>>611057
yay

sigh
entering emotional times

n heya

finally getting hit by all that happened earlier n remembering things that happened 7 yrs ago

>>611067

mhm,,

hope they're having support now even if they got req'd to be in a ward

just took a bunch of kratom and might write for a while relating to the thing I'm referring to as happened 7 yrs ago

being the uh

mentor who co founded an org/space w me who was also trans n took her own life back then

silly

sip

I might make a

pastebin esc encrypted pad to share the live updated piece being written, I think

in case ppl do wan read or interested in once they see it

>>611077
beautiful

has anyone seem april(aka shrimp)?

not since yday

hm?

lel

I'm gonnamake an encrypted pad to share the writing on before I publish anything bwa

beach bunny is cool, I think I shared once my dad has booked them a few times to play.. bwa

lel

sure ,3,

making new music playlist for the vibes of the essay to help get in the headspace

>>611097
>>611099
noooooooooooo
i miss my sister and also i have a really cute vid of dogs for her.

found family esc sister or just lil in joke ,<,

gosh I'm melancholic rn

I'll try and like u the bin twink

lmao

tits hurt

I used to do that a gud bit

and yeah not like

I used to use like

used to sell Tails bootable discs actually

wanna play games w cutes..

>>611173
yea

I'm thinking

erm

do you know how to use IRC Twink

i was thinking of setting up a server, semi unrelated to this tho, but trying to well

I'm working on sending u n peeps an encrypted pad/bin that'll explain some of the reasons/history/concepts etc. .

devil's best dress...i want one too

aw

i need to find the Mili surplus

aww..

ababa

i have a lot of stuff w my writing I avoid talking Abt outside of it cus of the errr

awawa

ooo

on steam??

i could add cuties too

.search lausse the cat album

1. 1.
   
   LAUSSE THE CAT - The Girl, The Cat and The Tree [Full Album]

   音楽StayAway

   20:31
2. 2.
   
   Coco Channel

   LAUSSE THE CAT - Topic

   3:38
3. 3.
   
   Redstripe Rhapsody

   LAUSSE THE CAT - Topic

   8:00
4. 4.
   
   LAUSSE THE CAT - Redstripe Rhapsody

   College Music

   8:02
5. 5.
   
   LAUSSE THE CAT - KITTEN BLUES

   polywannatoke

   4:05

1

2

3

4

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

kiss taker

gosh I haven't been in this specific headspace in a while

its hard to articulate in a live board, I might put an introductory thing at the top of the doc I'll link in a min, trying to find the place I'm thinking of to start up the file and also

taking some notes as I'm like at the energy point where I can properly work on writing or projects, which tends to be after I've been up for 12 hours or so bwa

.search I kicked a hole in your fence

1. 1.
   
   I Kicked A Hole In Your Fence

   Grand Commander

   4:45
2. 2.
   
   ✦ || I KICKED A HOLE IN YOUR FENCE | original animation | loop || ✦

   Baxter.

   0:13
3. 3.
   
   i kicked a hole in your fence // meme// lazy

   Kas (moved)

   0:13
4. 4.
   
   INSTANT KARMA bear gets hit in the nuts for messing with my water tank

   1bigdust72

   1:01
5. 5.
   
   He wasnt supposed to say that 💀💥

   MrTalalaa

   0:10

1

id forgotten what I meant to post b4 u asked that, I remembered how I was doing archivism and went through a bunch of archived rentry pages

and

I found a load of interesting stuff one sec lagging

there we go, I closed like 10 windows making my Chromebook (w less than or 4 gigs of ram and like 16 gigs of ""ssd"" space) hang n opened another desktop instance, man I need to re install the Linux kernel on it

I love using this thing cus I can have a lightweight, mostly - more secure OS and device, and run stuff like the Linux version of okular and falcon browser etc, plus run full desktop Linux obsidian while having built in Android emu n such. .

ye

I don't like like ChromeOS but I don't wanna wipe this yet

when I do I'll probably install some version of archcraft

whaspeeps up to

>>611249
trying to gather brain energy to write down some ideas for my rpg campaign.
have a bunch of interesting ideas in my mind but i never wrote them down, until now.

nicu, also writing a bit n taking notes in notebook

trying to make a doc to share a piece w worms that I'll put together while others have access or can contribute to it conceptually or smth collaboratively ababa
but nicu :> I hope u can have some fun thinking em up, even if not got the motivation yet

bwaaa

but the rentrys I found included things like some persons heartfelt message to their friend/ex/partner about love and stuff

>>611257
u here ? I can link the code pad that's a simple bootstrap for the ours site ATM but I'll edit in a few, might have Convo w mom first x

aw

guh my foot hurts for some reason

aw

weed?

weba, one min

heya

-w-

silly

hehe

gonna link worms a pad of a manuscript I'm starting on stuffs n with concepts/history etc on some things

hru

this one is probably gonna be smth more worth reading n personal anyways pat

I hope chu can get whatchu need to done thoughts too n hope its coming together wells, excited to see n proud of peeps bwawa

nicu

I entered into a sort of compartmentalized part of self I haven't been in for a long while cus of the stuff that happened here earlier n writing a bit/working on piece that'll maybe be a shorter, hope to be concise, version of part of my memoir I wrote in a publishable form and one that people here I trust can read immediately as I'm editing it bwa

using cryptpad tho for reasons

is being made this way so that peeps can read as being updated, or I'll figure out how it'll work and

dw if unable thoughts pat

awe, n would be interested in peeps work generally as well, always bwa

I've written a good few but most of them are unpublished or they're on blogs under different names and stuffs

gon grab link n password cus its hm

yeah I will

trying to figure out the logistics of commenting/suggestions is all

hope chu can get the art u wan done n how u like it ababa

ye

making a collage/design doc for my character design for project/site n front facing stuff as well bwa

I might actually just make this in latex tbf
thatll let peeps comment/suggest easier over overleaf or smth

also reminds me I have a lot of unfinished/unedited but finished otherwise manuscripts in latex I should do stuffs w bwa

awww

:c
guh
sorry, thaspain, things can get ugh sometimes
though yeah, I hope you can talk about it at some point, but maybe he's just not in a good headspace right nows or stuff — it's rough though n a pain to get outta just asking that kinda thing, sigh

sometimes peeps can vent out that stuff badly, I hope they are open to admitting or opening up Abt it later if its driving or apart of a divide at all
take the care chu need n w them as well, but sucks, sad

yea I've had a lot of hormone change issues due to various things n it can get tough/rough on mental, (periods though are worse n I obviously cant speak on that, personally) but just hope chu can talk it over when they're out of that headspace/doing better n both have the support chu need

awe

yeah mine are weird bwa

ye is a mix of things but err, I haven't explained a lot of the stuff I did/do w mine which I hope this thingy I'm writing can do Ababa.. guh

tummy lil achey

nom

being weighed on by a lot of the conflict situations rn but having to compartmentalize though may write Abt various ones in this

< 3

n luv u peeps too bwa

yeah its a

dealt with in the past n just makes me shut down n shut up so I get it, sad

here for chu or peeps if wan talk Abt that stuff n cant elsewhere as well sad

yeah, its probably a thing where they're in a valid bad mental space but they took it out on you which isn't okej n all (even if it's "small")

tbh men should have to do the TENS cramp emulator for solidarity lelol

(cis men)

but experiencing all the hormone stuff causing cramps, both ways from starting monotherapy then losing access to it and cold turkey, is so guh

hehe

weef wruff

hehe

at some events there's orgs that setup a lay down bench and a tens machine calibrated to simulate them and

wait what's the episode, I'll link u its rly good (a short section of smth one sec)

https://www.thisamericanlife.org/840/how-are-you-not-seeing-this

check out the "There will be blood section"

I'm gonna relisten to it rn

hehe

I need to listen to some recent this American life episodes

this section is rly hehe

tbh

doing a radio show for my work would be a sorta dream way to earn some kinda money

>man guesses period cramps feel like "being really full"

awww

I'm writing a bit while listening to thing I linked

also, based enby running the stand n disabled from issues w this stuff

hehe

Twink so I started working on thingy but the LaTeX site (overleaf) needs either a Google account or to sign up w email if thasokej bwa
I might make a diff one for other peeps but this has suggestion features ababa

tuff cutie

had monster earlier

lmao relistening to this

hearing a girls husband being like

not believing or trusting or thinking he's being tricked then absolutely folding when his wife is like just not reacting lel

lil silly bits of justice in this one -u-

awe and he comes out believing her now -u-

awe