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SadChan🍉🍉
shes a beauty
terry
SSRI's made me feel terrible like the first 2 days i took them, but then things got much btter later on and i wasn't nearly as anxious as i was
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yis
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i got
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given some again
straw bury
cats r so sily
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im not taking them at least not yet idk
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i dont like them
SadChan🍉🍉
OOO she lookin
SadChan🍉🍉
she lookin at the birds
anon
>>424218
c: thank u for telling me about it

I see lil birds n things sometimes.. I hope you get to see it again
>>424255
SadChan🍉🍉
she ungry for birb
fujo
>>424239
there's actually like metastudies that analyzed the effects of SSRIs on their own, and they came to the conclusion that they don't work
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fujo
>>424243
this get's even more absurd when you consider that tianeptine works
>>424254
straw bury
im sorry im sorry ;w;
terry
>>424243
yeah they didn't work for me either until i advanced a bit in my therapy so that's true
fujo
>>424250
or well "works" / shows the same "antidepressive" effect.
(the way tianeptine works is like the opposite of SSRIs in terms of serotonin)
so like, when you get the same "anti depressive" effect no matter what you do with it, it sort of implies that there is no link
>>424299
terry
they just regulate your serotonin and make it easier to go through your day until you can figure stuff out
terry
i wish psychedelics were widely available tho, i think those might make the biggest difference clinically in terms of anxiety/depression
>>424261
sæкі
i dont wanna start ssris again especially *now*
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anon
>>424260
hmmm? but isn't that the point of trying them? even if u can't afford the next one u at least lern smth by trying this one i think
>>424267
sæкі
i might try n say the avg response as ive had to go on so many in the past n doesnt do much for me but i dont wanna start a convo that leads to more testing or more risk w my psych med specialist
>>424271
straw bury
bwawawaawaaaaaaa
fujo
honestly, a real underrated thing that many psychiatrists won't do, just do a large blood screen, check for all sorts of deficiencies, and fix those first
>>424294
SadChan🍉🍉
ksksksksksksksksksksksksksksksksksksksksksksksksksksksksksksksksksksksks
>>424272
sæкі
pspspspsp
terry
>>424264
i hate hate hate that doctors try to find excuses to get you on meds that just dont work when the solution can sometimes be very obvious
>>424273
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>>424271
yea, like i deal w depression but is mainly kinda caused by CPTSD n i cant rly get care for that rn plus its laos mainly cus i dont have E again yet
but i have to find some kind of thing i can say or assurance for her that im starting hrt safely again so she doesnt push me to see more drs
>>424277
straw bury
cliff faces always have teeth after it rains
fujo
AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH my roomie didn't put his dirty dishes into the dishwasher again and theres no plates left
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anon
i wonder if taking ssris maybe can let me study for final exams or am I just fucked
>>424279
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i have like thousands of sertraline
terry
why cant adults just get HRT whenever they ask for it and are fully able to consent
anon
>>424279
I'm lacking not having derperssion for 4 years
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i mainly struggle cus i dont have a good living situation or hrt though i have to be like yea things are fine so i can just get my ADHD meds every month,
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anon
>>424243
brain is big n it's not like one circuit for good thoughts uses one chemical
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terry
>>424275
can i kill them for you (dw ill revive them again aftwerwards)
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to get adhd scripts u have to see the dr every month
terry
>>424283
yeah i struggled hard until my dr finally recognized that i actually have ADHD, am on strattera which is working somewhat fine for me atm but i think i might have to push him to prescribe me stims or smth
>>424324
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mhm
was bouncing through the medical system for like 4 yrs going on sooo many meds that did nothing, i had improvement when i tried medical weed w RSO oil for sleeping when my psych speciailist i still see
fujo
>>424284
yes, that's obvious, i'm not talking about 1 specific case here
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anon
>>424267
oh u haven't picked them up then. Well IG u kno ur budget yeh?
... i need a budget so i kno what i can afford
fujo
>>424290
which funnily enough, is also exactly the case im making against ssris
>>424344
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had been giving me quetiapine, an anti psychotic, to take every night and in the morning
she ended up going as far as putting me up to the dose of 2mg klonopin script a day
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anon
>>424268
my mom wanted me to get that but my doctor prescribed a blood test n it was ok, idk if that's large enough though
sæкі
i dont get how yk she treats such things like that in those ways n then uh yk -v-
terry
>>424293
ooohh klonopin can be really strong, how did that go for you?
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yeah
i had an awful experience w having my ex force me to quit quickly which i dont wanna go into but id been through psychotic ep from being out of having been put on a lot of gabapentin cus of chronic migraine condition n theyre careless w some of the scripts for less "prioirity" meds sometimes
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terry
>>424297
jeez, that sucks really bad :<
anon
>>424254
oh interesting well that's good ig
fujo
>>424293
>quetiapine
i used that short term, for falling asleep.
i wouldn't want to use it anyn longer than a week
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yeah it can help in a pinch
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if i NEED to sleep n i dont have klonopin, pregablin or gabapentin, that can KO me for like 10< hrs but ill wake up feeling so groggy yk
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klonopin though did kind of save my life in the way of having been struggling so bad w panic n such cus of being stuck in boymode w/o having had hrt before yet n just
wouldve been bad w/o the thing to let help me get by through those times
>>424374
rose
need boy kissing to live i fear...
>>424313
nadie (desktop edition)!wqLZLRuzPQ
yesterday i made cookies and french hot chocolate for my mom cus it was mother's day
>>424323
anon
#ksay daughter
nadie (desktop edition)!wqLZLRuzPQ
#ksay cooking
anon
#ksay loved
terry
the patient needs boykisses to live
straw bury
omg nadie????
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i get uhhh i think 5-8 .5mg tablets a month now but usually dont take most of thems until its a rly bad mental period n need thems--
nadie (desktop edition)!wqLZLRuzPQ
>>424317
#hug ::hug
nadie (desktop edition)!wqLZLRuzPQ
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::hug
nadie (desktop edition)!wqLZLRuzPQ
im spikedog
nadie (desktop edition)!wqLZLRuzPQ
>>424308
apparently she never tried chocolate chip cookies ever until yesterday and she loved them cus she ate like 5-6 out of 8 (i just had one for breakfast)
anon
>>424288

ohh interesting i'm on stims again i wonder if smth else would be better all I've ever tried
>>424332
sæкі
i became so independent on managing what meds i needed/took i kind of just plan around what i can get prescribed n take the dose i know i might need
but i need more adhd meds probs though guh
straw bury
apples can be very sharp on the inside. if u get a big enough apple u can make someone very uncomfortable and even traumatize or seriously injure them
>>424329
SadChan🍉🍉
when i was a teenager i made a bong out of an apple and smoked out of it
nadie (desktop edition)!wqLZLRuzPQ
>>424326
glegle is like 7 apples tall btw
rose
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someone on discord who im p sure does not use this site sent me the rose orlando glegle today
::rose_orlando glegle
>>424339
terry
>>424324
stims are really good if you have ADHD but you need to be careful with the dosage since it can cause dependence and uuhhh
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oh
nadie (desktop edition)!wqLZLRuzPQ
>>424330
he thought he wasn't until he met L
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oh?
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nice-(?)
straw bury
::dong dingaling
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u have fans rose <3 hehe
nadie (desktop edition)!wqLZLRuzPQ
>>424331
glegle is a rose orlando fan that's canon
>>424343
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but
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hope its alr
straw bury
::ding dongaling
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haiii
straw bury
:;glegle shoe
nadie (desktop edition)!wqLZLRuzPQ
#ksay glegleshoe
fujo
>>424332
stims might have helped me overcome depression more than anything else, ngl
rose
id go to the psychiatrist but i already know whats my issue, im deficient in constant exposure to boykissing
>>424356
straw bury
#ksay type shi
nadie (desktop edition)!wqLZLRuzPQ
#derrick
SadChan🍉🍉
>>424332
im really ADHD and coffee and nicotine just make me sleepy... and dont really give me energy
nadie (desktop edition)!wqLZLRuzPQ
ok i'm leaving again i hope y'all have a great day especially sadchan ily sadchan
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straw bury
psychiatrists are assholes they dont know anything i hate my psychiatrist i just lie to him all the time
rose
>>424357
have a merry christmas nadie
nadie (desktop edition)!wqLZLRuzPQ
>>424363
idk maybe once in a while but my discord is always available
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rose
my discord is rumblestiltskin1827
>>424376
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>>424362
am basically just barely surviving but i try n be able to not spiral too heavily but i also cut self off into isolating so is just guh
living where i do is
errr
>>424379
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this house is where my (c)ptsd is mainly from and triggered so living here is a constant mental strain/stress raiser n why i left, recovered so much when i got out but then went bacc to this state is just guh
anon
>>424306
hmmm sister is on antianxiety meds now i wonder if i should try em instead of adhd meds
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i have anti anxiety meds
strong ones sigh
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have tried over a total of 100 meds
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appreciate chu thoughs
anon
>>424371
saeki ur wonderful I wanna b a good friend i dunno what to do I think in theory chatting all day is bad but i feel better w the convos i've had w u and i have a friend who's just like 'focus on school, join a tenis club, stop being online all day' n it's just bullshit
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here 4 chu if able at alls too bwa
i gotta figure out how im gonna get that discy acc thats old but not used used idk am trying to find smth so i can add peeps
ik i have like 30 alts in a folder on here s-somewhere. . .
>>424385
anon
#smartai after a trans an orchiectomy in ng/dl what are the testosterone levels after this procedure at the very highest??

After an orchiectomy (surgical removal of the testes) in transgender women or individuals undergoing feminizing hormone therapy, testosterone levels typically plummet due to the absence of Leydig cells—the primary source of endogenous testosterone production.

### **Expected Post-Orchiectomy Testosterone Levels:**
1. **Without Testosterone Replacement Therapy (TRT):**
- The adrenal glands produce small amounts of androgens (primarily DHEA and androstenedione), but these contribute minimally to circulating testosterone.
- Typical post-orchiectomy serum testosterone levels range between **10–50 ng/dL**, though some individuals may have slightly higher values (~60 ng/dL) if adrenal androgen secretion is robust.
- Levels above 70 ng/dL are exceptionally rare without exogenous androgen exposure or residual gonadal tissue.

2. **With Estrogen/AA Monotherapy:**
- If estrogen alone is administered post-orchiectomy, further suppression via negative feedback on LH/FSH can drive levels toward the lower end (**<20–30 ng/dL**).

3. **Potential Exceptions & Variability:**
- In cases where incomplete surgical excision occurs (retained testicular remnants), mildly elevated levels (>50 ng/dL) might persist until revision surgery resolves this issue.
- Certain intersex conditions involving extragonadal androgen synthesis could theoretically elevate T beyond typical castrate ranges, but such instances are medically noteworthy rather than normative.

### **Clinical Relevance:**
- The World Professional Association for Transgender Health (*WPATH SOC8*) defines "castrate" T as <50 ng/dL for optimal feminization outcomes.
- Monitoring should include LC/MS-MS assays for accuracy at low concentrations; immunoassays may overestimate due to cross-reactivity with other steroids.

In summary, while individual physiology varies, *the highest plausible endogenous post-orchitectomy testosterone level* absent confounding factors would not exceed ~60–70 ng/dL under rigorous assay conditions—far below cisgender male ranges (300–1000+). Persistent elevation warrants investigation into residual tissue or adrenal pathology.
after a trans an orchiectomy in ng/dl what are the testosterone levels after this procedure at the very highest??
sæкі
yeah ik its across like
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all of them could be on one often drives
fujo
do you remember the folder / filename?
straw bury
i lied to my psychiatrist or psychologist or whatever about my mental health and he still raised my risperidone dosage lel
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nuh is why im looking
fujo
>>424391
arent they auto deleted after a while
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nuh
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dw
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i backup all of thems
fujo
no i mean the accounts themselves like after inactivity
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some of them yeah
but have some logs i think that should be accessible bwa
fujo
bottom line, don't use discord
>>424414
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yes, i havent in ages but i wan dm w certain ppl h
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aw
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realrealreal
anon
>>424321
good : )

I wanna confront that boy w you but in a nice way and have him practice putting things away and then clap and have him feel good about himself
straw bury
omg omg fujo call me a faggot too plssss
rose
the two boys i was with yesterday are such a cute couple i need smth like that soooo bad omg
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sweeites
n ur adorable 2
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wan cuddle w u n cuties tbh
terry
discord is only good for small ish servers and talking with close friends thats it
>>424419>>424420
rose
i quit every discord server im in and deleted most of my friends on there so i only use it to talk to a small handful of ppl now
shit was just depressing me lol
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anon
>>424416
#trvke (quoted post has no text)
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i poofed cus of such reasons
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moved onto places that werent gonna lock me in n give me IV of stress
rose
my issue with most discord servers is they usually form a hierarchy or ingroup that makes talking in them rlly awful if youre not high in the hierarchy or within in the group
>>424432
terry
>>424423
dont care about the app itself i just wanna t alk to frens
>>424430
anon
>>424418
I got banned from some where I pissed ppl off but it was so fake anyway
sæкі
yeah
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its not a platform that can rly work in ways w/o it going to high school shit
>>424443
fujo
>>424426
yea, it's a structural issue of "too many people use it"
straw bury
uggggg i need a boyfriend or girlfriend or somethjing
>>424434>>424464
rose
my ideal partner would be the same kinda genderweird that i am so we can both be boygirlfriends together and kiss
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aw
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cute
straw bury
i would honestly take anyone at this point i am so desperate lol but people dont even make eye contact with me
sæкі
wud come n cuddle n take care of hmph
terry
i crave human affection, doesn't matter where it comes from
rose
it was very cute having this boy on my lap and calling him a girl infront of his housemates tho awww :3
>>424446
sæкі
it be
anon
I want to like... cuddle all of you
>>424444
anon
>>424429
Which is weird because they say sunlight is the best disinfectant. If a huge room with everyone talking goes to shit what does that say about the future of society n democracy n groups working together :<
terry
cuddle puddle
rose
one of them straight up said "wow you really can just say anything and ppl will go with it" which made me very happy lol
>>424450
sæкі
lol
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hehe
rose
>>424447
bodes very well for my cult leader aspiriations
fujo
i need coffee
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wud also make u n peeps some
rose
i need a coffee machine soooo bad
>>424463
rose
im so tired of instant coffee weh
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hehe
anon
>>424454
oooh how would u make it the coffee? I'm getting a lil tired of instant coffee but I still luv efficiency n all
>>424465
rose
>>424463
so my dad had a coffee machine thatd make espresso and then also would steam milk too, so he'd make lattes for us
but rn it is in storage and also he is in china so :/
>>424543
straw bury
>>424464
yea me and saeki should totally make out
rose
need to start using my other names when i talk to ppl thatd be cute
sæкі
<3 awww
rose
:3c
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cuties
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i havent share w peeps the names i usually use
maybe if can dm w soons on places awa
straw bury
cassidy is so cute it fits u
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and it doessss
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lol
rose
i also rlly like the name july because i think a lot of ppl pick like may n june n april n stuff
rose
so using july instead would be funny
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cutie
terry
i have a specific name in mind that's going to be my legal name in the future but otherwise anything goes rn
>>424491
sæкі
wud get a apartment for peeps n big bed to let peeps come n stays
>>424495>>424562
anon
I might be working my dream job this summer: Bouncer at a titty bar
>>424502>>424572
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bwa
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hehe
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cozyy
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since hair is a lil messy nows will share pic when i wake up n showers again . .
>>424504
terry
>>424494
haha im gona be the titty
terry
ngl i have never watched twilight except for like a few clips lol
anon
>>424485
is that a puppy using a torn bed as a blankie?
terry
is it worth it to watch twlt in year of our lord 2025?
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ig -3-
terry
luv u 2 ~
sæкі
^w^
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awww ty hehe
straw bury
ok im gonna go make pancakes luv u guy's
>>424523
SadChan🍉🍉
this is adult....
SadChan🍉🍉
i need adult....
SadChan🍉🍉
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
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pat
SadChan🍉🍉
WHY IS THIS 5 HOURS
terry
idk what this is lol
SadChan🍉🍉
PEAK CREATIVITY
fujo
SO. HIGH.
fujo
giwtwm
SadChan🍉🍉
i kind of have this narrative because new awesome games do come out all hte time
SadChan🍉🍉
they just arent "classics" because they are the new hotness
SadChan🍉🍉
like Inscryption isnt as ground breaking as anything this guy is going to nostalgia coom for
fujo
honestly i haven ever played or heard of most of them
SadChan🍉🍉
DINO CRISIS???
SadChan🍉🍉
dino crisis is like, so bad its good lol. it snot a good game lmao
sæкі
cud we make some kind of hm
preferably not discy but ill come up w idea but
fujo
ah that meme game that was heavily limited by the hardware back then?
sæкі
place like ito vc or screenshare ganes
fujo
i think i heard of it
anon
>>424465
omg that's so cute making lates for you
SadChan🍉🍉
admins havent added emojis yet.... i dare not ask them for VC
>>424548>>424551
sæкі
wud be fun
anon
I need more affection w my parents I think eventually we'll part ways n I'll lose them from my life and i don't want that to hold me back but I want to be a kind person while I'm wlth others
>>424550>>424553
sæкі
🥺
SadChan🍉🍉
::blobstop::
rose
>>424544
#edit add some emojis to this message please
sæкі
get basically none 2 bwa
terry
>>424546
it fucks me up that im probably not gonna see my family again once i leave the country and transition so idk
>>424603>>424555
fujo
neocats
sæкі
its tough.
sæкі
i had a long period i wwont go into but cus of work i had seriously thought abt doing smth where i didnt know if id be oke
but
hope to move n maybe see peeps again someday
>>424565
anon
>>424476
that's a nice name cas : )
rose
:3333
SadChan🍉🍉
this actually sounds cool
SadChan🍉🍉
this game sounds neet but
SadChan🍉🍉
5 hours?
sæкі
maybe make it to eu n meet all the peeps i know there or get in n lay low in CA till then, hopefully get err
i could apply for asylum but itd be a big risk of being smt that could hurt things a lot cus of how tough it gets
idk if i can or where but hopefully get visa or smth idk..
>>424567>>424581>>424583
SadChan🍉🍉
this really seems like SMT
SadChan🍉🍉
i thought taht too
terry
i wanna play shin megami tensei
>>424573
SadChan🍉🍉
i love SMT so much....
anon
>>424494
are those ok? i heard that being a prostitute is really mentally taxing :/
IDK worries me
>>424575
SadChan🍉🍉
>>424570
SMT IV is my favorite, SMT V is really accessible but the story is the worst out of any I played
>>424586
SadChan🍉🍉
its crazy. SMT V has by far the best gameplay of the entire series and by far the worst story...
anon
>>424572
I'd be a bouncer either way, not having to strip as much as I want to. We'll see tho.
rose
i need to keep playin g smtV:V but im playing dragon quest 8 rn lol
anon
yeh but ur supporting it
sæкі
need 2 c if i can get citizenship by descendence
SadChan🍉🍉
I just beat vengeance at the end of last year its pretty good. vengeance is double as good as the base games story and its still worse than any SMT story :(
rose
i rlly liked SMTV original tho
anon
Before hrt I used to keep my vitamin d levels low intentionally in order to reduce the forced masculinization I was going through when transphobes controlled my life, now I'm on estrogen nearly a decade, and post-orchiectomy, and ever since the orchiectomy I have the polar opposite ideal lifestyle, ie, vitamin d supplements, weight lifting and eating eggs afterwards... Cuz without testicles none of those three things are gonna make me look uglier so it's time for me to reverse my lifestyle to match the fact I don't have testicles anymore.

You know the weird and sad irony tho??? Eggs are more expensive now. Much more expensive, cuz of a liar who claimed he would make them cheaper but he made them more expensive. It's so sad that, I rightfully avoided eggs pre-hrt to avoid masculinizing myself, but now I have my orchiectomy and the liar made eggs more expensive.
terry
>>424566
were all gonna make it gurl bubbuwb
anon
I wish someone would kill me
sæкі
family fled germany due to the nazis n family fled ukraine due to the pogroms
rose
>>424573
i got to the near end of neutral ending BUT then my 3ds battery like leaked and i had to replace it and lost all my save data ;-;
>>424589>>424591
yngven
hello
fujo
>>424581
like they recognize being trans as a reason for asylum
SadChan🍉🍉
T_T
SadChan🍉🍉
I had a new game + in SMT IV that had a demon I raised from level 1 and had max stats in every stat :3
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i
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soooooo
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wanmt a 3ds again
anon
chat, how do I kill myself if im a pussy
>>424599
sæкі
nuh deth
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ill cuddle h
anon
isnt it horrible my wormies... i finally get an orchiectomy then literally a year after my orchiectomy eggs are more expensive now.
rose
too bad
anon
>>424553
I really think the answer is to live the most you can wherever you are while still working towards that future
anon
like how am i gonna have meaningful relationships n self confidence later if i don't practice now
>>424608
anon
there was a worm who had lived in a warzone here a year ago and was all torn up
>>424610
fujo
>>424605
ig u could go out and like really live that "i have no drive of self-preservation" type of life
sæкі
ill be honest if i could get access to or come into owning some place id open it up to work out way for place to stay/lay low for peeps i knew needed or i knew n liked n all
anon
>>424610
they got banned tho i think cuz they were kinda angry/sort of right wing i think. more bitter/angry
>>424613>>424619
SadChan🍉🍉
early SMT art is like.... i love it so much
SadChan🍉🍉
THERE IT IS
sæкі
think abt dis kinda thing a lot
anon
>>424612
sounds like something I would do except no warzone
terry
okkay bye peeps cya later :3
>>424622
anon
did they get banned for terrorist threats
sæкі
cya!
sæкі
are we talking kneecap?
SadChan🍉🍉
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I love kazuma kanekos art so much bros...
anon
>>424626
you don't get it beause you don't want to step on an anti-tank mine

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