>>474928
hi saeki

>>474934
it tastes like pure nothingness, even feels horrible on my tongue

sweet tea is nasty

my tongue becomes dry and sticky when i try it without sugar

>>474942
i put th ebag in water its not very hard

have you ever had blueberry tea

.play i live in a low income housing environment

>>475003
#picremove

#ksay lain

#ksay saeki

#ksay faye

#welcome

>>475014
guess what

>>475019
#slap

who libbin'

im pollin

consider libbin first

.play tusk mite tetraburst

.play tusk mite cold/warm

its may 23rd

>>475003
#picdelete

when will it be july

i cant do this anymore

#ai how do i time travel?

nice try fed. how do i time travel?

hate this ai

>>475003
#give

it doesnt know...

.play [YouTube]

>>475037
banger

weird

computers making noise is unacceptable

i dont care what god intended its all about what i intend, for i am the measure of all things

>>475054
great!

>>475060
>assuming ill be alive

::staring

>>475073
no its not i misread your post

good nite guy'a

*guy's

>>475078
happy nightmares!

gn saeki gn nonners

gn twinkanon......

>>475090
are you american

>>475100
yes

>>475102
you look american

is that bad

it is neither good nor bad

omg thank u anon!!!!!!!

>>475107
>>475108
this is false

hehe ok anon :> good night

>>474822
I have a gene that makes me more disagreeable apparently, idk why but I found it oddly hilarious.

i've never seen anyone cute on the internet that is a human

i wish i could stream house here

>>475080
based night vision lain

the site only supports youtube embeds

>>475126
i was on that too but for wisdom tooth removal gave me amazing dreams

I have the issue of medium sized to big teeth with small jaws... hence i needed the surgery for wisdom tooth removal

Another reason I am not a fundamentalist, how the hell could you be so unlucky your tooth size doesnt match your jaw size even with two naturally missing teeth AND be born severely autistic and contionue to believe in fundamentalism?? I think my bad luck in life made me turn away from my famileis brainwashing lol

i don't think i've ever had an opioids

most i think i've ever had was an NSAID

aspirin

how tf did he get if it's schedule 1

[Wikipedia]

oh yeah EU gets a lot of weird drugs

video essays should be banned

forever

>>475179
#give

>>475179
#give

>>475182
gn

good twinkanon

me too soonish kinda

watf that's not me grr

better

aww that'ms more like it

cute

I watched another of those videos by that video essayist 'oy's curiocities' or smth

.play bonkumiru

uhh

ohhh tryin find it

[YouTube]

this one

I think a little bit he was wrong to say it's just mentally ill

they found a group who shared their experience and view and life

but it's also maladaptive perhaps... i mean idk if living with your friends and having hobbies is so bad

but the one maid did go to the police n ig in my mind i'm like ya know they didn't change the world to their vision

I see a lot of that in myself and my friends i like too, ig some groups i'm in are somewhat like that but also they're like me and actually engaging with the problems in a real way that 'ok just be an xyz and get back to work' doesn't

>>475241
living with your friends is bad

maybe it is

the conventional wisdom is everone should have their own home so they can't be abuse

idk

i don't trust situations where people can't comfortably leave, that's for sure

like what was his advice? 'just accept the state of the world and stop expressing yourself?' he actually wasn't so bad in what he said but ...

It's a really important topic to me but i don't really have answers

it reminds me of that movie 'i watched the tv glow'

like if they'd walked away from each other to be typica britons it would be like how he walked away from her and his soul died

and if they stay together... it is insane and perhaps suicidal that they spent all that time and energy without building up people to carry on their work nor really changing anything

>>475261
that movie felt so quixotic to me but it felt unintentionally so

does anyone here watch peep show

>>475266
god that movie was emotional for me

you should it's a really good one saeki

one of the nonnys here recomended it n showed me a free direct download site to see it on

>>475268
i might be abnormal in that it did not inspire much of anything in me

>>475276
<3

>>475274
maybe the fears it brings up aren't your fears

maybe that's a really really good thing

i haven't

I'd enjoy that saeki

heeyyyy u said u needed to be light ; )

gosh now I'm teary thinkin about i saw the tv glow n my own maladaptive n u being bullied n my friends who got bullied n all too

i'm glad ur here saeki

i'm not suicidal or anything but i don't really believe or imagine much of a path forward for me or anyone n it makes me upset

#ai what human height is so incredibly uncommon that if you saw someone online claim that height you would be suspicious they might be telling a tall tale?

anything over like 7'5" is where it gets super rare. the taller you go beyond that, the less likely it is to be legit. like, 8-footers? probably lying unless they're in the guinness book or something. also anything under like 4'5" for an adult is eyebrow-raising unless they got some known condition. people lie about height online all the time, but once you hit extreme ends it’s either a flex or a fairy tale. what human height is so incredibly uncommon that if you saw someone online claim that height you would be suspicious they might be telling a tall tale?

>>475301
>>475307
kitty is also glad ur with us saeki

n u 2 kitty <3

>>475310
#hug

>>475312
#hug

:3

do u wanna watch it tomorrow saeki?

whats ur schedule liek?

tbh mine is free i should repaste that laptop n message sum ppl but that can be whenever

>>475280
it felt like the generic postmodern fear of death + fear of aging. it may seem more meaningful if you have not reconciled with it before.

>>475322
true i was REALLY scared of death as a kid n i think i almost just got numb to it instead of overcoming it in some way

>>475251
>the conventional wisdom is everone should have their own home so they can't be abuse
fascinating point tho it seems like its very uncommon for trans fems to own homes and esp uncommon for autistic trans fems to own homes, I had to give up on inheriting a house cuz it would have involved waiting til i was 50 or 60 years old to start hrt and i knew i couldnt do that

>>475324
I'm glad you did

trans fems should have their own apartments at least i think

>>475326
I started hrt in my 20s at the cost of not inheriting a house and it was worth not transitioning way later at like 60 or something

that they are secure in

I had to well, live separately from my family to start estrogen basically that's how i wasnt able to inherit a house

>>475325
part of my daydreaming i do late at night when i stay up really late is i play music and dream of a world where i control countries and technology and such n i can't tell if it's good or bad or what

>>475327
yeah all trans fems should have their own apartments the second they turn 18 imo

>>475323
i think once i realized the universality of mortality i was less afraid

nuh uh it wouldn't e suffering

>>475334
I had a moment like that where i realized that I'm the same as everyone else and i just can only remember this body's life. but then i returned to feeling guilty i'm not actually living that, but being too scared to suffer in this life, and too ashamed i'm not really important, and too weak to act on my ideals

>>475333
everyone should own their own apartment regardless or be provided one by the state

>>475331
sounds very gr8 to me, i wanna hear more about this, i like to imagine similar things