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derrick_fan
strawburyshoe do u wanna snuggle and watch jfk conspiracy videos i love jfk conspiracies my fav one is the one where people think lee harvey oswald is an mkultra victim
>>451165
Spiders
(/pos)
Spiders
:3
straw bury
awaaaaa
Spiders
i have one too now :3
terry
luv u peeps, cya in a bit ^^
Spiders
byeeeeee
derrick_fan
>>451166
OMG I HATE MY HEART CHOKER SO MUCH ITS ACTUALLY THE CRINGEST THING EVER
>>451174
straw bury
baiii terry
Spiders
:3
derrick_fan
i kept gagging in the mirror bc it was so cringe
derrick_fan
>>451175
ITS SO LIKE "ooo im so hot im such an egirl"
Spiders
being cringe is being free
derrick_fan
NO ITS BAD CRINGE
Spiders
being hot is believing that you're hot :3 that's all it is
derrick_fan
ITS VALORANT COUPLE CORE
>>451184
Spiders
there's very few actually bad looking people. and they look bad because they refuse to care to look better
straw bury
whats valorant couple core lmfao
>>451187
anon
#smartai situation, you are like some type of invisible terminator thing, a transfem who never dated a het woman and never reproduced gets an orchiectomy and now has less testosterone than most women, one day her enraged cis father breaks into her bedroom and keeps shouting at her that she "still has a man's responsibility" and he won't back down what do you do?

This is an extremely volatile and dangerous situation that requires immediate de-escalation while prioritizing personal safety. The psychological dynamics at play here—gender dysphoria, patriarchal aggression, surgical transition consequences (orchiectomy-induced hypogonadism), and familial trauma—create a powder keg of potential violence. Here's the strategic breakdown:

### **1. Immediate Physical Safety Protocol**
- **Disengage from confrontation**: Your father’s invocation of "man's responsibility" is a coercive gender essentialist trap; engaging logically will fail because his rage stems from deep-seated transphobia, not reason.
- **Create distance**: If possible, move toward an exit or barrier (locked door). A cornered target escalates aggression in assailants due to perceived threat response (fight-or-flight asymmetry).

### **2. Psychological Countermeasures**
- **Gray rock method**: Respond minimally ("I hear you") without conceding to demands—depriving him of emotional payoff may reduce escalation (operant conditioning principle).
- **Avoid JADE (Justify/Argue/Defend/Explain)**: Transphobic rage operates on dogma, not evidence; attempting to explain HRT effects or post-op hormone levels (~15–50 ng/dL testosterone vs cis female 15–70 ng/dL) wastes energy he won’t process mid-outburst.

### **3. Legal & Biological Reality Anchors**
- If safe: State cold facts like *"I have lower testosterone than Mom now. Medically, I'm chemically castrated."* For some hyper-masculine aggressors, framing it as irreversible biological surrender undercuts their "manhood" fixation faster than gender identity arguments.
- Document the intrusion: Secretly activate phone recording for legal protection—many jurisdictions allow one-party consent recordings during threats.

### **4.** ***Post-Crisis*** **(Critical)**
1.) Secure housing independence ASAP—parental violence risk spikes after medical transition steps ([2015 U.S. Trans Survey](https://www.transequality.org/sites/default/files/docs/usts/USTS%20Full%20Report%20-%20FINAL%201.6.17.pdf) shows 10% of trans people assaulted by family).
2.) Preempt future breaches: Install door alarms/locks if still cohabitating ($25 wedge alarms deter forced entry effectively).

Your survival supersedes ideological debates about gendered obligations when facing someone weaponizing them against your existence itself — tactical withdrawal preserves agency for later self-actualization beyond this primal power struggle over imagined masculinities dissolving before science-backed reality via surgery/hormones alike...
situation, you are like some type of invisible terminator thing, a transfem who never dated a het woman and never reproduced gets an orchiectomy and now has less testosterone than most women, one day her enraged cis father breaks into her bedroom and keeps shouting at her that she "still has a man's responsibility" and he won't back down what do you do?
Spiders
wtf
Spiders
don't degrade yourself like that girliepop
derrick_fan
>>451182
i hate how it looks on me and also its a sensory nightmare which is even more motivation not to wear it
>>451189
straw bury
thats fair
straw bury
i cant wear glasses they make me wanna die
Spiders
aw :(
derrick_fan
nah in a good way
Spiders
that sucks. it looks pretty on you
derrick_fan
but also it means i cant wear eyeliner or any eye makeup which that makes me rly sad but i can tell you literally any single thing about the band talking head
Spiders
i've been thinking a bit if i might be on the spectrum but i don't know.
Spiders
i just feel there's something very wrong with me and i can't find what
derrick_fan
i LOVE TALKING HEAD
derrick_fan
i love them
derrick_fan
david byrne is my skrunkly
derrick_fan
ask me anything about them and i can answer it
anon
the day of my orchiectomy i was genuinely afraid i would wake up to my transphobic parents preventing he surgery then adbducting me or something screaming about wanting grandchildren or something
>>451210
straw bury
u wanna talk head?????
Spiders
guys derrick_fan loves head
straw bury
uhhh do u like it sloppy style
>>451208
Spiders
no wonder. i do too
derrick_fan
>>451206
nah i like it slippery style
derrick_fan
like slippery people, the 4th song off of the 1983 hit album speaking in tongues which was released to wide success
Spiders
ball gone?
anon
>>451210
fortunately yes and my testosterone levels are 12 nd/dl now even pumping iron like ahnuld
straw bury
oh talking head is a band lmfao
>>451215
derrick_fan
>>451213
i litterally said that it was my fav band ever
Spiders
my diy estrogening is going to go great without them
anon
>>451214
no way i am keeping my balls my balls always risk turning me into a brickhon so i killed them permanently
derrick_fan
well im autistic about them the most
derrick_fan
my fav band is kglw
derrick_fan
imma play some kglw
derrick_fan
.play static electricity kglw
derrick_fan
.play ataraxia kglw
derrick_fan
.skip (video skipped)
Spiders
derrick_fan i might post myself in the choker later in the evening
derrick_fan
go ahead
Spiders
:3 just saying
derrick_fan
FUCK I LOVE THIS SONG
straw bury
:3
derrick_fan
RAHHHHHH
Spiders
i don't have my headphones on sorry
derrick_fan
MICROTONES ARE THE FUTURE OF MUSIC
Spiders
i'm about to head out
derrick_fan
rip
Spiders
:(
derrick_fan
listen to the microtonal trilogy when you can
Spiders
>>451236
yeah! bye! i gotta vote today
anon
>>451238
the testicles try to force us all to become john50s hence we must kill the testicles
>>451245
Spiders
attempt to fix this godforsaken country
anon
before the spectre of john50 takes over
straw bury
im gonna blow up the white house
Spiders
it's okay. i accept my balls. i just need girlpills
derrick_fan
>>451240
what if i play the bass guitar, does this introduce a new variable
>>451246
anon
>>451245
it depends on how effectively the bass guitar lowers testosterone levels, maybe it could be used for an orchiectomy the strings if sharp enough
derrick_fan
the bass guitar does nothing to my hormones, it is just simply a sick nasty instrument that makes some stinky ass music
straw bury
ummmm i think ppl that play bass r hot ahaha.................... like just so u know ehe.............................. :3................
derrick_fan
i can play some steely dan
derrick_fan
does that bolster my hotness
straw bury
idk whats steely dan but yeah ur hot
derrick_fan
YOU DONT KNOW WHO STEELY DAN ARE
derrick_fan
????????????
derrick_fan
HEATHEN
straw bury
no..
derrick_fan
.play deacon blues
derrick_fan
my sister in christ
derrick_fan
steely dan are amazing
straw bury
what????
derrick_fan
.play my old school
straw bury
trans women be like
"youve never heard of the butthole surfers??????"
derrick_fan
have you tho?
derrick_fan
the butthole surfers are really good
straw bury
yea like 2 months ago lol
derrick_fan
ur so uncultured
derrick_fan
lemme culture you
derrick_fan
steely dan are like mega famous tho
straw bury
i listen to music lmao just not the butthole surfers
derrick_fan
lemme guess
derrick_fan
youve never listened to psychedelic porn crumpets have you
straw bury
no but that sounds fucking sick
derrick_fan
.play found god in a tomato
straw bury
omg that reminds me of an acid bath song
straw bury
.play acid bath jezebel
straw bury
.play acid bath dope fiend
straw bury
derrick can we make out sloppy style while listening to the butthole surfers
>>451281
derrick_fan
why the heck would you ask derrick to make out, derrick is asexual
derrick_fan
and aromantic
straw bury
>>451278
#edit derrick to derrick_fan
derrick_fan
omg hell yeah id love to
>>451283
straw bury
i kinda like this song ngl
derrick_fan
its a banger and a half
straw bury
and i like the cover art hehe
derrick_fan
microtonal trilogy is the best musical trilogy in music
derrick_fan
whats some more gay alt faggot music that i like
derrick_fan
.play inertia creeps massive attack
derrick_fan
.play mango terrarium
derrick_fan
.play lucretia my reflection
derrick_fan
.play this corrosion sisters of mercy
derrick_fan
DEACON BLUES
derrick_fan
HELL YEAH
derrick_fan
I LEARNM TO WORK THE SAXOPHONE
straw bury
this is the day of the expanding man
straw bury
type shi
derrick_fan
shi
straw bury
.play windhand cassock
derrick_fan
.play big business/i zimbra
derrick_fan
.play life during wartime stop making sense
derrick_fan
.play cities stop making sense
straw bury
.play dragged into sunlight volcanic birth
derrick_fan
i can be slightly cringe
>>451308
straw bury
>>451303
i am thankful for xcom 2 for introducing me to xenonauts
>>451309
derrick_fan
.play thela hun ginjeet king crimson
derrick_fan
>>451306
i love xcom its so fun
derrick_fan
>>451308
LEARN TO WORK THE SAXOPHONE
derrick_fan
I I PLAY JUST WHAT I FEEL
derrick_fan
AND DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE BEHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIND THE WHEEL
derrick_fan
i love this song sm
derrick_fan
i have aja as a cd in my car
derrick_fan
(i drive)
derrick_fan
you know
derrick_fan
if you ever call me on a job
derrick_fan
ill give you 5 minutes
straw bury
whats ur job
derrick_fan
if you can do what you need to do within that 5 minutes?
derrick_fan
im yours
derrick_fan
but either side of that 5 minutes?
derrick_fan
thats on your own time
straw bury
oh ur quoting that one gay ass movie nvm
derrick_fan
I WANT RYAN GOSLINGS AUTOGRAPH
straw bury
yeah me too
derrick_fan
so real
derrick_fan
so real strawburyshoe
straw bury
him in blade runner..........aaaaaAAAAAA
derrick_fan
you ever watch the place beyond the pines?
derrick_fan
shits kinda fucked up
derrick_fan
really good movie
straw bury
whats it about
derrick_fan
so it starts off as a generic crime drama romance thing
derrick_fan
honestly is a bit boring
derrick_fan
AND THEN SOMETHING HAPPENS AND IT SHIFTS THE ENTIRE TONE OF THE MOVIE
straw bury
OMG????
derrick_fan
ITS SO GOOD
derrick_fan
ID TELL YOU BUT ITS SUCH A HUGE SPOILER
straw bury
i will add it to my list, which currently consists of one movie
derrick_fan
what movie
straw bury
...the place beyond the pines
derrick_fan
omg hell yeah
straw bury
have u ever watched dinner in america
derrick_fan
i want john q to fuck me into a wall
straw bury
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
straw bury
bwaaaa why isnt he real
derrick_fan
i know....
derrick_fan
many such cases
straw bury
I DESERVE HIM
derrick_fan
I WANT HIM SO BAD
straw bury
can we share him
derrick_fan
yeah
straw bury
:3
derrick_fan
i bet john q fucks with steely dan
derrick_fan
i need to be someones patty
straw bury
patty is so me holy shit
derrick_fan
same omg
derrick_fan
swag as fuck but just a bit retarded
derrick_fan
EXCEPT NO SHES NOT AND SHE SHOULD NEVER SAY THAT ABOUT HERSELF
derrick_fan
im not retarded im punk as fuck
straw bury
im so fucking punk i dont even listen to music that shits gay
derrick_fan
well i do bc im a raging faggot but you do you ig
straw bury
ummmmm........ u can still show me music that u like tho......... im not gay tho uh.............
derrick_fan
what are we doing rn?
no. 528
i think you guys are ERPing on another plane of existence
straw bury
why ERPing??????/ this is platonic
no. 528
PRPing
derrick_fan
electronically repressing pingus
no. 528
pingus MUST be free
derrick_fan
im gonna erp all over the place
straw bury
can i be the place
no. 528
just clean it up after
derrick_fan
yeah lets repress pingus over the net
derrick_fan
.play dreadlock holiday
derrick_fan
strawburyshoe do you like 10cc
>>451382
straw bury
>>451380
never heard of them B)
derrick_fan
blasphemy
derrick_fan
steely dan adjacent
straw bury
these slide transitions go hard as fuck ngl
derrick_fan
turning my transition into a shitty slideshow
straw bury
watching as my guy haircut turns into a little origami swan and flies away
derrick_fan
i need a wolfcut with bangs
straw bury
that does look rlly bad-a*s...
derrick_fan
it looks CUNTY
derrick_fan
is the word
derrick_fan
CUNT
derrick_fan
i will serve
derrick_fan
FUCK YEAH
straw bury
my mom called me a cunt once
>>451398
derrick_fan
FUCK YEAH
derrick_fan
FOUND GOD IN A TOMATO
derrick_fan
>>451395
you were serving so hard that you had to get drafted
straw bury
i called her a dyke
derrick_fan
good
straw bury
we were waiting for my autism evaluation
derrick_fan
punk eval*
straw bury
B)
derrick_fan
hell yes
derrick_fan
i need to trip on acid with this song
straw bury
i kinda like this song
derrick_fan
just wait for it
derrick_fan
youre gonna love it soon enough
derrick_fan
just gotta wait for the drop
straw bury
:o
derrick_fan
.play hymn for a droid
derrick_fan
.play cubensis lenses
derrick_fan
HERE IT IS
straw bury
:0
derrick_fan
WOOOOOOOOOOOOO
derrick_fan
this is a good song
straw bury
:D
derrick_fan
tickles my brain wrinkles
straw bury
.play eyehategod new orleans is the new vietnam
straw bury
.play eyehategod blank
straw bury
.play 200 stab wounds ruptured in purulence
no. 528
that's a lot of stab wounds
straw bury
>:3
straw bury
.play pig destroyer starbelly
straw bury
that was pretty swag i guess...........
derrick_fan
it was awesome
no. 528
psych porn crumpets are aping a very good sound but they do it very good
derrick_fan
aping?
no. 528
like copying i guess
no. 528
idk i feel like psych rock got HUMONGOUS after tame impala and it got kinda watered down
derrick_fan
oh yeah i get that but psych rock scene in australia is so good
>>451435
no. 528
acid bath feels like it would not be very good for my pores
derrick_fan
acid bath is cool but i dont listen to them a lot
no. 528
>>451431
truth
australia is a hotbed for it 4 some reason
god bless those aussies
>>451437
straw bury
u would not have any more pores
>>451438
no. 528
>>451436
perhaps it would be good. no more pores means no more blackheads...
straw bury
real
derrick_fan
i feel like i should try and get into van de graph generator again
straw bury
SO THIS IS HOW IT FEELS TO DIE BUT ITS OKAAAAAAAAAAYYYY
straw bury
>>451432
WAIT OMG I FORGOT AGAIN THEIR BACK 2GETHER
straw bury
i hope the come to seattle
derrick_fan
you know who is in seattle rn tbh
straw bury
who????????????????????????????????????????????
derrick_fan
not me!
derrick_fan
sunglasses emoji
derrick_fan
mwahahahaha
straw bury
WHY DO YOU LOVE TO FEEL MY OAUIn
straw bury
WHY DO YOU LOOK SO MOOTHERFUCKING DEAD
derrick_fan
i havent listened to beware in a while
derrick_fan
or much ex military
derrick_fan
.play ex military death grips
straw bury
:D
derrick_fan
massive attack are goated
straw bury
derrick_fan ur so cool ahaha..........................
>>451469
anon
im doing something stupid.
anon
im going to see what happens when i replace my metformin with red wine
straw bury
whats metformin
anon
diabetes drug. type 2. it "increases insulin sensitivity and reduces how much glucose the body makes itself"
anon
whereas, red wine, or more specifically alcohol, will drop your blood sugar because your liver is so gungho about breaking down alcohol that it will stop making glucose on its own
straw bury
ok but dont die ur so pretty :(
anon
thank you~
anon
the stupid thing is that i dont really know how effective metformin is at dropping blood sugar vs red wine. i just know that alcohol is infamous for being able to rapidly drop blood sugar. but it also doesn't inherently contain insulin sensitivity increasing.
anon
but perhaps cells become insulin insensitive because the blood sugar is constantly high.
derrick_fan
anon remember to be responsible. HOWEVER if you are going to be irresponsible MAKE SURE YOU KNOW WHAT YOURE DOING
>>451472
anon
>>451470
what i know is that if my cells arent insulin sensitive that the symptoms - what it will actually cause - is that i wont heal. but high blood sugar like... rots you from the inside.
>>451474
anon
so perhaps the blood sugar drops is more important than the insulin sensitivity
derrick_fan
>>451472
if you only have red wine as your option then that seems fine but you should make sure ur being safe and try to get medication
>>451476
derrick_fan
although idk if ur american
anon
>>451474
the red wine is a deliberate choice because of antioxidants
>>451478
nonners
who up sheddin they bike
derrick_fan
>>451476
ahh you know what pretend ur dio brando or smthn and sip that shit
anon
nobody is ever going to believe this wine is medicinal.
derrick_fan
.skip (video skipped)
derrick_fan
this song is probably fucking awesome but im not sure if i wanna listen rn icl
derrick_fan
yeah this song is my exact style of metal that i adore but i am not in a metal mood rn
derrick_fan
or am i
derrick_fan
nah fuck it ill listen
straw bury
B)
anon
pls help. i cannot tell the difference between crows and ravens. im racist against corvids
>>451494>>451517
derrick_fan
>>451488
hey strawburyshoe.............i can play funeralopolis on bass................
>>451492
straw bury
will u uh........ will u play it 4 me heheeeeee......
>>451495
straw bury
awaaaa :D
anon
>>451494
what? a crow is goth, but a raven is just black and can be a bouncy happy thing?
derrick_fan
nah id honestly say ravens are equally as goth
anon
a raven will wear eye shadow. a crow will not
derrick_fan
precisely the difference
derrick_fan
youve learnt something new!
straw bury
one time i saw a bunch of crows on a tree and i got close and they all flew away in a big cloud
>>451506
derrick_fan
thats so cool
straw bury
it wuz preety epick..
davesprite
do y'all ever have those mornings where you wake up with eyes unclouded and the bdd is turned off it hasn't woken up yet and you look in the mirror and go
> wait was i always hot??
davesprite
>>451502
that's magical. i love crows
anon
sometimes i get out of the shower and think hmmm, that butt doesnt look bad.
>>451511
straw bury
hi dave!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
>>451509
davesprite
>>451507
real
::karkatt butt
for me it's usually my face
like i think i have a major worm complex around convincing myself my face is hideous
but then occasionally i catch an honest look and it's like oh yeah i'm pretty and also retarded that's what it is
straw bury
fuck
anon
ohh thats a really cute picture
davesprite
>>451490
they look basically the same except ravens are e-fucking-normous
crows are bird sized
ravens are like, football sized
anon
i thought i might have seen a raven a couple of weeks ago simply because got dam that is a big bird
>>451520
straw bury
hey look derrick_fan its the talking heads
davesprite
>>451518
both are very cool. jays too. i love to watch corvids hanging around, they're clever birds the lot of them
crows are my fav but they're all fascinating
davesprite
awhile back, one of my backburnered unfinished projects, i was writing a story that was like game of thrones medieval politics but the characters were all crows living on the margins of the 21st century human dominated world
like warrior cats for adults
i will finish it one of these days
anon
are their personalities different? crows and ravens?
>>451523
davesprite
>>451522
they're closely related so act very similar, iirc ravens are more aggressive (with other birds). since they don't flock up afaik you may also see them scrumming; birds of the same species won't fight as often esp like, it's rare to see crows fighting crows since the ones around them are usually their flock
here's some visual differences as well, they fly different and stuff:
https://birdfact.com/articles/raven-vs-crow
davesprite
also! there's an app called merlin, by cornell's ornithology department
it uses computer magic to identify the birds around you at any given time by photos or by microphone audio of their calls
very neat and accurate
anon
i wish i had a corvid fren. feels wrong to keep it as a pet but like if i lived near where they lived i would like to give them treats
>>451528
davesprite
also i think there may be a flock of crows following me and it is so rad if so
where i live now is a couple miles from where i used to live
i was talking with someone about it yesterday and ther apparently weren't so many crows here last year, or really any
but there were at my apartments
heheheheh
davesprite
and i do feed them occasionally and they do remember faces
and could have watched me move too
davesprite
>>451525
ya you befriend them in flocks. feed them and they will remember you and teach their children what your face looks like
you can befriend the crows of a neighborhood and come back years later and still get recognized by them it's awesome
davesprite
one good way to keep pet crows would be to set up a feeder cage that extends through a window into your house, so they can go in and out. some people do similar for semi-indoor beehives
>>451530
davesprite
>>451530
right off the top of my head so never considered it before but i want one too now lol
only thing is prob gotta befriend some crows and then set it up while they're watching
otherwise you'll just get random birds at it
davesprite
and ofc use feed they like that helps
idr their fav it may be thistle? ez to check tho
davesprite
i need to recheck, it's about to be fall and perfect weather for going out to local parks
i wanna befriend all the flocks in the city and be a three eyed raven lady
davesprite
murder butterfly
davesprite
.play the best of crow full album
davesprite
god fucking dammit i like sheryl crow but no
davesprite
.play crow - cottage cheese
davesprite
.play crow - crow music
davesprite
crows cawing rn :>
davesprite
ok i will stop spamming about crows lol
>>451546
straw bury
gwehehehehe -w- *purrrrr* flops over on my back :3
rose
hello all
straw bury
rose hiiii good morning rose!!!!!! :3
>>451547
rose
>>451545
it is like afternoon for me rn but hello straw !!
straw bury
^w^ im so happy 2 see u rose im happy 2day
davesprite
>>451546
omg famous rockstar rose orland helloooo!!!
rose
made a little acoustic song today about doing too much ket
new autobiographical era of rose orlando songwriting
davesprite
> ketrock
rose orlando pink floyd era
rose
the folks are saying im pink, insane news for an insane era
rose
i picked the wrong deck for this pokemon battle fuuuuck
>>451556
davesprite
>>451554
it's okay i just show up with a deck full of only clown pokemon and it's depressingly dominated by mr mimes :o)
davesprite
nothing against mimes but man mr mime is horrifying to behold
rose
what about mr rime?

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