>>731536
;, I wish I was as cute as u ;;;

bwaaa

smh

>>731545
#hug

;^;

nawu

gah

heya <3

u been doing a lil better Nona? I'm sorry I haven't opened messages, I'll try to for u

>>731561
hehe

I wanna watch u play it n sit with u c: and eat pizzer

feed u so u can play

>>731568
oh yea if ur at the Florida man part this guy is mental

I wanna get into games w worms :< I haven't had motivation to play much

I don't rly err

mb sometime but the forest isn't as much my kinda game

yeh

I played a LOT of rust

and built a ton of stuff on these small servers I met a lot of peeps on, and would play w my ex and his younger brother who had tourettes

his brother was sweet

I could recommend u some games w base stuff mb sometime c:

yh

I have a cracked copy but I'd have to see if I can join a smol server w worms

<3

>>731599
hehe I'm aware

, ;3

he wants to also steal my actual clothes

>>731611
<3

ily,,

gah im

I need to be staying w someone I can trust

, ;;;
<3

gah, hru

>>731573
also, if ur still here, the not contacting victims is the thing I went through, too

whaaa

:<

, ;-;

cute,,,

oh yeah the bricking stuff is horrific

:V

can u download me from the wires, too

ty I need to get over to where u r

making fried rice ;P

huh

I think I found out one of my fav artists doesn't seem to copyright claim vids using it as OST ;v
would be of big help to be able to use in my docs

::Yuri mincraft

, _,

heya weba

yeh

sigh

I had to stop for now like over an hour in cus I'm remembering things n feel like crying
was nice to get to listen to w u even if a

is not good

u2

but was being reminded of how the feds or police never reached out to me or anyone

n all this stuff
in melancholic headspace

yeah

I was around tele a lot and there's a ton of horrific stuff if ur not careful or just in dms

but yeah, a lot is just out there that shouldn't be at all

had some fried rice

>>731674
wud cook for u

wanna be able to like

errr

and hehe

I'm trying to get the stability or ability to write about my experiences but feeling that I don't have support or am alone makes it real hard
but wanna

appreciate u

yeh I'm

trying to break past and message peeps, I reached laen and stuff yday but only cus I didn't have to open the msg directory; Ive been stressy w the whole banned thing and gonna have like 10-20 dms from thm

them

is just like
no clue how to approach that w the revelation, especially cus of how it relates to the things i have ig?
idk
but I hate being avoidant, in part bc of feeling I'm too needy or that I'll hurt peeps so I just hide gah

u get in chat w anyone to come over ? or just chilling playing/nomming or stuff

hey chat!

omg heya luz

hihi

<3

sorry about my lil psychotic break the other day lmao

>>731700
yeh I feel that
here if can help

>>731703
wha :<
isoki idk what happened but here if can help, that's tough

take care of urself pls

>>731705
oh no im all good i just had a massive moment of derealisation

yeah

its alright, take the time to recover n work on it that u need, I mean for if you feel it coming on agains

nah its all chill

im all fine and i was fine in the moment i just apologise bc it was i think strange to witness

>>731711
#hug

heya

hru

.search luv sic pt 3 amv

1. 1.
   
   Nujabes - Luv(sic) Pt. 3 ft. Shing02 - ( Samurai Champloo amv )

   Amazing

   5:24
2. 2.
   
   Luv(sic.) part 3 but you're ascending to heaven

   moosical apocalypse

   10:55
3. 3.
   
   Nujabes - luv (sic.) pt 3 video edit

   aaron no

   5:51
4. 4.
   
   Luv (sic.) pt 3 Instrumentals

   Nujabes

   6:15
5. 5.
   
   Samurai Champloo - (Nujabes Luv Sic Pt 3)

   my drive

   5:43

1

, ; -;

.play shredders XANTHRAX

I wanna cry

that might be what I wan if I cry

gah I hate these moods

.play astronautalis contrails

heya

boog...

,~,

>>731754
nicu

I'm upset not upside down

, ; _;

sry

I'm reading the hot allostatic load thing but trying to make it so I can annotate it rn

a lot of weirdos showed up but I hope in time we can get some organic, as much as is possible, traffic of new peeps coming in n more users

not talking abt any of u

oh goc

god

I didn't realize

>>731767
been kinda putting off reading this cus ik how deep it might cut to me
gah
and errr

nah

god, I'm reading the first err
6-8 paragraphs and already know exactly this experience, going through many times n just ughhh

referring to this;
https://thenewinquiry.com/hot-allostatic-load/

I've lost several living situations due to sorta stuff being mentioned 6-8 paragraphs in

scenes, in this context, is meaning a sort of subculture
like the punk scene, the hacking scene, etc etc

sorta, except more broadly

#ai what does scene mean in terms of a community or such

"scene" usually refers to a small, tight-knit community within a larger subculture, like music, art, or fashion. they share specific tastes, aesthetics, or activities—think local punk scenes, vaporwave scenes, sneakerhead scenes, etc. it’s where people with similar interests gather (online or offline) to vibe, share, or sometimes clash. can be based on location or just shared internet spaces. often evolves its own slang, inside jokes, or unwritten rules. what does scene mean in terms of a community or such

shreiemp

I really hope that, in the near future, I can find peeps I can stay w/room w who can help with my - at times - support needs while able to help them too (and pay rent with etc)

whatchu up to- bwa

I just wanna meet peeps who I can even get to if it takes going cross country again

pat
yeh I do not like using it for that kinda thing due to the risks and the just

mess it can create

but using it to compliment, like auto fill things you are meaning to type out, code can be useful just
anything more than a static website or smth meant to send to a friend is sketch

it can do it, but its like

gah I don't wanna go into vibe coding discussion

yk I could play a vid essay that goes into my neuropsych disorder
I wonder if anything else has even mentioned it since

its kinda eh for part of it but it covers the things it can do one min

the guy is cool and I actually dmed him after he posted it, having followed him prior, and thanked him for speaking about it
as its like never mentioned

.search Daryl talks games psychology in anime

1. 1.
   
   How Anime Portrays Collective Anxiety

   Daryl Talks Games

   31:17
2. 2.
   
   The Psychology of Being Watched

   Daryl Talks Games

   11:41
3. 3.
   
   The Anime Episode (April Fools)

   Daryl Talks Games

   3:51
4. 4.
   
   The Horror of Regaining Consciousness

   Daryl Talks Games

   37:10
5. 5.
   
   The Haunting Peace of Being Lost

   Daryl Talks Games

   19:44

1

and heya fent

also ye where

this is the vid

I'll explain how it affected me in a bit once he explains

geez fireworks

o

.seek 0:00

for u

, ;V

gah I had to se so many doctors

awful

he'll talk about it and itll make sense why it went this way, even though it was a horrible choice but

my first neurologist believed I was lying, told me I had a concussion, and told my parents I was lying and that I was to be held in my room and taken away from any electronics or anything until I did schoolwork or went to school

my dad then proceeded to respond horribly as he was drinking a lot at the time
I got through it but yk

avoid going into that time other than in my writing - do what peeps need to get to place that's safe, worms

>>731854
:D

>>731859
#hug

this guy usually would talk about psychology in relation to video games n this was a like sub award vid or smth

he's kinda stopped talking about mental disorders and moved to talking about sociological things that impact how people play/interact/experience different media

awwwe

I get into loops of overanylizing stuff for my own sake n connecting things to others & my own experiences

or concepts

wanna be able to share somewhere, some of the writing I've done about it that I just haven't done a thing with

yeh I get that, sometimes I'll just put on my 'good time hat' and try to just let it wash over me without the overthinking I get usually w media I like a lot

also he's gonna mention jeungian psychology and the name of the disorder, which has since been changed to one I'll say in a couple as it was best to divorce it from that origin

>>731875
cleaning u and ur sheets

funny in a different way

ou

my first one was losing my gait in my legs which got better after moving out for a time, but everything else has gotten worse since moving back

>>731893
#hug

I'm hoping that the stress of my groomer being out there still hurting people will clear and lighten the weight on my health that its had for so long now apart of this

but the main issue is living where I am

the whole thing where I was kept in my room and erm
experienced various abuses, happened in the room I sleep in and is the main contributing factor right now

but conversion disorder was renamed to functional neurological symptom disorder which better embodies it

o-o

>>731908
#kiss

>>731911
no, its a disorder that's generally the manifestation of trauma thats a rare like

trauma manifesting in rare, strange ways that can by physical or whatever it maybe for each person

I had no clue what it was or what the whole thing was and then just began experiencing it, likely bc of having been being bullied all my school life and losing someone as an early teen, and that bubbling up into some response by my mind and it causing me to experience things w my body

yeah

its likely that my OCD was apart of what started the cycle, as my dad also had and sorta socialized OCD into me,
so when that combined w complex PTSD it all sort of boiled over

but would help mutually support u with urs

n would room w u even if having peeps over all the time teehee

pat
I get it, but would be there to be able to give support n also space as chu needed & helped through that

I'm avoidant but mainly when I don't have people there in person

>>731928
awwwe

I barely use my phone

I wanna get that GPD win 2 so I don't even have to have a phone beyond maybe a flip phone for phone calls

but with some people
on ur psychogenic illness thing, it has been seen w some people (iirc) that the trauma theyre experiencing or have can cause a reaction w people they know to also develop it, but this is mainly an issue with like

a general issue w the way mental/Neuro illnesses are portrayed and shown online n such

I think I've only met maybe one to two people with this condition, though

in my seven years of having it

>>731933
also, I don't know if it is fully the same condition, as I feel like this could be from a different origin and idk if it's smth that should be classified the same
but thats just one, my, opinion about this

p