night i'm off soon just waiting on laundry to dry

^v^

my favorite pokemon is beedrill

sweet dreams x

ehe

i luv the cute ball/fren shape version of shaymin

then persian

i like the basic shit lol

and luv sylveon n victini n stuffs

would have to think who my least fav is

kingler is pretty cool too

my sunburn is peeling so bad lol

hrt can make u very uv sensitive so be careful out there

awww

yeah ive been starting to use it when im going out nows
the climate getting worse worse here has made it a big worry im noticing n being careful of nows

i seroulsly burned like bad in just 20 mins of direct sun

D; d'awww

waiting on my vial to be delivered in next couple days

if i wasn't wearing my floppy hat it would have gotten my face

i got the teeth lol

my teeth in the back are fucked from puking so nah

lol fine gimme a sec u can see my awful teeth tooh

had to get my new treament plant started today
so stressed abt the cost my dental work is gon be n the time itll take sigh

i got medicade but still dont go because dentist scares me bad

yh ;-;

mhm

aww

i have to cus of just

hereditary issues n had lost the hope to care for self during teen yrs of struggling w abuse stuffs
n dealing w finally trying to fix all of it is just sigh
mhm...

mine deteroriated faster on hrt and other stuff tho like they were kinda holding on and then nah

hadnt even thought abt that unless

last dentist i saw wanted to demo the entire mouth and its like i can still eat and stuff so i dont want

ur doing sublingual

my dentist had to have me today for 3~ hrs and was teasing me the entire time

yeah 4 pills a day

yeah

sublingual can make it worse sad

try to personally stick to injections (diy) to fight to do what i can to not affect where things are already bad

my mom had awful teeth too

like as long as my smile holds up i'm able to shrug off pain and infections

and awww ;-;

mine isnt great but i dont rly like smiling w teeth out anyways . .

i'm gonna swap to injections after my breasts settle in a size they like

i hope it comes together wells

read too many trans women losing ground when they made the swap

and lel

ic

im starting again straight onto subq injection so hoping itll be as positive as last period i had access was
n yeee
pretty peeps aa

yeaa .3. thasgud thoughs i havent rly done or known as many ppl irl doing only pills or stuffs so mainly used to injections as they were all i was interested in >~<

from what i've read pills are good for booba but injections help with general feminization better

but thasgud for that time fram n hope its been helping chu get to where u wan be this bit into it

i'm pretty happy so far like i et a lot of male attention which is affirming

ehehe
cutes
was getting a bit n a lil aaa stuffs but have memory holed a lot i need to try n face again
n mhm. .

i'm on 100mg spiro twice a day too so from what i can tell it doesn't really stunt titties

orchi is planned tho

i'm trying to figre outhow to get medicade to pay for my nut removal

mhmm
need to start planning out how i can w mine or idk aaa
but yeah thats the struggle for me

they will its just you gotta find the dr to make them

since i'm in the south its not all easy

aww yea especially, can imagine ;;v;;;;
hope maybe theres a path — unsure w medicaid — to do it maybe somewhere that there are more n can see more easily

i always figure it out eventually

evenif not i got money put aside

its just they take so many thousands and its tedious

mhm

is what im having to deal w rn w dental
so just stressed abt all the other stuff i likely wont be able to work out until i find a solid path to working
trying to get way to access train a good while away n use that to find things

my laser was like 6 grand

between that, car, bills and general dr stuff i'm usually broke

so i've discovered something like on 4chan and other gloomy places they say u gotta voice train so hard but i just raise mine a lil and literally nobody genders me male

theres a lot of these hyper like
tryhard may fit but
you gotta do 1000s of hrs of work before youll get gendered right ever idea

i just be me and everything works

like if it was ppl i know i'd be concerned but half of these are angry customers cussing me out and calling me a dumb bitch or telling my boss the white woman is causing problems

so if mad strangers gender me female i'm not worried anymore lol

ye, is nice big step to make n think ur doing real well, glad to see n happy for chu :>

might be the titties

lel
think the like one thing a person sense leads to them getting weird or gendering differently then when able to match even a lil of the preconception can be able to present in a way that peeps treat you how you may feel comfortable or safer as or as self

i'm 6'1 like 140 pounds they are painfully obvious

when i stopped caring if people gendered me fmale is when it started happening more

i dunno what changed physically but something a few months back it went from people calling me fag to dumb bitch or stupid whore

n yea
being so caught up in it causes a lot of just
being hung up on lil things while not pursuing what makes u feel fits better n then ppl seeing that n recognizing how ur presenting or are or whatevs cant word guh but
doing one thing to perfection while not doing the rest makes it just impossible to be able to make it to that point in a time that the peeps who care can take at times idk

i have painfully sassy body language

its where the da'keesha name came from

trying to dl game guh extracting keeps failing n gotta re dl and oooo

i'm gonna sleep in like 10 mins

i think the other thing to me "passing" is simply because i'm in my 30s and women my age aren't as perfectly cute anymore

eep well if n when u do, hope u had a while to care for n relax self to unwind tonights

and heh pat
yea the idea that all women look x y z in these spaces like a lot of chan boards gets to me n for older peeps its not fair or smth they even understand a lot of the time idk -v- but also is when u can kind of present in a way n people arent as looking u up n down as some may a young person

girls in their 20s i'm not even gonna try to compare to but women my age we aren't that different anymore

i look like a middle aged soccer mom type

younger lel yawn

.play gup cat

::nae nae

well i'm off gotta work in like 12 hours

lel and cya! rest well n sweet dreams o7 nice to chat w peeps

sleep, shower, eat and back at it

take the care u need n best wishes w work until you get that time off for even a lil

.play [YouTube]

i get 3 days off in a row its pretty heavenly

night

:'D gn!

n hai kate

Would normally be sleepy rn but I finally went for a walk and accidentally fell so I'm like addrenalinized.

ooo n gon eat then rest finally
making tamale
n -v-

.play where we going now norman bambi

it be

i shud get high or smth sometime n rewatch sgt frog

watched it as a preteen i think

I can't find the song in this video
https://denden.world/@reimelselden/114511093771028715

:<

Ah it's on bandcamp but not youtube
[Bandcamp]

ooo ye i got no result running through recognition tool cus of that too, probs

had tamale
gon hab lil choccy n some water n stuffs

gei

some peeps here r but not lived there since i was a kid sry
tho wish there was a eepover

snuggly wants

always sync'd into puter compooting

pc taking a hit to its performance i see

lol

i had err

one coffee scotchmallow
man i luv sees but gon be eating a lot less sugary stuffs going forward, tho try to start eating moar as to help when starting HRT

is so gud

is marshmellow, coffee bean stuffs n caramel

:c

well hey

transitioning is a screw u to the societal pressures n ideas it forces on u, doing so now might be seemingly worse w the gov being what it is but
a lot more normal peeps are accepting nows
and theres no invalid or time u should hold urself from allowing self to transition even if has to be smth u keep a lil hidden other than to peeps u trust, ur local community or even just online spaces to start

oooo nicu

lel

this reminds me of the spell/hex magic looking circle thing kate sent yday

programming language made of visual tarot esc esoteric symbols n circles

i mean

the thing is

he may have been for you
but he also deported a world of people
drone striked and did more violence abroad than trumps first term

like

until we make serious change, a leader like this is always gonna enforce the violent system of control we're stuck under, but
being there n sticking together while showing your resistance while coming out in a time like this-
is one of the strongest things u can show abt self n knowing of who u are or want to work towards being, even if unsure where u wan end up et

yet*

but yeah the whole thing sucks that the only person who tried to anesthetize, at least, changing things was followed by such intense forces of reaction
mainly cus he didnt follow through on actually changing things ;/
and he was stopped from being able to choose a supreme court nominee or such things cus of the right blocking up the pipes of government

the US is stuck holding up a status quo that is still incredibly bad
and cus of the deregulation n lowering of taxes for the wealthy, the ppl in the bottom 90~% have to deal with the issues for themselves sigh
but
yeah, its something that can be helped, but you have to be intolerant of intolerance & not reach across the isle to meet in the middle with people who want to control or outlaw the bodies of the people u claim to fight for, sigh

i think its aisle im eepy? lel aha

misspelled oop
but yeah the idea that we have to be civil with people who literally want to kill not only trans ppl but immigrants n their opposition
like
the whole thing that biden just didnt act or do anything to stop us from going the route of deportations to a concentration camp that no prisoner has left alive from

but i bring up all the diff issues as they all intersect n u can imagine how awful itd be for a trans immigrant whos sent there n such
is smth we all have to work together n fight as it is a shared enemy of totalitarianism and authoritarianism if not wanting to say fascism for some people just yet (idrc care abt the labeling beyond the practicalities of most people recognizing how bad things rly are)

>>450518
for a long long time before our current modern society there have been international things like 3rd gender/NB identities & things like

two spirit in the americas
many of these identities had abuses done against them in societies like what we have, but native americans for example were able to recognize that they needed one another to be able to survive & the identity or concept of gender didnt matter in the end ,~,
is smth thats been put on us of bearing this preconceptions/standards being placed by what het.normativity & patriarchy affects us all with, though puts most pressure on the most vulnerable

sigh
and uh

we have had what you can consider trans ppl in india for thousands of yrs

its a group that has always existed is my point mainly

and the pressure being put on us is an external force that while existed in the past didnt get to the level of hate & targeting until there was reasons for a group in power to scapegoat us instead of having to address any issue at all n such

??

i didnt say hundred

im talking as in

between antiquity and up to the period where the power structure made exploitation of us particularly useful

why is this relevant. . .

i know this

we all likely know this

its just important to remember that across many to all cultures there have been individual different forms of trans ppl
not that one is better or a thing that is somehow inherently good/problem free

theyre just good to have ppl share the info on as large amts of the masses n such have no full concept of it existing beyond at maximum usually 1900s germany on

gon brush teef in a sec

>>450544
the rich people were in power and colonized all the parts of the world they could and did
they turned colonies into exploitation to make them richer
and we've seen change but also just a shift in how the exploitation is done, things are worlds better but the exploitation that kills so so many people despite out incredible modern medical abilities we're constantly improving, the system of power using peeps to extract is still one of the core parts
as then when the people arent happy w their circumstances, those who were transphobic already n those who were not will both be told that the reason things are bad is bc the trans ppl are trying to cancel or steal <x y z thing> from you, or the immigrants are taking ur jobs and buying up all the places to live

its smth you cant rly fix w/o spreading community wide n through sharing info n progress/support online and being able to improve things takes ppl coming together just as a group of workers seeing others their boss employs being unfairly paired or being abused, they strike or further than that
is smth that can be done for more than just that too n building control to help peeps have improvements put into place if only at first locally

>>450552
w-wut tf i have no context n this is just kinda an ex of how ppl get obvs but
the weird little guys posting like this just guh

i go brush teef in sec then on be going to bed in a couple
<3

i appreciate u peeps

i wasnt even out in school n was bullied through all of it for seeming gei n queer -w-
is smth that yk

but being out and visible is clearly important and how we got gains

ily frens n cuties n peeps n appreciate the thoughts put into writings n chats if i end up passing out

so do wh peeps can bit by bit, find peeps, see if u know anyone online u can eventually make a group w or meet someday soon or down the road, is a path to being able to support one another out of feeling online chats are all u hab

::mime_moder

n yea is just a take on homophobia n thats also part of the issue connected to misogyny

is all linked n built from generally the building block they found n started with, misogyny

havent finished this but it seems like a good p short vid i think peeps would like
has a lot of shared topics to what trans n queer peeps are feeling rn in the US n a story from a peep who left n bwa
[YouTube]

oh god

i dont see thumbnails cus

i use de arrow which shows me a random frame from the video as the thumbnail
got reminded of how much the red text n so on pains me

she moved to berlin n talks abt history of the hope in queer movements there in the 1900s (00s)
and made it to part where shes talking abt the fleeing of black socialists to germany from the US when there were socialist parties showing solidarity to black peoples struggles in america in the 60s or 70s i think

im eepy so i go rest
ily peeps

mwah

hab gud day or gud eep 2 the rest of sweets n cuties

xoxo