>u have daddy issues
>u have mommy issues
bitch i have substance abuse issues dont get it twisted

>>559303
brawlhalla

>>559337
used to be benzos opiates and lsd, ive dialed back to weed alc and nic. its more socially acceptable

>>559339
oh also stims yeah i eat adderall pretty much every day

but the doctor said im supposed to do that so i5s not drug abuse :33333

>>559342
concerta???? i fucking hate those bitches

Concerta made me a fuckig DEMON

I didnt eat or sleep at all

like 3 hours a night and 600cal

angry at everything because i was constantly hungry and sleepy and also wired. adderall i can eat and sleep on, its so much better. but it's totally genetic how you react to it, i know people who have the exact opposite

>>559350
>killing machine

yeah

i get adderall XR because I'm """prone to substance abuse disorder and it would be unsafe"" to give me IR

But i just chew it up so it's same same

>>559354
yeah i feel like i could kill god with my bare hands when i eat like 30mg

>>559358
xr but i chew it so it's basically ir

>>559360
yeah its just beads

hcl doesnt change much about the uptake iirc

vyvanse is the real evil one, you actually have to go buy stomach enzymes to convert it to ir -_-

>>559366
you mean it clears slower or something?

>>559250
#ai explain this

nice try fed. explain this

>>559368
idk, ive tried some IR from friends and the doses feel about equal

im really sensitive to it though so like 15mg is enough for me to be awake and active all day, 30mg is kill god tier

>>559373
shame

yeah benders are Not Fun

thats tbh why i chew it up

IR lasts like 12 hours for me, XR lasts 16+ and thats just inconvenient. Vyvanse lasts like 24 hours for me is genuinely hellish

>>559378
i mean i take it almost every day i just eat and sleepy for the 5 hours its worn off or whatever

>>559379
yeah i metabolize it rly slow for some reason

>>559364
ur sleebin tho rite??

>>559382
i basically dont ever do "fun" amounts anymore

if i wanna have fun i just get drunky :3

>>559375
awful for you too

>>559382
I tried taking 40mg adderal xr and didn’t get euphoria idk where that stuff kicks in

wow

I thought like 200 mg was something like where some people get hurt too but idk I barely researched this stuff at all

>>559392
it’s nice to yap with you too :)

oooh interesting point

:D

you could mortar and pestle them I bet that would work

would be funny if it was placebo but I doubt it

huh I thought mortar and pestle went pretty fine

pure IPA?

gah I don’t think that’s good to drink

use ethanol probably

>>559415
#kiss thank u

>>559418
mmmm

idk I wish I had intense emotions but also ya know feel bad about drugs

my friend ODed on amphetamines and she has like a shaky voice now and has trouble talking

I guess people crash mountain bikes off cliffs and that’s no reason to not have fun riding them with friends

internet ones in Russia, untested

injected

and now she takes a low dose of methadrone to not be depressed and feel good and part of me is like aaaaaaaaa but also I have no clue how to actually make her ya know feel good and all

No I figured you would that’s kinda why I said it to you ;)

gaaah that’s really exhausting

really really exhausting

I’ve always been kinda of weird and unwanted and I doubt my amphetamine friend is super close to me. I don’t know if I’ve ever made her laugh or anything, so it’s like I’m just some weirdo saying shit to her that maybe enables her or maybe hassles her for no reason. at one point she stopped messaging with other people than me and her bf but like all I say with her is complaining about my problems which don’t get better (trying to not do this) , listening to her and whining that her life needs a better trajectory (but not really believing in a solution) and sometimes she sends me scientific papers I don’t get through but find interesting, and again feel stressed we’ll never get to work with them or really do anything

ok my reaction is she needs to… oooof 😭😭

u need nicer friends. probably she’s just tired of you a little maybe so you need to spread things around? ohhh idk

u gotta develop other relationships I think but that’s easy to say ofc. I had one friend through childhood who looked down on ‘cringe’ stuff so I never got to try anything but also is the one person I have in some ways. I guess I have a few more internet friends now and I’m glad but also gah… feel like I just let them down or they will pass

waow irl friends :0

>>559446
after childhood? yeah I think that’s standard

bleh yeah I found uni super isolating. I met a nice trans guy at commencement and we got coffee last week and talked about going for a hike but idk haven’t messaged since :/ I feel like I’d just be nervous and he’d feel scared of me and I haven’t made any progress in my life since then or have anything to talk about rly

>>559449
I think it happens when you haven’t made other friends. everything is taboo when you haven’t done it before

ok :>

>>559389
yeah thats very fair im never gonna judge someone for the ways they cope unless it's like destroying the lives of the loved ones around them u know?

Lotta worse things you can do to relieve stress than take too much adderall and vacuum the ceilings at 4am

>>559459
hell yeah :3 thats what life is all about imo. finding your happy place and making your dark place Not Too Bad

>>559460
i used to burn myself lmao but i havent for like 4 years now im pretty proud of it

still punch my legs rly hard sometimes if im feeling it

but at least that doesnt leave scars

>>559465
<3 :>

twink arms sounds like a bad parody supervillain lmfao

messaged him 😇

>>559479
#kiss ily twinkanon

>>559455
real but also sounds super exhausting
#hug

>>559472
thank you! : D

>>559462
congrats on stopping BASED!!

>>559471 No I definitely needed luck thank you I’m super scared of ppl

>>559474
pls don’t say stuff like that finch :(

>>559491
maybe you can message one of your friends too and do smth together :3

so ur not only having the one

>>559495
#kiss you do

>>559498
:D <3 thank uuu I won’t let you down
n u 2 twinkanon

>>559505
I didn’t feel comfortable being myself in the way I am with my childhood friend with other friends I tried to make in college but w some of the ppl online I think similar things started emerging. I mean causality wise, if your brain can associate one person with things due to experiences it should be possible to do that with other ppl but not an instant thing

>>559510
based u cooked

>>559517
<3 I believe in you kate

>>559514
is there a therapist he would feel comfortable with? maybe a man?

>>559519
LMAO can I see??

>>559520
have you done so?

>>559531
xD this is amazing

also you have pretty eyes

>>559534
that seems nice

>>559544
x)

>>559530
ah fugg twinknon:( Parkinson’s mechanically causes depression. it destroys the dopimanergic neurons which are activated by stuff like amphetamines. once it progresses more he’s going to get more depressed. therapy might still be really good for isolation and having someone to listen to him but in terms of him changing himself and becoming a person who copes w things and thus is happy I’m not too optimistic. could still be a spot of social/emotional relief though

>>559551
theres actually a bunch of recent research that stimulant use late in life reduces the chance of developing parkinsons/alzheimers presumably because of the stimulation of those pathways

nicotine as well but the reason is less clear because it's acetylcholine

he should talk to his parkinsons doctors about upping treatments for the depression at the neural level

>>559552
I bet yeh heard of it

>>559549
still love you too

>>559553
the areas are in the same general path so it makes sense

maybe at least

>>559569
they are focused on math in the distance

are we eye posting

>>559571
I’m glad you saw it. and you’re still making him much better off having someone who cares

waow even her eyes are pupils she’s such a learner

>>559584
#smooch
extremely kissable expression

that picture looks really high quality ur lying shrimp

>>559590
this is still true though

>>559593
shrimp is one of the best worms :O

it’s a good shrimck! >>559597

shtickmp

>>559586
bazed

>>559601
that’s such a cool turn of phrase you could use that in a song

locust humanoid creatures mastering the plernoma in a post truth cyber metric based sino american world order *heavy drums in background*
anyway you’re fine rose i would love to hang out with you

Hello friends.

>>559613
rose I think your too isolated you need to fly to America and kiss me please so you have humans to compare urself to

waow good job

I thought nerds didn’t get diseases though tea’s been slaying fr

is being rude legally allowed in this board / altchan wtv

shouldn’t be imo

>>559616
a wise and powerful sage once said
"I catch all diseases in the world
So the world don't have no more diseases, you feel me?"

>>559620
Lose weight and get a haircut

usually it'd be 2 paragraph deconstruction of whoever I'm trying to cause improvement on but I will keep it at that

>>559620
if you put an eye on your thumb nail this would look pretty sick

>>559620
powerful

Rose does your hand skin you can pull it up a few cm? like its reallt stretchy and thin?

>>559634
I have better things to do

not cut

you look like a mop

just get it looking like something

that's like not a mop

dont be rude nonna :(

it's for her own good

it's true though

rose weren’t you just calling yourself unattractive? I think you’re being kinda based though standing up for urself

>>559649
People are usually extremely insecure and feel like only they can be honest about themselves

>u look bad rn, change
unconstructive criticism
>you should try X, i think it would look good on uou
constructive criticism

please don’t say sperg out. I think rose would be super cute thinner and with less frayed hair if it is I don’t know hair care but she’s fine looking as is and ya know ur using shame kinda language u gotta be gentle with ideas for how others could look cuz it’s violating and hurtful to be like ‘ur look is bad >:(‘

let's not sperg out over me saying someone should lose weight

ok is the ED discussion okay but not me saying a word

starving for 6 days is ED

weight loss should be controlled and done in a healthy manner

>>559661
if you lose it too fast you don't know how to keep it at a low level and gain it again due to rebounds easily

I've been flip flopping between 100kg and 50kg for my entire life ik a lot about gaining and losing weight

>>559661
you’d look a lot better if you did but I hope you don’t feel too bad as is

>>559667
it's OK to try to look a way that doesn't make you feel ashamed about your body