i need to get back into gear/electronics trading sometime
got a great deal w a trade of a teenage eng OP-Z for an MPC1000 w upgraded aftermarket pads and upgraded ram that make it like go from 400-600 and also an mpk mini, midi keyboard
had gotten the OP-Z from a return guitar center had for lower price n hope to sell MPC finally n earn smth bacc from it

used to enjoy gear trading, can be cools

awe, rest well c:

sweet dreams gn!

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you too #hug >>446254

ehe <3

god i just learned abt the US army apparently taking a guy during the surge, when they took basically anyone, who had a sketch history and was allowed to bring a samurai sword to the fighting
like what the fuck

d'awwww

cuties

hope youre cozy, sounds nice :>

nice to see chu too ^^
day been oki?

oooo
sounds lovely c: glad chu got to go out w peeps n

yeah i saw, was crazy bwaa

was at dentist for a few hrs, guhhh pain of an appt, but mom had to go back out n got photos of it, was kinda near us in the evening

sorri if it made u have to go bacc or a mess of things tho ;w;
heccin hate the worsening here of specific weather effects climate change has been doing

but sounds like a rly nice time n hope the ride was cool too, talked w mom abt figuring out going n buying a used electric bike when i find the listing, n finding work i can take the train for-

>also me making u n cuties food, bwa

need to practice n learn mores, but am at least oki... like to make stuff for peeps when i can
can follow n make recipes n stuff but wanna learn further bwa

but yea waow has been heccin windy today, still is here rn

yeah, ive not seen that here before
and awww woah

scary but also surreal

awww ;-;

i should start carrying my bandanna again regularly or get a err
thin face scarf covering stuffs

mhmmmm
would gib my respirator

wanna find face n mask stuff for practical use n also for photo stuffs

was when id go to spots id find for photography stuffs
later used the mask in my photography class for film photos -3-
but yeaaa

ive stopped, unless i have assurance w how nowhere bound it is n such that its not risking being pulled up on for, as i dont wan risk it w how i look now

mhm..
i wanna do it agains when i hab peep to go w, up to maybeh help go if sometime wan
though yeah
ive had a lot of near bad bad run ins w police due to parking somewhere w exes n sitting for a bit or being in urbex spot. .

awa
oh ye i found an old photshop edit collage thing i did for my class portfolio i can maybeh send
might end up dming as it has face/head id have to blur otherwise for being from when i was in school bwa

been writing n focusing on that thoughs n should do some more in a couple . .
cozy times, boop

^^;
awawa

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would keep company n listen w peeps bwa

converting a brackets color scheme into one for here bwa

and then trying to tab over and write

~w~
pat
is for ergonomics stuffs n keeping hands on keyboard instead of mouse

and is the language that generally controls the colors and appearance of a lot of websites
offered n trying to customize theme to be usable here

but need to do writing work too bwa
appreciate peeps n cutes

wrong pic but okej

:'(

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bwa

wish i had nerdy girl i connect to near self

guh i need to work but i just have so little motivation even tho stims have me not so eepy yet, need to force self to get writing but so stressed after today idk why so so much

i might take a cool shower n try to get the push, maybe start a bit beforehand n work w the tide of energy to be able

hai shrimp

gm if it is for chu

aw :<

we had a dust storm for the first time ever in my time living here for over 10 yrs

yday

and a tornado situation the day before that

with like 3-4 going across a storm in the area to the north that had me terrified would come our way but thankfully, monitoring the wind direction maps, saw it was getting pushed over a body of water n not more land

no bonk but bwa

yeah

we've only been getting more w the climate getting more intense year over year

was already heat index of 100 f yday ; w;

but thasgud, glad to hear that at the leasts

gm nonners and nicu
<3

glad to hear, hope u can take system down n put it in when ur able c:

am looking at stuff n gear i need to buy, n used listings, for my homelab building

will send pics if i find anything im positive ill likely get or think is cool to share for peeps

yea
refers to like the setup of servers n data storage/+hosting n systems as a whole
like ur network n computer 'lab' esque setup

am building out data hording stuff n getting gear for using in projects so i can work on my archive of documenting stuff like leaks or abuses n resources like books n vids that are useful n at risk of disappearing or stuffs bwa

wot

lmao

youre on at off hours

understandable — the site has been having pretty stable users in the sorta US day and EU evening to night hours still
id have to think but probably 5-10< ppl on at times in those hrs in this board

yea, vibin here for a bit while I try and get energy for doing more work on stuffs
hope things have been going alr tho if having to be increasingly busy, guh

ah yea thaspain, glad to hear it's cooled down though, at the least
dealing w being between working on projects/+writing and research n crunching the writing to get it out for specific time frames
exhausted times lately, hope peeps can take the rest they need tho themselves, ugh
but yeah, group projects like that can kill me in dealing with so much else on top of it; dealt w it a lot on n off in my research stuff n work in general as much of it is around random affinity esc groups

best wishes tho
just popping in n out while a bit exhuasted n unable to formulate my thoughts the best, as it be

gotta figure out if i should fast track current essay/piece to be done w it and get it out in this short window where it might be quite relevant, but also gotta see how much energy I have after today, recovering from longgg first dentist appt after my previous one just up and closed
US medical system times (tho also many others cus heccin so many places dont provide dental even if they have public healthcare in some form)

and awwwww

best wishes, thats real tough

(n yea, can be stressful but personally kinda enjoy the ride of the stuff i do w uh how intense it is; n sometimes being able to take time away for a break after a period of all gas bwa, though everyone's different and my adhd etc etc self just prefers dumb paths like this, sigh)

and yea curious abt essay if willing to tell but either way wish chu luck w that, is tough :/
if im up, n other peeps too probably, willing to bounce off or help if needing to work out a choice on writing stuffs
bwa

mhm, school was how i started to entirely kill my interest in the fields or subjects i cared abt deep down, due to medical n financial reasons i had to leave n pursue being self taught w help of video courses n books n so on (smth in my case is thankfully possible, as is sadly not possible in plenty)
but it sucks that schools are often what kills peeps drive in what they love while producing the only part that matters for finding work, being a piece of paper n not as much a care in what you all learned (though ie college or uni does show you can function as being able to follow instructions or exist in heavy strain workload society but uh yk lel -u-)

ded hrs

(myself, not being mean to poor little bbs)

>>446427
>>446429
eheh
welp
ill be over here doing pretty much only html and css for my sites and avoiding introducing things thatll uhh
guh
not gonna dive into that but yea id recommond having maybe just those two n not adding more to deal with for a while, even if i can feel pain thinking about ts/+js

>>446424
and yeah, glad to hear at least
was always interested and trying to expose myself to new things n so on but the amount of work that was gonna be going over what i'd already been doing on my own for yrs since earliest teen yrs was gonna make me just guh
though glad to hear you got good out of it & found things in it that you could learn from n take with you, depends a lot on the person though ye
was trying to manage when i believe i was still undiagnosed while dealing with a slue of other mental/psych n physical stuff so did what i could to take the path that could work for me, found some crews online that i could learn from n began trying to do what i could bwa
and yeah the uh struggle of finding why n how to realize any improvement from a mental state/space that makes you like that can be rough for a long time
is tough for a lot of peeps n glad chu n some others here have worked through even some of it -v-

trying to find work myself beyond doing the publishing of what i do independently n having my work able to be shown to help me find smth, may know some peeps i can work with in time but trying to get smth sorted out n released first guh
though is tough even with a college or uni degree to find work for a looot of ppl rn and have solidarity w that even though i didnt have the personal ability to continue w mine for the time being, might return to school if i can move out of where i am in the future though

n gotta go through the archive of courses and books i got from a crew i worked w that has bug bounty ones to study up again n be able to more clearly remember n do all of it, hopefully towards being able to do some work that doesnt require me to have a job to earn money in the meantime of finding smth

and ouuu ye ic
nice
was looking into doing stuff w some tool if i could find one that worked for me in order to get more insight from large amounts of data/dumps/scrapes of info, might keep doing it the way i have or maybe look into it again
sounds interesting n would be cool to see sometime if u make more of it or are every open to showing a little c:

ohhh

cool :>
used to like to design create ideas of samplers n synths i wanted to try n make when i had the time n such
maybe ill try again sometime eventually but are an interesting way to express n show what you know n can design/+build

yeah, i mean i think you can get a good amt out of them for making smt that works in the same way some low power/horrid spec oldschool romplers were or such
w some extra stuff to make it able to output things n have audio, can run stuff that works p good

think ive seen some projects doing similar on YT w like a couple views, used to like looking up DIY/open source synths n sampler projects a lot

n yeah, making them for just being a lil like
a functional but not like beyond more than fun thing or such can be done p easy cus of how light simple oscillators like in old synths were or such

and awe yea

also think u can get basically anything to generate a very simple waveform to be usable in the simplest of mono synths so isnt that tough, sampling tho can be a bit different n makes it harder

yea
is like, can be seen (this is different but similar principles) in modular synths and how simple some of it can be with very minimal circuits

is interesting
was into n wanted to study audio eng for a while but ended up having circumstances change n lead me to not ending up doing so, tho is still smth i have an interest in beyond my sorta stuff i do nows

and lel yeah thats one wayyou could

ehe yea, even as a way to try and broaden n explore a new area, can be a cool small thing to try w how it works not being like
it can be a lot less intensive to learn the building blocks of imo with how simple parts of it are before you get into trying to make like fully custom pro stuff not for fun or anything

lel this pic again smh

getting used to n making moar use of cryptpad lately, cool tool and option for encrypted open source cloud suite of document, text, code, slideshow, kanban, n editor/platform for other stuff
thankful envs does the work to host a lot of these open source privacy/+work tools

o7

see peeps if its down for a while n for those not in the discy or so on
gotta check that agains

o/

oe?

just in case it crashed due to deployment or smth - ?

but good to see, cheers

ahhh ye

yeah
happens to the best of us

wrong pic but thanks booru

awroo

haiii lainnn

got the push to start writing a gud bit more of my essay agains

awww

ehe

okey okey :'>

o7

sorry chu are stuck thinking of that stuffs, sad

do what you need to take care n comfort for self, is tough though n hope you can work through it
peeps are here im sure if able to help or anything

false

doesnt mean chu dont deserve to be comfortable n safe, n doing better than okey

you probably are a lot better than you think abt self n more peeps care than chu think
but even if you had been in a place that stuff like that happened, you still deserve the care from self n others to be able to do the best you can

peeps deserve support n dont let the way you feel abt it make you not work towards getting it, can get a lot better n improve self towards being comfortable inside if you do so
though going alone will just make it tougher . .
hope you can rest self when or if able n helps ,~,

also second lain

but no matter how you all feel abt urselves
i believe in you peeps

is smth that youve been through n is tough, but can break that cycle for smth better, and find that thing n place that makes you feel how you wish you could :'c

false hmph

::pout

lel

pain

yeah

actually kind of fitting image, relevant i mean

maybe try n find a place you can visit regularly even in those tough times so you can be able to meet peeps who care abt u in the best and worst of it

even if thats here, or wherever
having just a single point of stability, even if that is online to start

rest up if/when u can n take care of self even if u dont think u deserve it, for the sake of other peeps even
pat

bwa

x ty <3

need to think of more or write down ideas for things to share for the list peep was wondering if anyone had

peeps up to much today or for their weekend?

lel it be
but yeah bwa
doing web dev for my site n gotta work on setting up n trying to do design for mediawiki thing or whatever bwa
hope its coming along well tho n not being too much of a pain, good to see things didnt start an outage earlier

n run a small few sites on nekoweb atm n err
gonna be linking to it here more publicly once i have current essay/piece up as the one there rn is incredibly personal n all
but i run a site for a community project i started to help share research and writing by peeps who might not want it attached to them due to its sensitivity or who hope to work on bigger projects together bwaa

but been working on n off for the last week to move some of it n an archive sorta thing of a bunch of resources for learning cs/infosec or opsec n ethical hacking esc stuff that ive just datahoarded hundreds of books of n stuffs

>trying to figure out how im gonna end up setting up hosting all this material for the first time dealing w hosting this size of a library of things is pain
but good to be getting used to n able to be better at in the future

had idea for, but just a concept n thought itd be interesting to see what people thought mainly, how a better integrated into the message/chat side of here could have the DM system be
cant formulate words the best at this state of eepy but yea

mhm

yeah, is good to have it not become a situation where its quiet chat while 10 people are just dming
tho mainly was trying to think cus of the times peeps accidentally click trying to copy a URl or such and yk bwa

ill post the idea or smth here later just to see what ppl think as its based off a chat site where we didnt rly have the DM only chat issue, but its different in every type of community

n ouuu ye, appreciated :>

yea lel

heh

libpol verification starting at 7 dollars a month
totally proven model, yes

yeah, recommend uh pls dont use captcha captcha n just cloudflare or such if possible

or yk a different solution similarly

yea, is needed sometimes w sudden raids or idk if you peeps get actual attacks at points

oh yeah im tired lmao

guh

mix things up, yeah recaptcha is a mess

but nots specifically that, tho they do tracking on users and that is provided to google as well as i believe they can be subpoena'd for such, as it goes through wherever your device they ID beyond the typical cookie ways goes

yh]

google is just a giant mess

and yeah, you cant fully escape such things as they do it even if you personally dont use it but, theres steps peeps on the user and host end or such can take, at the very least
until google buys the state
>inb4

YT removing the hatespeech policy against gay trans etc has been wack

they did silently right after the new admin

yeah, it was done silently so ppl didnt rly notice for a while sadly

lel yeah i was a co owner of some places that had that sort of ruleset and thankfully was mainly when i was a mid to late teen but
also the worst stuff to see even if a bit older than some peeps do but yeaaaa
its a mess to deal with and it eats away at what you feel you can morally defend or such idk

having there be consequences for intolerance and hate or attacks that are actual threats n such is important, while also having free speech, but also noting that platforms and online spaces arent governed by such bwa

>and the weird little guys continue to say theyre being silenced and have free speech for bans on social media

broadening too much loses what makes a lot of places like this and others special themselves, even though its a tough thing to work with and its ever evolving, it's good to try and have some kind of understanding of what the culture is and not trying to appeal to everyone, leading to appealing to no one or making a platform thats just as draining as the many others doing so

yeah

yeah

tho yea most of what gets associated with n how it was designed lead a lot of them down a road to just rot & exploitation
>insert crypto scams now being, practically, legal

yeah, i had interest in it kinda early (ish, relatively) on cus of the cypherpunk stuff, i dont align w the full center to leaning right libertarianism in a lot of it but the concepts can be useful

yea, the main issue for me outside of the inherent design issues w smth like btc is that its use of proof of work has just amounted to so much electricity & climate acceleration when a better system wouldve made it so that we wouldnt have made this issue at all

the whole idea that theres massive warehouses of computers being sent to wherever the person can get electricity cheapest cus of this is just absurd and guh

and yeah it came out of that and while the ideas could be useful across the spectrum at a base level and not where we are now, it kinda put off anyone else from indulging the idea other than the fewer but still a bit of libertarian socialists who have interest in it
though it is still being used by plenty for some of its earliest use cases and not a ton more so yknow

*cough* *cough*

yeah, i rarely find people who are and a lot of them cant identify as such due the claiming of it by americans and turning it into the only farther and farther right its kept going