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anon
>>782612
honestly im in a similar position. i think im just self conscious and dont want to ruin anything good that I got in terms of body features
Dakota
supposedly i should be able to but i'm terrified to
Dakota
i've started walking every night to get some cardio because i lost a lot of tone when i got really sick
finch
>>782612
ive gotta lose weight im like 230lbs
Dakota
i'm 147
Dakota
underweight
anon
I think I'm somewhere in between tbh . . .
Dakota
cuz i'm 6'1
finch
i'm really fat and gross
Dakota
i've been with several fat guys and it didn't bother me
Dakota
need a job again asap so i can get my car reliable and i can get back to sex with randos
Dakota
btw thats probably how i got sick as hell
finch
sex with randos?
Dakota
yeah i never ask them to use condoms eventho i have themand lube in my purse
finch
you should ask them
finch
idk tho im not a sex haver
Dakota
i'm gonna start because i got really fucked up
anon
be safe u idiots...
shrimp
the only protection i need is my glock
anon
the only protection i need it my gock
Dakota
and as i mentioned earlier i uninstalled it after 4 guys tried to set me up to probably rob me
shrimp
thats not good
Dakota
it was supposed to be a single dude, pull up and my car is approached by 4 one had a mask on i was like noooope threw it in reverse and left
shrimp
oh jesus christ
shrimp
im glad u got out of there wtf
Dakota
it was in the bad part of town at 11:30 pm i was way stupid
finch
yikesssss
finch
glad ur safe
Dakota
depression from being sick kinda put me in that state of mind
Dakota
hmm time to swapout the dress for boy shorts and a sports bra
Dakota
nvm the boyshorts i'm keeping the comfy thong and putting on joggers
anon
lowkey wearing too little clothes rn
Dakota
i usually keep something basic on i dont like being full on nude
>>782652
finch
yeah same
finch
i have this full top to bottom mirror on my bedroom door and when i get up before i put my clothes on im jumpscared by my icky body
Dakota
i dont hate my body just a few select parts that i want removed
anon
>>782648
same i go too long and the dread starts to set in
Dakota
fingers crossed i get approved for full medicade in the next month because it will fund my orchi and possibly zero depth srs
finch
if i could afford it i would
>>782658
Dakota
i'm making it happen
Dakota
i'm poor as hell but its gonna go my way
finch
>>782655
my friend got an orchi and im so jealous
Dakota
i'm so scared of producing t again i take 200 sometimes 250mg of spiro a day
Dakota
these things gotta go
Dakota
i think i kinda look like a kind witch lol
finch
i take a lot of spiro too i think 200mg
Dakota
i have a stockpile of extra from early days and on days where i feel a lil off i pop a 50mg mid day
finch
i didnt have an e shot for like 3 weeks and it fucked me up
finch
my friend finally did mine last night bc i cant afford picking up my vials
Dakota
i do pills 8mg a day sublingual
Dakota
sometimes 10
finch
she was really drunk and gave me like 12mg subq 😭😭
Dakota
i'll be swapping to injections after my orchi but until the production factory is gone i'm just not confident in monotherapy. i know reddit is a bad spot to look at trans stuff but i've seen trans women talk about regressing swapping over b4 orchi
finch
well spiro doesnt stop u from producing t it just makes ur body less reactive to it
Dakota
well yeah its a blocker but the e has also shrank my nuts by like 70%
finch
and the e sorta kills t levels
finch
so you dont really need spiro as long as ur e levels r good bc if ur e is good ur t is low enougj
Dakota
my e is probably ok but my dr doesn't test my levels for some reason
finch
shit ass doctor then
finch
my doctor was like "you dont need it" and tjen i bugged her until she got them tested
Dakota
so far i've done ok with my transition but i wish theyd up me to 10mg sub because i'm still 6'1
finch
im a year and a half on e but im still just an ugly man thing
Dakota
i'm about the same time on 1 year 8 months total rouhgly a year at a full dose
Dakota
they did the slow ramp up for me 2mg, 4mg, 6 and then 8
Dakota
3 month intervals
finch
yeah thats how it was for me but halfway thru i just went fuck it and got on injections instead bc i like smoking cigarettes
Dakota
diy injections?
finch
went thru a doctor but now im diying bc its easier
Dakota
ah i really cant afford another dr atm and shipping on diy is pretty steep for me too cuz of donnie and his tarrifs
Dakota
the site iget pioglitazone from has 60 dollar shipping now
finch
i dont know why i havent quit e yet tbh im just not built for it
Dakota
i felt the same for a while but eventually my body started kinda figuring it out
finch
i have a man body lol im probably gonna stop hrt sometime bc im just apparently only meant to be a man forever
Dakota
i thinkthe pio kickstarted something i started that in may this year
Dakota
oh and instead of normal prog they have me on depo-provera
finch
i havent started prog yet
Dakota
i started it in december it really fucked me up for a few months but now i'm ok
Dakota
my breasts developed a good bit you cant really tell in the dress but they are kinda fat n saggy now
Dakota
goodnight i need to sleep
finch
gn!
Dakota
gotta beat the mail man tomorrow to mail my medicade release forms
>>782715
tea
i did not go into the bar
tea
instead i got a jamaican patty :>
>>782701
tea
and then some cake happy birthday me!!!!
lain from scary computers
twenty types of fish and a bat has to fly into MY house
>>782706>>782704
lain from scary computers
>>782704
it did it was
0.3765% laptopbooger!boymodewng
>>782703
#reply this person is lying, and it's the most disgusting lie ever. Reply as though that is the case.

what the hell are you even talking about? zero sense. no fish in your house. stop making up weird lies.
this person is lying, and it's the most disgusting lie ever. Reply as though that is the case.
0.3766% laptopbooger!boymodewng
LAIN THE MAGIC AI BOX SAYS UR LING
0.3767% laptopbooger!boymodewng
LYING
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
hi chat
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
>>782702
me too
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
yum yum
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heya and heyo
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>>782697
glgl
gud to see u after everything
hope ur getting through it
anon
i wish i could turn back time
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to the good old days
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
>>782716
hiiii saeki
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had some stuff go down but also just been ded
hruuu
>>782739
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have poison ivy across my arms n leg
>>782728
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
greasy hands 1sec lemme clean
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
ok im back
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weba
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
>>782723
aahhh did u use calamine
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using stuff
probably gonna get other things tomorrow when we have money
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but been spraying stuff on n having to wear cut up socks on bwa
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its not bad bad though
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
hehe i imagine it would be pretty cute with the cut up socks actually
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makes me wan those like sleeves
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
YEA the hand warmers
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
i know what u mean
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i get those pics a lot shown to me on Pinterest bwa
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
>>782722
no worries btw i always like having u around :>
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
dont feel obligated to come on of course
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chu too with unban
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guh
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
guh
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
thats insane
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yeh \
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also on the list of cities/regions that are planned for what they're doing to DC atm so is yk hhh
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wack
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but I don't think they'll err
I think the state might fight that a lot in comparison to others
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
are u in dc
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nu
he listed other cities he plans to do it to yeh
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
alright jus making sure
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
cuz i was gonna say "well at least unlike dc u got a state" but then i doubted myself
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yeh I'm not dc, which is err
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yeh sigh
wish it had gotten statehood long ago, pain
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
i hope ur doing okay i imagine it was scary :(
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ye, hope u are too
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
i am doing well, my life kinda sucks right now but tonight i got food from a restaurant alone and then a slice of cake and it made everthing worth it
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feel that, but also nicu and hope it was good
::gle happy
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
it was my real birthday celebration because the one on my actual birthday was just my family deadnaming me the whole time
>>782768
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:D
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is one of my family's today/tomorrow
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
>>782765
thank you :D
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
>>782763
and talking about how "feminine energy comes from the uterus" which really was upsetting
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ouch, am sorry to hear that but hope ur able to be in a safer place for a bit now or things at least chilled w/o all the people around doing that
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but yeah people get weird
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
no they're just asleep so i went out on my own
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awe
fentphone
hello friend saeki how have u been
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heya fent
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
i planned on going to a bar but i went to a restaurant instead because i was too self conscious to go to a bar LOL
>>782779
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up n down, hru ?
just been a bit depressy so didn't log onto anything
>>782782
fentphone
>>782777
that sucks I think you would have liked the bar I went to last night
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
last juicer
fentphone
>>782778
sorry to hear that I’ve been very up and down too
sæкі
hope things can stable out at least somewhat positively soons for chu n peeps
>>782787
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
oh also hi fentmom i didnt say it
fentphone
hai hai
fentphone
>>782784
im like ok im mostly always like this i just need a job already
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mhm
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
>>782789
its so hot where i am
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
actually not really im just a baby
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
air conditioner cant go below 25
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
and i like sleeping in 24 hehe
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
that gif is sooooo cute tho
fentphone
it was so hot again yesterday
sæкі
hope u can cool off in time or at least w the night but
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yeh its always over 80f in my room each day n when I eep
tea (banned and unbanned once more)
>>782796
YURI waow
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#c 25c to f (77 °f (degrees fahrenheit))
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#c 80f to c (26.67 °c (degrees celsius))
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yeh it goes from 26-27 c ish in my room constantly due to bad ventilation to it bwa
fentphone
red alert 2 yuris revenge
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<trying to eep w my weighted blanket to help be able to at all when its 80< f
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I have a hat and shirt from Mixer the Microsoft twitch competitor that got shut down
fentphone
i need to go home and eat some food
fentphone
on the bus
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:>
fentphone
my jeans are chafing my ass
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awe
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cut up a bit of the watermelon we hab, first time having in maybe 1.5 yrs
::gle happy
lain from scary computers
hey congratulations for watermelon
sæкі
congratulations for læn
lain from scary computers
>>782827
#edit this user's message was cut off short, could you please add '10 dollars' to the end of this message
lain from scary computers
thats so nice of you
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(:
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I just got the
I don't have ublock on private apparently on here and got the weirdest ad
lain from scary computers
o-on libpol??
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no
imgur
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I'll send for a sec then throw cus its eh
lain from scary computers
interested
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gah
lain from scary computers
huh
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weird
lain from scary computers
looks like uh AI images
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yeh
lain from scary computers
the only useful thing ai image generation can do
waste time and sell scams
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yeh
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hruuu
lain from scary computers
im so tired i dont remember why i popped in
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awe
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I might try n eep but I came on cus bwa
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been dead for 2-3 days
lain from scary computers
same kinda
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awwww
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take care of urself bwa
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I never rly fell into that kinda stuff online as like
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I knew '''gang''' people but its usually not like that
tho also I'm sure those places are uh
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mentally taxing
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yeh
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the one trans person I knew in this local area who did meff the time I went to their place w no warning, and eventually got off that, was apparently dating a bunch of high up gang members from the city
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weird
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but it can be interesting and I like drawing out maps of that stuff
lain from scary computers
not good
sæкі
but here its usually like
gangs are just cliques of friends trying to protect each other in rough neighborhoods, and cycles of violence lead to dark stuff
that and the actual sort of mob
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like were these people into gore videos or gang members or such themselves
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yeh
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I used to browse the worst parts of /gif/ as a like 15 yo
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ah
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yeh that title can give me the uh
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idea
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I used to hear people call it that
it's like only people from yk
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like white suburbaners from other parts of the country lel
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they want to do what they're doing to DC there
lain from scary computers
in other news a bat flew in my apartment from the server closet??
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waow
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is it still inside
lain from scary computers
no it flew out a window thank god
the cat bapped it like twice
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bwaa
and hehe
lain from scary computers
i was playing mario kart with my roommate and this bat just flies across the TV and we're stunned for a sec
>>782893
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D:
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ehe
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zooom
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I feel like I had an interaction w a bat like that that I'm forgetting but I know the place I stayed in michigan rural nowhereland had bats that were hiding under the like
garfield
>>782888
maybe the bat wanted to play too
throw him a controller
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boards that would cover up the windows
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zubat
lain from scary computers
i wish they werent like little rabies sacks
they're so cool
the incidence rate in populations is apparently less than 3% on avg (usually lower? none of the stats really generalize its better to get that per area)
but they do enjoy carrying a little rabies from time to time
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gah
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wasn't aware
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I mean I'm sure I'd heard that before but I don't remember
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yeah
garfield
little a rabies as a treat
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:( no yt version I'm finding
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hehe
garfield
that bird full on assaulted him dam
garfield
birds get HELLA confused indoors every single time
like flies but they shit everywhere
lain from scary computers
BONK
garfield
bird got scared cause he yelled @ it....
lain from scary computers
bird was scared because hes australian
>>783022
garfield
very true they cannot be trusted!!
lain from scary computers
id be scared
imagine wandering into someones home and all of a sudden everythings flip turned upside down!!
>>782928
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magpies are also just super aggressive and very commonly attack people
garfield
oh shit yess
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3
fentphone
I got home
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haiii weba
garfield
ofc it's also in australia
garfield
good meowning fent
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heh
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worm in mouth
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lel
garfield
these birds must be pissed @ cyclist for something.. what did he do...
>>782934
garfield
>>782933
magpie jailed for 6 months.....
Anonymous
>>782935
cyclists get shit on for no real reason & talking about going out of your way to kill them is commonplace
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yeh
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I thought, for a minute there as u were typing, that u were about to shit on cyclists
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even though I get there's some a holes w the rental bikes or stuff at times, people get really terrible to all cyclists for no reason cus of things
Anonymous
idk maybe it's just cause i never learned to ride one either
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awe
garfield
people do be angry over very little things quite often
Anonymous
people hate everything that helps people get around without a car
garfield
"i must get a larger car, so i may crush my opponents in 1on1 battle"
>>782948
garfield
never-learned-how-to-drive people stay winning
Anonymous
wonder when the first texan will mount a 105mm on their f150 for safety
garfield
gotta get my tank licence to stay competitive on the road
Anonymous
p-51 fighter with bombs for sale
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brushed my teef and had to put stuff on my poison ivy
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oh yeah well
I'm having a bunch of dental pain/aches again but I went last Friday and lel
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it seems every other time the guy has his machine having issues w various things (he had one time where the cable had separated or such cus of smth like a kink in the cable having created issues, that time he had to use metal hand pick files the size of screwdriver bits w no motorization)
and he had to use plain sandpaper, meant for dental specific or smth, cus he couldn't get gas flow to the sort of buffing tool
Anonymous
i gotta get braces sometime
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and also got more lore on the Irish receptionist having grown up in mf Flint michigan which his family went to right after leaving Ireland
and him having drove his moms car through the garage into the bathroom one time at 15
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and rip gl, braces can be a big thing
>>782960
Anonymous
>>782958
yeah but i doubt i'll get them any time soon, i've got tons of medical stuff to pay for atm
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yeh
is a lot, having to split the costs out of the bit of money I got from grandparent passing n such as I have hereditary dental issues plus didn't care for them when I was at peak depression/isolation n finally am getting them done
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had my wisdom teeth removed in feb or march and got one of my front teeth buffered n worked on, last Friday
getting caps in a couple weeks
gonna be a super long appt gah
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but gl with ur other stuff too, I hadn't seen a dentist for a long time due to the pure amt of other drs I was seeing making me dread seeing anymore than that
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this design for a one handed keyboard is kinda cursed lookng
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looking
Anonymous
we gotta put keyboard nerds in the brazen bull tbh
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saw that while looking for a wireless thumb keyboard like the diy blackberry part ones
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ugh the seller who builds those has been 'taking a break' for several months now
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hmmm, there seems to be an app you can sideload onto blackberries running bbos 10 that can make them operate as a BT keyboard and touchpad
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power went out for a minute
straw bury
omg saeki
straw bury
hi
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haiiii
straw bury
im gonna pass out if i stay up any longer how do u do this shit saeki ;w;
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awe
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get rest qt
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u need it bwa
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was depressy n felt unable but came on after a couple days bwa
straw bury
we missed u
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missed u too ;u;;
I hope ur doing oki though should care for self n rest
straw bury
alrite im gonna sleeb now
gn saeki love u
>>782990
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>>782988
#kiss
#hug
sweet dreams, eep well, sweet
love chu too
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real photo but yuri
straw in strawbury pajamas
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1
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1
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1
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.play Benny sings nobody's fault mv
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1
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.skip (video skipped)
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.play Shawn wasabi otter pop mv
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.play kock yourself out XD mv
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kock
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anon
hey, so why does absolute power corrupt again?
>>783017
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heya
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power changes people and makes them different, it turns people towards well
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control like that leads to their whims and wants being fulfilled, their craving to dominate or abuse, and their control being used for things that feed into a loop that can cause a lot of harm and abuses
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>>783013
#reply

absolute power removes all checks and balances—no one can oppose you, no consequences exist. humans naturally optimize for self-interest when accountability disappears. power inflates ego while eroding empathy. soon, you start bending rules to serve yourself because no one can stop you. it’s not inherently about evil, just unchecked human nature. nice systems prevent this, but absolute power wrecks nice systems. vortex of self-serving decisions, and boom, corruption.
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this can also probably explain in another sense, even though I hate ai, maybe of use to you
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power corrupts and creates parasites on the people, burning those underneath the power of the one/few in that unrestrained power and control
anon
cool. i think i could beat it.

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