ik US and generally worldwide

i have money and i dont think they can block my scripts so my base hrt is safe for now

the surgery stuff is bumming me out tho

yea :<

yea my og diy peep got taken offline cus of the fbi thinking they were selling fent

i like united pharmacies but tariffs

heh llamas

:3

my piercing hole already closed in like 2 days

id help if i relearned vrc and map stuff

had that thing over a year i dunno why it closed so fast

awww

thastough

its good tho like it needs to fully heal so i can repierce

so silver lining stuff

i might come back l8er just wanted topeek in b4 bed

mhm

got up at 6:30 this morning after not much sleep

yeah it is so i'm having a few drinks and then gonna crash for the night

awww

having krat, watching docu, n gonna write

i had an ok day outside of feeling really gross and having sore tits

ily peeps

i'd go drink with them lol

a couple of my close friends irl are jersey girls and they get fucked up drunk so i gotta hang out with them soemtimes

i got reached out to by an old friend i added on spacehey today

they are from new jersey and very wild

super nice and fun too

i got reached out to by an old friend i added on spacehey today

i was gonna reach old to my old bestie but he took my dead name and made it his first name so i'm like oh no

aw

i was um thinking abt mine the other day

he found out i was pressured on a date/hookup to do a line of smth then

he doesn't know i'm trans or anything about me now

went on a rant on video call and insulted my mother n i and we stopped talking

he just knew i was gay

nah this guy was obsessy like he might cut me up now

and also

thats weird

a guy ive mentioned who i stopped talking to cus he started mugging ppl while smoking weed w psychosis

he stole my long time name i used places that was gender neutral and

>>479438
scary

one of my old bullies is in jail so thats funny

i reached out to him around xmas

he apparently has a kid at like 18 or 19 now

and he blocked me cus he found out i was trans, tho i was trans but not out to him when we talked

he was a fuckin weirdo from NZ who cheated at csgo a ton and was kinda sadistic almost

attention seeking rather

sadism can be rough

i'm the opposite side a total masochist

yeah

id say more but also same

[redacted] :з

i like when guys degrade me while fucking me

read up

awwwww

i hope ur safe fujo ;-;

the ex last cis guy i rly dated dated n lived w

had to leave in the middle of the night

i hope ur oki, can suck when not good roomies

need to find some ;_;

im less into that but still yk

ok i'm gonna find something to watch from bed and get cozy

aw

im watching documentary

found out there was one on guy ive researched n inspired me a lot on YT so was like nicu

i ate soooo much food today

(docu on yt, not he's a YTer or smth)

had tuna sandwich bit ago

bye bye frens be good

awww cya, nice to see chu even if sucky days

i'll be on l8er tommorrow i just had to work really early today

okii

my shifts vary throughout my week

mhm

i need to get to working on writing

i open on friday and monday but work like 2-11 on sat n sun

and decide how to respond to the peep

i dont anymore

this was around 2022

i wanna get one but living w someone i feel comfy/safe around would be nice

same

;_;

wan room w worms if i could

guh that pic nuh

>>479514
nicu

is it on top of the boat work ?

mmmm

yeah

i hope u are in an okey living n work situation tho
am trying to get going w earning or having a stable way to have income

i want a life i can get by in but uhh

i kinda gave up a peaceful life by going into conflict work

>>479548
yea i have access n connections or ways to find courses pirated n books n so on
plus YT exists w entire college courses recorded n so on

but im not in a situation where i can pay for n be safe trusting paying for all of it

yay

i try to always be on the gud side of things or ethical, but more so focused on moral

i try to write abt things n document stuff of peeps fighting for change morally even if its not legally

tho i dont involve myself as a piece of the direct machine doing the sketch stuff as i dont wanna be put in a more dangerous position

>>479559
>>479563
:D

im glad i found this documentary
im trying to find smth that explains the group that inspired my current project

for a few peeps i might share the draft pad i have of the essay

i try not to be, it just has to be functional

u can find my page on this n my spacehey to add if u wanna see my site/project
(it is for a group, but is mostly mentioning self before i bring on more peeps to write or work on project)
https://spacehey.com/saeki

the essay on the mentioned project in my bio is personal n kinda bleh cus its a memoir esque thing, but not what i usually write abt . .

ooo

i uh

long ass story but its on my website tho

i uhh

yeah

or its a thing well

my groomer got sentenced but i dont know if they got off or not yeee

one sec

if i have u on discy already i can send it there, but i have the link right here for pacermonitor

lol

i can link u on here if u can save or i can dm u if u dm me here wut ur handle is again in my DMs
(im bad w names till i know someone wells)

hehe

awawawa

hai!!!

are u the person that has the uh reference to the biblical story pfp n such

getting high w cuties would be fun

getting high w cuties would be fun

>>479629
awwwwww

id protecc n be like that love amy she asked for no pickles meme but also not try n be weird or

if ever wanted hehe

was the beach fun????

i dmed u the lil context n info x

mhm nw

though fr if the one or two news stories that locally came out like

if this person got off after having been charged w 20 counts on cs4m possession and distribution, thats such a fuck up by the feds

real pic rn

>>479652
lol

hehe

lmao

mmm

i kinda organize my head in a structure somewhere close to that as i have near full aphantasia

yea why

hehe

i have near constant repeated flashes of memories that i hate most of the time

my sensory stuff makes me, to the best i can articulate, short circuit when comfy or cuddling n such n fuzzy bleh

i mean to an intensity that

have sensory stuff to a high level in particular ways n asd also probably adding to that, but ye is the same in ways for most peeps

also probably the dopamine flow when im not usually having much from ADHD

my mom finally got diagnosis after 50+ yrs not being treated or tested for such when it couldve been clear, plus yrs of knowing ive had it -w-

hoping the dr gets a script going

mmmm

cuuuuute

i at times play the lain powerline noise to help head w tinnitus n other stuffs

i found an old essay explaining the purpose and origin of the project that inspired me ~<~

the project is so old in internet time that its hard to find a ton abt other than from the source

oooo and lol water bed

-w-

except w/o kid rock

i think i can link the article that inspired my current project

lemme read through moar of it, its on archiveph so peeps can trust opening it

its inspired by but works semi-differently
these peeps, journos, activists/hacktivists, writers, and researchers disclosed abuses by intelligence contractors, the state, mili contractors and so on

the first two paragraphs are the main thing
https://archive.ph/CPVzX

they were a large part in the work by anons n otherwise to help the Tunisian revolution

(also, im not gonna go the full like direct action radical stuff route they did — i think — cus of how Brown had to flee several countries to be able to not go back to prison

(prison for showing the surveillance being done in the US against citizens over a decade and a half ago)

lmao

im not on that level, i just document and share out there information & ik ik ~w~

is gud to engage w that tho as a lot of people think abt stuff like that as smth more real that it is, though the lists do exist

high gle

cute

#ksay faye

>>479748
why not

.play [YouTube]

:D

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i wanted to find these cards at one point, i like some of the shots in this vid a lot even tho its not my fav of their music

kids w aks

i also had that raspberry frame as my desktop bg for yrs