but it got so heavy I stopped cus of the stuff you see, take care of selves worms

mhmmhm

but also hope u can work out the path for that, I wanna figure out work over there or doing studies there for the sake of getting out and costs

i remember a 19 yr old girl i met on 4chan when i was 16 who would send me mass shooting videos and encouraged me to transition

gah yeah

and

i hope shes alive

>>732962
:D

>>732962
!!!!!!!!!

ive been participating in the local food not bombs more recently

I could put together a list of specific things to add to peeps' msgs like that related to issues we deal with that maybe less known like the trans medical care w medicare ban being fought against thanks to it

ive just been doing diy and relying on some old spiro stockpile i ahve

yeh

awe

I have like tens of bottles of various meds

but

i have been bad about my meds in general lately which is probbaly contributing to the fog ive been in for weeks

yeh

I'm err

going to be trying to push myself to restart e ASAP since I got it but I've been real dead mentally

>>732977
its maybe helped but i dont know what my estrodial is doing vs spiro

hard to separate them for some people

espec if started at the same time

im sure its done some and i dont wanna risk getting odd

off

since i cant afford to see a real doctor or get bloodwork

im just kinda like trusting that ill feel if my body starts to overcomp with testosterone

hug

chu doing injections right ?

yeah

.2~ weekly and 100mg spiro daily

which i know is nothing

gah

i dont wanna risk anything though

you can be fine if ur e is at the right dose

w/o spiro, and if you create a way to make you do ur shots regularly

50mg/ml

and i usually overcompensate and its more like .25-.3

yeah u

shouldn't also add Spiro to that imo

yeah

EE actually sry

yeh

maybe but ive been on hrt for over a year and EE for months and nothings happened but tits

iit is

it*

and I don't think adding extra stuff is rly gonna help if anything its gonna make you have instability mood or stuff wise that doesn't help

<3

>>733018
the new in range video about the keltec is cool

>>733018
ur so cool/gen

like the gun in it

>>733021
so r u

>>733024
heh just look up inranges channel

>>733025
oh you

i know i should get off spiro

good 2 know

laens going through that rn I do not recommend

slowly

ive been trying to ween off ssris recently too and its been like silent hill

mhm

I'm supposed to be on one but I don't take cus ik I don't need the dullening but

I'm sorry thats real rough, been there

reach out to peeps to have the company or support when u need, cus it can get rough

ive gotten some good irls in the past few months

take care of self

>>733040
i will

<3

got fired like two weeks ago but I have some work lined up

>>733042
heh
I like the energy

>>733046
i have 50mg pills so i can split it

ill work out a weening schedule soon when I have the energy to research

:D

>>733042
i wish

using a typewriter to get them to think you're a boomer and they actually take you seriously

>>733053
thatd be good for me, im happy its working out so far for you

mhm

I get that

>>733056
interesting

ive been on spiro since december i think

my brain is certainly a different balance of chemicals atp

awe x

ye

im gonna make some pork belly because im horribly depressed do you want any saeki?

okiii

xo

the better my cooking gets more people should be concerned

might make noms

making a chicken teriyaki noodle dish

I try to make stuff for self tho when I can

also could be worse

aaa

pls

wan have more fish again in time n make rice noodles w stuff

>>733083
mmmm

:3

ye

hehe

yeh

ik

mmm

yeah

I'd help u c:

weba luca

lol

lol

had meal

hope u did whatchu needed to

:D

happy ur getting the push to get the momentum to start doing these things

oh do u live in a shared like kitchen unit

hehe

ou

got some iced tea

living w one to two other roommates depending on size of the place, again, would be cozy

would, also have made my closet floor a place to keep before, being like the size of a sorta twin mattress

but would

teehee

I like making a small space into smth I can use functionally, like the idea of living in a small storage unit has always been appealing to me even if not smth I could probably manage, personally

yeh

if I could do it w like another worm or peep in one nearby then that'd be chill

imagining having like 3 units w one where u can chill n has couch n tv n stuff, having some nice like monitor headphones w 3 audio outs to listen n watch stuff together so speakers don't get caught

:D

qt

:0

nicu
having good time/chat ? similar to chu at all ?

heh

when I'd drink n it wasn't cheap wine cus money/access
I'd usually get soju or twisted tea

omg

so

I took a step and opened the like

Walgreens bag that my mom picked up syringes w them in and

I hadn't known but they're like the length or more that I prefer, and not the short prick size smol insulin needles

they're 1" which is a bit much but preferable for me

and there's a lot of them n they're all individually wrapped unlike the insulin syringe bags

god I just unearthed a memory of this thing someone I knew had been saying to me last yr
might dm u about later gah that's wack and I'm kinda glad I don't talk to them anymore now tbh

making that collaborative playlist that worms can add their fav vid essays or analysis or such to

yummu food

:D

yumyumyum

what'd u make

just heat up some pork belly w/ sazon and chili flakes and other seasonings

fried that and put some in a quesadilla

:з

>>733176
i miss mitzi(?)

forgot her name

latina user months ago

she was nice, hope she alive

, ;v d'awww

ik a few who were here

>>733143
i liked that movie :0

>>733184
hehe, ye, told laen about part of the chan stuff (barely, didn't wanna spoil much) in it and were gonna watch

super campy and silly but love the concept

yee

I think they were probs having a lot of fun

mhm

i like that actor too

ye hehe

wasn't he like

rodrick in one of the

nooo hes stranger things boy

yeah ik that but

hmm

ur thinking of devin bosco i think

different dark haired tall tired looking white boys with sharp features

ah yeah one of those actors look very close in my memory cus I am not good w faces

i drew a silly little cat in like five minutes wanna see

:D

ye

I wanna draw again n find peeps to help w commission for my profile art

and d'awww
cute!!

::grub pixel

hmm

::grub gif

:'(

but luv it

hehe

I took my vial case and syringes out to put pressure on self

yay!

take ur shot

it'll help but dreading as

itll be okay!!! ill make u some treats

err

due to circumstances of like
controlling father and in control of my savings I lost access to e after 2.5 yrs on for 1.5 yrs

:[[

finally got my own money together and, thanks to temmie worm, got order made a while ago

just dreading the emotional fluctuations cus of being lonely idk - w-
appreciate worms

wooof

sorry thats rough

i mean

1.5 yr

is this ur first shot back on it

since then

yeag

hence dread

sorry i dont know how to read

wish i could do ur shot for you :(((

im happy you have some now, itll feel great when you do it :3

yeh
is just a errr

my mental stuff makes it hard to force myself to do the things I need to, in my current circumstances, while I just feel I'm trying to scrape by, surviving

appreciate u n peeps lots bwa

hi!!

woooof getting sleepy after eating

i thought food was suppoised to give you energy

i just cooked some pork belly chunks and then made a quesadilla with em

awroooo

I'm a lil full feel tired but not rly

>>733250
i wouldve shared if you wanted some

>>733248
do you have other stuff for the shot? alcohol pads n bandaid

>>733252
d'awww
<3

I have stuff I can use to rub alc n stuffs or I have like hand sanitizer w high alc n nothing else n then also iso
and subq

subq or intramuscular?

have the stuffs

mhm mhm

put it out on table in front of me so its in my physical space
I tend to err

just an easy tummy shot

good!

I have three corkboards in here covered in notes of projects n things I should do

wow you have adhd? i never wouldve guessed

it be

audhd is common among trannies blehhh

yeh

if you take the shot ill think ur really cool

is there a bunny one

I pet kitty a couple times whos eeping on couch and

>>733276
what did you eat

loser !!1!!

::bunn

she always tries to grab my arm when I go to pull away and then sometimes scratches me and I get an allergic reaction teehee

>>733285
oh this is cute

>>733294
are you british

>>733285
daww

>>733301
what could be worse

i actually cant think of a worse

actually

french would be worse

you should meet some of the eurofreaks on here

theres a dutch girl who hates people from holland

hehe

labby is precious

ur all sweet

me

>>733314
she is, i like her

dont tell her i said that

hehe

ur gonna get tossed

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

i just use shapewear

meanwhile I'm gonna get spun by laen

that compresses the chest

its too hot for hoodies

honestly im such a hon that i can wear a sports bra and a tanktop and still look like a guy

I look like the nightstalker

just got reminded of the time this

god

so this really naive but like generally sweet guy who was errr

just pretty unaware but not Ill intentioned usually

he was a mutual friend of me n the girl who groomed me n our friends (but unrelated) and we'd vc often in this tiny server
and I knew him for years and a while into that, a couple yrs, we were on call and