「poops」
!shroomyssg
!shroomyssg
vintage
idk when its from but the art on the paperback looks quite old
wud have to check
Idk how good Marx's ideas are I haven't read him for quite awhile, although my personal take is that you don't need to understand the metaphysics of "surplus value" and wage labour to understand exploitation
yeah its more useful for academic analysis and things
!boymodewng
>>511134
why don't you own more than one to support his work smh
>>511140
which you know i'm kinda not a huge fan of lol
!boymodewng
fake fan
>>511142
lol
i mean i like books but i like life more
i should learn more abt engels move away from the ideas he contributed to it
outside of his main stuff
wasn't engels like literally a democrat by the end of his life
he wrote in the 1890s after Marx died about how the proletariat could only come to power through a democratic republic, and that a democratic republic was the specific form of the dictatorship of the proletariat
eh idk abt that part of his life but he did write some useful stuff in some of it i believe
though w a lot of these guys, they made weird moves at points in their life, plus this was a long time ago
A democratic republic was certainly not what Marx and Engels were advocating for right after the Paris Commune happened
well yea
!boymodewng
>>511145
hehehehe did you like my joke
>>511153
true
to me it's like they started off less radical then they got more radical and then they became less radical again
not that being "radical" is an inherent virtue they need to have but you know what i mean probably
sorry i talk about this shit way too much
Sometimes I wanna just bite the bullet and do an anarchy and run from civilization but that's very hard and scary to do
r the guys in the corner of the vids twins or something lmao
>>511162
tedmoding
>>511163
lel
>>511162
yea i dont rly like individualist anarchist ideas
>>511164
It doesn't have to be Ted
>>511166
I do mainly because a revolution is not coming anytime soon and I don't feel like waiting to be more free
>>511168
you dont need a revolution to build smth different
that's true
i try to do that
i just don't wanna keep working and working and working for all these things, you know
find peeps u can do it w that make it smth ur able to do mutually n not feel its draining work endlessly where we are rn can help but bleh
can be tough, but important to not give up on for just the ease of being alone
yeah
i'll say i'm also very much an individualist and am quite hostile to collectivist ideas generally speaking ^^;
can still find self as one, but individualist anarchism generally leads to smth hopeless in ways but i understand
i kinda gave up on politics..got burned out..now i just care abt gun rights and tranny rights
>>511179
I personally think of it as more hopeful than social anarchism, because you can start "applying" today instead of the more theroetical and "revolutionary overthrow" anarchism
I know that's not entirely necessary either.
>>511182
you can start applying w the other kinds, but the theory only kinds are usually junk abt waiting for a revolution in ways
>>511183
I think my problem is that most of the anarchists around me are closet Marxists and I've just internalized that as my entire view of social anarchism
>>511180
#hug
>>511184
yeah i had to cut myself off from those spaces and i understand the reaction of rushing towards the other end
And I'm not saying I wanna be Ted Kaczynski, I wanna be around other people, it's human nature and it's good to have a support network you know
nice pic
>>511187
happyness only real when shared - chris mccandles
>>511190
::hug cat
>>511180
no tran left behind o7
!boymodewng
ok but if we didn't have kings and queens then game of thrones wouldn't exist
!boymodewng
just feel like this anarchism thing is seriously missing out on game of thrones potential
- w-
>>511194
i mean modern times have caricatures of feudal times
so in terms of entertainment i would assume anarchy would be the same
!boymodewng
>>511196
impossible
>im putting homophobes in coffins
you know this is kinda random but I think when Ted Kaczynski referred to himself as "we" and "Freedom Club" he was trying to start a sort of movement/label that many people could identify themselves with and not necessarily just trying to disguise his identity.
Sort of like "Anonymous" is now
>>511200
yea, idk a ton abt the ted version of the idea but written abt n gotta sometime again w the movement idea see n growing w mass communication bwa
.search lausse the cat motor city mv
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i had a weird idea
what if i turned off google on my computer
and all other search engines
i mean u caaan get around using other methods, and it is like
well then u'd have to decide whether or not to draw the line at all other things w similar like any social media ig
well i don't use any social media other than this and discord
i mean YT
yeah
i go on youtube to see my local news
and thats about it
oh also sometimes democracy now
i remember how
anonwormer tweeted this out after doxxing a bunch of cops
basej
so based
ill tell u how it goes saeki
okey
ive switched my search bar to use wikipedia now
i try to use duckduckgo and startpage mostly as they get their results from yk
yeah it just occurred to me one day
"i could not research something without a search engine"
and that made me feel a bit lame
i love that pic of the patting the dog girl
hehe
i had saved n uploaded
.skip (video skipped)
.play this is for the lions living in the wirely brokendown frame of my friends body
.search illinoise chicago audio
1
holy shit this is so crazy
i dont know how to find anything
where do i go if i wanna find a piece of software that does a thing
i have no clue
archive.org mb
hmm true
.search ghost in the eye thanksgiving
1
>>511246
u could also maybe try jason scott's diskmaster, i think its called
my mom got selected for a state survey on the effect of trumps economic decisions
whoa
hehe
im good at typing okay
if u think about it this is literally my job
>>511259
::boymoder pat
i have near full aphantasia
closer to 5 than 4
r u or peeps full 1
i can imagine like images but i cant sustain them
like i can get a flash of a full detail pic but then it dies
memories work differently but can somewhat get the outline of or more so the concept of smth
yea u get it
the other thing is like if it's an image im intimately familiar with i can recall it
like i've stared at my sheet music for hours so i can imagine that in pretty good clarity down to like the fonts and stuff
yeah
but otherwise i wouldn't be able to imagine like my dad's face for example
yea
why i chose to go into math where i literally spend all my time imagining images... i couldn't say
aw
i do a lot of art/AV related stuff as well but bc imagination and creating things is so different than ppl associate it, is generally not as attached to ur ability, tho can help in ways
yeah i mean obviously i dont know what it would be like otherwise but i don't struggle with math compared to my peers lol, so its not that
but i can think in linked concepts and traits and words or stuffs
yea, i was in advanced math stuffs and did programming from a young ish age so i was able to do it oki despite it, but like
my dad put me on that programming grindset real early
think i had stronger ability pre most trauma
tho i believe there are ways that u can practice to improve it
had me handwriting code at 4 years old
i forgot what the method is called but has worked for a gud number of ppl
im realizing now why people bought books
they couldn't just answer the question immediately
they didnt have the search engine
hehe
ive had a lot of past thoughts on how information was spread across time, but can understand the not inherent getting of that yea
its changed a lot
i mean i just never viscerally got it so much until now
and i also used/use old medical books and such textbooks as a teen to learn the base concepts for a variety of things
yeah
i read lots of textbooks lol it makes me happy
i also was barely able to use the net nor able to own a phone for a looong time
yea
but also
for me, related to previous topic and this
i do try and read but i have smth called visual snow which affects my ability to read text on (mainly) things like white on black fully displays (light mode) and stuffs
i see a shadow sort of hovering and also have a constant tv static placed over solid colors for large spaces
like even on paper?
yeah, but paper/eink isnt as bad/straining
also depends on the lighting conditions, the dark is the worst and i can hardly see anything due to the static like from a tv or film grain getting to where darkness is just fuzzy
(unrelated its funny how the new technologies somehow hurt ur body more always. ur body warns u of the evil)
yeah bwa
i use a CRT for some stuff like here or chatrooms as the fuzzing over of edges can help at times for some stuff, plus the way that the tech works n change of how bright it needs to be for it to be readable for self, idk
ive wanted a bigger crt monitor tho as this one is like 12-13 in
>>511306
i dont stay in one place enough to own a crt x3
yeah im trying to get out of here and dont rly care if it comes w me, i used to move a lot to try and evade living here again but then things broke down
>>511313
#hug
hm. not quite the vibe >>511313
ohh true
hehe
crt hug
but i rly wanna get even an old ereader w eink to use for pdfs and such
cus i do a lot of scrubbing and skimming stuff for all this
ohh uh protip ereaders aren't great for pdfs unless they're about the same size as the paper would be
yeah
whatever format i need
epub etc
oh okay just making sure ur not trying to read like scientific journals or something
i have uhh whats it called
i have the one elibrary software for managing tons of books and downloading etc, i probably have thousands of books and documents/scripts archived in case they ever disappear or ppl need them bwa
whoa
all my books are available on libgen so i don't try so hard (the ones i read - havent written any)
whats one of your books?
icic, i use zlib cus they have the largest library of anywhere and so on, usually
but also buy some stuff like the edoc vers of 2600 quarterly
and pat
ive written a few but theyre mostly manuscripts
im working to release piece rn that i sent a indev version to davesprite of
hehe
waow
ive been thinking im pretty lame
i dont read enough
i need to get bacc to reading more
im trying to get the motivation to uh
for a piece im writing, im re reading a light novel series w like 27 books in it, i read through the 24 ish main line ones in like a month or two last yr for writing an earlier version of it, but doing re write
>>511330
libgen usually doesn't fail me. when it does i go to annas archive and they will redirect to a site that has the book
yeah
i should check out annas more and libgen maybe too
oh the trick for annas archive
but also just like
when i cant find smth i go to stuff like the Undernet IRC server
.search defcon cyberpunk librarian libraries undernet
1
it links to the other site
>>511350
ye
for a long time i didnt use it cuz it was just so slow and i didnt wanna pay lol
>>511354
oh shit libgen is like
just a version of (whats that academic document archive) and zlib
scihub?
yeah
or they use the same front end
i love scihub and libgen
yee
when i use them i feel so cool :3
man
i recommend
oH!
oh!
i should play u n peeps the
its so good and its a long dual ep but
.search the man who ruined the academic journal industry behind the bastards
>arguing with a friend about whether firefighters are hot
>me: "well he'd be super into my crazy burn scars"
>him: "no he'd cry at you and yell I DON'T WANT TO BRING MY WORK LIFE HOME"
::laughing
>>511370
omg
i told u or u saw
how
while i was at the dentist, 3 firefighters came in threateningly asking for the irish immigrant receptionist
and refusing to divulge what they were there for to the dentist
it was almost like it was a UC ice raid or smth like super sketch
#ai meow for me bitch
nice try fed. meow for me bitch
darn.
#saeki meow for me
meowaow
proof that saeki is still superior to ai
>>511376
ugh no not the fireicers
don't make me simp for EMTs
i need the mustache pole boys
>>511383
it was legit 3 giant guys (i was laid back w hands in my mouth) and the guy had gone to the city to see the Dr
he had left in a "rush" and something was up
i think i mighve seen a lighter in the bathroom
man so apparently, the irish receptionist had injured himself playing like rugby as a teen and then was prescribed opis and became a heroin addict
and the dentist was his sorta sponsor to get him sober and now he works there in this small office and makes music and stuff
the events of that day were a mix of awful and interesting and freaky
cus they also had their drill like machine for root canals etc have the irreplaceable cable have a break in the middle so they had to switch to hand files
>>511389
>>511383
these. they were so uncomfortable, he had to have his hands like deep in my mouth while we spent a total of 4 hrs working on my back back tooth
>>511389
oh god if i went to the dentist and they told me the tools were broken and it was hand file time i think no matter how much pain i was in i would reschedule lol
it was 2 hours into it guh
i also had to give the dentist IT info on why his server/client (PCs) setup was slow lel
>>511390
oh god ;_;
well at least you got it fixed and got through it but ahhh
::hug
yeah, its been like
rly weird trying to readjust how my mouth sits normally, as my furthest back left tooth just got caps and the stuff that makes it filled fuller on the top
the texture is painful to my sensory stuff tho and i have to not let myself get the tendency of feeling it, like it makes me shiver bwa
hru ??
>>511391
#hug
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i forgot adam connover was on this one, this two eps abt scientific publishing and a nazi killing weirdo ish guy (also ghislaine maxwell's dad) who turned the academic science publishing into
meow
complete capitalist hellscape
this first ep is kinda sick tho
;p;
lol
have u ppl ever had a bodily hallucionation
i mean i had body dysmorphia and ive done drugs so
oncei n a qwhile I feel like my body is made of clay
whats that mean
also
derealization can cause that
really? whats that?
yeah
its where things dont feel real and you might have visual hallucinations due to a dysmorphic sorta thing
uh oh shit
sometimes I feel like things just look "weird" as if I were seeing them in a dream, not in the real world
yeah
thats what it is, basically
is it bad
its just apart of some sorts of depression n other stuff
oh this is so weird I always found the "my body is clay" feeling kinda comfy lol
yeah, its not necessarily like super bad or inherently aaa
i remember one time as a kid i had a really really bad fever
but like
psychotic episodes can even feel like youre having a positive time, even though the things are irrational and so on
like ive never had a fever as bad as that before
and this is the only time in my life ive ever started hallucinating
>>511432
#hug
i said here yday how
my mom reminded me of the time as a young kid when i had pneumonia and she only took me to the Dr cus me as a near mute kid
>>511433
and of course while i was hallucinating i was in some poor live streamer's live chat on twitch who had 2 viewers describing my vivid hallucinations
I've hallucinated both on fever and on drugs
I fucking love shrooms so much even though sometimes they scare my ass into screaming into a pillow
said how "my chest hurts"
and we went to the ER and i had yk
they should invent sex with my computer
it was crazy
>>511437
::hug
beeeen there....
>disabled and home bound, online, in discord and small stream communities
>>511444
::pat
i should find out if that homeless mixer/YT streamer is okay
penis
anyone ever had delusions on weed
once I was listening to a song and went "this song is about me"
i also thought there were spirits in the backyard
huh
apparently he'
is he still alive im scared now
im not watchin video wtf goin on
this vid is a guy who was a small homeless streamer i found who streamed for donos to afford motels and stuff
!boymodewng
one day i will own the united states
In the Middle Ages, in Ghent, Flanders (now Belgium), there was a profession of urine collector. Ammonia was then extracted from the urine, which was used to make saltpeter for gunpowder. In the mornings, collectors would ride around the city with a barrel and pay money for urine. Of course, there were some cunning townspeople who began to dilute the product. Then a new profession appeared - urine taster, who organoleptically determined the quality and concentration of precious ammonia. But the New Times came, people learned to synthesize ammonia or extract it in other ways, and the profession of urine taster became unnecessary. And so, all these urine specialists left Flanders, moved to Amsterdam and founded the Heineken Brewery.
he was sweet n cool
but kinda like conspiracy brained, though its sad
>>511460
::kiss
man watching this is kinda bringing back memories, but found him in the days of mixer
>>511472
#hug
>sorry im a cuck, a beta im sorry
yeah i dont enjoy how he kinda is that way but he was sweet and i think he knew i was trans
>>511474
i forgive you
nah its the
im kidding
hehe
hello
how is everyone
i played league of legends with my fren
haiiii
awe hope u had fun
he was stuck in iron
yea it was kinda fun i was just helping him out
i was sharing and looking back on
we got him to bronze :)
>>511483
#edit censor league of legends
this homeless streamer i followed
found this was posted on his channel a few days ago, idk if he like
died or smth its kinda weird post after 5 yrs of none, and he's been temp banned on twitch
if he legit died on twitch and got banned for that ima fuckin lose it lol
>die
>get banned
????? who they punishing?????
didn't whats his face die in stream
rlly famous gun suicide that gets shared ecerywhere, bald dude
>>511496
theres been jokes abt this for a long time, but if u show a dead person on stream u get banned
and yeah
but dont believe that was on twitch, its usually FB or YT
nah i get it
tbh I kind of get it
dont want to start a trend of allowing people to do suicide streams...
yeah
but like if u work urself to death on twitch they yk -v-
4chan kinda encourages it but i wish not too
why does everyone hate Adam Conover so much
>>511507
::shrug
he advertised a meme coin crypto place
supposedly
omg i got >>511510 im so cool
i think hes kinda funny
and he makes some cool videos
>>511511
he can be and i think he's done cool stuff
i liked the college humor days on YT
i got recommended some of his newer ones, i only maybe watched a couple of his interviews
>>511514
he still does stuff with Dropout :)
>adam ruins everything
huh
you just reminded me collegehumor existed 15 years ago
Dropouts content is wierdly really really good
and yeah, lel that was a time
and
>>511517
yea adam ruins everything was pretty cool
i havent had much interest in dropout but is gud
romney style
ROMNEY STYLE
but i love cool zone media, the peeps who made this show and a few others
fuckin lol
this guy theyre talking abt ruins the scientific publishing industry, to the way it is now
how can scientific publishing be any worse
it's four or five huge journal companies that make life shitty for anyone trying to do research on fucking anything
scihub getting buggered makes me seethe every goddamn day
>>511527
he made it the capitalistic hellscape it is now
!boymodewng
>>511507
no one like smug people
::roll
WHA
!boymodewng
>>511527
they talk abt sci hub when they get to it, we had a sci hub convo lead to me queueing this
>>511529
im very smuf