you have to talk about it a long with recognizing the patterns of thought you have, talking to people where everyone else is saying smth you believe about yourself isn't true and trying to work on it is important; I cant fully describe this rn cus I'm like

body is shaking and its making me emotional cus I feel helpless to do anything

yeh

I drink too much water

>>730735
isoke, I know you don't mean to/cant help it in this moment but u deserve to be able to talk to the peeps you have and get the support to work through this, maybe talk to ur friend when ur both off/able and try to see what they say or if they're willing to mutually work through talking about those kinda things

>>730741
::meow

might shower in a bit I'm gah

>>730735
also ur the one who deserves hugs

I really wish I had beta blockers err

my moms metoprolol I think has some ingredient I'm allergic to in it but I might have to test again n see if its actually that

>>730749
hehe

aww

I woke up at 6 am or smth cus I slept for most of the hours yday

but I hope u got some rest

I finally opened element but I haven't looked at my full list of dms, as I found a way to open a single dm bwa

aw

aw

lemme

>>730773
dmed u it on here

rip

u gotta save it to like a

pass manager or stuff

-w-

am just saying smh

idc what peeps choose

>>730788
there shouldn't be, if its like
you gotta select the envs bit but I should be able to see them if you had ;<

might shower in a couple

yeah

>>730793
you need to choose the I forget the word, its the domain ur acc is registered w, then type envs.net in there

or just go to element.envs.net and sign in there

ur very :3

not dummy

but pat

ur ;3

mew

licking u

:333

teehee

gah its so hot

mhm same

I'm just like

my hair is a lil oily from eeping so much yday in the heat

not bad, and its put up rn, but still bwa

mmmm

ou

hehe
qt

yeh

I'm trying to, but also get the push to check all the stuff I need

wait

u there one sec

rip

oki one sec

gon try and shower now

omg heya straw

just showered

>>730852
glegle's last tour

yeh

listened to it when it got posted

I like the aggressive stuffs more but is oki

hehe

>>730867
I wish I could better experience/express anger

silly

>>730873
gon carry u to the hospital ;c

ily peeps,,,

need to live w a peep again who gives me the motivation to clean their/our place for

bwa

would make self get things done for u

I should send the pics of the place I was living in SeaTac that I would just be the sole one cleaning cus

to a fault I do things like that for ppl I care about even if its not a good situation n bwa

<3

nicu

I don't, too much, enjoy listening in my day to day to metal or stuffs but I do enjoy shows for most genres

it was interesting hearing about how mosh pits have kinda changed w how teens/young adults who use TikTok n such have a different perception of them and almost do it like a choreographed thing instead of chaos

weba

I showered 2

did u see my msg on here

yeh

hehe

I'm listening to smth for like

keeping up on stuff so cant play rn

wanna listen to music next to worms though

awe

u could maybe do the latter then fall back on the other one if its slow

okiiii

lucky

nawu but mhm

>>730929
did u happen to watch the thing about Daryl Gates and DARE? just curious

talking to my mom, who lived in LA/Cali through Daryl Gates (practically) reign and her stories and having experienced it was interesting

#ai explain the spying done by arms of the police done by Daryl gates and the PDID and related arms

daryl gates, former lapd chief, was notorious for the pdid (public disorder intelligence division), a secret unit that spied on activists, politicians, and even celebrities. they infiltrated groups like black panthers, anti-war orgs, and labor movements. pdid kept dossiers on thousands with zero accountability. other units like the metro squad operated similarly, often harassing and intimidating targets. it was blatant political repression disguised as "intelligence." records were rarely purged, making it ripe for abuse. same playbook different decade. typical law enforcement overreach with zero consequences.

nice try fed. explain the spying done by arms of the police done by Daryl gates and the PDID and related arms

they had international spies even

y'know what I'll play it here for a bit

.search chuppl DARE

1. 1.
   
   D.A.R.E. | The REAL Reason Cops Taught You About Drugs

   CHUPPL

   40:04
2. 2.
   
   Anonymous Letters Appearing Across America | We Investigated

   CHUPPL

   23:03
3. 3.
   
   How Bread Tabs Changed The World

   CHUPPL

   23:19
4. 4.
   
   The End of the Glitter Conspiracy

   CHUPPL

   27:07
5. 5.
   
   How to Beat THE CAPTOR in THE DARE

   Nerd Explains

   24:58

1

teehee

droogs
we had DARE in my tiny town in NH

this is that vid if have on

very good

making stuff like CHUPPL is kinda one of my main goals when I have the push, I've written a few scripts for vids like these a year or two ago

I feel that

its gross outside

awa

cutie

:3

mhm

daryl gates is mental

video

.seek 5:00

the intro was kinda a thing u didnt have to see but this is where it fully begins

yes

that's what this is sort of about

they mentioned before u were watching how studies had shown it increased kids using/trying drugs

would try things w u but also make sure ur not doing things thatre gonna hurt u or make things rougher for self

I don't think u should do weed specifically due to your hallucinations related stuff

like

it can be smth you try socially but it is not good for those

can trigger them

>>730990
yeah, just be safe and I don't recommend using it w u for that reason

it can trigger them

petpet

qt

>>730996
u can bruise me tho platonically

:'3

>has not talked to a scientist
>is in 50% + of schools

oh this is crazy

qt

but man

being in this situation as a high school photographer

capturing the assassination of a senator, then the police burning them

it gets so much worse

this part is what I was referencing

even my mom knew how insane this guy was

>created the swat team

>raids the black panthers

>he had officers undercover all over the world

heya labby

yeah I could go into it

I'll dm u about it later if I can straw

huggu

>>731028
yeh, be safe

>>731029
I get that
but Theres stuff that's safer and will give similar feels

hug

and the caffeine is not helping

u need to get <300 mg a day

thasgud

<3

am glad

>>731045
hehe

lel

neolib

>western goals foundation

>following random journalists home with helicopters
smfh

yeah and small planes w cell tower emulators in them

recommend the short new saveitforparts vids on him monitoring what spy planes are in his neighborhood

>>731070
yeh

>>731071
#kiss

.seek 22:00

power ranger: JUST SAY NO

nuuu

lel

my brain practically knew what u were gonna say there

>>731086
yeh I get this

:>

and sigh

yay

aw

c:

hope u can make whatchu like n have enough food now

I also get that but pls feed self

used to do like

I'd not eat for a day or so when working on horribly stressful stuff

grooming kids to snitch on their parents is the worst

just gah

watching this w my mom recently, had convo about how one side of my family had lost a ton of money in a vitamin MLM

sucks

multi level marketing

bwa

hHHH

don't fed post

geez pls

>>731116
#blur

but then I wont be able to get to u easily

I'll be the shork there