>>214218
i have no family or friends so what ive built ive pretty much built myself. my parents kicked my out at 16 and are magatards qanon anti vaxxer types :(

its a lot of stuff

my parents basically ruined my school transcripts sending me to a boarding school for drug dealers to be reformed by raking rocks in the desert with security guards wathcing them like holes, then the school didnt release my transcripts so I had to start highschool over twice even though in 7th grade I was taking like gifted kid college level courses. i took high school level biology like 5 times growing up level. then when I dropped out he basically decided i was a bad person and just kept escalating and escalating until he beat me up and threw everything i owned in the garbage and said he would call the cops if saw me around anymore

i told I wanted ot be a girl at like 9 years old and my dad told me "lol we think wierd things when we are kids" and that was that and he told me to stop bringing it up

when I told him again at 16 right before he kicked me out he told me I was "making it up to attack him"

once when I was a kid the teacher reported my parents to ACS because he gave me a spanking so hard I couldnt sit down and I spend the rest of my life being told I was a "traitor" to them as parents and like a communist neighbor I sold them out to the government because I was evil and backstabbing

there was one time he smacked me in dunking donuts for not shutting up and I just yelled at him ITS NOT RIGHT, YOU CANT DO THIS and he literally just smilled at me and said I can do whatever I want to you

and I was like... he really can.

one time when I was 12 I came home and he had thrown out everything i owned. everything, EVERYTHING. in black trashbags. he made me take them to the dumpster and told me he would make me pay if I took anything out of them to keep. then he wrote me a bill for the "work" he did wasting his time throwing out my garbage. I got billed at his freelance rate working in TV so he charged me like 480 dollars lol. ofc I didnt pay it it was just a bit for him.

>>214250
I didnt really come to terms with until mid 20s yea and Ill be honest like... it still kind of fucks me up sometimes even at 30. and idk like he was so toxic it rubbed off on me in some ways looking back on it a lot of my most hated things ive done where bceause he pushed me to do it or I was trying to be like him. I like hero worshipped him even as he hated and despised me.

idk apparently he tried to kill himself a few years ago so its nto like hes happy.

he was in the hospital and almost died last year and I was on hte phone with my mom and she was like, devesstated and I felt bad for her but if my dad died tbh I wouldnt have really cared. the only thing i was mad about was that he wouldnt see that I transitioned and idk why I cared about that but there was a part of me that wanted to be like FUCK YOU SEE. I DID IT. IM ME. FUCK YOU.

my mom keeps calling me and tyring to set up a meeting over lunch or smth and im like 'okay i guess' but they keep cancelling

>>214261
maybe the marines but I will say the vast majority of people I met in the navy were marginilized people grapsing at pretty the ONLY safety net america has left for young people

But I was also in a high IQ role on submarines which is basically like being on a spaceship tbh so everyone was smart and smart selects for not as shitty people tbh. the army was filled with turds when I worked with some of them.

>>214274
ive had multiple people I mentored in the military tell me that just being there helped them and like. personally thanked me for being there for them and it was a big part of getting over my self esteem issues. like... i guess all I want to do is help people and make the world a better place and being told "you helped me, im glad you exist" from people matters a lot to me. i dont have like, friends or family to do that so... i mean im a pathetic loser yea :3

>>214278
Yea for sure.. I think there are lots of good and bad things about the navy. its a good fit for a lot of people. a lot of people who dont know the military think we are like cops or smth which is crazy and a lot of people associate the military with shitty politics which is also crazy.

>>214280
i think you have to be above average intelligence to do the work of researching being trans, being introspective, and then taking hormones and doing the work to tranistion

well, thats a loaded statement. im not here to defend NATO colonialism xD

the world is a complicated place but obviously shit like Iraq and Libya are just pure evil, same as Ukraine

I will say NATO is based tho because they demand u treat lgbts with basic human rights which is BASEDDDDD

>>214287
maybe so, but idk how much I really believe in a detrans crisis. seems very nazi manufactured to me tbh

if by detrans you mean people who change pronouns on twitter for a month or do mones for a week then quit idk if thats really like... detrans. cause they didnt fuck up their body or have any long term consequences or anything. they tried it and it wasnt for them and thats totally safe and fine.

>>214296
even then its usually puberty blockers 10-13 and just mones after that. if you detrans you just get on a assigned sex at birth hjormone regimen

no one is getting like bottom surgery at 16 lol

Maybe one day we will have designer bodies :D

>>214306
they are pretty well researched tbh, theyve been used for like 60 years

>>214307
yea, but tbh its a bigger problem for afabs then amabs

test is the dominant hormone tbh thats kind of how it works. if an afab detransitions after years on test they might be bald and and have lots of test effects that are bad

>>214314
no they arent irreversible. they do have permanent effects. thats why it annoys me when trans activists die on the PUBERTY BLOCKERS ARE SAFE hill when its like. yea they are safe but they do have permanent effects like affecting ur height and bones and stuff. if you go on puberty blockers for too long you will end up taller usually. that said, if we just let kids take actual hormons at 13-14 it would be way superior health outcome wise.

the only reason we use puberty blockers is because cis people freak out about trans kids. it has nothing to do with what the best health outcome is. puberty blockers are the compromise that hurts trans kids to protect cis peopels feelings and now cis people are mad that they have adverse effects.

just let trans kids transition and there wont be a fucking problem. because 2 years on test/estrogen at 14 is something that is compeltely fixable and the 1-5% at worst people who do that can just get on moneys for the asab and live normal healthy lives. healthier than if they were on puberty blockers to 18 or smth.

>>214317
what if you could have transitioned at 13 and been raised as a girl and gone through high school as a girl and got to go to college as a girl and you were a woman now?? :O

>>214331
as a joke. AAP as mfer xD

im gonna shoot nadie with the yaoi hands gun

>>214333
>its harder to detransition because of outside pressure.
I dont believe this. 99% of detransoitiopners ive talked to detransed because there where tons of people in their life screaming at them to do it and were happy they did it. I have talked to A LOT of detransitioners. there are a few who legitimately went "this isnt for me" and they detransed. Ive never talked to anyone who is like "i hate being trans but i feel like im letting people down if I got back to being cis". Never in 15 years of internet posting in lgbt spaces have I talked to someone who felt that way.

>>214340
what help do you need? CIS people are the default who own the world lol. just take hormons in the othe rdirection and let ur DNA take its course

Well, I think people generally dont get emotional support.

do you need emotional support? because I think ur journey is valid, and your choices are your own and I respect ur right to be yourself and figure things out at your own pace.

>>214350
tbh I feel like there is a degree of GD too, some people are able to cope though. like thats ur decision, there are a lot of trans people who act like you are BAD for making that decision or smth...

i would kms tho if I couldnt tranistion

>>214351
THIS IS A NICE BOARD. WE ARE HERE 2 SUPPORT EACH OTHER AND BE FRIENDS.

#ksay shirmp u bitch u r my friend and u will be supported FORCEFULLY wether u like it or not

>>214368
:)

i am going to die alone and unloved but at least there are nice funny people on the computer screen

>>214382
i got 2 replies in a 4chan thread yesterday that i was "assimilationist" for voice training....

>>214386
but glegle is from 4chan

blue glay

>>214394
>>214395
gleglei slove and glegle is life and also sometimes i meet cool people or have interesting discussion after wading through all the mental illness

i got here through 4chan :3

.play damn it jessie

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.play breaking bad damn it jessue

.skip (video skipped)

>>214421
i didnt know

.play breaking bad remix

>>214438
asian????

that boy needs therapy

.play willy wonka gene wilder entrance

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MF DOOM died :(

a man will never treat me like this because i was born wrong T_T

>>214504
im gonna raise him in a necromantic ritual so he can roast u

the dead have returned AND THEY GOT BARS

he gonna ROAST you

gene wilder is a fucking genius i love him so muchhhhhh i grew up watching his movies they mean a lot 2 me

hes a genius actor

idk but the tumble was his idea

he said he wouldnt do the role unless he could that scene

it was all his idea xD

I kinda see it when he was younger yea

undefined... kind of like glegle

futile attempt to define gelgle... they are truly lost

>>214540
good things often do that lol

also based cool with black people during segregation guy tooo its cool when white people arent racist

.play [YouTube]

>>214544
lolll did ur neck change that much?

>>214547
holy based mr rogers

blazing saddles was such an insane movie how tf does it exist

.play [YouTube]

>>214555
fr though

>>214557
im going to cry

im goping to cry cause i read that comment

beautiful....

its very good.

mel brooks was a psychopath in a good way

for film making

anyone want to watch it?

I could stream it on discord..

maybe another time :3

accoutsitc guitar is cool

my fingers arent big enough to play it though I tried

my hands arent big enough to hit the big chords like that

id need a smaller guitar lol

>>214592
>>214591
thats pretty crazy!!!

mine is dusty too hehe

https://voca.ro/14wbmHQabqo1
I don't actually know how to play the cahracter i just like to play with it when I get bored

i just play random notes at 2AM sometimes hehe

>>214608
YOU DID IT

the funny chord

YOU DID IT

there is only one single thing that I was ever taught on the guitar.

once thing\

https://voca.ro/1c82FGGaBXJQ

xD

xD

>>214629
xD

THAT DOESNT SOUND RIGHT AT ALL HEHEHHE

guitar is cool i wish I had a teacher tho tbh id reather learn piano

i browse 4chan because l like watching nazis seethe about how nobody likes them lmaooooooooooo

>i got banned from everywhere now im here

LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO rekt you arent allowed in civilized society because u are an ape

i get bullied for having been in the militaryyy really hard

ive been bullied out of multiple spcaes because of itt

but its part of my story

can i learn 2 play the pixies where is my mind??

leftist purity testing, it is what it is

im a progressive but thats not left enough for a partisan anti american so I dont deserve to breathe the same air ig

im literally worse than elon musk and trump ig

.play [YouTube]

>>214658
>>214657
i cant change it. liberals hate me. commies hate me. all conservatievs hate me. libertarians hate me. i am the worlds most hated political minority.

you are watching what really went down

jesussssss

.play [YouTube]

im sad the minute hour decided to retire

the french jesus lmao

thats why

.play [YouTube]

>>214680
based!!!

if u want too. its not bad for u unless ur dependent on ittt

embrace teh chaosssssssss!!!!

idk xD

u can smoke if u want 2 ur a big boy or girl or whatever

:)

sure hehe

yea!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

>>214701
>>214699
https://voca.ro/1hTDnrKjnB6L

WHIMPER

ur kinks are only bad if they are poop or feet

its star fox and star wolf

thery are RIVALs

>>214724
FEET R GROSS ICKY ICKY ICKY

im kinkshaming :3

>>214736
u did it

i hate that part wish i had a cloyster

foot people >:[

>>214747
i dont judge i just shame

xD

>>214748
that would be so fucking cool

god is so fucked up like there are lots of people who would swap but he was like NO EVERYONE WILL HAVE WIERD BRAINS AND BE STUCK WITH WHAT THEY HAVE IT BUILDS CHARACTER

>>214753
yea but the chronic internet addiction usually comes from a similar place as gender trouble and stuff

>>214758
yea that causes it too hehe

>>214757
im a L O S E R

>>214761
thats very nice of u to say, prove it by becoming a linguist

then one day when im an anthropologist i can get a job in chile for a few months and visit hehe

i dont have the mentality to be a programmer its really good if u are good at teaching urself (which u are cause u taught urself guitar) and u like doing one thing a ton till you are good at it

im an anthropology major at 32 heheh im a wastte of space

.play [YouTube]

pretty cool yea

>>214782
horny wtf

AHAHAHAH

thgats the nweaat part u donttt

>>214782

>>214794
>antigooner
based

>>214800
duality of glegle

peppy hare putting a zin in lmao

i havent smoked weed in like 10 years

i liked it tho

i mean this in a completely platonic way but u have really pretty eyes

hehehe

you have really pretty eyes

i have really beady eyesss

maybe if i get ffs

washed up haaaaaaaaaaag