uhhhh

unsure I'll have to look but they had 20 counts related to '''recieving''' images or such of minors and 10 were for under 15

but I thought the sentencing was today cus of smth gloob helped with, though I went n turned on a VPN on my phone and searched up the name and found a release from the 7th
crazy

still lil shook as I was the first time I found out any court thing was happening but also phew

particularly with confirmation it wasnt 'just' me being hurt there and that there was a serious reason to approach it how we did

yeah uh

do not lel

yeah i

need to do like a

well actually I started a webpage for a new essay the other day and set it up so that people could read a draft of the webpage if I linked a code Collab site

but need to write more about this as its uhm

now finally over with

also I'd be interested to get the documents if ever possible because I dunno if any other victims gave an impact statement, the docs are public but I'm not gonna deal w PACER for certain reasons, myself

but I'll see, I appreciate worms lots

oe?

lol

<3

its unsure though bc

the press release saying the sentencing was released on the 7th

oe

might try and work on the first draft of manuscript for this follow-up essay that I can link worms the room to view me writing it in
then maybe do a sort of melancholic celebration later

>>700758
mhmhm

>>700759
#hug

>>700766
>~<

love u too

uh

gag

I just realized my phone was open to libpol but it was off and

I have this muted on my laptop

so my phone underneath me was saying 'faggot' and I was like huh

ty I closed the tab

gloob if u didn't get what I meant b4, would u be able to ask peeps for docs when next able? the press release was released last week so it happened a week ago

xoxo luv u,,,

xoxo luv u,,, <3

ye the PDFs if is possible >~<

appreciate u, if need me to pay I can do that's too even just symbolically

just cus if I'm gonna continue my second piece on it, wud be good to know what happened yk

^u^

appreciate n luv chu along w other worms

also

ye I gotta get past my dumdum brain and open ele

avoidant days

<3

ur qt!

qtpie that is

>>700853
#kiss

would happily go on walks/runs or rides w u

:333

(letting u catch and tackle me and)

>>700866
I dmed u

>>700866
also related, you've read my page right-
(I always forget who I have and haven't sent it to, as I mainly would mention it on quiet nights around 1-2 months ago)

ye was unsure >~<;;;

<3

huggu

appreciate chu,,

>>700848
hmmmm
maybe trying to pursue the things you feel on a whim a lil interest in

and yea

I didn't see if they got put on the registry but I feel like that's assumed

its weird though, I feel like they either didn't see our report till 2024 or they got a second report
as we made it a couple years prior

we did tell their mom or who they lived with though, and maybe it came from that, unsure

they lived in a shithole Kentucky house in a poor redneck area with their mom and grandpa - who they would constantly complain about having become the caretaker for, to me - and had only worked at McDonald's by like 22 or 23

they also were why I first tried drugs, egging me on to do it and talking about how great it felt smfh

be safe and take care or urselves, worms, reach out to people if ur in a bad situation

I mean this heavily depends on the drug

doing psychs can be a very positive experience as a whole for a person even if they have a rough trip, though this can be minimized with the right set and setting

but I mean it depends a lot, just test your drugs and make sure you have a support system so that you have barriers to falling into using it to escape or cope, heavily

I believe drugs can be helpful and positive but we live in a system that kinda creates abuse and dangers inherently, weed and psychs can be chill, though

firstly there's the context that they were grooming me as a minor and were giving me positive affirmation towards doing them, and were happily there as I did a line of my medications on call with them and were sort of giddy

they were into it as like a sexual thing

I hadn't done anything other than taking my pills as told or less than needed

I don't have an issue w drugs or chemsex type stuff but using it as a way to get off bc of power imbalance is a different thing bc its just a means to an end of being controlling

oh god

I just remembered

so uh

in uhhh]

June of 2020 I finally decided to break up w her cus it was just not good

I tried to let her down easy cus shed be the type to say I'll kms if I ever lose you
and she sorta tried to guilt trip me as I said I think I need a break, even just for a week or a month
then she poofed after and the next day had changed her profile pic to being a happy split pic w some other person shed started dating in under 24 hrs

pat

awe

I was well

in 2020 I'd make jokes about how I had been living that life style everyone began experiencing since 2018

yea other than the situation I moved in w all that much but I believe it was the right call as I was able to get somewhere I felt much safer and escape where I was living that had made me unable to recover fully

and awe

how do u mean by last part, like going there for u or wh

would never have rly gotten that but err

wouldn't have met the peeps in that region if I stayed in school and came as a direct result of me leaving that I immediately moved in w them for a bit

but I would've gone back to live there w roomies sooner if I couldve

>>700934
its the nw a long the ocean in the US

yeah no this is a imposed thing by older generations but its a much higher rate now of people in their mind 20s still living with parents due to cost

yeah, no

that's a privileged person view but I get why they think that

wish we had universal basic income and housing

and created a system to get drugs legally and safely with support for addiction services

>>700946
its more pactical for most people at the moment of this age due to the economy and the housing market, but its also hard for queer people in particular to reliably be able to do in specific

though if you have any issues with family then you're thrown into figuring it out alone or finding a support system to help

and yeah its dependent on a lot of things

trans people in particular have such a high rate of homelessness due to often not being able to fall back on family due to being kicked out or such

abolish the nuclear family

I need to download the relationship anarchism manifesto

communities need to be there to support the kids in theirs and also a system to help kids whos family is yk, that isn't shit like the system we have now

>>700966
ikr

so I was thinking

maybe I could someday get a place from govdeals

I'll show some examples of places on govdeals in a while

I like this essay and the ideas
https://theanarchistlibrary.org/library/andie-nordgren-the-short-instructional-manifesto-for-relationship-anarchy.html

I can imagine that out there they are pricey

I need to grab the link for the libpol msg formatting for effects n stuff doc

its on my main PC that I've been putting off logging onto

sharing again cus I luv it and I will repost
https://theanarchistlibrary.org/library/andie-nordgren-the-short-instructional-manifesto-for-relationship-anarchy.html
teehee
:3

also is mainly for the concepts in it, even if you don't fully buy into a set of ideas, the lenses they provide can be of good use in building the right kind of view or a relationship - platonic or otherwise - that works best for you

>>700997
I would respond to this but I don't have the energy

going to put it into writing and not argue about this I believe there's something I can link

>>701008
this isn't what its meaning, I get the struggle of that kind of thing, but the point here is to be able to better do what you both like and not have complete control over the autonomy of the other person/people, as in you can do those things you mention while they can do what they want, too, and both have mutual respect for each others interests in doing these things

I just have to probably find smth I can show to give some of the things I would say, but I have stuff I need to work on writing and it would be a thing if I tried here, though

I have had many people I'm close to end up homeless and the ones you see who are violent on the street or so unwell that they act out are in the vast minority and the issue is that we have literally no system to get these people support beyond giving them like

as in

there is a shit load of homeless people who are living out of their car or are invisible to you

I don't mean it in the minimizing sense, just that while those people should be taken just as seriously as all the others, yk, its important to recognize that there's a lot more of them than just those - the ones that get the most attention in the media or are most clear out on the street

yea

pat

yea its hard cus most people will have a couple bad experiences and they stick out as the only thing in their mind

yeah

again

look at the amount of trans homeless people

ye

>>701036
ou
hope she's getting by, sigh

thasgud!

I dated a guy from the UK who became homeless but as of a year ago maybe he was okay and found a place

he, sadly, got jumped/stabbed in London though while living on the streets which was so horrible to hear about randomly, thankfully he was alright

new bill: replace all cars with hamster balls

this Amsterdam mention reminds me of

I gotta turn on my video player first before I try to find it

.search Patriot Amsterdam busking birds song clip

1. 1.
   
   Patriot Season 1 Birds of Amsterdam Song | Prime Video

   Prime Video

   2:19
2. 2.
   
   Birds of Amsterdam (a tutorial of the 1st song from Patriot)

   mattatatat

   6:22
3. 3.
   
   Patriot Season 1 Patriot Sings in Coffee House | Prime Video

   Prime Video

   1:33
4. 4.
   
   Three Little Birds in Amsterdam

   FOOTBALL CULTURE (PI ALFA)

   3:42
5. 5.
   
   Pigeon on the street, jamming and dancing along to busker playing Robin Thicke’s Blurred Lines

   Pigeon Radio Australia

   0:15

1

.skip (voted to skip this video)

(ex us spy now folk singer hiding in Amsterdam after trauma from ops and such made to do by his dad)

and heh

alt scene one is quite the description

lol

oh!

I gotta look for the chaos computer conference/media.ccc talk about the dutch feds infiltration of left wing groups and the peep who did election research being targeted for u
talk by the guy I mean, that I mentioned b4

::hug
>>701080
#throw

.play [YouTube]

:v

reminds me I need to see if We are the Cavalry still is out there doing stuff

also wasn't sure if this was frank that's real cuul ;v

lole

hehe

:V

waow
bazed but also hope ur cool now n things chilled

but gah