wrote a couple pages last night

lel

:(

*~*

>>768987
#smooch

okiii have a nice meal !

would get u groceries

woke pronouns

hmmm

I might make a personal landing page

and a like

errr
make that n then make a bear blog so I don't have to format everything in specifically html n css n just do a simpler markdown bwa

I'll find the erm

I made some but I never put them online, I used to make a bunch of pages for self but then never push them bwa
hope ur food is good c:

n need to find if theres a spot I can put them up w/o being public n share easily

perhap
will see abt inviting or linking folder of lil things in the GC or smth
whaslaen up to

>>769026
it really be

>insert me now taking more stims to bwa

more stims better exec function, mildly

(not for everyone)

ahem

exhibit A
cocaine

but
ADHD

most people might seem or feel like they function better when on stims that don't have ADHD but it generally doesn't help, other than for doing longer periods of work

maybe try n

ah yeah

I get XR but I don't take it like XR usually because of that, take the care u need

I also have like

I get Klonopin but I don't take it much anymore so if its really overwhelming I'll use that, though this is like a once a month or less occurrence

but ye be safe when taking them going forward, like
empty out some of the capsule or stuffs n store that so u can have a lighter but still functional amount that isn't going to overstim to being unable to feel comfortable in ur body

it should lessen in a while as XR is 1/2 instant release

petpet

ye

awe

I don't talk about how I do it cus ahem

but it just depends on the like

I recognize how each method of the meds I take feels for me and which is right at a time

pat

hehe

thasgud, even if its still going a bit n come down is a lil tough later, maybe try n cover up n lay down or stuffs while doing things

gah this reminds me of my video I have of when like

during UA stuff when I was on stims n stressed a lot I took a vid of how terrible my tremors got

gah I didn't see

foggy

omg heya

weba

u don't need to disappear urself from here boog

but did u say smth lain u wanted seen or just gah times

oh ye

I was like

in my head I was gonna say maybe exercise but also don't push urself hard on them, though getting energy out is a good thing to do and helps motivation n momentum to moving over to doing other stuff

my relatives had

like

a 4-6 person household of adults w cars for most of them

they got robbed by someone using what seems to be a flipper 0 getting in their garage door then going in and taking their car keys and stealing like 4+ cars silently

they got the cars back after some work they did it seems but

I told my mom who visited them about how yk

the whole flipper 0 break in situation n me wanting to get one when I have the motivation

for other better reasons

>>769092
>>769094
>>769107
read

teehee

but now my dad is paranoid hearing noises in the garage thinking someones breaking in cus of OCD

but the flipper 0 thing is that they've been being used by some thieves n such to scan garage door codes and get in there then see if the door is locked n these people specifically were a gang of people who would steal the cars

weba c:

but they got the cars back bc they ha a Kia and Kia has trackers in their cars (of fking course smh) and so they were able to track where they were hiding them

hehe

if I ever get into driving cars or stuff the old Mazdas n stuff r real cool also

I luv midnight club sm

>>769127
u can still find quite a lot of forgotten gems or cool interesting ones out there locally or listed, but a lot of the most notable or unique ones are y'know

often

I might look for electric bike again later, if I was to go for smth like

depending on where I end up living, if I needed, a moped or stuff would be interesting
or at least some kinda bike that is useful n not just a plain motorcycle, like I've sent one before here to twink

it ended up being a cargo dirt bike or smth but are cool

ou ic

and yeah

if I get one, I think I could get really into moding it or building out like

storage and functional but hopefully nicely styled additions

waow...

>>769151
I'd prefer this to them driving and speeding in cars

tbh

but yeah I don't use short form

do need to hop on Pinterest though also

I should bulk upload n tag stuff on Pinterest of the thousands of nicu pics I've been saving

:3

got my ssd plugged in to see if I hab any nice pages I was making or customizing layouts for

>>769184
oh yeh I haven't listened to them rly since those

:3

>>769199
very very cute

petpetpet

:DD

need

I rly wanna find a way that I'd like to do my hair I just dunno wha

now I'm imagining having a matching or stuff hair style w worms n different color

I just haven't found one I feel particularly yet
but gon look through pins again

I have a spot I look

just been a while

>>769219
appreciate pat
I have a weird set of hair styles I like n just have to see if they'd look oki on me or smth I

either weird emo ish 2010s or 2020 specifically cus lel

qt

petting cow boi

petpetpet

heya nadie

but I'll try n link u a board of pics of ones I might like

one sec I'm lagging to shit I have to turn off video

I'm lagging rly bad one min if I ont respond quick

oh ye !

one min but I came upon smth earlier work wise other than the thing

>>769273
:3333

Twink will sit in my lap n I will give shot

oooo

I hab sum mmos I'd wanna try, preferably w peeps

typing through ar camera passthrough of laptop w 2 fingers bwa (cus drink)

I'll take some pics later or stuff in AR w libpol open n holding shorks in bed or stuffs

ehe

I used to like

I'd be on voice or video call in headset and record video of the passthrough cameras and the displays to document things

long story but its a fun way to record things, like a high fov camera feed of your entire surroundings with the relevant monitors for stuff in view

heya

>>769339
yeah

when things get too dysphoric here I have to go away cus I'll start engaging in it, internally, myself

n those spaces are just self harm

>>769343
#hug

yeh I, like

its something I try not to go into cus err how do I say this

people who engage in saying it aloud regularly and doing that to themselves are just perpetuating the cycle and aren't able to be reached when there's space between or ur not rly close n like
it weighs on everyone, even though I can get the feelings they're facing
if someone is overcome here n there by the thoughts n let it out unhealthily self hating somewhere it can be alright n u can do something but when its their baseline, its something u cant usually impact beyond saying hey I'm here and offering to try and give them steps to take

yeh

I don't talk abt it much but the whole community thing I did for a good few yrs was the dollars groups' support space n I was like the only one their designated to be reached out to to talk about self harm and try to get support for it anonymously (I was young n was wanting to help the space that'd helped me but), it ends up being a lot of people who don't take the first steps and will come back doing the same n end up hurting everyone because of how much it weighs on the community, and how helpless you feel

>>769360
yeh its a whole thing n
you can only do so much but when they only come to engage in that stuff its gah