its maybe been several yrs outside of DJ set stuff i did w the same gear i produced w but wanna try soon too
excited to hear urs n roses n other peeps stuffs whenevs shared

and awe
also post rock is nicu c:

is cozy intro reminding me again of some of bwa thing

(bwa as in nvm)

cute pic

also yeah try ozone

haiiii

omg i thought

the #say was in the song

i was like wh

lol

hehe

is comfy
reminds me of some of the bouncing vocal chops on sing by four tet if faster n not samples

but i like its so far n interested to see when chu/if chu record n feel open to sharing w ur voice or vocals x

hai mod

oh

u mean the neonazi linked worm

or rather alt posting nazi junk

sigh

if i ever hear someone seriously call nazis online w/o joke

silly lil guys or smth im gonna scream

also got to vocals n sort of
reminds me of spoken word stuffs i like from folk artists but w diff style of the music working with it awa

>>449569
yeah

im uh well
anarchist as in no kings no gods no masters as a rule so uh yk
not tryna criticize a single religion other than for their individual special issues

>>449578
i thought u @d the pic of me earlier n i was like ded

lel

yeah, lets just forget or rebrand the crusades while trying to fearmonger n spread violent hate of the religion from a place ur extremely racist towards guh

yeah

they can be used in the same way we had a convo abt liberatory struggles having nationalism be smth that pushed them to fight for freeing their people but
religion has the ability to be co-opted and especially when it comes to christian labelled religions

>>449593
is cutie being comforted into being their real color agains c:

and yeah i mean on like

a spectrum

and some have more resistance to it than others, along w

awwww

i loved listening n ty for sharing xoxo

ye u 2 c:

ima get to writing the thingy ive been

hehe

cute

ooo

i like doing writing n research akin to anthropology, cultural esc documenting n preserving scenes n subcultures n such

but is peeking out to u :>

>>449631
i find them all interesting to various extents .3.

am doing documenting of current groups n movements that deserve to be preserved n wont be otherwise, generally small queer groups who do serious aid for communities or bigger protest n activist movements n the ideas, 'customs' n culture etc of each group
n finding where it all is inspired from to the best of my ability n bwa

i like doing documentary esc stuff on peeps n stories that i think could have a big effect on ppl or are deserving n worthwhile to have the time put in to write abt, even if smol

rn though writing abt the induction of cybercriminal and extremist types into places like the RU state then the US and DOGE, and how people have taken action against it through uncovering n hacking n exposing such stuffs bwa

aw

i wan go bacc n see straw c:

was more my speed in terms of how peeps n the area is

nu like

the city is more my speed than where i am now and the type of person, rather than midwest peeps who i luv many many of who i care abt but generally dont connect w or fit the best w in comparison to more mountainous, queer cities ish stuff (or the rural area a bit outside of them)
grew up in new hampshire/MA n boston a lil while away area till i was 9

was a entire shift n loss of feeling i fit in the region when i came to midwest, tho think minnesota would be cozy for meh

awwwe

and err yeah its a mix

but yeah i said earlier how my mom nearly outed me as trans in front of the church employee/volunteer peeps today in our tiny unincorporated area

was there for community garage yard sale thing
was so scared shed say smth in an area where it is not the safest to say yk

i was open n out n wearing femme when was on HRT a long time but w the loss in stability n not having peeps to help partner w to be safe when going out, much more worrying

and will start w cuties

am the ansynd after all

always open to ancoms n lefties willing to carry their weight n not be authoritarian :'>

you participate in capitalism

ur not a capitalist

pat

a capitalist is one who uses the system in order to extract the labor from workers n those around them while profiting from it and so on
buuut there is yk

we are at the place that this system leads and it is only going to get worse if letting the system run wild -w- n we already have been said to be in a post capitalism rent seeking for everything system by a lot of the better econ theorists n such

sigh

keeps hairline

we lost a ton of money for my familys retirement n my health coverage when the tariffs hit

i asked my dad to please pull the money out and figure smth out in mid december

he did not listen to my attempt to talk abt it -w-

now he ofc is moving all his money to overseas stocks apparently n watching way too much finance/stock YT
its so much better than his time being at all on asmongold again tho kill me

>the [nick fuentes

] guy is rly doing well for himself blah blah he must be rly popular rn!
he ref'd him but just called him by hjis initials of nick

asmongold is a uh

streamer and shut in who is rich asf and a hoarder

hes moved further to being far right now

this but uglier

also he used a dead rat as an alarm clock

there is so many years of awful gross things he did but that one is the symbol

yes

he gets like

100k viewers at times

its sad.

hes an OG wow streamer

he became pro trump and was anti woke for like a couple yrs now

my dad started watching him on yt like 1,5 yrs ago painnn

>>449726
:o

thats kinda a fun music name for an artist song album or anything tbf

lmao yeah i wish u the best ;;;

im thankful mine isnt like that but

hes like a reactionary liberal

he watches TYT still

even tho he knows the issues ive said n how uh

they are abt ppl like me lol

yeah

its for the best

but watch out for ppl who talk abt him positively or reference him w/o yk

he like

he said in the past few months that quote
"im like 99% sure the holocaust happened"
(maybe a lil different but)

he also went down the palestinian hate path and got banned for a week over it
and yeah ;;

i watched him in 2018 or 19 ?

like cus i felt w his struggles hes had health n dealing w not being able to like

at my worst i related when i felt i was hopeless n unable to take care of self

a guy did analysis of his reddit and

i think it was 80+ % of posts were hating something

like close to 1/5 were hate towards trans/gay ppl i think

its so just
hes built the worst audience now n i hate that so many ppl had to be like dude i cant watch you anymore youre becoming.. this

mhm

he was like that but radicalized by having his chat be free to say practically anything

legit

he gets chat spam of "hitler w"

the amt its gone downhill is crazy

makes me sad n i feel for peeps who have family falling down their own or deeper spirals ;-;

yeah

oh god

ur dad?

or who wait

>>449774
ahhhh yeah...

i could tell many stories of ppl i was close to who did but thankfully my family kind of

they come from rough places of escaping persecution or violence and it instilled this sort of understanding in a lot of family members,

also

my cousin started going by masc name recently and asking my mom n her sister to call them that

think theyre working towards coming out bwa

>>449789
g u h

would do them w u

2 avoid the wackos n also cozy

aw

:<

hmmmm.

yeah

id erm

id recommend going ahead n taking it slow w that like

maybe a small hit or smth to be aware of yk

or having the understanding of how youll be

tripsitter for salvia is gud idea when possible

yeahj

i luv them but only wanna do when im w peep n can cuddle on them or be cozy like that

dissocs lead me to a dark place otherwise, but they improve my depression when am safe feeling n w peep i trust

is smth chu can do but recommend not rushing straiiiight into that yk

its roooough

i did the equiv of khole on dissoc my first time n i had like

a sort of ego death but not the kind other psychs usually give

n was thinking i was dead laying face down in a red lit lake

u make me wanna

lemme grab it for u hehe

i rewatched this recently
luuuuuv this show always and omfg internet comment eric (yk from his old channel being salvia only lel and doing tasks on salvia)
[YouTube]

what a collab

hamilton morris and eric

:0

ive not had shrooms either ;;;

ive done acid 2

been offered stims like meff but avoid the hard hard stuff...

yeah, i take kratom n my meds

mhm same

so um

i have been seeing a nurse practitioner or med specialist for my psych meds and now adhd etc meds but

she didnt know or think to find if i had

adhd

when id been in the medical system trying to see what my issue was for

5< yrs

and

she had lead me to get up to

2 mg of klonopin a day

smth that was in reality to cope w not knowing what the issue was n it being adhd

like ffs ugh

thasgud

i did all that when i was younger n learned the harm reduction side n interesting stuff abt a lot of pharmacology

n used that etc to be able to work towards a path where i take the meds ik i need n so on etc

yeah

same

hey am here if able to helps

tinnie helped me get crypto in exchange for cash recently n ordered hrt for me after being off cus of the family abuse esc stuffs
if able to help myselfs or stuff when in need cus of err

running out emergency, am around if can help work stuffs out for the time until ur able

awe

pat

wherever i tbh can find ik peeps n can be w someone i feel safe w and can room w ill probably go

that until i likely leave the US when the opportunity or opening appears (or i push n get to it)

i mean there are general more open groups like i have one locally at the less than city that wud be happy to hab peeps like ur position n all

its not just chu n online its very skewed

pat

am working on setting up a safe house for ppl to get to n for me to be able to have n hold down
long story of the plan n the group i started a long time ago for such stuffs but

working to creat those spaces

n mhm

am gon probs work on my work piece

wud if i had ability sigh

awwww

i need 2 eat more...

and w starting e ; ~;

aaa

sigh

it does

mhm

ima take anxiety med n some stims/+coffee to have energy to reach out to ppl finally w/o the OCD holding me back i hope..

wan curl up in ball n cry all the sudden bwa
take care of selves all too thoughs . .

compulsions still to isolate real bad i hate it, ugh . .
shy feels hrs
i hope ur cozy though urselves rn tonights bwa

hhh mhm..
need to reach out gib support then lel aha -w- but
would gib comfort n hope to kick the compulsion n reach n read n be there if need or wan talk through those times at all in a lil