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yngven
twitter after the OG owner sold it was a mistake
yngven
i forgor his name
anon
I think even when it was Jack Dorsey it was kind of eh.....
yngven
Jack Dorsey was his name
yngven
yeah twitter has always been 'men'
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do u hab bsky
yngven
i do but i literally never use it
anon
Twitter has gotten markedly worse, but I have zero nostalgia for the "good old days" of twitter either
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peeps can find me there if wan
yngven
cuz nothing goes on on bsky
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o strt posting
rose!!UTCPvC12Ac
bsky is v boring yeah
rose!!UTCPvC12Ac
i post 12 ass pics a day on twitter, go follow
>>610648
yngven
i will not since i'm a youngin
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I'll make some new socials to send u peeps
anon
Twitter is basically a good porn advertising platform and that's it lol
rose!!UTCPvC12Ac
twinkanon go follow my twitter so you can see my ass pics
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I would but lel
rose!!UTCPvC12Ac
(the joke is i dont post ass pics)
rose!!UTCPvC12Ac
i used to but not anymore
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ye
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yh I had l
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I had like 1.5k followers for lewd cosplay
rose!!UTCPvC12Ac
wtf.... highbie...
anon
I posted a dick pic to twitter one time, or like at somebody lol
anon
But other than that, it basically a platform for finding stuff
rose!!UTCPvC12Ac
bsky is kinda lame cos the ppl i follow there are like ppl whos stuff i rlly love but u realise that they're all very millenial
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brb for appt
rose!!UTCPvC12Ac
bsky sucks cos absolutely no one interacts with my posts lol
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bacc
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awww
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I haven't seen them on my tl ;-;
rose!!UTCPvC12Ac
haiii
rose!!UTCPvC12Ac
i posted a new one lol
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I wud repost
anon
if i was a scientific researcher i would publish alll my papers with units like 1/26th of an inch instead of 1mm
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I'm gonna be drafting up sum Abt my research pieces
straw bury
rose rlijmnk ur bluesky so ic an look tat ur bluesky or maybe the link is on ur neocities i willl there tcheck there first but if not i will check here again
>>610676>>610678
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hehe
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roses pfp is qt
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dissociated for the appt but
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told I had access to e again and that its purity tested n I would get blood tests etc, thankfully didn't get into things much otherwise than having to assure I was figuring out work
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do I have u as moot on bsky
straw bury
>>610678
omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i dont havea bleuskty lol
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hehe
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awe
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I like it but also dislike it for reasons peeps here probs don't care Abt cus obscure
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>tries to posture as a federated platform but actually isnt
fujo
thoughts that kind of are like "is my perception of reality" true are really scary kinda tbh
fujo
ok not scary but like... weird
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guh
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and yeah you can get into thought loops from that bwa
>>610692
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aw
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>>610692
::hug sad
reach out to peeps if u need to talk Abt it or support, n bouncing off others to see if you're being rational or venting out the painful thoughts
fujo
idk if i am being rational, i cannot trust others who will judge the words i say i think
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ye but
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reaching out to peeps to ask n talk about it, n see how others think abt it can help you recognize if it's smth you need to think on more
fujo
i did but i'm not sure if i'm psyopping myself into believing things happened differently
>>610704
fujo
basically questioning my own perception of reality
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brb one sec
davesprite
yesss it's getting faster now
i am churning out lineart
i am so glad i decided to do puppets
>>610708
davesprite
if anyone else struggles with figure drawing
just draw muppets until you get better at perspective
they're so easy to pose
little noodle frens
davesprite
oh sorry i came on at a bad time didn't i
i gotta start reading chat before i post
anon
hello. famouse scientist anon here with an announcement. crustaceans are not sea bugs. Bugs are land crustaceans
thank u gor coming to my science talk
davesprite
>>610706
this is gonna sound trite but are you sleepy, or especially hungry maybe?
states of dissociative psychosis or like, that type of thing even if milder, can be brought on by your body being in an unbalanced state
it may help settle your mind to do something simple like snack and nap
if it's not anything like that i would also recommend grounding exercises
5-4-3-2-1 is a good one (list to yourself 5 things you can touch, 4 things you can see, etc, down the senses in whichever order feels easiest)
>>610716
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family just got home
davesprite
guhh
davesprite
ayy happy mimemoder
fujo
>>610707
i ate today and i slept well.. it's something that's been bothering me for a while now, it's not like i'm freaking out or anything..
psychosis is probably a bit far fetched idk
>>610722
davesprite
>>610717
real
i yearn for the steppes
anon
are you typing in a sanstorm lmfao
>>610720
davesprite
>>610719
i just have fat fingers when i type and walk lol
also i always have autocorrect turned off
anon
oh lmfao
davesprite
>>610716
that's why i said like psychosis
that's a freaky term but it really just means super psyched out and detached feeling and it's a spectrum of states
mild paranoia could be described (no doctor would say this, but could be) as mini-psychosis for example
>>610726>>610723
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>>610722
yeah I was gonna mention psychosis as it does have similarities (and it isn't as crazy usually as most peeps would assume) but can feel any range of ways
yngven
:3
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it can be short or triggered just by stress n thought loops at times if in a bad place
fujo
>>610722
i dont think im paranoid really.. it's more like being confused and doubting myself
>>610751
yngven
imposter syndrome?
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probs
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was gon say, or smth similar
yngven
>>610691
linux content creators are psyops and you can't change my mind
>>610733
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>>610731
reluctant anarchist is cool but not who I was looking for
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looking for the italian guy who called out the Linux blogger who participated in LA Jan 6th
yngven
oh my
yngven
i also will say my statement wasn't pointed at you in specific
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there's this long time Linux blogger/anti woke yter who is still semi accepted in the linux scene despite being a terrible person and bringing dei arguments into Linux stuff n so on
yngven
what a dork
yngven
bringing that stuff into LINUX talk
straw bury
im not aas drunk anymore i think
>>610741
straw bury
>>610741
will u be girls kissing with me???????????
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hehe, sure yis
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hppy
anon
>>610717
I wish I could be a Mongolian from the Steppe riding with my brothers, sending my falcon out to hunt rabbits, herding my yaks.
>>610749>>610753
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2
straw bury
>>610747
i wish i was chinese so i could shoot u with a big evil sharp arrow right in ur head
>>610750
davesprite
>>610726
this sounds like detachment or depersonalization of some kind
in the same general area, not that the categorization super matters except insofar as it helps you
may be just that you're under a lot of anxiety that's pushing down your self perception and making you feel on unstable footing so to speak
>>610756
straw bury
>>610750
i will light the signal fire so that my brothers in arms know of your invasion and swiftly crush it
>>610755
davesprite
>>610747
i want to live in modern mongolia real bad tbh
there are motorcycle nomads and i desperately want to learn their lifestyle
they bike where there are no roads with their yurts in tow
peak steel horse
>>610754
davesprite
>>610753
the one thing is i imagine they probably go to the bathroom in a hole which is not great
but worth it
anon
>>610752
You will not stop me. You will warm my bed and be my concubine. You will watch over the yurt while I hunt.
>>610757
fujo
>>610751
so you're trying to tell me... that what i am thinking/feeling is probably right and have more confidence?
i dont understand sorry :(
>>610758>>610760
straw bury
>>610755
you will be crushed under the feet of my hundred thousand million brothers of the great chinese army. you will be punctured by one thousand arrows. you will be crushed under the hooves of a great horse. you will never make it over the great wall
>>610759
davesprite
>>610756
not a confidence issue per se more a sense of certainty
like, anxiety can make you fray at the edges and make it hard to tell what is true
i am telling you to nurture yourself and try to achieve a low stress state, that may help you get out of the worry spirals
>>610775
davesprite
>>610756
also no need to apologize! it's okay if you don't understand me; i struggle to communicate stuff like this because i metaphorize my own experiences so much and i try to convey things in weird metaphor
so if you don't get it it's probably on me
also i am not impatient regardless
just wanna help you figure out what's going on in your head and what you wanna do about it
anon
I am proud of you!
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ily2
gloober
awww thanks saeki
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gloober
^^
fujo
>>610758
yea idk i'm not really in an anxious state, this has been bothering me for a while now :/
>>610777
davesprite
>>610775
ok so not anxious, not physically unwell, just malaise and detachment and uncertainty?
if that describes it it'd be classic depersonalization
usually there IS anxiety underneath that, you're just not allowing yourself to feel the things that are stressing you out so hard you waver out of certainy altogether
i could of course be wrong
but detached states like this tend to root to either anxiety or some kind of trauma trigger response (which is also sort of a form of anxiety) unless you're just like uber chemically imbalanced and in need of antidepressants or stimulants or something (which is a possibility -- i have unmedicated adhd and i know it can def pull people apart to have such issues, bipolar messes people up too, etc)
>>610785
straw bury
>>610759
the fury of a thousand red dragons a mile long each shall fall upon u and u will run back crying to ur barren plains and continue to sleep with ur horses
>>610781>>610780
anon
>>610779
I will burn down your fields and put my yaks out to pasture on them. I will take you as my woman and you will be grateful.
>>610784
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lunduke is insane
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and I rarely if ever use that word
straw bury
>>610781
your yaks will be consumed by a great famine which will spread to ur children and then ur wives and then to u, and i will not be afflicted by ir for i will never be ur concubine
>>610786
anon
>>610784
I'm a nomad, I don't need agriculture. You will be the one suffering from a famine when I raze your villages to the ground and take your treasures, women, and land.
>>610791>>610790
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>>610785
Im also here if ever need bwa
davesprite
>>610785
oh yeah sorry ig this is a little public to get so specific on the analyzing and advising :p
i am slow in dms but you can
let me generate a link rq
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I'd have commented more rn but doing stuffs ;<
straw bury
>>610786
the great chinese people do not need food to survive, unlike you hideous raiders. we are sustained by the love for our great countruy which can never be destroyed by the likes of you
>>610794
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>>610786
I'm also a sort ofdigital nomad in the original sense of the word, not how tech bros use it
davesprite
>>610792
(anyone else is free to add until i nuke it tho you're all cool)
anon
>>610790
Ask the Iranians how that worked out. You will be conquered if you do not submit.
>>610798
davesprite
>>610792
#edit replace this post with a "this user has removed the contents of this post to protect their privacy" type form-statement, but written as if it was delivered by sonic the hedgehog
>>610800
straw bury
>>610794
i know not of which u speak but despite all i will never be ur concubine
>>610799
anon
>>610798
The Mongolians accidentally genocided the Iranians because they didn't understand how agriculture worked and turned their fields into pastures so the population collapsed as the pastoral lifestyle couldn't hope to sustain the population. China was only spared from this under the Yuan because the Yuan basically absorbed the eunuch bureaucracy and had them run things.
>>610802
davesprite
>>610797
awful, thank you robot, good robot
davesprite
oh wait i didn't get a friend request
straw bury
>>610799
our brave enunuchs will protect our great nation ur pathetic little invasion force and ur putrid yaks will never take over us
>>610807
straw bury
anon
>>610802
Nobody tell her that the population of China dropped by 60 million during the Mongol Invasion
straw bury
fake. fake and gay fake gay mongol faggot
anon
It could be because the Mongols enslaved so many they weren't counted in the census lol
davesprite
oh right links just add people directly into your friends without giving you a notif
lol, disc is so dumb
anon
>>610812
Saeki, opinions on historically authentic Mongol x Chinese ERP???
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strange, idk
anon
Would you become the wife of a steppe nomad?
rose!!UTCPvC12Ac
helloooo davesprite
straw bury
rsoe
straw bury
anyone know what steak tartar is????????
rose!!UTCPvC12Ac
yurr
rose!!UTCPvC12Ac
its like raw steak and they cut it up a bunch and mix it with like an egg yolk or smth
rose!!UTCPvC12Ac
n they dont cook it
>>610824
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yh
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I said earlier, not had tar tar stuff b4 :<
straw bury
>>610821
oooohhhhhh ok thank u my mongol husband was annoying me to make some for him
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:v
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wait are u rping w someone lel
>>610829
straw bury
no????????
straw bury
my husband is just annoying me for not knowing any traditional steppe nomad meals
anon
>>610826
We would NEVER do Mongolian ERP
rose!!UTCPvC12Ac
do any of you guys wanna hear a little bleepbloop track??
>>610832
straw bury
yes pls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
>>610833
straw bury
:D!!!!!!!!!!!
rose!!UTCPvC12Ac
lemme know what u think pwease
anon
Very nice
rose!!UTCPvC12Ac
its like a lil extended version of a part of the trailer music im making for davesprite
fujo
the patient needs a blåhaj to live...
>>610843
rose!!UTCPvC12Ac
>>610841
i had a dream last night i brought my blahaj on me with a trip to a mountain
>>610845
rose!!UTCPvC12Ac
the mountain has a really huge escalator on it , it was kinda spooky cos i didnt wanna drop my blahaj n lose her
>>610846
fujo
>>610844
do u know the blahaj pic with the escalator
straw bury
cuddy i need estradiol
>>610852
straw bury
>>610853
its me...............................................
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I'll check k out the song rose
<333
straw bury
(no longer drunk lol)
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aw
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Klonopin is affecting me mildly, more comfy/less errrr
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more open feeling bwa
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less inhibition or however its phrased
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but excited for the rose n Daves thing, if peeps wan help w it at alls I'm intererested
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doing smth for the min n writing but excite
derrick_phone(Luzia)
sorry my activity is spotty i get distracted
derrick_phone(Luzia)
im here for good now
derrick_phone(Luzia)
whats up
anon
Don't worry about it, I was gonna say, opinions on poetry?
>>610875
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haii
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idk if u saw earlier but
anon
I am trying to get into reading it so I can have a sensitive side and eventually learn to write it
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I might see abt contacting my
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ex like
derrick_phone(Luzia)
>>610869
i enjoy some poetry however i find it to be overly melancholic and somewhat pretentious
>>610877
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aw
anon
>>610875
I have noticed with some of it, like I read a Walt Whitman one that was about longing for someone in a dive bar dealio. Any recommendations?
>>610881
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it can be yea
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more the stereotypical types and most popular ones, but there exists other kinda tho the art form trends that way I feel
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but I was thinking of contacting peeps I worked w who fled the US to UK and seeing if he'd still be down for me to work w n live in the same apartment building if I was gon flee for a time to the UK
derrick_phone(Luzia)
>>610877
ACTUALLT YEAH I DO, UNIRONICALLY MICHAEL ROSEN AND ALSO BENJAMIN ZEPHANIAH i think thats how you spell it. THEYRE THE ONLY GOOD POETS I KNOW
>>610889>>610888
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n be able to see worms if I ever was to . .
derrick_phone(Luzia)
i stay away from poetry tho
derrick_phone(Luzia)
wretched art form
>>610893
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aw
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I need to find the story I got that award for in school n see if it was in verse or not, I don't believe it was but idk
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I also have some fiction novels I wrote in high school on my old old Chromebook bwa
anon
>>610890
You say twink so ominously
derrick_phone(Luzia)
ill have you know that the word you seek is "derogatory"
>>610894
anon
>>610892
Jokes on you... I like that
derrick_phone(Luzia)
>>610893
that and books and movies
derrick_phone(Luzia)
and some paintings.....highly dependent on the artist tho
anon
Oh yeah! Have you watched Eraserhead yet?
derrick_phone(Luzia)
no i havent
derrick_phone(Luzia)
wait was i talking here about Being John Malkovich?
>>610901
anon
>>610899
Yes I believe so, I know it was mentioned.
derrick_phone(Luzia)
yeah that wouldve been me
derrick_phone(Luzia)
i watched that yesterday
derrick_phone(Luzia)
its my favourite movie ive ever watched i think
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aw
anon
I will have to check it out!
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ye
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and
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we should make topsters of stuff to recommend to each other ,3,
>>610912
anon
What kind of movies do you like Luzia?
derrick_phone(Luzia)
well i really need to watch more charlie kaufman movies now
anon
>>610909
I like the idea of making smaller slower threads for sort of specifically special interests, fashion and clothing recs, pickup games for chess and such, movie and music
>>610914
derrick_phone(Luzia)
but the kind of movies i like
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>>610912
maybe just a board for such hyperfixations or spec interests
derrick_phone(Luzia)
i love tarentino, edgar wright, i like guy ritchie, love a heist movie, i love ryan gosling n such, sucker for a movie with unique cinematography. all that kinda jazz really
>>610917
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wish Nick frost hadn't decided to do the new Harry Potter show that's gonna be funding the anti trans org
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love wright tho
derrick_phone(Luzia)
but idk
anon
>>610919
You should definitely watch Hard Boiled, there is also the classic uh hold on need to think uh.......
derrick_phone(Luzia)
i mean i like jackie chan and bruce lee but not my style of movies
>>610926
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wait
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hard boiled is the wall street one, right
derrick_phone(Luzia)
oh i love spy movies too
anon
>>610922
Oh no Hard Boiled is guns and action, it has an amazing shootout sequence that like I wish would inspire way more movies
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ah
derrick_phone(Luzia)
ooooo
anon
.play hard boiled shootout
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.skip (video skipped)
anon
.skip (video skipped)
anon
.play hard boiled hospital shootout
anon
The hospital shootout is better
anon
watch how insane the hallway gets, like it absolutely captures how destructive guns should be
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is this a
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nvm
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my brain was just seeing hallway fight patterns from old boy
>>610938
anon
>>610937
Old Boy has that cool sequence yeah
anon
Oh if you want to see a less actiony Chinese film, check out In the Mood For Love, that is a truly amazing film
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yeah
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its been referenced so much that I mistake things for refs to it sometimes
anon
Oh I just remembered! I know you aren't into Kung Fu type movies, but Luzia you should definitely check out Kung Fu Hustle
anon
It is a hilarious movie
anon
Look at how insane that is
anon
The smoke
anon
Way more movies need to make guns feel like that insanely powerful
sæкі
there's some that do but I'd have to think some more on which I'd recommend in those cases
anon
.play in the mood for love mirror scene
anon
In the Mood for Love is genuinely such a beautifully shot film
sæкі
I kinda want a taxi driver jacket
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rather the Vietnam or such Mili surplus one to add my own patches
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have you watched after hours??
anon
No I have not
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heavily recommend
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who's the director again god
anon
Scorcesse
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yeeee
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great film, one of my favorites
anon
If you can tolerate really slow drawn out overly nature shot movies, I love uh hold on I am a bit out of it.... the Horse Thief
anon
I was on a kick where I watched a bunch of Chinese movies
sæкі
I forget the names but the set of 80s ish HK films that are artsy and such are also amazing
anon
Shit there was a really good movie, uh that was like super crazy. It was about a guy that works for a traditional chinese play type thing, but he ends up getting er... raped and such. Then when he finally becomes famous, the Cultural Revolution happens. It is like a super depressing film. It was good though, I can't remember it.
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and will save name
anon
Oh The Blue Kite is really good too
anon
That one is not depressing, or rather it is depressing but also super hopeful
rose!!UTCPvC12Ac
hello i have made another track
anon
Oh yeah, the movie I was thinking of was called Farewelll My Concubine
sæкі
yayyyy!!!
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I'm gon listen to them soon but doing smth <3 excite
anon
It's actually so depressing that China insists on repressing their artistic industries so much
anon
So many talented, technically proficient directors put to the most garish basic nationalistic pursuits
yngven
had this on my computer for some reason
yngven
oh yeah i remember why i had it on my computer
anon
Tyler Durden is literally me
nama
saeki i'm fascinated with the idea of analog digital dictionaries
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hehe
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I have a couple
nama
lies!!!!!!! how come you have couple and you haven't gave me none
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lel
nama
aren't they very expensive?
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I've offered to give peeps some of my gear in the past
nama
at least the modern ones i looked up on aliexpress
sæкі
errr
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I mean you can find some cheaper current day ones meant for Japanese speakers/learning English that are like palmtop form factors
>>610992
sæкі
I use my alphasmart neo 2s though somewhat for that but it doesn't have a dictionary beyond a list of words, but there's older ones that can be found at thrift stores for a few dollars
nama
>>610990
on OLX, the brazilian ebay there's none that are in japanese
there's in chinese tho, i also want to learn chinese but after i learn all the kanji and shit
sæкі
nicu, and yeah there's those but also recommend seeing if sites like buyee can ship to you, or eBay, as they'll be cheaper generally
nama
can't you hack it and install your own dictionary files? i use yomitan for japanese and you need the digital dictionary files to use it
sæкі
and most of these, I assume, you can but they're a bit of a pain I think, though some nowadays have updates and things like notes
>>611004
rose!!UTCPvC12Ac
sleepy zzzz
rose!!UTCPvC12Ac
hello and also goodnight everyone yay :3 <3
>>611000
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awwww
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gnite <3
eep well , sweet dreams qtpie
nama
>>610995
which languages do you speak saeki?
sæкі
I stopped actively trying to learn UA n used to be self teaching RU too, but still use the UA Cyrillic alphabet daily
but mostly just English, though have taken german/Spanish classes in school
>>611040
💖!nIOh.loris
*sigh*
yearning again...
>>611046
sæкі
chu
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aw
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ye
💖!nIOh.loris
unearthed arcana
oh..
💖!nIOh.loris
rat girls kissing
0.7741% not booger!boymodewng
.play blue wing corb lund
nama
.play lucid blocks game
sæкі
coool
nama
it's minecraft meets backroom
>>611060
💖!nIOh.loris
>>611046
yearning for a spring where i can finally bloom, an eternal universe full of love, a hopeful warmth to keep the cold day away, to sail in an endless sea where the moon is our guide....idk.
yearning
>>611057
sæкі
might work on writing a memoir piece, shorter one ish
gloober
>>611055
:) Loris the flower petal spinning on the winds up into the sky
gloober
Luce u n u 2 saeki
n good to meet u nama :)
yngven
god i love wasting my money on albums on bandcamp
yngven
>>611054
also woah another gay person!!
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