :-D

it lisdexamphetamine which apparently metabolizes to dexamphetamine thru day

but I felt confident and good on if yesterday in a way i don’t on adderal

might be other changes in life too