I hadn't done anything other than taking my pills as told or less than needed

I don't have an issue w drugs or chemsex type stuff but using it as a way to get off bc of power imbalance is a different thing bc its just a means to an end of being controlling

oh god

I just remembered

so uh

in uhhh]

June of 2020 I finally decided to break up w her cus it was just not good

I tried to let her down easy cus shed be the type to say I'll kms if I ever lose you
and she sorta tried to guilt trip me as I said I think I need a break, even just for a week or a month
then she poofed after and the next day had changed her profile pic to being a happy split pic w some other person shed started dating in under 24 hrs

pat

awe

I was well

in 2020 I'd make jokes about how I had been living that life style everyone began experiencing since 2018

yea other than the situation I moved in w all that much but I believe it was the right call as I was able to get somewhere I felt much safer and escape where I was living that had made me unable to recover fully

and awe

how do u mean by last part, like going there for u or wh

would never have rly gotten that but err

wouldn't have met the peeps in that region if I stayed in school and came as a direct result of me leaving that I immediately moved in w them for a bit

but I would've gone back to live there w roomies sooner if I couldve

>>700934
its the nw a long the ocean in the US

yeah no this is a imposed thing by older generations but its a much higher rate now of people in their mind 20s still living with parents due to cost

yeah, no

that's a privileged person view but I get why they think that

wish we had universal basic income and housing

and created a system to get drugs legally and safely with support for addiction services

>>700946
its more pactical for most people at the moment of this age due to the economy and the housing market, but its also hard for queer people in particular to reliably be able to do in specific

though if you have any issues with family then you're thrown into figuring it out alone or finding a support system to help

and yeah its dependent on a lot of things

trans people in particular have such a high rate of homelessness due to often not being able to fall back on family due to being kicked out or such

abolish the nuclear family

I need to download the relationship anarchism manifesto

communities need to be there to support the kids in theirs and also a system to help kids whos family is yk, that isn't shit like the system we have now

>>700966
ikr

so I was thinking

maybe I could someday get a place from govdeals

I'll show some examples of places on govdeals in a while

I like this essay and the ideas
https://theanarchistlibrary.org/library/andie-nordgren-the-short-instructional-manifesto-for-relationship-anarchy.html

I can imagine that out there they are pricey

I need to grab the link for the libpol msg formatting for effects n stuff doc

its on my main PC that I've been putting off logging onto

sharing again cus I luv it and I will repost
https://theanarchistlibrary.org/library/andie-nordgren-the-short-instructional-manifesto-for-relationship-anarchy.html
teehee
:3

also is mainly for the concepts in it, even if you don't fully buy into a set of ideas, the lenses they provide can be of good use in building the right kind of view or a relationship - platonic or otherwise - that works best for you

>>700997
I would respond to this but I don't have the energy

going to put it into writing and not argue about this I believe there's something I can link

>>701008
this isn't what its meaning, I get the struggle of that kind of thing, but the point here is to be able to better do what you both like and not have complete control over the autonomy of the other person/people, as in you can do those things you mention while they can do what they want, too, and both have mutual respect for each others interests in doing these things

I just have to probably find smth I can show to give some of the things I would say, but I have stuff I need to work on writing and it would be a thing if I tried here, though

I have had many people I'm close to end up homeless and the ones you see who are violent on the street or so unwell that they act out are in the vast minority and the issue is that we have literally no system to get these people support beyond giving them like

as in

there is a shit load of homeless people who are living out of their car or are invisible to you

I don't mean it in the minimizing sense, just that while those people should be taken just as seriously as all the others, yk, its important to recognize that there's a lot more of them than just those - the ones that get the most attention in the media or are most clear out on the street

yea

pat

yea its hard cus most people will have a couple bad experiences and they stick out as the only thing in their mind

yeah

again

look at the amount of trans homeless people

ye

>>701036
ou
hope she's getting by, sigh

thasgud!

I dated a guy from the UK who became homeless but as of a year ago maybe he was okay and found a place

he, sadly, got jumped/stabbed in London though while living on the streets which was so horrible to hear about randomly, thankfully he was alright

new bill: replace all cars with hamster balls

this Amsterdam mention reminds me of

I gotta turn on my video player first before I try to find it

.search Patriot Amsterdam busking birds song clip

1. 1.
   
   Patriot Season 1 Birds of Amsterdam Song | Prime Video

   Prime Video

   2:19
2. 2.
   
   Birds of Amsterdam (a tutorial of the 1st song from Patriot)

   mattatatat

   6:22
3. 3.
   
   Patriot Season 1 Patriot Sings in Coffee House | Prime Video

   Prime Video

   1:33
4. 4.
   
   Three Little Birds in Amsterdam

   FOOTBALL CULTURE (PI ALFA)

   3:42
5. 5.
   
   Pigeon on the street, jamming and dancing along to busker playing Robin Thicke’s Blurred Lines

   Pigeon Radio Australia

   0:15

1

.skip (voted to skip this video)

(ex us spy now folk singer hiding in Amsterdam after trauma from ops and such made to do by his dad)

and heh

alt scene one is quite the description

lol

oh!

I gotta look for the chaos computer conference/media.ccc talk about the dutch feds infiltration of left wing groups and the peep who did election research being targeted for u
talk by the guy I mean, that I mentioned b4

::hug
>>701080
#throw

.play [YouTube]

:v

reminds me I need to see if We are the Cavalry still is out there doing stuff

also wasn't sure if this was frank that's real cuul ;v

lole

hehe

:V

waow
bazed but also hope ur cool now n things chilled

but gah

yea

I get the feeling I've had similar happen to me due to my uh

I'll describe the crews I interacted w in ele dm or smth, nothing super bad just smth I presume lead to x y or z since telegram got fed'd even more than before

gah I need to find the full name of the anarchist journo rosa who kicked a cop in the UK and had abuses taken against her

she was rly sweet and I think we even had conversations about sunny and getting it dealt w

>>701122
dmed u some context on a thingy

was smth that I find cool I got to be there for, but its sad cus they got so much attention they had to go dark entirely

also bazed actions from him here hehe

standing in front of police car teehee

if I begin working I'd sub to u n roses Patreon if even had

or ko-fi

yus

<3

getting u enough to make a chair out of the 12 pack boxes in ur squat

<the throne

ouu

lol

they probably wont check on you like that

hehe

I do that in my head mostly

I've seriously questioned if I have like a

personality thing cus I concepualize them as myself but different names from different periods of my life

mmmm hope u can rest up :>

nini!!! nice to talk today, be safe eep well n sweet dreams :3

>>701161
awe

yeh

I do that silently cus I overthink everything

brb baffroom

>>701176
:0
do they at all support p2p anymore?

one sec I'm lagginshot shit

lagging to shit

I haven't looked into it a ton beyond all the mentions of it and seeing it on proton, do you need a separate client for wire guard itself that isn't the mullvad one ?
ik I need to read up on it more but I just have read about it peripherally while researching VPNs tor etc

>>701205
I torren books releasedonly through torrents thanks

>>701208
as in books released FOR FREE, only on torrents

>>701211
also same

but I haven't gotten to lately or as much cus I don't have a p2p allowed VPN script I

appreciate and

so

does this need smth other than mullvad client like is there a specific wireguard thingy?

the one u just linked ?

ye

ohhh oki <3

x

I always wanted to get further into p2p filesharing but I just never like
I needed to get a VPN that was chill for it but I just couldn't justify to myself to do it beyond if I got a free script yk (when I earned a max of 20-40 USD a month)

I'll check DMS on there in a sec

>>701236
*frotting

silly moding

:V

u also gotta spin in the chair for the bit

D;

yes

I meant that

>~<

that's me with one foot on the chair under me
<inb4
<NOOOO DONT FALL
<crack

u 2 c:
<3

oh wait

laen

oh I'll dm u on ele

actually

something uh

I'ma take sum krat first n some stims I think I need to reduce my level of like

yeye

oop

#ksay boogwer

>>701280
#hug

despite my protest they put me on prednisone

OMG dakota

i'm in a dark place it makes me psychotic

I'm glad to hear from u but is there any specific reason u didn't think u could go on Prednisone? and I'm sorry to hear :c

i took it b4 and crashed out so bad i almost got fired and arrested

awwww

u probably need it rn but have people around or available, if possible, in case u need care or support through this on meds

next time i get sick i'm not going back i refuse to seek help

:<<

reeee

u deserve help n everything but I get the weight of it

no i deserve to rot

no

u do not

u deserve love and care

i am currently full of hate, unable to sleep and all of my joints hurt

would give and care for u if I was there

I get it but that's not you any more than this hurt is u beyond what its making u feel

literally the only reason i took the fucking pills is so i wouldn't get the infection shit in my breasts

:<<

well, as much as that might feel like
just, I'm glad you had a thing that had u feel u should, even if its just that