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the sound of the future

so a couple days ago i was at a convention. for the first time i did my makeup in public and dressed femme by putting on a mask + cute outfit. sometime during the night i managed to find some random t4t lesbians to hang out with... holy SHIT i want to live like that, literally even if i never date women and only stay friends it just feels so fucking right to make connections like that... also one of them did hypnosis on me lol

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>>427074
nah i was just musing about the duality of living with a parent as an adult but i couldn't figure out a good way to phrase it that didn't sound like complaining about my dad and he didn't deserve the ragging on it wasn't neutral enough
but it's just interesting being an adult with a person who is sort of a friendly roommate who always has your back but also sort of sees you as a child and by way of being there as an adult a failed child lol

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>>427077
yeah like it's nice being around family a lot but it's also this weird constant uncomfortableness about it
like you revert to being who you were before moving out in weird ways that are hard to control and at least in my experience it's a little bit of a reversion in like how i get perceived
but i am yk, able to control my decisions now too
idk there's no point here really just rambling
life is interesting

makes me feel like an ideal middle would be getting on my financial feet and then building a MiL suite or a few and just making my parents be neighbors and having my kids be surrounded by family when i get to that part
>>427080
yeah that too. can't bring dates home

>>427082
i hit a point eventually where i decided not to hide things like that from my parents, that they'd accept it or go no contact. my dad cut me off for being trans but came back with time.
it was uncomfortable opening up about being bi and then trans but ultimately worth it, and if i'd lost anyone permanently over it (as when i thought i had) i'd feel like it was more their loss than mine

>>427084
oh okay i was on a track of "it's sad to hold your parents at arms length over something as small as an awkward conversation"
but you're holding them at arms length because you're a HOOKUP SLUT
lollll
that's fair tho
but i think that's more the issue than bi it sounds like
if you were pursuing a husband would they care?

>>427087
always about the grandkids that's so dumb to me
adoption, surrogacy, laboratory babies
why do they never think of this
i mean maybe you don't want kids and that's a whole other thing
but i hate how that gets attached to sexuality like homo couples can still make or adopt babies

>>427087
it's fair to not wanna tell that to your parents
but let's be real here
that's not exactly healthy for you anyway lol
there's a reason it's a little shameful

i mean i don't shame like i don't think it's bad for society or whatever
but i kinda think being a slut is like, emotionally damaging to the person doing it
unless they're college age then it's usually fine

fuck the world

and fuck human beings i hope everyone was dead

>>427093
>>427095
things will get better

you are a liar

>>427094
based
do the vice but admit what it is but it's still fun and there's time it's cool
i mean i guess virtue is technically better
but that's 1000x better than inventing fake virtue and glamorizing thotlyfe lol

im sorry im sorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorry

>>427098
i am a truther
::9/11

::911

::never_forget

god fuck

>>427107
ur so nice 2 me

>>427114
#tag (post has no image) never_forget

>>427120
\\make the pregnant man donald trump flying a plane into the twin towers dammit

i will never have kids :(

\_ donald trump flying a plane into the twin towers while he is pregnant with aryan babies

FUCK

>>427128
i cant i dont have a womb i will never have a womb i will never be a woman

>>427129
stop dooming

>>427131
ok sorry

where do i doom then? my therapist would put me in a psych ward

>>427136
the correct answer is to make the dooming stop. fight it. don't spiral

im sorry

>>427138
you can vent but what you're doing here is unhealthy and ruins the energy a little bit
i just don't want to see this become /tttt/

im sorry ill leave

>>427142
that's not what i meant :/
fujo's suggestion was good. just try to like get yourself into a different headspace
#hug

>>427148
never did keto keto but went into ketosis a lot on a weird diet i did and god it feels good i think we were meant to fast occasionally

like okay strawbury if you're watching let me give you an idea of how you could vent this same feeling without dooming
>i am sad that i don't have a womb and MIGHT never be able to get pregnant/have biokids (or some variation), wahh wahh sad cry cry
that's fine
>iwn have a womb (transition science is doomed) and iwnbaw ( trans women are fake)
see the difference
it's in the implications and the like blackpilledness
stay yaypilled even when venting this is key

>>427156
okay but my point is posts like that tend us towards being a blackpill den
it's actually a psychohazard to let people post blackpill shit and treat it as rational thought
it's an evil meme infecting her brain

>>427159
i'm not calling for moderation omg i'm saying black pills are infectious
memes are psychically affective
and posts like "IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW" are brain worms that spread

>>427162
can i just note that i only said this to her because i've seen her posting stuff like that for like 24 hours and it was getting to a point that feels like she's just using this thread as a dump for toxic sludge emotions
i try not to do that and so should everyone else is my only point
i have felt how she feels
but i filter it a little and rationalize through it before throwing it in public forums is all

>>427166
i said like twenty times she should stay and talk or do something to cheer herself up
but she should use different words
the internet is full of that shit and it's subject to entryism
if there's a high volume of it here the whole thing turns into a crab bucket
the right thing to do is not to say "valid, keep posting this, i relate" it's to say "i relate, but cheer up"

>>427169
it's not affecting me personally i'm more concerned with culture
like i just feel like chan type forums turn into nasty cultural spirals very easily unless people are being cheerful and silly and like, loudly rejecting certain energies
no spam no excessive horni no chvdtard no incel no dooming
that's how you keep a nice board without it needing redditshit moderation

and she's allowed to post iwnbaw all day in fact
but then i can sit here all day and tell her "it'll be okay you'll be happy and you are a woman" until she shuts up
it's like trolling but you be nice
that's how you maintain a chan

>>427173
it's never a wrong time to tell someone things will be okay and not to doom spiral
and it's literally never a good thing to encourage the spiral
i just wasn't very helpful
but ascribing it to an issue of intent is not right

i am so sick of the entire interent obsessively validating peoples' doom and self loathing. IT'S NOT FUCKING VALID

>>427180
yeah that's fair. getting on her about like psychohazard phrasing was not at all the thing to do here
i could have stopped at "stop dooming"

boots and cats and booots and cats and boots and cats

:)

>>427204
so based anon, that's where I grew up, most my childhood was in New Mexico, my mother was born there... Pretty based place, biggest issues are lack of public transport, and there's issues with the schools there, but long as you aren't school age anymore it's no biggie

I'm also from new mexico but the secret cool part you've never heard of and also uhhh i can't talk about it it's claddified

Roswell is a super fascinating place too, >>427217 I grew up in Abq and spent a lot of time in Santa Fe but Roswell is super fascinating

>>427217
zamn traveler

i always heart they had organized crime and were bad ppl in new mexico lol

>>427217
Also this place called Dulce New Mexico too, lots of fascinating stories about it

>>427220
sadly the violent crime rate is above average there that's no lie, i so badly wish New Mexico wasn't in perpetual poverty, New Mexicans deserve so much better than that.

>>427223
bazed new mexico civic worm

>>427224
that's good : )

>>427222
yeah dryness is pretty nice, my skin loses water faster than most peoples skin but I can easily compensate for that with just wetting my skin and putting on moisterizer

>>427229
oh my friend is from there i hope you have the nice eggplant dish

>>427230
you're woke to what they really look like don't let the fakers tell u different

>>427229
waow u should see notameri n randalfag next time u visit

#ai tell us fascinating fringe theories about a place called Dulce New Mexico

dulce, new mexico is a hotspot for wild conspiracy theories, mostly tied to underground bases and aliens. here’s the rundown:

1. **deep underground military base (dulce base)**: legend says there’s a massive joint human-alien facility under the archuleta mesa near dulce. supposedly, it’s where the gov does shady bioengineering experiments and houses greys or reptilians. whistleblowers like phil schneider claimed it exists before he mysteriously died in ‘96. skeptics say he was a fraud, but the story stuck.

2. **cattle mutilations**: since the ‘70s, ranchers around dulce have reported bizarre animal deaths—bloodless, organs removed with surgical precision. some blame secret military ops, others say it’s aliens harvesting dna for hybrids. fbi files confirm weirdness but no hard answers.

3. **native american legends mixed with ufos**: local apache/jicarilla lore talks of ancient subterranean beings called "the ant people." some ufo believers think these stories are proof aliens lived underground long before modern sightings.

4. **human-alien hybrids**: some insiders claim dulce is where they splice human and alien dna to create hybrids. freaky? yeah. proved? nah.

most evidence is hearsay or cherry-picked "leaks," but the combo of tribal myths, weird sightings, and gov secrecy keeps the rumors alive. fun to think about, hard to verify without a one-way ticket to the mesa. tell us fascinating fringe theories about a place called Dulce New Mexico

>>427238
U can go volunteer for the war like that son of the cia guy

https://istories.media/en/stories/2025/04/25/michael-gloss-story/

This could be you!

>>427240
yay fancy city

Im gonna go 2 bed soon how is faye :3

>>427211
hit me so hard in the nostalgia thank you for that

>>427252
::pat nice

>>427251
it's very important to serve the interests of the french state I often just mail them money myself since I wouldn't be a great soldier. Considered russia though

>>427265
waow

there was a cool looking girl who reminded me of u at the library yesterday nona

>>427268
i wish i had 100 lives to give for france

this is a francophile board

so tru

I have never spoken to my family about relationships or whatever

they said as a kid 'haha just don't get anyone pregnant' idk always felt ashamed never had sex or whatever tho

>>427263
Humidity is easier on the skin than dryness usually, especially for me because my type of skin flushes out water faster than most peoples skin does, I have actual issues with bleeding in the winter time it gets so bad, that all said, New Mexico is usually on the warmer side, and hot and dry seems easier on my skin than cold and dry... And like, I can just order skin products to override the fact my skin is more suited to humid environments, which I use daily anyways,

I moved somewhere far away much colder than new mexico and in winter time suddenly my hands just suddenly break out bleeding, my skin is so bad at handling cold dry weather

waow

awww u r too ofc smooch smooch

ok so you're settled on going to serve russia right?

>>427288
she looked like she knew what she was doing on the computer n had i think your hair color w a little green hairdye n idk had a strong aura like you sometimes have had

>>427289
u might not be able to get to the front as quickly if u do that

>>427285
I moved to the northeastern united states very different climate than new mexico, the increased pollen levels give me bad allergies here, and if I am not careful to moisterize a lot in winter time, my skin esp my hands and arms can suddenly start bleeding severely.

I do agree btw anon, feels like life is so random and you don't choose the body you get in the meatspace realm, I mean esp applies to being trans but other things too. Kind of crazy how my skin hates dry weather but my hair seems to prefer dry weather, shows how rng life is

>>427295
waow bazed

>>427300
think of how u could take the pressure off the north korean soldiers