the essay on the mentioned project in my bio is personal n kinda bleh cus its a memoir esque thing, but not what i usually write abt . .

ooo

i uh

long ass story but its on my website tho

i uhh

yeah

or its a thing well

my groomer got sentenced but i dont know if they got off or not yeee

one sec

if i have u on discy already i can send it there, but i have the link right here for pacermonitor

lol

i can link u on here if u can save or i can dm u if u dm me here wut ur handle is again in my DMs
(im bad w names till i know someone wells)

hehe

awawawa

hai!!!

are u the person that has the uh reference to the biblical story pfp n such

getting high w cuties would be fun

getting high w cuties would be fun

>>479629
awwwwww

id protecc n be like that love amy she asked for no pickles meme but also not try n be weird or

if ever wanted hehe

was the beach fun????

i dmed u the lil context n info x

mhm nw

though fr if the one or two news stories that locally came out like

if this person got off after having been charged w 20 counts on cs4m possession and distribution, thats such a fuck up by the feds

real pic rn

>>479652
lol

hehe

lmao

mmm

i kinda organize my head in a structure somewhere close to that as i have near full aphantasia

yea why

hehe

i have near constant repeated flashes of memories that i hate most of the time

my sensory stuff makes me, to the best i can articulate, short circuit when comfy or cuddling n such n fuzzy bleh

i mean to an intensity that

have sensory stuff to a high level in particular ways n asd also probably adding to that, but ye is the same in ways for most peeps

also probably the dopamine flow when im not usually having much from ADHD

my mom finally got diagnosis after 50+ yrs not being treated or tested for such when it couldve been clear, plus yrs of knowing ive had it -w-

hoping the dr gets a script going

mmmm

cuuuuute

i at times play the lain powerline noise to help head w tinnitus n other stuffs

i found an old essay explaining the purpose and origin of the project that inspired me ~<~

the project is so old in internet time that its hard to find a ton abt other than from the source

oooo and lol water bed

-w-

except w/o kid rock

i think i can link the article that inspired my current project

lemme read through moar of it, its on archiveph so peeps can trust opening it

its inspired by but works semi-differently
these peeps, journos, activists/hacktivists, writers, and researchers disclosed abuses by intelligence contractors, the state, mili contractors and so on

the first two paragraphs are the main thing
https://archive.ph/CPVzX

they were a large part in the work by anons n otherwise to help the Tunisian revolution

(also, im not gonna go the full like direct action radical stuff route they did — i think — cus of how Brown had to flee several countries to be able to not go back to prison

(prison for showing the surveillance being done in the US against citizens over a decade and a half ago)

lmao

im not on that level, i just document and share out there information & ik ik ~w~

is gud to engage w that tho as a lot of people think abt stuff like that as smth more real that it is, though the lists do exist

high gle

cute

#ksay faye

>>479748
why not

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:D

cute

rip

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i wanted to find these cards at one point, i like some of the shots in this vid a lot even tho its not my fav of their music

kids w aks

i also had that raspberry frame as my desktop bg for yrs

this brings back nicu osu memories

i played a looot of osu mania as a teen

i dated a p high ranked osu player who ended up de-transing :c

idk what the thing rly was w them

i havent shared much of wack ass stories from those times w them doing cyber shit cus of idk

they either seem like the type to browse this site or just dont wanna relink

yeah

ive kinda had to come to an acceptance

but

ohhhh

i did share the time they risked both of us being swatted cus of their opsec failing

yea

i only just made new acc so i can talk to ppl from here n such

but this guy um

we ended up on a threat actor research thing on someone in the com and he ended up leaking his real name to the dude and got threatened, i had to seriously question my morals as this guy we were tracking was wanted by [redacted agency internationally] for 8 figures

i couldve absolutely used that money or shit but uh
i dont talk to the police n so on

lol

this was years ago

i think he mightve been raided, it was a teenager swatting schools

yea

he was making threats like that across countries

it was messed up
we worked on n found his dox but then the ex outed his irl name to the dude and got threatened and i just

i had to disappear n lay low cus i couldnt risk the whole thing or feel safe w my (c)ptsd around the ex again, sigh

>>479813
awww

im sitting in a room w my moms posters for them all over

she used to go across all over for their tours

eep well c:

::cycle\

>>479818
i mentioned peep queueing this n the posters n she was like
well theres too many more in boxes as well so

lel

i eeped for

15< hrs

i stayed up n got the equivalent otherwise i can barely eep when up for 24+ hrs

had to take a tiny bit of klonopin n sum pregablin to eep

but my mom used to go to tons n tons of shows n all, n loved crowded house n sparks n has tons of stuff from them, n photos n stories w them bwa
parents met at show

hehe

shes nicu
my dad is a bit all over but mom has been supportive through things, im thankful for

oh man is this uh

cyranek edit

yes

i misremembered cus cyranek is also a shitposter i think

yh

i remember loving uh
meow or whatever its titled

hehe

i think he also made that short film nominally abt like

the goop that heals or makes u younger

oooo

and thanke bwa

awe yea, happens

i avoid drinking n if i need the sorta effect i take the tiniest amt of klonopin or pregablin

n kratom for other stuffs

its uh

id be careful cus w kpins, theyre benzos and should be mostly for panic attacks or depending on ur dr they might be given for eep

but pregablin helps w anxiety, nerve pain, some general pain, it works the same as gabapentin but stronger

its p widely given out in the UK and europe but less so in the US

theres a big addiction problem w pregablin, and also benzos, in the UK and in Ireland

for sleeping it can

errr

eep wise, smth like benzos are good and work w/o much side effects buuuut
they have incredible addiction and dependency potential

also trazadone can be good or i think trying to get a script for hydroxyzine if benadryl/dph doesnt help so much

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pregablin is just a gaba drug but not a benzodiazapine

is pbr the adobe texture or such tool

#smartai pharmacological method of action for drugs like gabapentin and pregablin

Gabapentin and pregabalin are both structurally analogous to the inhibitory neurotransmitter gamma-aminobutyric acid (GABA), though they do not act directly on GABA receptors. Instead, their primary mechanism of action involves high-affinity binding to the α2δ subunit of voltage-gated calcium channels (VGCCs) in the central nervous system.

### **Pharmacological Mechanism:**
1. **Modulation of Voltage-Gated Calcium Channels (VGCCs):**
- Both drugs selectively bind to the α2δ-1 and α2δ-2 auxiliary subunits of presynaptic P/Q-type VGCCs.
- This binding reduces calcium influx into neurons, thereby decreasing excitatory neurotransmitter release (e.g., glutamate, substance P, noradrenaline).

2. **Downstream Effects:**
- Reduced neuronal hyperexcitability via diminished synaptic vesicle exocytosis.
- Attenuation of aberrant nociceptive signaling in neuropathic pain states.
- Anticonvulsant effects through dampening excessive synchronized neuronal firing.

3. **Secondary Mechanisms Under Investigation:**
- Possible indirect enhancement of GABAergic inhibition by increasing GABA synthesis or reducing its degradation (though gabapentin does not directly activate GABAA/B receptors).
- Inhibition of synaptogenesis mediated by thrombospondin–α2δ interactions may contribute to long-term analgesic effects.

### **Key Differences Between Gabapentin & Pregabalin:**
| Parameter | Gabapentin | Pregabalin |
|------------------|-------------------------------------|--------------------------------------|
| Bioavailability | Dose-dependent (~27–60%) | Consistently high (>90%) |
| Tmax | ~3 hours | ~1 hour |
| Binding Affinity for α2δ Subunit 6x lower than pregabalin 6x higher affinity |

Both drugs exhibit linear pharmacokinetics at low doses but demonstrate saturable absorption kinetics at higher doses due to limited intestinal L-amino acid transporter capacity—more pronounced with gabapentin than pregabalin.

Clinically exploited for:
- Neuropathic pain syndromes
- Focal seizures
- Generalized anxiety disorder (pregabalin only) pharmacological method of action for drugs like gabapentin and pregablin

>>479898
[Wikipedia]

ah

benzos and gabapentinoids both have gaba effects and work on such but they feel very different and are usually are far apart in their strength

yea

it doesnt rly do all that much on that but it does affect it, like u might not notice it for most ppl

i took like 50mg dph as a teen in high school at times to get by eeping cus i hadnt been medicated yet, and wouldnt be given good meds for yrs

but some drugs like that do have interesting effects in those lil ways

i find the whole now being done in presription form stuff w DXM and buproprion/wellbutrin rly interesting but i have bad past w dxm so i avoid it
may try and go that path of low dose like 30~ mg dxm and my 150-300 buproprion again at some point tho

yeah

alc has a lot messier of a mechanism and causes all the effects that are kinda unique to it buuuut
benzos are generally (for better and worse) just alc/drunkness in a pill that can be like

its generally, for most of them, not as euphoric but just as affecting

tho the issue that comes w that is that u can become drunk for 4-12< hrs cus of a single or redosing pills

mhm . . .

theres a crazy RU benzo that lasts like, i think its at least a week in its half life and got nicknamed jail pills

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god i love flesh simulator

the vid ? or can wait for queue

gon wait till it plays here unless u wan watch in ur own browser synced up awww

mhm i hope u can eat n rest when need

but feel the head hurt hrs

vid will be played in a min if gon stick around for a few, okej if not :>

and hiyoheya

So grey kinda lets you do dithering without infitity resolution

i didnt hab audio on cus playing smth but

i think grey lets u get away w it moar as does b&w

aka grayscale lets u 2

this vid talks abt some uh

rly wacky chemicals including the jail pill

ahhh 3 not 7 sry

but yk still wacko

lol

paranoia droog

lel

must protecc from the panic attacks being beamed into cuties brains

rip

2cp is uh smth

i think i knew ppl who would talk abt using it

psychonaut wiki <3

:c

antihistamine

ye, dph