oops

o7

>>363871
whoa horse on the left has a phantom face. two face horse

woh

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ᓚᘏᗢ mow

>>363877
are u kittyilluminati?

>>363877
perfect post

(if thats another user, no, if not then definitely)

that's ok, old user from years ago. she was great. 0 filter.

(do need to choose a name here again tho, poofed for months)

yeye

reminds me, I should check on older ircs again n say hi; tho sometimes it gets ugh

anon posting is based tho

imm back

wb

last time I used this site, I'd only been on E for like a year and I'd never been with a man. ever since, I've been with enough men that I think I'm done with men and now I pass

>>363892
men kind of suck imo

some of them don't but yeah.

ah damn hope u can get a good new source

they look pretty lined up to me

>>363902
if you would like :)

11 pens. was there a 12th once?

going through drives is weird. had a sad one, found a video of me and my old friend who ended up going to jail, like a decade ago, years before his decline. video of us just in the park singing songs together and playing guitar. it's really pure, but with the hindsight of the last 10 years. chilling.

>>363904
i have at least fourteen pens

God I'm sorry to hear that. that's scary. you in rural US or something?

>>363909
:O that's a good amount

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I can skip this when y'all get bored

wish you luck getting somewhere safer

I'm luckily somewhere safe at the moment ty though

do i sleep now #riskflip (heads)

apparently not

how many minutes until i check again 15

timer

great use of the commands

eh i could have gotten unlucky 42 252 7 145 4

looks like a phone number haha

::hurley

>>363927
damn that reminds me
on ios like, every number of phone number length sometimes gets turned into a clickable phone number and it sucks

123456789

1234567

i dont think i can trigger it but yea

that's interesting, I'm not on ios so I've never seen that

does it get like the + before it and stuff too?

nah, usually it just becomes a hyperlink

Interesting

found it

sleeping for mango

weird

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can't even be disabled :<

they could call him Steve Neets not Steve Jobs

they should call it worm not apple (cause worm inside apple)

>>363899
i don't like that the centers are all orange-ish

>>363948
well ummm now ur orangish >~<

>>363949
lik a popsicle thank you

anon got tangoed

should I try and get some more sleep or should I commit to being awake on basically no sleep

wish spyro the dragon was real

>>363924
threee minutes

:3 minutes

:3

three and then i spin the wheel again

time to make music

>>363958
what kinda music you make anon? I don't wanna contribute to yr procrastination tho

>>363959
i dont really have a sound identity
i like making uhh
idk most recently guitar music

>>363960
based

>>363963
do you make music

>>363964
yeah

>>363965
how do i fkn mix these things i HATE guitars

they sound so good alone

>>363967
no idea, I just made sure to always be in positions where that was someone else's job. I really should learn at some point cause being reliant on others keeps landing me in situations hahaha

>>363924
andddd time to spin

goodnight maybe #riskflip (heads)

well i guess not

-7

>>363973
oh no

>>363976
vdhjasfhjlg

.....

#riskflip (heads) goodnight

>>363972
that's rad, jungle style stuff. love the parallel harmony

OR NOT I GUESS

266

......................

yea im sleeping bai bai little apples #uwu (USER WAS UWU'D FOR THIS POST)

what

oh yea wait a sex

sex

sex

sev

sec

goodnight

#uwu (USER WAS UWU'D FOR THIS POST) SHAZAM

>>363981
post some of your stuff if its not doxing or anything
could also make a thread on >>>/music/

>>363998
it's all incredibly doxxing

>>363999
aw okay thats understandable

did post a few unreleased things that never got released here a few years back

only like 3 people could dox me from that though haha

I mean worst case scenario, people find out I shit post on an obscure tranny board. not the end of the world

that's a really cool atmosphere!

>>364007
i think so too, i just really wish i knew how to button tracks up
its past the point where 'just making a thing' is novel to people who might listen to it
now i need to approach 'good'

that's a good place to be! big progress!

I'm at the point where I already put out probably the best thing I'll ever be involved in and now everything I do hence shall be compared to that.

>>364010
ohhhhhh noooooooooooooooooo

it's ok haha, that's the sell out era

do you genuinely make a living with your music

yeah

oh thats super cool

I mean, I make a living in music, not all from the music I made

oh?

like you end up doing lots of different things you know. session stuff, teaching, etc

yeah got some friends making a tonne from that

got offered a gig for that a while back but turned it down for a long, complicated reason. dude kept me involved in a token way though just to honour the work I already did for him

I should really work on my production and arrangement chops.

do you largely perform, say one or two instruments
or do you write songs

just 1, sometimes write songs

just put an insane amount of time into it so people put up with having me on projects

definitely not a meta build. just how things went. hahaha. I would need to put in a stupid amount of work to get my production chops up to speed with my other skills but I feel like I should probably do that soon

that way I can be a bit more self sufficient and less of just a jobber or a sideman

just i can keep pouring time and effort into what I already do and I see immediate reward, putting time into other stuff, the reward is gonna be delayed

so I just keep choosing to keep on hammering what I'm already good at

nothing like the conflation of art and money

hahaha real. I did a long time of just doing the art part. was involved in some stuff I'm very proud of. but now I'm just in the. gotta get the bag phase of life. for now.

find some creative joy in improvisation still though and whenever I'm given the reigns to do what I like on something I make the most of it every time. but yeah ended a decade long musical partnership recently

so just need to find my feet creating on my own and just find what voice I even have or what I even want to create in the absence of that friend

oh hell yeah! that's exciting stuff! what sort of writing is it?

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>>364039
that's super interesting!

>>364041
thanks! I wish you the best with your writing and research!

>>364039
whoa

how do you end up on a place like libpol dot org
thats very interesting

>>364046
had a group of online friends, one of them ostracized me from the group when I started transitioning. was known enough in other internet spaces that power dynamic felt weird to hang in those zones. ended up posting on LGBT to trauma dump about, well everything. eventually came across this place. posted for a bit 2 years ago. left for 2 years cause more traumatic shit happened that scared me off image boards. recently gf started posting here and I got sucked back in, during a period of again feeling fairly ostracized

>>364050
I got re-added to that old group chat cause the person who ostracized me initially went to jail. different friend from the other friend. all the homies end up in jail. life is weird.

that group chat is nice tho, but it's all like. mid 30s gamer dudes from the US. they're lovely but like the chat is only active for about 2 hours per day and I don't really relate hugely to those people. they're probably some of my best friends I still have though.

>>364054
eesh, I'm sorry to hear that anon. :( it's weird when the people who wrong you and make you feel evil and unwanted are themselves, extremely evil

>>364055
hahaha fucking hell that's so distorted

>>364059
>>364060
God yeah, those kinda communities are weird as fuck. there was a community I used to promote my shit in a while back of that kinda size that while I was there ended up having like. 2 or 3 literal predators (that got caught) come and go

>>364062
what the fuck

>>364064
Jesus Christ. that's so fucked

yeah it's why I just don't hang in any large discord servers any more it's just too fucking creepy to me. image boards creep me out too honestly. but the way I see it is if I just am shit posting it's fine. weird thing happened after a couple of the people I knew ended up getting done for those kinda crimes. I just kinda got this OCD about my own behavior and conduct like I was terrified I'd somehow accidentally do those kinda crimes. talked to a few friends who'd been through the same shit and it's a common trauma response to that though. just like the self checking and self doubt and over caution

what's that

>>364070
perhaps we do a little /closed/ source intelligence

oh jesus

did they just like poke around the wrong people or were they going for The Big One

copyright charges..............

internet is scary

im glad I dont live in the US so I can pirate whatever I want whenever I want without consequences

>>364080
it's so fucked. the court systems take so long to process that shit. there's people who absolutely should be in jail who aren't. it's fucked

>>364080
fuck copyright honestly

>>364084
That shit limits creativity, all art is derivative

>>364086
it's such a stupid fucking task to try and lay claim to information like that
it is a thought

>>364088
I feel like such a thirst to accomulate money to the point of making up such weird social constructs should be classified as a mental illness

>>364089
perhaps we can reevaluate the definitions when there are no more resources left and yada yada doom yada

we will run ourselves extinct in pursuit of it all

scared and sad. only went and triggered myself talking about that shit. it's not as bad as it used to be. just still gets me. it's still kinda fresh wound. when it's just like. two of the closest people you've known who end up getting done for shit. weird

>>364092
:(

sorry to hear that anon

I think honestly I should probably steer clear of image boards again. coming here in the first place again was a trauma response from just facing ostracization again.

>>364098
if it's harmful please leave, genuinely
it's not worth it and definitely not the point of the place

yeah I think I'll try and dip and just deal with the feelings around my most recent ostracisation

>>364103
If you ever want to request a self ban it can be done

I request a self ban then pls opworm

I am not opworm for the record

I know but when opworm shows up. pls just ban me for some comically long amount of time.

who da fook is opworm

>>364108
I'll put a year in
>>364109
He is the admin

I always thought of him as just "the admin"

>>364110
ty yeah 1 year would be great

>>364112
Take care of yourself anon
Best wishes

you too anons

Always sad to lose a wormie but

Humans need community

it's true
i could see why anonymous imageboard isn't the safest place however

What's a safe place? no such thing exists in the internet

Either people are shallow and fake to avoid getting punished by a strict moderation, or things are real but much riskier

>people are only kind etc due to risk of punishment
that's a little grim isn't it

>>364126
Not what I'm saying. I see lots of kindness here, and there are no rules that force such a thing. In places like these people are nice just because they truly are, but the possibility of people being mean is much more open.

>>364128
there are rules that necessarily enforce a baseline i guess
but in general, i don't think people either present a fraudulent self just to avoid punishment OR are real and risky

it's probably a lot more grey than that

>>364131
Not what I'm saying. I'm saying people are more fraudulent in heavily moderated social media. Also I'm not saying that people are "real and risky", but that in websites like this one you see people that are very kind and people that are very mean just as often.

IRL people are much more sincere than in both contexts

>>364133
to the original point about an anonymous imageboard perhaps not being the safest
i meant in that anon's specific case w/ her specific issues

It's true, I agree >>364135

4chan lgbt board is self harm

yeah...
places like 4chan's lgbt and even here tend to attract very strange and predatory people

i don't want this to be a place of self harm personally
that would be tragic

I may sound very schizo, but I think constant exposure to 4chan makes people very defensive and willing to say insensitive things, usually in response to an imaginary attack. Also prone to interpreting things the worst possible way.

>>364144
100% agree
i still have to try and fight off those tendencies, it's very mentally damaging

>>364147
<toughen up, be sharp
it's unhealthy

>>364148
It's a way of interacting with people that nearly ensures isolating onself.

*oneself

Either that or ending up surrounded by very bitter, conflictive people.

>>364152
bitter, aggressive, conflict prone
it leaves a sense of a hostile world impressed upon people who are exposed too long

>>364154
That "hostile world" sense likely has something to do with the rise of hateful and resentful ideologies in 4chan

>>364156
i agree

>>364158
could you elaborate a little
i think i agree but im not sure what you exactly mean

ah yes, the xitter approach
it naturally selects for controversy

i agree

it's been supercharged by capital
there's a monetary incentive to host the most controversial attention grabbing disgusting shit

incredible how much damage we could do connecting little bits of copper together everywhere

was there a luddite chat here

what was that like

sorry lmao i was referencing the specific instance not a board or something

it would be absolutely absurd to discard advancements like the microcprocessor or what have you
but the sincere damage the internet is doing is just
i don't know, how do you really solve that problem

yeah it's inherent to that kind of 'all or nothing' ideology
the scope of it is so focused and destructive

there's no humane way to 'turn it back'
we can't just retvrn in a way that's not going to do eugenics

changing the incentives of the internet and communications would involve changing the incentives of pretty well the entirety of society

i came to the same conclusion
i'm not even sure decentralizing could help
ISPs control the infrastructure which means the country they reside in control the infra etc etc etc

until attention != currency
it's a really immovable object unstoppable force deal

i would honestly love to meet the person in this day and age that would make that argument

of course they can't
that's not a real position anymore

maybe back in the BBS days that was true lol

must be nice
being retired and completely disconnected from the notions of cause and effect

w-what

>>364199
#reply is this real

nice try fed. is this real

thanks ai you asshole

yeah, as long as they aren't malicious/nsfw

is this at all relevant
https://cybernews.com/editorial/anonymous-hacking-group-documentary/

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oh my god that is such a stupid case of telling on yourself WHAT

do you live in australia?

ah okay
i wasn't sure if you were talking about AUS sentiment or US

ah ... i miss when anonymous wasn't strictly some fed astroturfing project

i haven't seen a single thing they've done for years
i just assume it's all govt ops

oh one of the people that violated cfa

-a

>>364236
#reply

they're called "secret courts" or "fisa courts." basically, shady bs where spooks get warrants to spy on you without normal oversight. they operate in secret, often rubber-stamping mass surveillance, and yeah, you'd never even know if they targeted you. total kangaroo court vibes.

whoof i wouldn't touch an anonymous related website with a 10ft pole

nice
im wishing he did a better job

does the monitor next to the host have... have hackertyper open?

i .. i think it does

hehehehehehehe

shes in ..................

>>364256

>>364258
no way....

my school forgot to set group policy that locked powershell
i had a cop show up but was let off because i told the it guy

they are so uh
idk the school IT stuff was always the playground