if gon go bed isoke, but have vid id recommend and can queue here to play if gon be around for a lil on semi-related subject

>>501843
kitty is interested in what saeki has 2 share... she thinks she wants the comfort of the blankies too

can show part or the start of n then let decide if wan end up watching on ur own laters, or such
>>501844
#hug

>>501846
#hug

okey, lemme queue
writing draft for message i have to send to the old friend i mentioned a couple times having msged me n have ability to play smth in bg

oh yea, hasan did actually watch this, which is rly funny
god the ppl in chat making fun of him for thinking he's a (US) libertarian is funni

>>501848
its so damn crazy, beingh forced through something as extreme and radical as male puberty, then online mobs of transphobes keep using words like "natural"

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is mostly being closed off from the idea that we change our bodies and how they function all the time and that tradionalism and what is natural is what is right,
like letting millions die from a disease n such

>>501853
*Purr puurr ppuurrrrrss*

>>501854
I just saeki, it feels like, someone is intentionally TRYING to make male puberty unavoidable, and TRYING to make transition more expensive than it has to be, and it's like they're hoping they can make you too poor t obe able to transition, and also like you know, by paying certain gender conforming straight men lots of money at the same time it feels very deliberate

ye

if they make people have to go through such, they can well

more dead trans people so they dont have to deal with us

>>501860
>>501861
they really been jumping into the anti-gender mindset, and by that i mean in the most transphobic way possible

>>501862
#hug

anti-gender as i nyou know "sex not gender" and umm umm "Sex is super important" and "gender is ideology and bad"

i forget the exact term but theres also the whole thing thats the flip side that focuses on abolishing gender as the construct we see it as, and not allow for this kind of enforcement of the concept of it we have now
in antiquity and otherwise, gender wasnt conceptualized how we do, along with how pink and blue were flipped to be pink for boys and blue for girls 120 yrs ago

>>501863
#hug

even if not interested in his music production stuff, recommend this peeps vids as the analysis he's done of stuff is quite gud,
was a patron of his for maybe a couple yrs and found out he used to be a jazz teacher at the music school my dad works for

he also has a great breakdown of the whole ADHD medication situation, him getting diagnosed in past yr and how manufactured scarcity due to the DEA & pharma corps, we have the need for ppl to call tens of pharmacies to find medication, or pay services 50~ usd a month to call said pharmacies for you, or buy them illegally (he def tooootally doesnt order some adderall off onion site in vid, totally doesnt)

>>501868
o wow thats really interesting

>91% tax on the richest at point in the US' best period bazed

"""best point"""*

>>501872
>>501876
Also saekie I swear cissoid puberty feels like a pipeline... IE parents control you until you are 18 at all times->rightoids against cissexual puberty prevention->most parents are transphobic->most social environments are transphobic->So by default you start out with zero chance for any freedom on day one in a body hit by the wrong puberty..

and yea, it can feel like that but
imo, you can be as free as you allow urself (with the caveat that ppl can control you and be stuck due to family, but) with help of things like the internet and resources online creating the ability, if u reach out to get support/learn, to buy the medications for HRT — from puberty blockers to E, to T even with more effort — and learn how to safely do them while being 'boymode' as a teen or such

>>501879
my parents controlled my money, and monitered everything I did when I lived with them, even into like most of my 20s, so it... it very much felt like a pipeline to me... The well born disability+transphobic parents+not allowed to leave them at 18 pipeline, and now in the "society became more transphobic" part

yeah, im stuck — trapped even in ways, where i am w family & trying to escape again
bc of my dad sticking to controlling my money & not allowing me to get more, i had to go off HRT injections for 1-2 yrs following 2.5~ yrs on them
so is a serious issue but w support structures/systems n peeps, can be relieved largely, even if only able to do smth like access the net, even ver lil

>>501881
>>501882
I know rightoids were also talking about that word... The world "value", like rightoids feel like traditional gender stuff in the cissoid definition, they feel like it's been "devalued", and basically, they think freedom from fascist gendered structures "devalues" what they want, so basically, far rightoids feel like transphobia is "valuable"

and yeah, theres a big idea surrounding how men have more value than women (even if unconscious, its also in liberal types), and this allows them to view a amab transitioning as being losing value,
the structure allows them to enforce stuff like we see in the UK's system, particularly notable up until recently when the whole illegal lesbians stuff fully occurred

>>501884
saeki do you think ost of the stuff about "value" is related to male reproductive capacity being higher in like cisgender people, and that these people are obsessed with contiuing lineage and family name and stuff???

its, in part, due to them believing that men need to be creating children and women having them, and the idea that the bloodline will be lost if the amab transitions and such
its a large mix of social constructs and dynamics, but in the US/+west, its including that

hehe

gang gang

>>501889
me too, this bloodline deserves to die for giving me a body I didn't consent to and treating me so damn badly

monotherapy made me yk
but cus i lost my hrt im able to now again, apparently
other than the bodyhorror, its good that i can confirm and be like yea ofc on the research theyre only finally doing now abt trans women going off hrt being able to have kids, and not being fucked just cus they went on it

>>501888
a lot of bloodline extinction anxiety it's pretty damn crazy and it seems nobody can talk them out of it

its a whole thing, but in my case id much much rather have like chosen family and either end up adopting or such things as caring for kid from abusive situation if i ever felt in the position to care for someone younger
tho i couldnt rly go through caring for a young young kid personally due to variety of guh

>>501893
so good you are back on hrt, going off is awful esp if its pre orchiectomy

>>501897
idk how to put it but it feels so damn weird knowing for so much of my life my parents were manipulating me to "carry on the bloodline" and I had no goddamn clue until male puberty and all that shit, and I feel so lied to and so manipulated

aww

>>501897
i mean the rightoids are even talking about wanting to tax people for not reproducing, and saying not reproducing means you are not invested in the ":nations" future, and when they say"nation" it's a sneaky code word for something else

>>501903
well ye, i think its smth thats not rly as needed to be focused on tho but theres always the offputting weirdo pro-natalist types out there spewing this stuff
tho theres more pressing stuff to be organizing against

might go to an action in 2 ish weeks again

sucks none of it is rly having heavy impact other than through connecting ppl, tho

>>501906
might go to an action in 2ish weeks???

organized (action can mean from protest to direct action going and doing [redacted fedposting not here]) thing locally, we had around 1-2k people in our small farm ish area recently

sexoooo

My cup of tea... can... omg lmao thats so gud >>501914

nicu

have coffee

cus peeps might not have the time for rest of this n i think moar would be interested, here specifically, gon queue other vid from him that i mentioned

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recommend checking out his vid i was playing sometime if can, is the vid that blew up recently w the wall street bull in thumbnail, benn jordan w 2 Ns =w=

-w-

::yaoi drug

proper way ^

crushing

I think a short version of where capitalism and fascism overlap is that basically...

the view that you need coercion to have or increase value

lel be safe -w-

i mean

the end state of capitalism is to fall to fascism, it is the end state because of what capitalism permisses

>>501937
the transphobic elemetn of fascism but even the other aspects of fascism in it, are operating under a sytem that, you can't reac hhigh value without coercion

i mean, fascism requires an out group to target and scapegoat, trans ppl and queer ppl just happen to fit that due to yk

>>501940
kitty welcome you mobile role

hai rose :3

aw ;-;

whaswrong sweet

>>501939
it sseems like outgroups are people fascism treats with coercive valuein order to maintain its well it's values it's fascist values

oh god

if u can watch this rn pls watch this part of the vid

>>501949
, ;;;;

thas rough

;-;;;;;;

these stats are so ugh

have fun generalizing xo

cant rly tell w it being an anon on here

and no real yk

>>501960
treats now violence later, sounds a lot like the society obsessed with making sure we can't be aborted as fetuses but once we're born we're good as dead, especially once we reach the age of escaping our parents sphere of control

>blegh in being trans disabled mentally ill person

>>501970
A massive part of fascism is white natalism disguised as "natalism", their whole anxiety of their lineage ending, the non-white majority of the planet being seen as a competitive threat to their lineage, and disabled and trans people as a useless obstacle/burdern in their white christian natalist race war against everone else

>>501972
it can be, but its not inherent
in nazi germany they were doing things like providing like

its more being pro sex to increase the amt of ppl having sex, they had abortion care and such stuffs at points, for the white people tho ofc

>>501974
>>501973
i find it ominous and depressing how germany had a brief period of being super liberal just before going full fascist

and also mainly trying to push it on the non whites

well it was cus of the reaction, and they take the opportunity

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>>501979
there is a video about fash innuendo??? sounds informative

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>>501983
listening to this in bed with my headphones on

hehe

his art is also cute w lil guys, i designed sum similar 4 my vids

Is gestapoa prounoucned with an s sound near the end or a sh sound?? Is it called like pronounced geshtapo???

yes i believe

this is from pre 2020 btw bwa

his vids discuissions were kinda vindicated

can gib support through or help getting past/figuring out finding meds if was to want or need bwa

mom is trying to get meds somewhat now, waiting for the report to get sent to her primary care dr today

yea ;-;

>>501994
#hug

would let take the extra doses i dont end up taking n gib comfort bwa no deth

<33
ye am glad to see again :>

>insert the joe rogan clip of matt walsh thinking theres million of kids being 'trans'd' on puberty blockers in the use

>"they"

and aw ;<

thats

ugh

i experienced a bit of both but yea idk its seemed odd but i dont mind either n come for the specific peeps mainly
tho being less new peeps who are a gud bit different has changed

>>502014
#hug

<3
i understand, is a lot of weird stuff that changed over time on the chat sites i used over the course of approaching a decade

but came here n was an anon for a lil while prior to the stuffs w 4ch then became a named peep closer to the shutdown, but hadnt been on 4ch for a while

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>>502022
nmmmm

hemmm

im enby but. . .

wud cherish

but

hm

yea

>>502031
#hug

>>502036
#kiss

mhm, hmmm

i think theres like, i could try n gib ideas more so srs at some point but
putting info in bio on smth like dating app to meet specifically, yk, could help

though it depends what u feel abt doing that

yeah

finding local groups or going to meetups like i imagine some of the protests there rn could help meet peeps, maybe

is gud way to meet ppl who are cooler than the more normal queer meetups imo

yeah

wruff ;<

but sry chu didnt even get to kis peep ;-; thats like

ughhh

wan gib care n affection when peeps needed

finishing drafting a message to send to the friend i used to talk to near daily 6 months ago and just got back into contact with, via spacehey
gon try and see if they and peeps i knew in that chatroom can add me on the new discy

oh god guhhhh

i messaged the old friend

i sent them my discord info too....

awww ;_;

>7 month old video

real

awww

i wish i had anything near me again ;-;

squimsh

woo, i hope u can unwind

-v-

finished off the coffee i has here

had

would gib coffee when i make it

gosh i somehow got my keyboard autorepeat messed up, scroll lock is off like

ughhh

tes

>>502125
#hug

smth up? :<

but sry its being ugh :'c

well ye i mean

addressing them >-> not bottling thoughts

deconstructing

well, it can be a bit tough at first but when at my worst its been a major help & step towards improving your base thoughts internally to being smth more

but it depends, can be not so long n just a good habit to keep for when in tough times

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also, generally, journalling and stream of consciousness writing them/feels helps a lot often times and do fully recommend even small(er) amts of that to help, main thing that likely improved mine, at points

bwaaaa

wan help dry off

going our in rain w sweets sounds so cozy rn

haiii

yus

ooo

yayyyy

thasgud

>jumping the turnstyles w qts

^^

ur early on so w him i dont think u should have 2 put through a lot if it rly made uncomfy

mb think or sit on it for day or howevs long

ughhh

yea ;-;

sigh, i-

but yes, do wh u need to be comfy n outta there if its getting like ugh in that way

last guy i dated was
i was at my worst phase of CPTSD triggers and he after being unable to be sexual, personally, cus of that and E killing sex drive, started getting super physical while trying to sleep n just

awful

do whachu need to be w someone ur comfy w, and this early on having that (not like saying is like my thing or stuffs) could become smth more ugh down the line
n figuring out what u both are comfortable w, if not

mhmhm
aww

i hope its nice c:
n take care u need in meantime, hope train ride is comfy n lets u get time to dry off a lil, or can in a while once out of it

yeah

d'awww

>"american mcgees a bozo"

:'3

- w -

aw the ignoring part is just hmph :c

>>502216
#hug

deserve all the care n

giving n getting rose orlando attention

waow the real rose orlando waow

woo

, ;o
might shower b4 the dentist later, have had hair up n would/will be too smooth, pre oily, if i dont

(pre being oily not pretty.. i mean)

awa