im personally more of a new order guy. its the same band but without the singer who hung himself. really sad story, i recommend watching the biopic on it if you're interested. new order does a lot of similar songs but then segues into dance rock/new wave/acid house throughout their very long career

>>761099
no problem lil buddy

if you want to see the place these people came from just type "salford 1980s" into google images or just look at the place today

i lived in salford for about a year

place is like partly ruins. i used to just chill in these half demolished halls talking to birds and cats

kind of quiet and mysterious tho theres a lot of organised crime there. phone shops and gypsy/scouse type shit going on

[Wikipedia] film about ian curtis, singer of joy division
[Wikipedia] extremely funny film about the wider manchester music scene, joy division and new order feature heavily in it

i learned about katrina through watching the movie bad lieutenant: port of call new orleans as a kid

my mum paused the film to give a rather embellished account of it

went on this odd rant about america in the middle of the whole thing so i just wikipediaed it later

fucking horrible

>>761120
cant even imagine being there and seeing that

wow

>>761128
maybe this is odd to say but thinking about things like that now makes me wish to live in or form some more cohesive society which will be able to deal with horrible things like that better

like would i rather deal with a katrina/etc type scenario in the states where everyone seems to hate eachother or a place like denmark

jesus

i should calm myself and not think about the possibility of events like this happening within my lifetime

2000 dead

i never knew it was that high

apparently they fibbed about how many people died in grenfell (tower block flame that happened here, knew people who had relatives and friends in there)

i suppose its healthy to acknowledge to yourself that yes these bad things are going to happen again in our lifetimes but communities have been proven over and over again to band together and look after eachother

>>761151
im enjoying it

.play [YouTube]

i am still awake

i might go into town

thinking of doing a blood pact with my friend

my previous blood pact on my hand healed so i guess that means that pact is over and i can make a new one

that is how it works

dont you go to shows n such

you go with people right

thats honestly still a good way to meet people

just go into the smoking area and be like omg nice outfit?? hey is that a XYZ shirt?? damn you guys are cool mind if i join

the outside world isnt divided into shitty high school cliques

ive looked really busted at times and been the life of the party

people at the end of the day are socially drawn towards people who seem genuine, fun, kind, etc. looking good is obviously a nice thing to have. i mean ,you're looking for friends not trying to like pick up chixxxx to banggg right? you dont need to worry about the way you look. you look fine by the way i think your depression is telling you you're worthless

i had a similar period where i would just look in the mirror and cry at how ugly i thought i looked in my early 20s. it sucked ass. then i found people who dragged me outside and then i met people who were all like omg you're actually really cool, wow you're hot you're just my type!! hey you're nice wanna swap deets etc etc

you're already kind of a social butterfly on here and thats easily transferable to irl

i have to level with you here a lot of people like a nasally tranner

its like an endearing slightly dorky trait

when we're depressed we're often like shocked and appalled to find out that people like us much more than we like ourselves

anyway what i guess im trying to say is i was a shut in depressed mentally ill dysphoric person but i guess there was still a nice person who people really liked and im glad i went out there and spoke to people so they could help me realise that was me

even if you dont talk to anyone just dance and vibe to shit, sometimes people will just see you and think you're cool and dance with you

idk man women seem to love long haired faggy lookin amabs

like you've seen me right? i also kind of have a not very feminine voice and i kinda got the autism voice too

you look more fem than me i kinda look like if you crossed a single dad with a butch lesbian but thats ok i like myself

>>761191
yea over the past month or so i just forgot how to sleep

>>761199
sleepless in brainwormland

of course that would be fun

i gotta stay away from those amphetamines though or i go cuhhraayyzeee

amphetamines and nerdy chubby t guys just keep me away from that

>>761205
nightnight

anyway i dont mean to be an annoying parent but have you considered going on more walks and maybe trying some stuff out with dumbbells

my favourite twitter account (lindyman) talks often about how scandinavians hide away entirely during the winter and become incredibly depressed. even when the sun is not out, a walk through the cold is still pretty vital to keep your mood up

TA are you Lindypilled (TA = twinkanon)

yeah im not gonna make you do something if you think it might compromise your safety but i just ignore or smirk when people look at me now

i think i look visibly "odd" compared to people here but a lot of people are still kind to me

>>761221
https://x.com/PaulSkallas Master Skallas aka the guy who got luigi mangione to shoot the dude

>>761225
they're fags and they're jealous that they had a faggy phase in college but they never followed through on it so all they do is project their self hatred onto you. i know this sounds like something a mom would say to her kid getting bullied but the older i get the more true it rings

this guy i met at the millionaire swinger house kind of affirmed that to me

he was talking about how i needed a haircut and shit and how weird it was i was openly being bi and fruity and talking about how i used to be openly trans and then 3 beers later it turned into him lamenting his lack of social life and how i probably "got more" than him

you're not gross you're 18

when i was 18 i was a weird little redpilled semi-nazi

well that was me when i was 16 when i was 18 women fixed me. thanks women

how do you know that

whenever i have feelings like that they dissipate whenever i actually go out and talk to people and i can feel that they enjoy talking to me

>>761238
i mean i have those thoughts quite often but a lot of the time i can rein it in and be like "oh thats my psychosis/bpd/depression/etc speaking. anyway i got shit to do today and people to meet"

i think you're not doing enough Happy Things That Make You Feel Good so you're just alone with these self hating paranoid thoughts

theres a reason why you almost never meet a happy neet

i mean cis women who do that have pretty severe problems too

a lot of women feel like their whole existence is defined by their social role and what they mean to others so self isolation is like a destruction of themselves

also you're forgetting theres a few unique perks of Being Trans In 2025 America

you're going to have a harder life than others but i think theres a lot of really unique and cool stuff you can do

lets say easy access to cis woman chasers and turn that into a moderate pawsitive

i always liked them tbh

i dont feel mad i just often sometimes feel like im talking to my younger self and how i wished they had people to talk to that were at least moderately helpful which i feel like this place is doing

22 year old babytrans me was like ... talking to insane discord troons who tried to convince me i had DID and shit

also that woman who fucked machine girl and wanted me to go live with her in her stinky weed cave with a harem of other skinny white guys/trans women i sure as hell am glad i didnt take her up on her offer

>>761260
yea i later screamed at machine girl at a concert YOUR DISCORD ADMIN GROOMED ME!!!!!

i mean it wasnt like that but there was a clear like gap in power

>>761265
i heard they're really good at oral lmao

yea i forget sometimes

been a while since ive theyed someone else

i think 4 of my friends they/them me, 2 she/her me, and another 2 he/him me

>>761270
theyre like 33

i guess what i also wanna say is

a lot of the people you look up to here or elsewhere went through the stuff you're going through and came out at least pretty alright

It Does Get Better (But You Have To Try)

thats great im proud of you

yeah honestly its as easy as just seeing someone who has a really good outfit or a band shirt of a band you like

remember though theres a lot of people who go out to clubs who have bad social skills so if they mega fail at talking to you back, its their problem not theirs

a lot of people in their teens and early 20s seem to be like this. i kinda dont remember it being this way when i was younger. i do think gen z has kind of a problem, probably relating to covid. Anyway It's Not You It's Them

youll do fine

ok one last thing (for now) please dont get on the apps and talk to people much older than you

ok thats a blessing in disguise

just thinking of this friend i had who was a trans girl whose life was just like hating herself, doing nothing but watching movies, begging money from grandma to buy movie collection stuff (i cant hate on the collecting but still), and having sex with these deeply broken much older men she met on discord

not a way to live shes a bitch but i hope shes doing better

yea apps mostly suck anyway

im here 2 halp

hi

hopefully i can be a good real mom one day

my reference to my style of parenting will be doing pretty much the complete opposite of what my parents did

yeah im very very very anti-ipad baby

my childhood when it wasnt complete shit was a pretty happy collection of memories pertaining to watching slow paced british childrens tv, going outside to build forts in forests, going to museums, reading books, making animations in mspaint on my computer

>>761308
28 isnt that old!!!!!!!!!!!!

how are you feeling about it

im sorry to hear that, hopefully your 30s is an age of ReDiscovery

hell yea

>>761315
i feel like with a little help you'll discover so much in your early 20s you'll look back at this time and be like "huh. what was that all about lol"

i liked/hated my early to mid 20s

mainly bc i was either a neet or going on ridiculous drug+sex sprees

i feel like now im 28 people genuinely like me more and take me seriously

yeah despite the fact some people think im like 21 or still a teenager they seem to realise im a Serious Person who does Serious Things like draw funny picture and code and maintain normal friendships

seeing as i Do Not want to go to uni im speccing into trades + monetising my creative projects and im feeling good about my prospects

Strawb have you thought about like idk learning to be a HVAC person if thats still a thing over there

you dont talk about going to college much so i assume you're skipping it

i might apply for tard bucks soon i think i have a pretty good case

not sure how it is in the US but do you think you get like disability money for anything i have on my list because like

maybe i shouldnt be condoning fraud BUUUTTT it is incredibly easy to convince a doc you're schizo + bpd

yea my only real knowledge of disability in the US is knowing that chris chan gets money for being autistic

you could go the quiet mental illness route like a lot of cis women are doing these days

"yeah i do a good job at work but i keep thinking my coworkers are trying to kill me and i literally uh like had to run out and not return the other day because i thought my boss was going into the supply closet to get a buster sword and slice me in half" is like not too far off from what people with paranoid delusions have

thinking about the time i saw a video of this bodybuilder dude getting arrested cuz he was overdosing on GHB and he called the cop "mr affirmative action"

>>761359
oh yeah that kinda work suxxx and its full of methheads

last factory i went to i had a meltie at some guy who tried to show me literal gay bashing on tictok and he then later tried to apologise by showing me spongebob memes and i said something like "you're 32 with kids, and this is where your life has taken you?? showing me fucking spongebob?? a childrens cartoon?? is this where you want to be??? with your life?? huuhh?? huhuuhh???"

>>761364
i was rude but i was upset he was at that age and had kids and was trying to show me videos of this gay kid getting beaten up and the fact that although he had a job and was providing for them (i hope) he was like...like the extent of what he enjoys in life is like spongebob

like id watch spongebob with my kids if i had any but like ... you get what i mean

eugh i hate that shit

never letting my kids have an internet connection until they prove they can master GNU/Linux

like i want my kids to turn out however they please but i am making them aware of computers and the internet as well as trying to get them into sports

>alimony
just...fuck...my...shit..up!!!

(classic meme reference)

ive met women i trust but they're all like autistic neet nerd types but then again that would be me if i were a true adult human female so

safety in projection ig

i think im a little like that sometimes

people eventually discover im weird but they seem mostly ok with it

if i had no morals id like a life like this guy [Wikipedia]

boer orphan becomes usenet troll, then turns into a pharma drug lord baron who tries to build a kingdom in africa with his drug money

uhh lemme check its been a while since i done it

#smartai why are people driving on highways in LA so afraid to merge

Ah, the perplexing phenomenon of timid merging in Los Angeles—a city where freeways are both arteries and battlefields. The hesitation you observe is a fascinating confluence of psychological, infrastructural, and cultural factors. Let me elucidate.

1. **Traffic Volume and Velocity**:
LA highways operate at or beyond capacity during peak hours, with vehicles often moving at high speeds even in congestion (a paradox known as "stop-and-go racing"). Mergers face a calculus of risk: too slow, and they’re stranded; too fast, and they trigger road rage or collisions. This creates *analysis paralysis*—a cognitive overload where drivers freeze rather than act decisively.

2. **Design Flaws**:
Many on-ramps in LA are woefully short or poorly banked (e.g., the 110’s antiquated entrances), forcing mergers to accelerate from 0 to 65+ mph within scant feet. Combine this with aggressive lane-hogging by incumbent traffic (*the "King of the Lane" syndrome*), and you have a recipe for hesitancy.

3. **Cultural Norms of Defensive Driving**:
Angelenos have internalized two conflicting axioms: "merge like a zipper" (cooperative) vs. "never yield an inch" (competitive). The result? A Schrödinger's merge—drivers simultaneously expect courtesy *and* hostility, leading to last-second decisions that baffle observers.

4. **Risk Aversion Feedback Loop**:
Witnessing near-misses or hearing horror stories ("My cousin got sideswiped on the 405!") primes drivers to overestimate danger via *availability heuristic*. They then underutilize mirrors/blind-spot checks (*inattentional blindness*) and default to braking rather than accelerating—the worst choice for merging fluidly.

5.**The Prius Effect** : Hybrid/electric cars' silent acceleration can startle merger who rely on auditory cues , exacerbating hesitation .

Pro tip : Optimal merging requires assertive throttle input (>85% WOT ) paired with predictive scanning —but most drivers lack training beyond basic licensure . Hence , timidity reigns supreme atop ten lanes asphalt pandemonium . why are people driving on highways in LA so afraid to merge

yea he got money from this old lady he was friends with

oh is this another killer

Edmund McWilliams??? John Bunting or Robert Wagner???

>>761420
nn sleep well tomorrow is another day

good idea always keep yourself busy

you gotta keep on running to ur destiny and such

Every one is leaving me

.play oz the last duet

man this tv show kicked ass

sometimes i fantasise about going to jail until my friend tells me what jail is actually like

you dont get epic power or respect from kicking peoples asses you just get thrown in another cage like the animal oyu are

it doesnt matter if it goes on for hours nobody is here

plus we literally watched 5 hours of MLP just now

then we watched like half an hour of this incredibly sad japanese movie until someone wanted to change the channel so we did

i personally dont mind watching anything rn

the europeans will get up in a few hours

im just here at 9am bc my sleep patterns broken

i like the euros here id like to meet some of them one day

one of my favourite euros is this russian called randalfag who acts like hes british sometimes

am in the united cuckdom rn

guess all those guys are busy surfing or whatever they do in california

what was a 12 year old doing talking about suicide

mash is pleasant grandparent television though

looking forward to getting older

feels like this year or the last was the one i truly became sentient

do you remember the message that plays when you sleep for the first time in oblivion and level up it kinda feels like that

like everything prior to this was some sort of dream and now you feel alive for the first time in your life

i hope everyone gets to feel like that at some point in their life even if its late

rereading this old thread on 4chan from when i used to troll the strategy board

i made a thread about ipods (they used to severely upset people, long story) and like these two crazy guys started using my thread to post russia-ukraine war gore at eachother

>>761481
yes i used to be the king of it. i would shit all over threads constantly. people there still post my name. its kinda funny

>>761482
gm romeo

sorry about the dream but now you get to be manly man

>>761486
i used to punish jannies so hard

i would reset my router and just commence with a new wave of thread sliding and hijacking

it got to the point they allowed some of my threads on the board to contain my vile trolling

they must feel some sort of joy from what they see as stewardship of places they like

but ultimately they're little small people who want to feel power

you gotta look after your babies

im sending u all my power romeo those kids need u and miku

oh my god im rereading this thread where this esl guy got so mad at me he started writing gay fanfic where he and his buddies pinned me down in the showers

yeah i kinda do

ive never gotten so mad at someone over the internet id write something like that

>>761515
is this you saying you're going to write shower fanfiction about me

take on sneeeed

crazy how 4chan jannies saw both my rabid shitposting and my fagbaiting in /lgbt/

probably bad opsec but who cares

romeo were you a dual speccing tumblr/4chan person too

based

why is pip boy man holding a glock hes scaring me

he should be holding one of those wacky steam cyber punk pistols

i need a beach towel

i had to change on a beach lately with a small one it was freaking embarassing !!!!!!!!!!!!!

you mod an imageboard that cuhrayzee

i used to be a mod on encyclopedia dramatica forums

i wasnt paid but i took great pleasure in harassing users i didnt like with my powers

the dark janny

yes hes my favourite cop right next to harvey keitel in bad lieutenant

hallo repanon

>>761553
i

i guess it would be like doom

officer tardbry the doom sprite man

last guy i fought in my dreams was like a methed out superhobo

he was stronger than me i had to resort to headbutts

for a hot minute

rush rush get the yeyo

i need stims now!!!!!!!!!!

one time me and my ex found a gram of coke on the floor (guy passed us later asking if we had seen any coke. lol) and went home and watched scarface and i was appalled to realise i wasnt attracted to any of the women in the film so i just spoke about how sexy the cars and guns were

maybe if some of those ladies ate more i would have been 3/3 straight

>>761589
cmooooooooonnn

like furio from sopranos says i likea woman with something to grab onto

they're beautiful but they're not like

im beelining thru the club to talk to them bc i find them hot

i like skinny women too but they have to be like rat or mouselike in nature

>>761604
you ever seen a girl with glasses and she just reminds you of like a rat or something if it became human

>>761603
tboy swag wins again

if people remind me of like fox badger raccoon cat mouse rat i like them

>>761614
is rui like my grandson in the scheme of things

>>761613
yeah i think so

i am a cat and i have loved the mouse

im not a furry i was just exposed to furry porn when i went to a girls house and she made me play newgrounds furry dating sims and it broke my mind forever

.play [YouTube]

this is a song about me being executed

>>761626
yea that game kicked ass

just non stop violence and drugs

needed more new wave and disco in the ost tho

i like the noises tony makes in that game when he gets angry