>>611257
u here ? I can link the code pad that's a simple bootstrap for the ours site ATM but I'll edit in a few, might have Convo w mom first x

aw

guh my foot hurts for some reason

aw

weed?

weba, one min

heya

-w-

silly

hehe

gonna link worms a pad of a manuscript I'm starting on stuffs n with concepts/history etc on some things

hru

this one is probably gonna be smth more worth reading n personal anyways pat

I hope chu can get whatchu need to done thoughts too n hope its coming together wells, excited to see n proud of peeps bwawa

nicu

I entered into a sort of compartmentalized part of self I haven't been in for a long while cus of the stuff that happened here earlier n writing a bit/working on piece that'll maybe be a shorter, hope to be concise, version of part of my memoir I wrote in a publishable form and one that people here I trust can read immediately as I'm editing it bwa

using cryptpad tho for reasons

is being made this way so that peeps can read as being updated, or I'll figure out how it'll work and

dw if unable thoughts pat

awe, n would be interested in peeps work generally as well, always bwa

I've written a good few but most of them are unpublished or they're on blogs under different names and stuffs

gon grab link n password cus its hm

yeah I will

trying to figure out the logistics of commenting/suggestions is all

hope chu can get the art u wan done n how u like it ababa

ye

making a collage/design doc for my character design for project/site n front facing stuff as well bwa

I might actually just make this in latex tbf
thatll let peeps comment/suggest easier over overleaf or smth

also reminds me I have a lot of unfinished/unedited but finished otherwise manuscripts in latex I should do stuffs w bwa

awww

:c
guh
sorry, thaspain, things can get ugh sometimes
though yeah, I hope you can talk about it at some point, but maybe he's just not in a good headspace right nows or stuff — it's rough though n a pain to get outta just asking that kinda thing, sigh

sometimes peeps can vent out that stuff badly, I hope they are open to admitting or opening up Abt it later if its driving or apart of a divide at all
take the care chu need n w them as well, but sucks, sad

yea I've had a lot of hormone change issues due to various things n it can get tough/rough on mental, (periods though are worse n I obviously cant speak on that, personally) but just hope chu can talk it over when they're out of that headspace/doing better n both have the support chu need

awe

yeah mine are weird bwa

ye is a mix of things but err, I haven't explained a lot of the stuff I did/do w mine which I hope this thingy I'm writing can do Ababa.. guh

tummy lil achey

nom

being weighed on by a lot of the conflict situations rn but having to compartmentalize though may write Abt various ones in this

< 3

n luv u peeps too bwa

yeah its a

dealt with in the past n just makes me shut down n shut up so I get it, sad

here for chu or peeps if wan talk Abt that stuff n cant elsewhere as well sad

yeah, its probably a thing where they're in a valid bad mental space but they took it out on you which isn't okej n all (even if it's "small")

tbh men should have to do the TENS cramp emulator for solidarity lelol

(cis men)

but experiencing all the hormone stuff causing cramps, both ways from starting monotherapy then losing access to it and cold turkey, is so guh

hehe

weef wruff

hehe

at some events there's orgs that setup a lay down bench and a tens machine calibrated to simulate them and

wait what's the episode, I'll link u its rly good (a short section of smth one sec)

https://www.thisamericanlife.org/840/how-are-you-not-seeing-this

check out the "There will be blood section"

I'm gonna relisten to it rn

hehe

I need to listen to some recent this American life episodes

this section is rly hehe

tbh

doing a radio show for my work would be a sorta dream way to earn some kinda money

>man guesses period cramps feel like "being really full"

awww

I'm writing a bit while listening to thing I linked

also, based enby running the stand n disabled from issues w this stuff

hehe

Twink so I started working on thingy but the LaTeX site (overleaf) needs either a Google account or to sign up w email if thasokej bwa
I might make a diff one for other peeps but this has suggestion features ababa

tuff cutie

had monster earlier

lmao relistening to this

hearing a girls husband being like

not believing or trusting or thinking he's being tricked then absolutely folding when his wife is like just not reacting lel

lil silly bits of justice in this one -u-

awe and he comes out believing her now -u-

awe

>goes from thinking his wife is whining about period cramps, five minutes later is wanting to, going forward, check on his wife if she was in the pain he had to feel in the 5 min from the machine

hehe

would

, ;)

also I put together the earliest vers of the doc bootstrap

hehe

I setup the doc but if I share via this platform, which lets suggestions an comments and chatting occur, it'll need u to sign in w email or a Google acc (its a professional academic writing platform, but just FYI)

if chu wan, can dm it on bsky n stuffs

omg I forgot about this section of this episode

listening to this American life EP I linked cus of talking Abt period cramps then this peeps work to make a TENS unit that accurately simulate their disability n pain they feel from them (and mens reaction who went n did it while their partner didn't react at all and they were yelping lel)

but

the next section is Abt a queer guy who has a condition that causes faces to morph into appearances that look evil or unhappy etc due to the brain not perceiving lighting on the face correctly and trying to compensate, failing to detect the emotions on peeps face

the amt of struggle this guy went through not knowing why his bfs were looking at him so darkly when happy together for years must've been rly tough sad

(this https://www.thisamericanlife.org/840/how-are-you-not-seeing-this)

it reminds me though of going through having all of my sensory/neuropsych issues and having no clue for most of my life that they weren't the normal experience, beyond knowing I was weird and different in some way with how I perceived/experienced things

>>611495
cud u dm me ur email here and I can send it through that, it lets me do it through the platform similarly to gdocs (though if otherwise works better, thasokej too, x)

lel

but u r a pretty girl..

I think so sad
but I get the strain of feeling of want to look more traditionally fem n all sigh

its not a foregon conclusion n smth u cant change thoughs, n know that chu can look more so in time if that's whatchu want

but do believe ur pretty n a real gurl no matter whatchu may feel about self internally

I gotta compile the pins I've saved of clothing etc I wan go for, n ways I wanna style various things, to send peeps a Pinterest board/+collage etc of 2 ababa

qt3.14

wan lay with worms on couch or in bed/on chair or stuffs n drink monster or stuffs while writing ababa

thunderstorm out

yeah, I mean like in a relationship where peeps should be able to understand n recognize what each other wan or need

but even if 'weird', they know n are close to/partners w chu by choice n yk

is just bleh

hope to be able to get into smth stable w peeps I can room w or a relationship at some point again, blegh

I can get the urge, but don't try to change yourself, more than you absolutely have to, for the sake of others just because you're perceived as different or weird n stuffs
n pat

I just have a bunch of hereditary stuff n stuff that was socialized into me or from trauma

heya

and

entertaining what ifs and trying to be neurotypical/suppress/change what you personally like is just a way to bottle up the pain n what you want, yourself
not a way to achieve happiness but just to be perceived as if you're a normal person, which isn't even a thing, & is something peeps shouldn't have to conform to
pursue what you wish to, find peeps who will stick by you for who you are n not reliant on you fitting some mold, its tough but there are a lot of peeps who would n are willing to accept chu for who you are

an nicu, hope u have a gud time out

heya

^3^

and nicu

no deth

could I play a pod EP that's smth like what I'm working on

bwawa,,

I noticed ur proofing

but I wasn't there for the 3 months :c

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awww

cuties...

and awe

happy to see

>>611620
hehe... ,///,

wish I could drive
excited to get the used electric bike tho if I can find one

need to sell some of my gear I've repaired to have more saved for such stuffs

I cant drive

don't want to b

I cant drive

tho maybe I move out to near straw :'3

or somewhere

I went to a uh

I went to a revolutionary war re-enactment and wrote about it for school

>>611654
inherited from radio and a style of mixing, plus the same microphones

that's not rly what this is about

and opsec only goes so far

but the cops tool has had that happen several times

.keep (thank you for expressing yourself)

they didn't even queue

you have no idea

dumdum

this is just the intro, not what it is

>>611698
this isn't what its about silly

they haven't yet

no, its not Abt that