heh

when I'd drink n it wasn't cheap wine cus money/access
I'd usually get soju or twisted tea

omg

so

I took a step and opened the like

Walgreens bag that my mom picked up syringes w them in and

I hadn't known but they're like the length or more that I prefer, and not the short prick size smol insulin needles

they're 1" which is a bit much but preferable for me

and there's a lot of them n they're all individually wrapped unlike the insulin syringe bags

god I just unearthed a memory of this thing someone I knew had been saying to me last yr
might dm u about later gah that's wack and I'm kinda glad I don't talk to them anymore now tbh

making that collaborative playlist that worms can add their fav vid essays or analysis or such to

yummu food

:D

yumyumyum

what'd u make

just heat up some pork belly w/ sazon and chili flakes and other seasonings

fried that and put some in a quesadilla

:з

>>733176
i miss mitzi(?)

forgot her name

latina user months ago

she was nice, hope she alive

, ;v d'awww

ik a few who were here

>>733143
i liked that movie :0

>>733184
hehe, ye, told laen about part of the chan stuff (barely, didn't wanna spoil much) in it and were gonna watch

super campy and silly but love the concept

yee

I think they were probs having a lot of fun

mhm

i like that actor too

ye hehe

wasn't he like

rodrick in one of the

nooo hes stranger things boy

yeah ik that but

hmm

ur thinking of devin bosco i think

different dark haired tall tired looking white boys with sharp features

ah yeah one of those actors look very close in my memory cus I am not good w faces

i drew a silly little cat in like five minutes wanna see

:D

ye

I wanna draw again n find peeps to help w commission for my profile art

and d'awww
cute!!

::grub pixel

hmm

::grub gif

:'(

but luv it

hehe

I took my vial case and syringes out to put pressure on self

yay!

take ur shot

it'll help but dreading as

itll be okay!!! ill make u some treats

err

due to circumstances of like
controlling father and in control of my savings I lost access to e after 2.5 yrs on for 1.5 yrs

:[[

finally got my own money together and, thanks to temmie worm, got order made a while ago

just dreading the emotional fluctuations cus of being lonely idk - w-
appreciate worms

wooof

sorry thats rough

i mean

1.5 yr

is this ur first shot back on it

since then

yeag

hence dread

sorry i dont know how to read

wish i could do ur shot for you :(((

im happy you have some now, itll feel great when you do it :3

yeh
is just a errr

my mental stuff makes it hard to force myself to do the things I need to, in my current circumstances, while I just feel I'm trying to scrape by, surviving

appreciate u n peeps lots bwa

hi!!

woooof getting sleepy after eating

i thought food was suppoised to give you energy

i just cooked some pork belly chunks and then made a quesadilla with em

awroooo

I'm a lil full feel tired but not rly

>>733250
i wouldve shared if you wanted some

>>733248
do you have other stuff for the shot? alcohol pads n bandaid

>>733252
d'awww
<3

I have stuff I can use to rub alc n stuffs or I have like hand sanitizer w high alc n nothing else n then also iso
and subq

subq or intramuscular?

have the stuffs

mhm mhm

put it out on table in front of me so its in my physical space
I tend to err

just an easy tummy shot

good!

I have three corkboards in here covered in notes of projects n things I should do

wow you have adhd? i never wouldve guessed

it be

audhd is common among trannies blehhh

yeh

if you take the shot ill think ur really cool

is there a bunny one

I pet kitty a couple times whos eeping on couch and

>>733276
what did you eat

loser !!1!!

::bunn

she always tries to grab my arm when I go to pull away and then sometimes scratches me and I get an allergic reaction teehee

>>733285
oh this is cute

>>733294
are you british

>>733285
daww

>>733301
what could be worse

i actually cant think of a worse

actually

french would be worse

you should meet some of the eurofreaks on here

theres a dutch girl who hates people from holland

hehe

labby is precious

ur all sweet

me

>>733314
she is, i like her

dont tell her i said that

hehe

ur gonna get tossed

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

i just use shapewear

meanwhile I'm gonna get spun by laen

that compresses the chest

its too hot for hoodies

honestly im such a hon that i can wear a sports bra and a tanktop and still look like a guy

I look like the nightstalker

just got reminded of the time this

god

so this really naive but like generally sweet guy who was errr

just pretty unaware but not Ill intentioned usually

he was a mutual friend of me n the girl who groomed me n our friends (but unrelated) and we'd vc often in this tiny server
and I knew him for years and a while into that, a couple yrs, we were on call and

trans topics came up and he apparently had not realized or thought I was trans and thought I was just a cis woman w a like

>>733341
oh no!! if only i had known

bwa voice

I hope he's doing okay

I remember on vc one time I was at my like Witt's end with the person grooming me and I

was in call w those two

and she says stuff about being like platinum 2 or 3 in r6 siege (to him, who had reached high ranks in game) which is the 2nd highest rank bracket at that time

and she had actually only been in the lowest or second lowest bracket, ever
and I just called her out in front of him and was like wtf

I usually don't get like that but blatantly lying in front of another fren to come off as better at a game is like tf

yeah

there's a million things like this she would do

by the end she was saying she had DID and presenting in a way that was like a lot of fictional characters and I was like ehhhh yeah I'm not even gonna

teehee

I may have something akin to that, not that sort of extreme presentation that's not usually how it is as its typically something you wont notice

but yeah it was like
I know peeps who deal w this and I'm not gonna go at you for it but its rly weird behavior, like saying she had a new disorder every month

teehee

thankfully by the end and such I wasn't putting up w that stuff

i miss playing gmod

aw

real!!

good gle pull for that too

hehe

>>733387
lol!!!

id be so down to do that, ill redownload gmod tonight and eventually we can do it

awe

lole

the amount of weird stuff like this would come up around was gah

omg I should send u the cringe reddit account of hers I found from the past 2 yrs

yeah

like

she was super sensitive and would act all self hating and everything was her fault she deserves x y z if you pushed back on anything and yet claimed to have been a 4ch janny at 13

eventually it came to that so I could get her to admit to things while I recorded it hehe

otherwise I usually wouldn't have gone that hard

but yeah don't let people like that into your life or mental space cus it'll just be like guh

yeah

I can enjoy stuff off Tumblr that's like well written essay stuff but otherwise IDC for it

they were more like a redditor though
tbh

lemme see if I can find the screen cap w the username

yeah

this was how they were

like if I was in a different discord server where I posted regularly and they heard about it they'd get all sad and push me to invite them
which eventually lead to their demise actually, as they joined my server I co owned that was big and confessed to a 14~ yo girl who was functionally homeless n me n my mom were helping afford food
did not go over well after that as soon as it got back to me and it triggered all the decisions to act immediately yk

those people get so drainin

::kill

lel

yeh

I have so many anecdotes about diff people like this though le

lel

aw

c:

I just got reminded of a kid from my school who would like

oh my god

well this isn't why I remembered him but one thing he did was

he was like non white n adopted by a rich family who were two gay men parents
and he started being super weird repper behavior

he also beat me up/hit me rly hard w having been like
black belt or smth I forget specifically anyways

we had the same auto passwords on our canvas school accounts for schoolwork

omg heya

and he logged into me and my 3 friends who were the ones who got bullied most and called gay etc
and he went into the chat rooms no one used on canvas, went to the gym class chat (having the most students able to see) and using our accounts

messaged from each of us pretending we were talking about having a crush on a guy who was his best friend

then we all got pulled out of class and the vice principal was like
'we know what you did'
like weird sorta looking down on being gay energy
and then

we are all so confused and like wtf are you talking about, not telling us wtf is happening

eventually they're like fine but we're watching you type thing
and they finally check the logins, which they should've done first w how it happened, and it was all his Chromebook at 3 am sending messages

tries to frame us as gay to the whole school and act like we have crushes on his friend
has gay parents
eventually comes out as bi

and the thing I remembered him for was the time his parents shipped him to some Florida horse riding school and he began asking me, someone w terrible financial stability etc, to send him shoes I don't need

like his parents had a gigantic house and had added a whole addition to be able to have catering services cook in a side kitchen
its probably one of if not the biggest in the neighborhood

so strange

he eventually apologized and we talked about it maybe 6+ yrs after

lel

he was a sporty cool clique kid I didn't want anything to do w as they were the ones that bullied and called us gay anyways

he was

if he wasn't a rich kid he'd have been an oke cute twink type person

oh yeah he was also like 5'6

lel

idk what he's up to now I'd have to find his ig

he was the kind to post a lot of stories and pics of himself to ig

one of the other friends who was involved w their acc taken for it too also came out to a few of us as enby fem ish a year or so ago

also studying compsci many such a cases
awww

>>733494
#kiss

>>733493
awww
like wanting to take pics or wha

I used to get like that

have thousands of pics I'd take just to document self

isoki just don't push self to send them yk

i got like that when errr

stable n early ish on e

>>733506
this though

I'm not gonna say how many I have

i would just dissociate and do it

>>733509
#hug

qt

yeh

i stopped because of that, I used to have some acceptance of how I looked and was oki taking stuff but its gotten hard

taking even selfies feels impossible now cus I feel like just

I've failed and cant get looking how I'm comfy w even if I accept how I look

on?

here or 4ch

a lot has quieted down here since the 4ch users dipped back to their even more self hating hell hole

i need to create ways to get this site out there

maybe I pull a durarara and send it to the users of the dollars and make a dollars board

actually

that's not the worst idea
I'd need to make a CSS theme to match the dollars bbs or drrr chats

>>733541
#hug

maybe stick around here and don't go to spots that might be worse for self

so u can be happy

nah

if only

only saying for ur sake

those places just lead to self harm either physical or psychological

nyooo

waow