「poops」
!shroomyssg
!shroomyssg
start...
ive been putting it off/procrastinating cus of stress
are u the one who's just restarting or is that someone else
.skip (video skipped)
yus
i got order after long time cus of dad blocking me from being able to get it
omg congrats
ye, n glad chu got ur new one too bwa
>>547405
yay!!
just strssy cus i forgot what the dose was i started on originally when i was taking cypionate and i have to convert it to when i need to take, now that its valerate, and see if i should be errr
>>547408
i didn't get one i have to order it. thats what i was sayin
>>547410
what kind is it
ramping up a dose for monotherapy or just starting at the rec'd dose for it generally
i love this song i wish it was in pjsk ;_;
aw
>>547413
assuming u dont have like antiandrogens the average dose is like 4mg per 5 days
who is ochacu san
>>547401
why not go to the pharmacy and get some new ones and just get all of it in a nice neat location so u don’t lose em in the future? and then you’ll be able to get that done too
did u ever get blood tests?
>>547418
yeah i was looking at the uh i forget if theyre called trans researcher or scientist comparison tool n the hrt wiki
libpol project zomboid server when
i just couldnt remember if i had to ramp it up last time but E is quite safe so its probably fine either way
yeah i mean the only risk is low levels
and
i had blood tests last time i was on it from err well
i had a like
doc that was an hour to three away who was whadduhecc is it called
hey whatev u dont have to disclose if u dont want
!!UTCPvC12Ac
kinda wanna play some guilty gear....
endocrinologist but didnt prescribe me anything n just gave me blood tests, it was kinda like uhhh
idk abt wherever you are but around here you can get a nurse to get a blood test requisition
.play echo crusherp
if only i could just get prescribed by u -w-
and yeah i can get blood tests p easily, generally
>>547436
that’s good.
have had a uh
lot
do u know how important blood tests are? friend doesn’t get them n diys
well ye
ive been in the medical system for 7-8 yrs
it can be helpful to get them but its not smth everyone can do or yk
>>547435
lol >_<
>>547440
i dont think any doc is going to recommend not getting them, but its good to know what your levels are. especially if you want to check t levels and make sure those are low
>>547440
it's pretty safe, but you might get levels wrong, and if ur levels are wrong you will experience menopause symptoms which is fucking HORRIBLE let me tell u (last week my levels were too low and it was like a VERY bad week)
DIY is quite safe if u have a source thats got public test results regularly n so on
and yeah
are menopause when w hrt you go too low
right
lacking or having too little of either hormone, like having neither would suck and is not great w mental
anyways you can just do the usual dose of valerate for now and research in the meantime because you're gonna need a few injections to reach a steady state level anyways
what what does menopause feel like
hot flashes and unconfident and shitty I think
had to go through hard stopping taking E after 2.5~ yrs
not fun
and yeah
>>547455
mostly like being on your period again but in reverse
just gotta remember the time frame change
>>547455
cant speak from the cisf perspective but like it was just depression for me. like everything sucked and i was sad and irritable and everything felt pointless and i liked nothing
instead of being irritable you are depressed
yeah
>>547464
sbahj!!
dealing w the errr
rebound of hormones and suddenly not being on E probably induced similar for me, i was dead for like months
>>547462
what were your e/t levels if you dont mind me asking
>>547469
i dont know
>>547470
my theory is that i injected in a vein last time i injected because as soon as i injected this week all my symptoms went away
O-O
oh yeah that was yday
yea!
carefulll
>>547478
it's not dangerous it just wastes the e
im so burned out from photography
yeah
im listening to rachmaninoff one sec
especialy photography youtube and 'street photography'
>>547480
#hug
yeah i had to stop watching all that cus it killed most of
interest idk
i had a VRC avatar that i used that played this song n had a big animation
>>547454
this sounds like a good idea saeki. Is there a place w needles nearby?
>>547489
you can always just get like a makeshift sharps container from like whatever
i have a needle/syringe wrapped somewhere i believe that was the kind i liked for subq but i gotta find it
i put them in a plastic thing usually
insulin syringes were MADE for subq estrogen injections its so nice
i mean that are more easy for me to articulate bwa
and used to
i probably have insulin ones somewhere but id rather get a new pack if i go for thoughs
chat what if ‘high T’ men are actually happy and confident because the testosterone is being aromiticized into estrogen
.play flawless wings of yatagarasu
i dont think most “high t” men are happy
>>547499
i dont believe it works like this but there is a condition that converts it, and possible gene therapies that can convert it
romeo are you a high t alpha
>>547501
it’s supposed to correlate w focus and not being anxious
>>547495
<3 a major drug store round here has these at every location and they're the perfect size
>>547504
totally bro
all drug stores will have insulin needles
i like 29-30 ga 1/2 in ones
>>547509
what about joy
>>547508
ya but these are nice cuz they're tiny and so i like that they dont hurt
>>547505
i mean your body needs some amount of T, but like being a trans woman it just made me feel like shit
>>547509
youre good
>>547512
::pat
i also kinda dont enjoy the sensation of insulin needles n like the bigger ones feel tbh
>>547512
Quite SLACKING OFF back to WORK
hi twinknon!!
>>547517
twinkanon i could do my whole job in like 2 days (one if i just focused lol) i wanna farm hours here
probably stockholm syndrome
what a good borzoi
h
>>547517
::strawgirl
>>547518
hi
>>547519
Based
oh man
so when i got my wisdom teeth out
#ksay h
they gave me general anesthesia but also benzos
twinknon you missed my storytime
aych
I was sailing
injected
weba
and
i woke up rly quickly after and right after having them removed
they thought i was gonna fall over but apparently i was like
WHHY im gnona die i just renamed like 1000 files today to a date format and then they changed which date format they use why why whyw hy they switched from - to space
the first person one nurse had seen be able to walk fine so immediately after
idk if is bc of my tolerance to benzos/having been prescribed them or is because of my hereditary tolerance to anesthesia, or both
>>547502
I don’t think so either maybe at natty levels, but that IS why lifters get breasts- too much test turns into estrogen
>>547543
can't you make a program to do it all for you, if they're all in ur standardised format?
>>547547
you would THINK but actually `ls -R` doesn't work
new sabaton just dropped
>>547543
lmao because lawyers hate computers and being organized
>>547548
python would help here
i use it all the time for silly little filesystem things
#smartai what does the R switch on the unix command ls output
The "R" in the output of the `ls -l` command (Unix/Linux file listing) refers to **read permission** for a specific category of users. Here's a detailed breakdown:
### Understanding File Permissions in `ls -l`
When you run `ls -l`, each line represents a file or directory with its permissions displayed as a 10-character string, like:
`-rwxr-xr--`
This breaks down as follows:
1. The **first character** indicates the file type (`-` for regular files, `d` for directories).
2. The next **9 characters** represent permissions in three sets of three:
* First triplet (**owner/user**) → e.g., `rwx`
* Second triplet (**group**) → e.g., `r-x`
* Third triplet (**others**) → e.g., `r--`
Each set consists of:
* **r (Read)** – Permission to read/open the file (or list contents if it’s a directory).
* **w (Write)** – Permission to modify/delete the file (or create/delete files within a directory).
* **x (Execute)** – Permission to execute as a program/traverse into the directory.
### Example Interpretation
For permissions like `-rw-r-----`:
- Owner has read+write (`rw-`) but not execute.
- Group has only read (`r--`). Others have no access (`---`).
### Special Cases
While discussing "R," note that uppercase letters sometimes appear due to special flags:
* A capital **S** or **T**: SetUID/setGID/sticky bit.
* A capital **R** is unusual—standard Unix permissions only use lowercase letters unless extended attributes are involved.
If you see an actual uppercase "R," clarify context—it may stem from non-standard tools or aliases overriding default behavior.
Would you like further elaboration on ACLs/extended attributes? what does the R switch on the unix command ls output
>>547551
python would not help because it is windows and i think everything on windows sucks
>>547546
i mean i think theres a lot more to that in most cases and is usually cus of performance enhancing droogs but also is smth that can happen, tho i mean i know of peeps w conditions that cause their T levels to be way too high and doesnt rly cause this always yk
>>547553
python is also on non-windows...... i thotught......
just like how C can run on any platform but good luck setting up mingw
its probably smth that can happen and i forget the specific forms of the hormone that get converted
>>547552
recursive
it means i would have to manually navigate to each directory and run the program in each
>>547507
#smooch
which is what i've been doing with the old format
can you substitute ls with the find command?
>>547559
some scripting lang that's higher level than bash would rly save ur shit here
i've only used bash a little bit but it's so fucking finnicky compared to any high level lang
>>547563
no
work smarter not harder!!!!!!
u want the full deets?
>>547543
that’s crazy can u automate it???
>>547559
surely powershell isn't that shitty
maybe get help from deepseek to put it together
>>547568
a little im interested
.play sabaton templars
(it sucks ass)
okay so im connected to a gay ass (derogatory) could storage system. whenever u list a directory it appends a null terminator to it. so any recursive search fails because if ur path is like /a/b it tries to go to /a<null>/b which doesn't exist and is an invalid path. so i'd have to manually implement recursive list. and if i did this i'd be risking losing data because i don't trust my own implementation enough, and if i lose data i'm in DEEP shit
>>547573
hehe
>>547573
most of sabaton does inherently suck due to it being power metal
>>547570
powershell can in fact be a little stinker
>>547576
i wouldnt even call it metal lmfao
but my boyfriend loves them so i have to endure it
hai sad
>>547588
saeki make a video game chart
topsters 3
>>547574
ok yeah that sounds like a shitty edge case lol
perhaps u could create a test directory inside the cloud storage that doesn't matter if it gets rmrf'd... for testing around...
this sounds like an annoying one to solve if the cloud cunt doesn't even let u go to mf subdirectories
like what the fuck
>>547574
is the “ls -R” failing or only when you use its output. couldnt you just remove the nullchar?
>>547597
opened img to look through in a fews
and will try n make one bwawa oh wait
>>547573
why must you do this
ur in the
smol me u n rose discy right
i can send it there in case ur off of here when i have
>>547598
the ls -R is failing
yea i ADHD wander off a lot I dont have two monitors
i should get a second monitor tbh
i hab 4 displays but my crt cable is being a pain
>>547604
thats so gross, whats the os?
id give u one of my displays
>>547600
for my boyfriend i would listen to a thousand sabaton songs. a thousand sabaton albums god damn it
I hvae 3 more HDMI ports
i have a bunch of tvs
aw
i hab errr
>>547609
windows, but it's the network drive that's causing problems, not the os. my script works fine on native windows directories.
3 more or 4 more monitor outputs
>>547597
>transistor
Strange call
>>547618
i LOVE that game, is it really?
I think its like...a PERFECT game
>>547619
It's my least favorite supergiant game
its SO COOL
amazing music
amazing art
cool mechanic
and it encourages you to use all the different abilities all the time to unlock the story of the side cahracters
>>547574
if this has been done before there must be a known solution right? a way to access it without it doing that??
awwww
>>547606
2 monitors is a game changer tbqhfhwy
cuteee
>>547622
Have you played Pyre? I loved Pyr
>>547623
i don't think it's been done before
i should get an old mac at some point fr
>>547629
I played it a bit but I thought Pure was REALLY badly balanced in its story telling. it wanted me to play it 50 times to get all the scenes and the gameplay just wasnt engaging enough for me to do that but the world and setting where awesome. imo Hades mogs Pyre pretty hard.
>>547616
that sucks, yeah idk python seems easiest
i have a 2016 macbook air
nicu
>>547633
no because python would like have to use the API to access the network drive right
i have a lot of different era laptops but no macs :c
and i dont wanna deal with the api
it used to be my mom's but she works at my school and they mandated upgrades for the staff laptops so i got this one :p
>>547638
the curse of apis
i hope u find a solution that is not manual cause honestly that does not sound worth doing manually if ur bosses are gonna swap around their requirements a dozen times a month
>>547630
crazy stuff
nicu
>>547632
I dislike Hades
>>547638
best wishes w getting it to be automateable if ur doing this for that bwawa
>>547643
thats a crazy take :O but ur opinion is ur opinion xD idk how you can dislike it its so well crafted
i sometimes think abt getting some kind of data entry work so i can automate it and do it easily
>>547645
>ur opinion is ur opinion
im cancelling you for saying something so controversial
>>547584
i wonder if he would like husar by karpatia that’s a banger
>>547636
maybe im just dumb but cant you just read the attached network folder like a normal folder?
>>547646
>data entry
my dad works in data entry trust me it sucks LMFAO
>>547647
well everyone is entitled to their opinion and it is valid even if I disagree with it
::meowza
>>547646
this works until someone finds out what you've done and puts you to work
1. automating it for everyone else
2. giving you more non-automatable work
but it's peak if u can sneak into it and hide hehe
>>547652
yeah ik
some of the info from the overemployed ppl is/has been useful tho
>>547651
i was making a joke about the tautology being ur crazy take
>>547647
That's just like... your opinion
and yeah ik
the uh
whole issue is making sure you dont get realized, as they will exploit you to do even more and more until youre burnt at both ends
any gamers here what games can wormies playy
i would have played on hte minecraft server but tbhh i didnt want to recover my password and isntall mods and do all that....... so lazy....
>>547660
i dont play video games because i hate fun and also joy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
aw
>>547662
#hug
::hug
>>547659
exactly what happened to my dad :C
>>547659
#that
>>547648
i will check it out and maybe show it to him
>>547660
Rimworld
>>547666
rip to ur dad...
>>547669
i love rimworld such a good game
>>547662
Lichess is a video game
>>547652
my dad did this and they moved him to the IT department and now he's a senior dev 20 years later
>>547624
hi :)
>>547673
no IT credentials, he was an english major
>>547675
>working IT in 2005
Literally the dream
>>547668
:) have fun u2
>>547677
real but she needs to change her headphone fit it is not right for her head
>>547666
::hug
>>547677
I want to do this
but trying to find some kind of work other than the 5~ things i do thatre like
>>547672
it's actually a roleplay app
repairing n reselling electronics/systems n my writing/research work n just having stable income a lil
>>547675
damn that’s cool he did all that
>>547686
It's actually our ERP chat
>>547689
yup
oh shit you want to play stupid chess variations?
:V
again?
hehe
>>547691
right now? no
>>547696
Not now, you are at work!
But later
i've become addicted to solitaire
ever since the mental hospital
I'm addicted to solitaire
literally the most entertaining thing we could do was play solitaire and make fun of each other for being bad at it
>>547702
oooo!!!!
ill try n make one i
>>547702
I like Doorkickers
dont like uh
when i make lists, theyre all generally on the same level n i dont rly rate them above one another
When I make lists, it is based purey off of objective taste
"objective"
It's just ss13, rimworld, and factorio
>>547702
project zomboid mentioned
>>547649
no clue maybe
>>547702
rain world!!!
>>547715
who let they sims make a human centipede </3
it's the post apocalypse u can do hat u want
i think in a post apocalypse situation we should all be nicer to one another
>>547718
::yuri teto
trying to think up the
i have so many games i love love but they always leave my mind when im trying to remember all of them
>>547726
omg can you be the teto to my miku
>>547724
i agree wholeheartedly
screams and cries
>>547721
so true
>>547730
faggot
>>547731
this is probably why i wont survive the apocalypse im too kind
chess twinknon?
chess at the clam tonite?
yknow its weird that i dont play video games because i do like them. i just sorta never actually feel like it.
aw
im usually too depressed or working myself to my edge of stress
No we play REAL CHESS
videogames suck and they have never been fun videogames are not art
>>547749
its not even this like it could be a free week for me and im feeling alright, but when this happens i usually just do something else
lack of motivation to do
>>547744
Yeah I get that, too busy building my network, hustling, creating a passive income, and acquiring knowledge
oh ye ty
>>547755
literally
>>547755
wake up early. invest. have a 10 year plan.
my daily routine:
wake up at 3AM
sleep until 10AM
sleep until 3PM
wake up at 7PM
read one word
sleep until 3AM
Wake up at 5 am, shit in the bed at 5:03 am, make my mom clean it up at 5:05 am, have her make me chicken nuggies at 5:08 am, grind it out at 6 am, get a fat victory royale at 6:30 am, build another bookshelf at 7 am, workout session at 7:30 am. Jelqing session from 7:45 am to 8 pm, sleep.
i might make a general media list
daily routine:
>eat
>sleep
>gaming
>repeat
>>547769
*add yuri kissing
ggs
>>547762
#edit replace "workout" with "makeout"
>>547770
::yuri teto kiss
#throw
>>547774
::yuri nose
>>547761
Your daily routine should be me
us
i need a daily routine. i like to be alone for a little while every day which is why i've been sleeping late because my mom always comes downstairs at like 11:30 and i cant fully relax until like 2am
>>547755
yes!!!
>>547776
::teto neru yuri
#throw
>>547779
That's why I smoke, it's nice to chill out outside
FUCK wrong post
>>547779
yeah same ;-;
i like i
awww
same
and i need stability n someone i feel comfy rooming/living w
>>547759
don’t sleep. collectivize. have a 5 year plan
>>547785
I am never sleep deprived
i dont sleep because sleep is the cousin of death
>>547785
wish this was me but unfortunately i am a post-pubescent grown ass man
see the ppl who are like "sleeping is kinda like dying" are really just making dying sound more appealing to be honest because i like sleeping
>>547794
no bulli self ur precious
hmph ;-;
>>547779
real
>>547797
::hug
>>547795
live hard, leave a pretty corpse in a fluffy blanket
>>547795
what u really like is waking up probably tho or going to bed
i might have to add games im deep into but cant play cus of being
>>547803
no i do NOT like waking up
but that’s when u remember sleeping
waking up is fuckin stressful
>>547805
what if you woke up to me feeling you up and kissing your neck?
not yet translated, long story
>>547795
i used to say something among the lines of "i like sleeping" when being asked what kind of thing i like most.. mostly cause everything else was just... too much?
the disturbing part? i was like 9 or 8 when i said that
need that kinda waking up..
man now i just wish i was a girl
>>547811
it actually used to piss off a girl that I was with because I would literally always wake her up that way
>>547810
yeah. i get this
>>547812
you are ;_; but i get that sigh
wan give care n make u hmph
>>547815
#hug
>>547808
still kinda depends. i dont like waking up when i have to do something.
>>547817
::hug sad
Just zerked it with my bedroom door open its so over.
>>547810
real. has it changed?
>>547814
i liek u tea, u can make it
>>547818
You don't have to do anything, just let me take carre of you and massage you with my hands while you are all sleepy still!
>>547820
the hallway ghosts know
>>547822
thanks fujo c:
>>547824
They are haunting me.
the hallway ghosts WANT you
>>547820
I do this regularly (I live alone)
>>547828
horny hallway ghosts >:( bad
>>547829
I live with family.
>>547831
Based, assert dominance
i think waking up sucks for me because i stay up as late as possible to escape like doing stuff so that means when i wake up the stuff i have to do is imminent
>>547821
idk nowadays i struggle to answer that question tbh, i'd probably answer generic shit so i don't have to get into a conversation
It was only cracked open . So I think I'm fine.
>>547827
if ur zorkin it with the door open i can see why they'd want u anon
>>547813
that’s s