>>713312
HhhHHh I meant that innocently srs
but like making a robot body out of parts so u can embody and be outside of the wired if u wanted, laen

>>713317
<3

>>713322
<3

>>713325
this

aw, yeah

its tough

I wish we had like support teams that were made up of mental health and EMT type peeps to respond instead of cops, y'know

some places in US have begun doing such but its few and far between ; -;

also I find it bwa that when like
(not saying that u were meaning it laen)
I say smth I mean innocently or platonically and peeps read it as me being lewd or hitting on them when they're like clearly taken n I don't mean it that way ;w;

>>713341
#hug

>>713343
ye hehe, ik

I caught on after 2nd msg

:<<

I have to do my yearly in person psych med nurse practitioner appt tomorrow, I'm rly stressed

>>713356
#hug
I've been there, I hope you're managing now, better, and the support from wife or peeps ur around can help, too

yeah

I might share story like that in DMs or lil essay sometime but that period of my life was bad

>>713367
#hug

>>713358
awwww, be safe!!

yeah

awww :< that's rough, I know its bad out there w it

yeah

I had a

bad coping method using DXM

>>713383
yeah, pharmacologically I find it really interesting

>>713389
is just cus dissociative

thankfully I didn't have access to k

>>713392
yeah, I try not to apply it to them tho

but I do, like internally

>>713392

is bwa

I still use a lot of kratom to stop myself from using other drugs at all but is tough

aw

>>713408
I can agree on the benzo part, mainly
but my ADHD makes me generally need stims - tho more than script stims I do not go near that stuff and its awful

>>713414
yea

>>713419
hehe

I used to use those both and write for like 12 hrs

>>713422

>>713424
#hug

>>713427

>>713369
icic, that's aaa

>>713438

>>713445
I could go on about this, maybe will have dm convos later about as can be interesting, tho I try not to apply it to people like in a prejudiced way yk

>>713449

>>713465
it is

>>713468

>>713473
icic

I need to talk to my family about what my grandparents and before that were doing for work, my one grandpa was a dump truck driver and such

>>713468

>>713481
yeah I have met a lot of ppl like this even just being sorta parallel to these communities, often times ex users who become straightedge punks or such

here theres a lot of '''cali sober''' types, who will do shrooms, weed, and some will drink, and its kinda strange but I get the sorta energy beyond calling it 'sober'

mhm

it can be a lot more fun at times

yeah

here, a lot of them smoke weed or such and mainly that

yea

I wanted to comment on how the admin here back in 2016 and now has created a lot of ppl in that space who fall into spirals of heavy use due to all of it, its rly tough and sigh

I get the struggle tho w their lives being how they are and things feeling to be falling around them

>>713506
ouuuu

:D

>>713512
lol
if not joke I mean troomp

>>713511
yeah, this is kind of my position as someone who has to take stuff to manage mine

okej! I'll try to, am attempting to get over the anxiety and check messages cus

well

I got introduced to someone on there who I'd not met, and is from a scene I was in yrs ago, and is like aaaa

nervous is all

but also wanna check even if just gonna respond to worms x

take care tho :V would be happy to watch that movie Spree when both free agains

gn anon!

:D

y'know

I started writing a sorta gonzo piece about the drug scenes on VRC and discord years back but never finished it, I should do that in time
had a lot of stories

from talking to heavy users/addicts and doing harm reduction trip sit type stuff in both communities

luv u. . .

awwwe

>>713549
if peeps actually flirted w would be interested to hear once done eating n bacc hehe

ehe

:>

yeh

I feel like in person I've often been too dense to pick up on it till later on

I think I got hit on by a guy at Porter Robinson nurture show that was commenting on n talking to me while I was wearing a skirt and had hair pins in

>>713565
yea

heh

>>713573
lmao

>>713575
god
you might have a field day with the relationship I was in that I moved cross country for lole

sometime I'll tell lel

I was 18

respectable

these people gave me e

then well took it away

its a whole thing, even just from the first part of that piece I can picture its one of those

also stole like 1/2 my clothes ffs (dodges sending them back for 4 yrs smfh)
take care of urselves and don't put urself in situations like that when that young peeps

yeah I, like

yea I could've entered quite a few relationships w ones if I decided to but yea no

>>713592
;u;

>>713594
yeah
its a whole thing but I'll tell in DMs a bit of it maybe, they were errr

man

I became their defacto maid as they lived like neets as they had dev startup money

>>713605
:D

legit the one who made music and didn't work would have me like

she would sit at desk and have me grabbing her drinks and everything and mixing her kratom etc etc
haha

it was a tiny 2 bedroom apartment

they had a giant bed in one of them tho lel

yea

if I like srsly trust a group of like two people and I or smth I'm fine w that but generally I avoid going into things
though if its a thing where I'm close w ppl I'm living w and its not super attached in a relationship way, that can be alright

depends a looot

the main thing I'm thankful they did for me was that my trauma related health thing affected y ability to err walk and stuff (long story, obscure condition) and they helped me recover, but that's about it

>>713623
, ;v

I've only dated a cis afab person once err like

pre me not repressing
she was religious and told me that she was against trans stuff for that reason so I just kinda y'know

awe

I wish I could've had that experience rly

>>713640
hehe

>>713642
, ;;;
gah
need to clean u n protect

nuh

>>713651
oh no

lole
understandable

:3

lonely times

mhm

<3

omw to u

I just err
kinda stopped getting close to ppl like that after years of situations that hurt or worse
n so just kinda cut self off

>>713675
mhm

yay

I'd lend u one of mine to use n make it reliable for u if u wanted laptop

yeah

or I'd get u a

heh I just had several ideas for getting u internet