i wanna smoke some fucking weed. aaaaauurrggghh

>>769380
i may have ties to the real bona fide gar field... who can say.... meow....

>>769384
have you considered smoke some weed

>>769383
this is so real. no one tells you about it before you run a forum.

>>769386
my girlfriend is trying to make me slow down my usage

>>769389
based girlfriend
weed makes ur brain turn into slushy that slowly melts out ur ears and makes everything all sticky... not worth it

>>769388
#hug

>>769392
tch... i guess

there was someone here who evaded bans for months and months and just showed up to listen to music on wormwatch and insult people

>>769395
i liked some of his music but he always ruined it by calling people slurs

>>769387
this happens in every imageboard ive participated in. something about the anonymous nature makes people confident in acting like freaks

>>769395
the slowtyper

>>769399
the ghostfucker

>>769402
no you are not
not even close

that's just his designation

test

>>769408
exactly

>>769383
the silly goobers with naught much else to do and unpacked burdens that you, a willing ear, will endure

there was also the umm whole episode with paint. idk how many of you were around.

signs that slowtyper has arrived:
test post
series of shitty music queues

>>769413
i think you mean
.play cloudbusting

.

>>769414
he is on anon always

cloud busting makes me feel good

i loved the song but he corrupted it for me after............

o no i didn't hear about this

>>769421
it's really hard. i think people who were never in this position don't really get it. i know that i was way more idealistic before i had to run anything. when there is one person who is hurting others but needs help in turn you have to very carefully make an impossible choice.

>>769430
posting of unreasonable magnitude

>>769435
you can quote stuff and do #tag tag1 tag2
whatever u put after tags will be how you can look it up

>>769438
purposeless venting sucks ass change my mind
expressing constant pain without trying to change is just stinky for urself...

what was that lol

welcome to hell

the bounce command is crazy

>>769470
#picflip

Can you stop? I'm trying to have a conversation

>>769446
i think that it can be healthy in a journal or something like that

#cleartheme

>>769474
absolutely, a way to firehouse out the stinky that u can't express otherwise... i do that too sometimes
subjecting other people to it gets smelly and icky fast eye em oh

>>769442
yes, definitely. i think that it's also due to people just not having as many friends irl nowadays.
for me the big thing is that it is not necessarily bad that people look for help online, or to vent. i think that this is one of the only forms of community available to many. however at some point their presence might make the space unusable for others, so there's a painful utilitarian tradeoff being forced.

>>769478
get libre'd

>>769484
#undelete #repost #zombify

>>769483
webp is cursed and doesn't work Yet #tm™

huge increase in value on the twink stock market

>>769494
yeah. i think the big thing is that it's not black and white. lots of shades of grey in between, which is what makes it hard.

>>769494
#true
there is an amount of help one must be willing to accept if u wanna heal
if one wants the hell to never end then oops. it won't ever end

i'll even go further. i once removed a poster from a community i ran purely because they were extremely annoying. they did not break any of the rules, but they were so annoying that other people started to leave. it feels wrong, and not something i would think i'd be capable of doing before i had to run that place, but in the end it was necessary. actually being in a position where you have to make sure a space prospers kind of poses strange questions with no easy answers.

>>769508
many such cases i think
a person can be detrimental to general vibes in many ways, being "annoying" is certainly one of em
it's harder to justify but if the goals point in one direction and a person points in the other, at some point u gotta break it i guess

>>769508
a splinter in your skin doesn't necessarily need to become infected but wowee it sure is uncomfortable

>>769508
my toxic trait is constnatly thinking that stuff like this is about me lmao. But i'm working on that

the gang's all here

>>769517
And Nothing Could Possibly Go Wrong

>>769523
thank you for posting all the wonderhoys

>>769520
i once had to defeat a user who was a shapeshifting weredragon by using a cursed blade. they were the worst.

>>769530
i hope the curse was worth it those things take weeks to heal off with witch's brew

>>769530
lole hehe

~

yes

they're so happy

my toxic trait is that i love sugoi weeb music

even though i don't like animes

except for the animes i like which don't count

i hate everything except the stuff i love and like but apart from that

>>769550
what about the stuff u r indifferent to?

>>769520
but ye its easy to get sucked down into negative thinking when u have low selfesteem

>>769551
hm that goes in a separate pile for consideration later to be sorted into binary love/hate. all must be consolidated

>>769553
raises your esteem

>>769558
i'm working on it okay!!!!!

>>769554
<<<capitalism achieved>>>

>>769552
i think hatsune miku is a fine upstanding young woman and she can probably do no wrong

>>769562
that won't help, i've been thinking a lot and one of my biggest problems i think is externalizing my self-esteem to other people, which makes it volitile bc it doesn't come from within and then it leads to compulsive behavior where i will try to get people that i don't even like to like me for the sake of liking me.

miku bad teto good

i like teto and the pear variety of teto

>>769564
berhaps there are things in the past that lead a younger version of yourself to think that the esteem from others is more reliable than the esteem from self
brains always trying to do their best with a bad situation

chat i texted my ex

>>769581
the one right before the locksmith job one?

>>769581
nsughty naughty ten points from griffindor for that

>>769579
IDK about this. I'm trying to figure it out. The best I figure is it's some level of young age narcissm or something like that. Not like the personility disorder but like the trait. maybe? IDK. I just need to fix the problem methinks

you're all acting like its a bad thing!!!

>>769586
it generally is but i guess it can be good......

yeah thats why i said it hehe

>>769581
oh no

>>769583
after

>>769592
I thought that was ur last ex? Right after you moved back home?

>>769593
can you love me like her

>>769585
>just need to fix the problem
hehe it IS that easy...... just requires finding out what the problem is, and what the solution is..... can be tricky...
no need to think abt it in terms of dsm5 categorisations or w/e, no need to pathologise ur feelings
asking questions abt urself is the good start. gotta begin there to go anywhere etc

>>769594
yeah my last but that wasnt before locksmith that was after/around the end of locksmith

>>769598
ouuuuuu i thought it was that really toxic one

right after my other ex left me who i was living with

>I haven't moved on
#itsover (479)

SHRIMP

you must move on!!!! be strong!!!!

why tho

idk what happened when u guys broke up

we broke up because i was too depressed to be a person

oh then nevermind then yeah

like the relationship was pretty good

maybe try it again

>>769607
there could be something here then i think

getting back with abusive stinky people is the bad time
getting another go around with someone u never really went with has potential

>>769597
maybe lole. IDK. From a pathological standpoint I don't think I meet anything like that. I think I'm just young but that could be denial. I also think that bc I've been able to change and have changed consistnetly from my mistakes, that means it's more likely to just be something fixable through reflection and work and stuff like that vs something that I would need to be professionally dealt with. But that could just be copium I guess.

Sorry for dumping this all on to u btw! I need to sit down and work this out myself first before talking about with other people.

But I also need to do grocery shopping soonish

>>769600
#hug

>>769612
yeah no she wasnt bad at all it was just a very awkward painful breakup/post-breakup friendship

>>769613
sometimes the talking is the working out
human brain is very good at processing things in language form, and squeezing emotions/experiences thru language can help them form tangible nuggets in ur brain that can b examined
getting help from others (profesh or otherwise) is useful when you don't seem to be making headway on ur own. others can see parts of you that you may not be aware of

>>769629
happy and pure

>>769622
are you absolutely sure

>>769627
maybe, I guess i'm just scared to some extent of talking with other people and looking for that kind of feedback. I guess I'm scared that I am way worse than I can even imagine. But maybe that kind of thinking is the problem in out of itself?

I think I have identified a few problems that I can work on fixing (sacrificing my own identity to get people who i don't even like to like me, being excessively mean, being more considerate and curious about other people) So I can work on those and see where that takes me rather than getting bogged down in looking for The Real Reason.

But maybe the answer is what I fear and I'm just a BPD/NPD person. I guess it's hard to say

>>769622
at least now u know the warning signs of how it looks when it's goin downhilll.... can pump the brakes n bail early instead of repeating another crash n burn
i hope it goes well and everyworm is happy with it, that's the goal @ the end of the day

>>769648
yeah i mean its really just a matter of i was in a severe downward spiral and thats not a fun person to date. plus im also only half going into this with the intention of trying to get back together i mostly just want to talk again cause we were best friends

>>769646
you laugh but it is HYDRATING and delicious

>>769653
#this is true
the worst one can be is incurious abt how their own brain works

>>769652
a good basis to make a relationship on top of.... friends before partners is the way 2 be
getting back w exes has bad vibes but this one has good vibes i think

>>769653
nuh uh

>>769647
good questions to ask!!!! only you can know the answers, no matter who you talk to about it.... others can only guide the way for ur own noggin

>>769642
WATER

>>769674
what is this from

>>769681
nuhuhuhuh

now THIS is what 4chan wishes it could be
a bunch of fuckin human beans talking and being NICE and having a GOOD TIME

>>769688
hehe.... seeking reassurance from others in uncertainty.... it is a very human situation to be in bloogeroni, i feel ur pain on that

yeah but it wouldn't help. Even if you told me point blank, I would just find a way to continue obsessing about it which I know... But it doesn't help that it's still technically possible LMAO

>>769694
exacto
the knot is in your mind, and it can't be untied by anyone but you
don't be too hard on ursekf... we are bags of meat....

OK last thing I swear, you've been so nice garfield, and if you ever need to vent then I am here I really apprecaitee you and your help.

But I know that a lot of this is driven by the job thing. IDK why this is how I learn, but the only way I find effective to learn is to be incredibly mean to myself. And like with this job thing, there's a lot of mistakes. Like half of my notes are literally

"You are dogshit, do not say xyz" "What the fuck what that plan you retard, that was never going to work, try this next time" which probably plays a role into all of this coming together now, and then moving, and then the normal stress of it. So i think that, once I finally finish training and all of this is behind me, it will be better

>>769699
:( negative self talk rly takes its toll yesu... sorry to hear, it's not nice to feel like u gotta be mean to urself to grow
(if u want practical advice, simply removing the negative part from ur notes is a good start: "u dumbass don't say xyz" -> "don't say xyz")
>>769726
binary thinking heheheheh
practicing acknowledgment of the gray areas and ambiguities may be good
but i'm getting too prescriptive now i'm just a cat that loves lasagna

it can always be better in the future, but why should you have to wait until the future to feel ok? you can and should be allowed to feel ok in the present, as you are now. that's my pov

negative self talk is GOATED for improving at a skill tho IMO

saeki it is true

there is nothign more motiaving than the constant fear of being terrible, it is how I got through training at the top of my class!

there's tradeoffs

>>769712
i think that once i finish the training i'll be fine

nuh uh bc once i do something good it's "YOU ARE LITERALLY THE GOAT HOLY SHIT"

like my last set of evaluations I was incredibly sick, and I did almost perfect and the entire time I was like "I AM MICHAEL JORDAN AND THIS IS MY FLU GAME"

maybe that's the core issue is flipping between extremes

but most of the time the GOATED talk is just talk, like i don't think ti's actually true usually it's just more so like a good job, and then we find something else to improve

>>769714
is the goal to be skilled or to be content

I like to be skilled i think it's a lot of fun

but i mean on both ends usualy it's just words, but maybe it's not, but usually it's just words. Like I'll write "YOU ARE LITERALY DOGSHIT KYS" and then i'll be like "well not actually just you should imrpove xyz" or "you are the goated best in class" and then "well i mean you could do xyz better don't get too overconfident"

extremes are stressy and unsustainable long-term from my experience

usually it's just an extreme statement to make me feel good in the moment, and then i back off of it like the next sentnce

i love to be neutral 90% of the time
i'm the neutral guys from futurama

>>769744
it's like a loan basically, you're trading off endurance for a boost now

>>769748
ur gonna have to pay off that debt eventually...............

eventually, but we have a really good vacation policy so that's kind of what i'm banking on

and now that i'm in the end stage of training it's been less for sure and more measured

mostly because i don't mess up on the stupidest things even (most of the time, sometimes words can be hard LMAO but it's funny)

we are all fallable... we are merely bags of meat....

I'll make a call and then i'll get through it and then i'll put the mic key on my forehead like "holy fuck" and then laugh a lil. I'm not that toxic

job sounds stressful as hell tbh

No! it's like bc i messed up what i wanted to say

>>769759
hehe

>>769759
heheehoehohoh