started my new pills today feel like shit slept all day

>>718555
omg heya

hope u feel better soon n they help

they will its just antibiotics are rough and these are fairly strong

i was craving some spicy chili but was too nervous and messed up to drive so i ate chicken noodle soup and went to bed

maybe i'll get the chili tomorrow if things are more normal feeling

they are only open noon to 4 so its like ugh

pizzeria making

>>718570
just a weirdo

guys like that are creepy probably a repper

yea

i thinkthere are a lot more reppers out there than we realize

oh i stopped using grindr for now since some other big stuff is happening in my life and i dont need to get hurt right b4 something good happens

hug

deserve support n not to deal w the pain of some of that

its really boring without random guys to chat and play with but i gotta be good till this new thing is figured out and i'm settled

i'm used to it its obvious i'm trans but people seem unoffended by me

oh i'm sorry :(

i probably have marfans or something

do you present in female clothing with longer hair?

i honmode as tttt says and nobody sirs me that way but if i manmode it still happens sometimes

i wish i was a passoid if i post in passgen i get laughed out

i got lucky with my body but still hate my face

so i let my hair cover it most of the time

the only thing i dislike about mine is i'm going grey

39 and blonde that color fades fast

nowits "ash blonde" but will be grey in like 5-10 years

that was me during a manic episode last night

>>718596
no, geez

stfu

smacking u

I would not hugbox people

I would be very direct if I did not feel the things I say I do to u

god i have no energy this is rough

>>718615
#hug
feel that, take some time to recover the best u can but I hope u can do the stuff chu wanna

basically i'm stuck in the house till after my mouth surgery outsdie of work

i'mliterally so tired i just go to sleep randomly

mhm

same sigh

i think its the outcome of almost 2 months of antibiotics and several reinfections

weba twink

making pizzer

i haev some pastaon the way will eat it soon

gonna put hot sauce all over it cuz i'm needing vinegar

ou

I wanna get tolerant to hot sauce n stuff

i grow peppers so i just eat spicy all the time

i like picking the lil tabasco peppers and rinsing them then eating like snacks

but also the clindamycin i took nuked my guts so i supposedly crave vinegar and spice because its helping restore my biome

hi

weba labrys

making pizzer

i'm usually higher on the acidity side and being low makes me feel sick

noms are done :>

>>718639
I get this

my nails is black but they have a faint green undertone u can see in the sun

yummy wasps

the feeling of being horny has been replaced in my brain with something i don't understand, wat do

hm

if cus of hrt, meds can help or stuff
but depends

>>718650
i'm not saying it's a bad thing though

i used to hate male libido, it was the fucking worst
now i feel kinda like a normal human being, but at the same time it's weird to not have that weird disgusting impulse in the back of my mind every few days anymore

yeh

i lost access to hrt and hate the experience of T libido/sex drive but its different and the other feelings it can change to are just different

i'm pretty peaceful not getting that urge

>>718655
isn't it? T horny as a teenager was the worst, just clouding my mind every day and making me yearn for something that was not physically possible at that time
that was horrible

yeh

after being on E for quite a while, dealing w the horror of body changes again but especially the increase in sex drive I didn't want or like has not been fun

i can think and reflect more on life now

>>718659
true

>>718660
waow, cute

my face looks really tired and rough today u can see i've been sleeping for like 14 hours

>>718660
ye cute

>>718658
are you detransitioning? why are you getting off E?

I might try black at some point

>>718666
I lost access to my source

>>718668
rip
what's your country, if that's fine to ask?

and other circumstances

restarting soon here, I have a vial again

i'm gonna swap to injections afer my orchi

>>718672
oh alright, i was about to suggest some good DIY sources for your region, lol

ye I've always been diy but just situation surrounding money rly

>>718673
yay, congrats!

until the nuts are gone i have little faith in dosing right and dont want to lose ground with how much my boobs have grown recently

and my source began being investigated cus they thought she was selling fent

8mg sublingual has been good to me but its a chore and it'llbe simpler with no t blocker to worry about

>>718678
in retrospect, i had a shitton of luck when i first started out with E

>>718673
hope u can get that going soon, too

>>718683
acquired a vial of EEn from a friend, picked the right dosage within an hour, got perfect bloodwork a month later
fast forward three months to my appointment with a real endo - she's actually genuinely surprised i got the dosages right, lol

tooth first, then a pretty big thing happening and orchi prob by november if it goes well

>>718688
yeah, I wish u the best with both sm

i'll talk abot big thing if it happens if not i'm gonna be kinda sad so i'mjust keeping it to me

>>718686
its usually not that hard to find a general dose for most ppl but if you have the info it can generally be alright, unless ur levels are off for whatever reason

>>718695
mhm, i've settled for a particularly strange dosage (6mg per 7 days) but apparently that's the sweet spot for me - T is below 30 ng/dL, E at trough reaches 190 pg/mL

>>718693
nicu c: would feed u too

yeh that's p alright and should be gud, so does make sense - some people deal with difficulties w it though and it can depend on the person, but for most ppl its pretty universal

i figure why mess up whats working for me atm i can play with injection dosing after i shut the t factory down forever

>>718703
lolol

>>718703
lmfao

alright, back to watching Girls Last Tour
enjoy your evening, frens

hehe

hope u enjoy it

was halfway through the manga a while ago

i be back later probably if i dont go back to sleep after i eat

okiiii

lol

gah

bwa

maybe would hehe

:>

same to u

awe

bwaaa

>>718756
I'll do n let do to me too

:>

gah my tab keeps unloading

hhh

- u-

, ;v

-3-

hehe

:>

yea

hope they can get more stability n energy

but might nap

>>718825
watching a humanist report video and he mentions jubilees stuff and apparently they made an "Anorexics vs Obese" video wtf

>>718831
yeh

I just haven't looked at or had their channel able to recommend to me so I don't see their stuff unless it gets talked about
which I prefer

>>718840
that ones nice

ou

yeh

hehe

gonna see how hot it is upstairs then maybe turn on ac, brush teef, n nap or stuff for a lil

turned on the ac cus its 82 in my room

wh

rip

I could buy 300mg monsters at like 13 if id wanted

;w;

awe

hello

age limit on energy drinks is insane

haiii

i have to move to canada to buy cigs and beer

huh

to make it cooler year

yea*

amongus

hai saeki

hihi how've u been

TERRIBLE

got fired

:C

by transphobic boss cries

awe

bwa

bwaaaaa

::cuddle crying

::cuddle cry

I hope chu can find somewhere again when u need, but that's rly tough, I'm sorry - gah

>>718933
good image

>>718932
:c

its fineeeeee

im fine

ive been playing a lot of digimob

awe

ive been playing so much digimon

haven't tried

::game

cyber sleuth is good

really

good

insane mentally ill lesbians

hehe

theres a lot of talk about girls sniffing eachother

>>718953
BASED