#ksay balls

#quiet

>>363672
hehe

>:(

<:(

thank

>>363668
did you win

im not here

>>363683

>>363684

NO RECIMA HERE

>>363682
yea

>>363687

>>363689
i imagine posts that get folded are sent off to blues clues steve

as a clue of some sort

>>363695
no she's a boymoder

>>363696
how

>>363698
the hoodie says boy on it

>>363699
oh i see i wouldn't have caught that that makes sense

i think boyremoval might be a sin

>>363693
from whatever i can gather from your cobbled together politics
the ideas you have would put me and people i know in worse positions
i just don't care about it

>>363703
#reply

hard to say without seeing the cat. if she's got a bigger belly, nipples more obvious, and acting more affectionate or nesting, she might be. a vet can confirm.

you do see the cat

is the cat pregnant

>>363707
no idea its not my cat

even if it was in my house

thats a pregnant cat i think

i think her owners are moving, idk what will happen to the cat

>>363716
i hope she finds a safe place to have her kittens

anyways did you all hear the news
pope's dead

>>363718
i heard about the US president wearing a blue suit before i heard about the pope

anon do you have a shroomsona

also lemme transform real quick

.skip (voted to skip this video)

okay i've transformed

is that recima

>>363728
yeah

i thought she wasnt here .....

i am now

[Bluesky]

i'm even worse than before

>>363733
hi faye

shes a supportive friend
get it right

>>363742
can i borrow this image

i think bees are cool

.skip (voted to skip this video)

>>363751
whos in there .....

>>363746
#tag (image already exists) recima

cute

>>363756
i have a girlfriend

>>363758
thats awesome

many people who i am friends with hate Malory

>>363763
why she looks like the life of the party

>>363765
she is nice

>>363768
sorry i won't share her

i already lick the blood spots u can

can't have them

if u want some blood u gotta poke me to get jf

it

alternatively you can hit me and give me a bloody nose, mine last for a long time, hence Malory's appearance

>>363778
i mean i wouldn't mind if someone just took my arm and made a cut in it with a knife

i'm not allowed to do it because it's considered self harm but someone else could

there is a lot of stuff in there i think you need most of it

what if it fell out

idk i like the taste of blood

but i also like the taste of skin

which does not bode well with someone who has had self harm issues in the past

i don't have any rn, but wanting to just bite a chunk of my arm for the flavor profile is an urge i need to control

[Bluesky]

anyways everyone make sure to follow my twitter

>>363791
did you just bite or did you eat

i have a scar in my right arm from when i was really into biting like a year ago and i kept biting and ripping flesh out that i kind of made an indent and now it's an unappealing looking scar

it was fucking tasty though

sweet dreams aleixi

>>363798
pretty much the same

most flesh tastes the same, assuming its exterior

i mean, i'd assume some areas (arm pits) would taste a bit different due to the increased amount of sweat glands but generally i think most is the same

please don't bite yourself though its a form of self harm

>>363811
thank you faye :)

.play beeg beeg yoshi

awesome

i might go to sleep soon

sometimes you need a little rest

maybe

any day you can go to sleep and all the stuff is still in your arm is a win

i think that sex is bad

but it might not be

i don't know

and i am scared

what the fuck are you talking about

i am scared that i will never be loved

that i am not worthy of it

or perhaps something similar but different

>>363832
do you believe in 'an eye for an eye'

hiiii

>>363835
what do you feel if someone takes something from you that can't be replaced

>>363836
hello anon how are uuu

hihi, vibin, was here the other day again, hru u all (:

what if ummm
what if we were all friends

😳

hope you're doing alright recima. sounds like you've got some serious trauma going on or something

why do you think i have trauma

cause you're ripping out your flesh and you don't consider yourself worthy of love

not right now i'm not

that was at least 6 months ago, maybe a year

would it be gud if i read back a bit —?

i just want to eat some flesh because i like the taste

anyway that's not an accusation, just hope you get some kind of help or something at some point.

haha ic

the flesh thing is smth ive seen a lot of trans peeps talk abt over the yrs

>>363853
im just vampire

understandable

>>363851
idk how but thank you

yeah the how is hard :( took me like. 10 years after I left my parents house before I was in a stable enough place financially to afford any help

feel that, trying to move out (again) after some life struggles +/ being disabled n trans atm, guh

take care of urselves

being disabled and trans is very hard. hope you take care of yourself too

anyway I'll cease the real talk,

thanke, you all too, anyways wassup -u-

yeah wassup!

hai

:'D

i wanna do digital art again

great wagon

thank you :)

i'm going to take a quick break, i'll be back in around 5-10 minutes

oops

o7

>>363871
whoa horse on the left has a phantom face. two face horse

woh

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ᓚᘏᗢ mow

>>363877
are u kittyilluminati?

>>363877
perfect post

(if thats another user, no, if not then definitely)

that's ok, old user from years ago. she was great. 0 filter.

(do need to choose a name here again tho, poofed for months)

yeye

reminds me, I should check on older ircs again n say hi; tho sometimes it gets ugh

anon posting is based tho

imm back

wb

last time I used this site, I'd only been on E for like a year and I'd never been with a man. ever since, I've been with enough men that I think I'm done with men and now I pass

>>363892
men kind of suck imo

some of them don't but yeah.

ah damn hope u can get a good new source

they look pretty lined up to me

>>363902
if you would like :)

11 pens. was there a 12th once?

going through drives is weird. had a sad one, found a video of me and my old friend who ended up going to jail, like a decade ago, years before his decline. video of us just in the park singing songs together and playing guitar. it's really pure, but with the hindsight of the last 10 years. chilling.

>>363904
i have at least fourteen pens

God I'm sorry to hear that. that's scary. you in rural US or something?

>>363909
:O that's a good amount

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I can skip this when y'all get bored

wish you luck getting somewhere safer

I'm luckily somewhere safe at the moment ty though

do i sleep now #riskflip (heads)

apparently not

how many minutes until i check again 15

timer

great use of the commands

eh i could have gotten unlucky 42 252 7 145 4

looks like a phone number haha

::hurley

>>363927
damn that reminds me
on ios like, every number of phone number length sometimes gets turned into a clickable phone number and it sucks

123456789

1234567

i dont think i can trigger it but yea

that's interesting, I'm not on ios so I've never seen that

does it get like the + before it and stuff too?

nah, usually it just becomes a hyperlink

Interesting

found it

sleeping for mango

weird

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can't even be disabled :<

they could call him Steve Neets not Steve Jobs

they should call it worm not apple (cause worm inside apple)

>>363899
i don't like that the centers are all orange-ish

>>363948
well ummm now ur orangish >~<

>>363949
lik a popsicle thank you

anon got tangoed

should I try and get some more sleep or should I commit to being awake on basically no sleep

wish spyro the dragon was real

>>363924
threee minutes

:3 minutes

:3

three and then i spin the wheel again

time to make music

>>363958
what kinda music you make anon? I don't wanna contribute to yr procrastination tho

>>363959
i dont really have a sound identity
i like making uhh
idk most recently guitar music

>>363960
based

>>363963
do you make music

>>363964
yeah

>>363965
how do i fkn mix these things i HATE guitars

they sound so good alone

>>363967
no idea, I just made sure to always be in positions where that was someone else's job. I really should learn at some point cause being reliant on others keeps landing me in situations hahaha

>>363924
andddd time to spin

goodnight maybe #riskflip (heads)

well i guess not

-7

>>363973
oh no

>>363976
vdhjasfhjlg

.....

#riskflip (heads) goodnight

>>363972
that's rad, jungle style stuff. love the parallel harmony

OR NOT I GUESS

266

......................

yea im sleeping bai bai little apples #uwu (USER WAS UWU'D FOR THIS POST)

what

oh yea wait a sex

sex

sex

sev

sec

goodnight

#uwu (USER WAS UWU'D FOR THIS POST) SHAZAM

>>363981
post some of your stuff if its not doxing or anything
could also make a thread on >>>/music/

>>363998
it's all incredibly doxxing

>>363999
aw okay thats understandable

did post a few unreleased things that never got released here a few years back

only like 3 people could dox me from that though haha

I mean worst case scenario, people find out I shit post on an obscure tranny board. not the end of the world

that's a really cool atmosphere!

>>364007
i think so too, i just really wish i knew how to button tracks up
its past the point where 'just making a thing' is novel to people who might listen to it
now i need to approach 'good'

that's a good place to be! big progress!

I'm at the point where I already put out probably the best thing I'll ever be involved in and now everything I do hence shall be compared to that.

>>364010
ohhhhhh noooooooooooooooooo

it's ok haha, that's the sell out era

do you genuinely make a living with your music

yeah

oh thats super cool

I mean, I make a living in music, not all from the music I made

oh?

like you end up doing lots of different things you know. session stuff, teaching, etc

yeah got some friends making a tonne from that

got offered a gig for that a while back but turned it down for a long, complicated reason. dude kept me involved in a token way though just to honour the work I already did for him

I should really work on my production and arrangement chops.

do you largely perform, say one or two instruments
or do you write songs

just 1, sometimes write songs

just put an insane amount of time into it so people put up with having me on projects

definitely not a meta build. just how things went. hahaha. I would need to put in a stupid amount of work to get my production chops up to speed with my other skills but I feel like I should probably do that soon

that way I can be a bit more self sufficient and less of just a jobber or a sideman

just i can keep pouring time and effort into what I already do and I see immediate reward, putting time into other stuff, the reward is gonna be delayed

so I just keep choosing to keep on hammering what I'm already good at

nothing like the conflation of art and money

hahaha real. I did a long time of just doing the art part. was involved in some stuff I'm very proud of. but now I'm just in the. gotta get the bag phase of life. for now.

find some creative joy in improvisation still though and whenever I'm given the reigns to do what I like on something I make the most of it every time. but yeah ended a decade long musical partnership recently

so just need to find my feet creating on my own and just find what voice I even have or what I even want to create in the absence of that friend

oh hell yeah! that's exciting stuff! what sort of writing is it?

.play [YouTube]

>>364039
that's super interesting!

>>364041
thanks! I wish you the best with your writing and research!

>>364039
whoa

how do you end up on a place like libpol dot org
thats very interesting

>>364046
had a group of online friends, one of them ostracized me from the group when I started transitioning. was known enough in other internet spaces that power dynamic felt weird to hang in those zones. ended up posting on LGBT to trauma dump about, well everything. eventually came across this place. posted for a bit 2 years ago. left for 2 years cause more traumatic shit happened that scared me off image boards. recently gf started posting here and I got sucked back in, during a period of again feeling fairly ostracized

>>364050
I got re-added to that old group chat cause the person who ostracized me initially went to jail. different friend from the other friend. all the homies end up in jail. life is weird.

that group chat is nice tho, but it's all like. mid 30s gamer dudes from the US. they're lovely but like the chat is only active for about 2 hours per day and I don't really relate hugely to those people. they're probably some of my best friends I still have though.

>>364054
eesh, I'm sorry to hear that anon. :( it's weird when the people who wrong you and make you feel evil and unwanted are themselves, extremely evil

>>364055
hahaha fucking hell that's so distorted

>>364059
>>364060
God yeah, those kinda communities are weird as fuck. there was a community I used to promote my shit in a while back of that kinda size that while I was there ended up having like. 2 or 3 literal predators (that got caught) come and go

>>364062
what the fuck

>>364064
Jesus Christ. that's so fucked

yeah it's why I just don't hang in any large discord servers any more it's just too fucking creepy to me. image boards creep me out too honestly. but the way I see it is if I just am shit posting it's fine. weird thing happened after a couple of the people I knew ended up getting done for those kinda crimes. I just kinda got this OCD about my own behavior and conduct like I was terrified I'd somehow accidentally do those kinda crimes. talked to a few friends who'd been through the same shit and it's a common trauma response to that though. just like the self checking and self doubt and over caution

what's that